evile | Dec. 14th, 2004

Dec. 14th, 2004

Dec. 14, 2004

http://www.livejournal.com/users/kaleon/
[13 Dec 2004|04:57pm]
mood | amused ]
[ music | Type O Negative ]

Western philosophy and religion sometimes saddens me. I am so tired
of hearing "true happiness can only be found within oneself." I mean,
scientifically that's a pile of horseshit, and historically it's a
pile of horseshit. Look at western society, look how miserable it is.
One reasonf or this, in my opinion and that of many non-western
philosophies is because we are too selfish and egocentric as a
society. Nothing personifies that more than the egocentric
narcisistic self-centered comment that "true" happiness must come
from within. Humans are social creatures, and they *can not* be happy
alone, they whither and become suicidally depressed if isolated for
very long, ask any psychologist. Happiness is a social experience and
is almost completely relational. What angers me more is that people
who put forward this tripe try to use eastern philosophy as reasoning
for it. These people do not understand the first thing about eastern
beliefs. There is no concept of 'I' in many eastern cultures (ancient
China being a very good example, which is where Taoism comes from and
where buddhism matured). You are defined by the relationships you
have, you are someone's son, someone's sister, someone's friend,
not "bob" the individual. Contentment can only be found within, that
is true, but contentment and happiness are not the same thing.
Happiness is something we feel only in relation to sensory
perception. By the reasoning of these idiots you should be able to be
happy locked in a completely dark room with no outside contact....
which is the perfect fucking place for most of these people I think.

As a society who fully believes in this concept the West has
basically thrown their elderly out to fend for themselves, has taken
children away from their parents, have denied inalienable rights to
have the world and forced their religion down everyone's throats.
This is happiness???? Look at China and Japan, not the government but
the people. They live in large families and take care of each
other... children are *expected* to move their parents in with them
at some point and take care of them. If your neighbor gets sick you
*go over and help out*... I mean what a fucking concept!

I will be the first one to state loudly that I will never find 'true
happiness' within myself, because it can't be found there!! I will
find true happiness in my family, my friends, my lovers, my animals,
and my world. Anyone who refuses to believe that fundamental human
truth can go jump off a cliff (which they will be happy to do since
they are happy inside). All of you people out there can continue
masterbating, talking to yourself, and reassuring yourself that you
were justified in screwing up everyone around you all you want...
I'll be over here snuggling up by a warm fire with a
lover/friend/relative, laughing my ass off at you as you slowly lose
every friend and loved one you have.... unless they are just as
selfish as you... and then can you honestly say they are any of the
above? Remember that love, friendship and fraternity are about
sacrificing things you each may want so that the other person is
happy and vice versa.

Enough ranting, western selfishness just makes me laugh and
understand why there has never been a truly successfull empire in the
entire european/american sphere of influence.

Dec. 14, 2004

evile [12:02]: Hi. ICQ is being funky today.
SkyeDS [12:02]: hey
SkyeDS [12:02]: you don't have any experience ridding yourself of
unwanted dreams do you?
evile [12:02]: as in a recurring one?
SkyeDS [12:03]: not necessarily one dream recurring in every detail,
but many dreams with a recurring theme
SkyeDS [12:03]: in this case, someone who is following me around
everywhere with the express intent of hurting me, but using different
tactics each time
evile [12:04]: Hm. I'ts probably something in RL that you need to
deal with, but if you can manage to do lucid dreaming and change the
dream, sometimes that helps with the RL situation too
SkyeDS [12:04]: the last time I had dreams about someone in RL like
this, they were warnings
SkyeDS [12:05]: and I always find out through other sources that said
person is provably up to no good
SkyeDS [12:05]: yes
SkyeDS [12:05]: and in this case, he can't hurt me
SkyeDS [12:05]: I intend to go on as I have stated I would, positively
SkyeDS [12:06]: but I want the damn dreams to go away
SkyeDS [12:06]: I don't need to be warned that he's out to hurt me, I
know that. And he has no power to hurt me because I won't give it to
him.
SkyeDS [12:06]: So the warning dreams serve no purpose, and i want
them to go away.
evile [12:06]: perhaps your mind needs a more direct confrontation,
either a letter you write directly to the person and then choose not
to send, or an actual conversation with the person in some sort
of 'safe' venue
SkyeDS [12:07]: you are psychic :)
SkyeDS [12:07]: I was writing myself a letter in my LJ just now
SkyeDS [12:08]: I did a reading for myself this morning. It is very
reassuring.
evile [12:08]: If it's Kaleon, he's apparently leaving Austin soon.
SkyeDS [12:08]: so he says.
SkyeDS [12:08]: he says a lot and does very little
SkyeDS [12:09]: it isn't t hat I don't appreciate whatever early
warning system seems to be in operation when someone is trying to
hurt me
evile [12:09]: I was under the impression he'd given notice at work
SkyeDS [12:09]: but in this case, he can't, I won't let him, and I
don't really need to wake up with headaches every morning because of
nightly reminders that he wants to hurt me.
evile [12:09]: *nod*
SkyeDS [12:09]: given notice? they're eliminating his shift, and he
likely didn't get asked/didn't ask to move to days
SkyeDS [12:12]: yep
SkyeDS [12:13]: remember I said, there are going to be individuals
who read my long post, and think it's All About Them
evile [12:13]: *nod*
SkyeDS [12:13]: well, he took it personally
SkyeDS [12:13]: and it wasn't just about him
evile [12:13]: oh, feh.
evile [12:13]: did he send you email about it, or what?
SkyeDS [12:13]: it was about him, AND Bridget, AND Kilsharion & Co,
AND my little brother, AND everyone else who hates/dislikes me for
reasons surpassing my understanding
SkyeDS [12:13]: first I got the recurring nightmares
SkyeDS [12:14]: the cards said what the dreams said, that someone is
out to hurt me in an underhanded dirty fashion
SkyeDS [12:14]: then I check his logs, and sure enough, he's aiming
at me again.
evile [12:15]: 'check his logs'??
SkyeDS [12:15]: before the dreams, I hadn't read anything of his for
MONTHS
SkyeDS [12:15]: his LJ
evile [12:15]: Oh. I hadn't looked at it lately, either.
SkyeDS [12:15]: it's simple enough not to read his LJ anymore because
I've got all the verification of who's up to what that I need
SkyeDS [12:16]: so now, I just need the nightmares to stop
SkyeDS [12:16]: because, I don't want to know, I don't care, he can't
hurt me, I don't need the warning.
evile [12:17]: yeah, that sucks.
SkyeDS [12:17]: last time someone invaded my dreams, I did a
particularly powerful ritual (not my power I assure you)
SkyeDS [12:18]: and then I let person know in no uncertain terms that
if he continued there would be global thermonuclear warfare from me
and he wouldn't like it
SkyeDS [12:18]: he decided to stop
evile [12:18]: *nod* god helps those who help themselves & all that.
SkyeDS [12:18]: of course, within 24 hours of my declaration he had
his vacation canceled, his fiancee kicked him out, and he was charged
with murder.
SkyeDS [12:18]: he was convinced I brought all that about.
evile [12:19]: wow...when Karma decides to clean house, it does so!
SkyeDS [12:19]: I can't remember whether he was convicted or not, but
I think he was.
evile [12:20]: yuck
SkyeDS [12:20]: anyway, I'm not going to make any such announcements
anymore
SkyeDS [12:20]: I"m not even stooping to his level.
SkyeDS [12:20]: I'm going to put my affirmations in writing, because
they seem more powerful after I write them down
evile [12:20]: *nod*
SkyeDS [12:20]: and I"m going to keep looking at them, and I"m going
to have positive energy and none other
SkyeDS [12:21]: and if he wants to take that as an attack on him,
fine, but he's on ignore
SkyeDS [12:21]: no matter how many warning nightmares I get and how
many headaches I wake up with
SkyeDS [12:21]: so they might as well just stop, now.
SkyeDS [12:22]: so tempting to title a post, don't go away mad, just
go away, please. but I won't.
evile [12:23]: heh. good for you.
SkyeDS [12:24]: wouldn't you think it was weird, after you have so
successfully put X out of your existence, if she started raiding
your dreams every night?
evile [12:24]: *nod*
SkyeDS [12:25]: maybe it's just a test
SkyeDS [12:28]: dammit, I had lyrics in my head from like four songs
last night and now I can only remember two.
SkyeDS [12:29]: I am getting senile, as well as fat, in my old age
<sigh>
evile [12:30]: Most of my dreams have soundtracks & I don't usually
remember anything after I wake up...I haven't done any lucid dreaming
in a long time.
SkyeDS [12:35]: I wish I could lucid dream
SkyeDS [12:35]: I have control over what I'm doing
SkyeDS [12:35]: but I have no control over the outcome, no matter
what I choose to do.
evile [12:36]: *nod*
evile [12:38]: I guess maybe you just don't have as much closure as
you'd like...which I kind of felt with X as well, but the thing
with the cops pretty much forced closure.
SkyeDS [12:39]: when they got busted? or did something else happen?
evile [12:40]: when they got busted, and then all of her various self-
serving emails after that that kind of made me go "wow, there's
nothing to save here"
SkyeDS [12:42]: I think I'm being tested.
SkyeDS [12:42]: since it was obviously just too easy for me to ignore
him
evile [12:43]: so he's being offensive in hopes that you will pay
attention to him?
SkyeDS [12:43]: he obviously can't do this on his own.
SkyeDS [12:43]: some power that be is helping him
SkyeDS [12:43]: no doubt to teach me a lesson with adversity and all
that jazz.
SkyeDS [12:44]: well, nothing breeds success like the very first
success, so bring it on I say :)
evile [12:44]: *nod* good luck :)
SkyeDS [12:44]: I remember in the movie Stigmata that it is said that
those who are closest to God receive the worst torment from Satan.
SkyeDS [12:45]: of course, he could hurt me by doing something to
hurt the horses (he hasn't got a shot at Arthur)
evile [12:45]: he doesn't have a car, though, right?
SkyeDS [12:45]: but I think he knows that sineater and sonar0m will hunt
him down, torture him and give him a slow painful death if anything
happens to t he girls.
evile [12:46]: *nod* me too. I dont' care how crappy a person may be,
their pets are innocent and nobody should take out their anger on an
animal.
evile [12:47]: (not saying your'e crappy, btw..that came out wrong)
SkyeDS [12:47]: I understood your intent :)
SkyeDS [12:47]: and I am/have been crappy
SkyeDS [12:47]: I'm working on that.
evile [12:47]: Hell, I wouldn't kick W's dog, it can't help the
behavior of its master.
evile [12:48]: And I did offer to help find homes for X's pets
after the cop raid...
evile [12:49]: also offered to help the children, in the only way I
felt would be 'safe' for all concerned, because despite the behavior
they're being taught, they're still innocent.
SkyeDS [12:49]: how sad, to be unhappy and to react to unhappiness by
looking at people around you who are happy, take that as a personal
attack upon yourself, and feel the need to attack them back, trying
to drag them down to be miserable with you.
SkyeDS [12:51]: Cicero was one of Rome's greatest lawyers, and used
ad hominem to great effect. Coming from most people, though, ad homs
are an admission of defeat.
evile [12:52]: I mean, heck, the Jews have made a practice of
gethering together to debate scripture and interpretation, and htey
consider it as a matter of faith & community to do so.
SkyeDS [12:53]: I don't see why a personal statement of what I
believe should be seen as an attack on anybody else.
evile [12:53]: And you can certianly disagree with someone
respectfullly, without insulting them.
evile [12:53]: *nod* exactly
SkyeDS [12:53]: it's like when I would say "Hi!" to my MIL, and she'd
respond with a very suspicious "what did you mean by that?!"
evile [12:53]: she's nuts.
SkyeDS [12:53]: she's doing better.
SkyeDS [12:54]: something else I"d like to say that I won't is, look,
you say you have a girlfriend now, she has four cats, and everything
else you've always said you wanted. Now, why can't you just go away,
if you're so happy?
evile [12:54]: *nod*
SkyeDS [12:55]: I'm happy for you, now go be happy for yourself. If
not, then just go play in traffic, thank you, have a nice day, please
drive thru.

Dec. 14, 2004

--- onyxlynxx:

Hmmm...interesting indeed. Selfish actually
describes her better than anything else.

Speaking of crazy narcissists, When I called M to
relay a message from a coworker who did not want to
call him herself (I can't imagine why), he mentioned
that you hadn't commented on his journal. So he is
in a gray place where nothing matters but he is
going to obsess about LJ? What an idiot....

I am glad you liked my house. It was good having
you there.

k
--------
me:

*shrug* I said what I have to say. Michael seemed to indicate that he
wasn't interested in what I had to say and my opinion had no bearing
on his particular situation...so what else should I say at that
point?

He is an interesting person but I have absolutely zero ego or emotion
vested in his wellbeing. He hurts you and Nikiyoy and other people I DO
care about, and that's what bugs me.

I've had to ignore quite a bit of stuff in kaleon's LJ, because if it
was true I'd be doing time for murder 1 right about now... But, yeah,
I think he called it, selfishness, and maybe A's whole initial post
was to try and get him to see how much better off she is without him,
or something. I guess I'll never know.

Dec. 14, 2004

ah, family. They make you cry, and then ...they make you cry again
for a whole new reason.

Dec. 14, 2004

skye_ds (skye_ds) wrote,
@ 2004-12-14 11:37:00

Current mood: happy
Current music: Simply Irresistable/Mysterious Ways/December/No More
Tears

Daily Affirmation:
My Present Situation: I need time to regroup. Although others may try
to drag me down into a situation that is problematic, I will resolve
it by taking some time out. I have removed and will continue to
remove myself from the negative people and their negative situations,
meditate, and find my center. By recharging my spiritual strength, I
will bring my best efforts to solve my own problems. I'm already
feeling much better now -- actually, I'm feeling pretty damned good
right now :).

Positive Forces/Assets in My Favor. Replenishment and Faith. I know
that the cycles of nature are true and natural and that after a hard
time, a better time will follow. I know that my heart will be
refreshed and my faith will be renewed. And when it comes, I give
myself over to it, immerse myself in the cool waters of faith and the
constant light of the Star. I make a point of doing this every day
now, and it works, abundantly! :)

Past Events/Influences Coloring/Giving Rise to Current Situation: I
am surrounded by those who give me happiness. I must strive to
acknowledge and appreciate them. Take time to celebrate with others
the simple joys of being alive. This is no easy task. When I sit
down to list my blessings, the "people" part of the list is already
so long and continues to get longer! But I'm working on it, starting
at home and working outward!

Message from My "Higher Self."/Aspirations: So many of my passions
are moving me ahead very quickly. I am very excited about everything
I'm facing! I am feeling no fear, although I am certainly feeling a
heady adrenaline rush. I'm ready for grand adventures, Bring It On! I
don't even wait for them to come to me, I'm having fun going out and
finding them. So many grand adventures, and so little time!

Subconscious, Dreams, Emotional Undercurrent: Be aware of jumping
into something I'm not ready for. If I haven't laid the ground work,
I'll probably be surprised by unexpected events or expenses.

My Relationships with Others. Be aware of inappropriate motivations.
Compete with an eye to improving myself and society, not to hurt or
destroy someone else. Play by the rules. Have confidence in myself.
I'm still working on this, but I can already feel myself improving,
and the benefits of that improvement!

My Attitude: I have the gift of thought. I'm going to use it rightly,
to see the world clearly, to communicate well, and create a happy,
healthy reality. This has been working great so far, and it's
getting easier with practice :)

Unseen Forces in My Environment. Be aware of negative people taking
Hermit energy to the extreme. Negative people enjoy good fortune
alone or hoard it. Negative people indulge in a pompous sense of self-
satisfaction. I will not do these things; I will share what I have
with graciousness. Two wrongs don't make a right.

Hopes: I have worked hard and well. I have created a life filled
with physical pleasures and beauty, through my skills and careful
budgeting of resources. I take great pride in your practicality.
People around me enjoy the fruits of my labor. And although this
gives me pleasure, I get just as much satisfaction from the results
of my endeavors. Life is Good, and Getting Better All the Time!

Outcome: I am waiting for an outcome. I will not have to wait long.
Events set in motion are moving speedily to their inexorable
conclusion. Hey, a raise would be good!

Yes, I'm easily amused and easily pleased :) Every time I try to
count my blessings, I find that there are too many to write them all
down in one place. Every night, Happiness is coming home to:

a thoughtfully prepared dinner (steak, potatoes with all the
trimmins, and almond toffee chocolate, for example)
completely thorough body massage
having my hair washed and being bathed
watching movies snuggled up tightly between my two beloved sweeties
(what's not to like about a sexy man on either side?) and Arthur (a
loveseat really isn't meant for three people LOL).
These are songs I heard on the long drive home last night that stuck
in my head because of their appropriateness :). Makes me want to
have a talented pair of hands do my hair and my make up, don the
black brocade corset, the black lace blouse, black suede miniskirt or
tight riding breeches, the stiletto heeled knee high Victorian boots
and go out :)

"Simply Irresistable," Robert Palmer ~
How can it be permissible
She compromised my principle, yeah yeah
That kind of love is mythical
She's anything but typical
She's a craze you'd endorse, she's a powerful force
You're obliged to conform when there's no other course
She used to look good to me, but now I find her

Simply irresistible
Simply irresistible

Her loving is so powerful, huh
It's simply unavoidable
The trend is irreversible
The woman is invincible

She's a natural law, and she leaves me in awe
She deserves the applause, I surrender because
She used to look good to me, but now I find her

Simply irresistible
Simply irresistible

(Simply irresistible) She's so fine, there's no tellin' where the
money went
(Simply irresistible) She's all mine, there's no other way to go

She's unavoidable, I'm backed against the wall
She gives me feelings like I never felt before
I'm breaking promises, she's breaking every law
She used to look good to me, but now I find her

Simply irresistible
She's so fine, there's no tellin' where the money went
(Simply irresistible) She's all mine, there's no other way to go

Her methods are inscrutable
The proof is irrefutable, Ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh
She's so completely kissable, huh
Our lives are indivisible

She's a craze you'd endorse, she's a powerful force
You're obliged to conform when there's no other course
She used to look good to me, but now I find her

Simply irresistible
Simply irresistible

She's so fine, there's no tellin' where the money went
(Simply irresistible) She's all mine, there's no other way to go
She's so fine, there's no tellin' where the money went
(Simply irresistible) She's all mine, there's no other way to go

Simply irresistible

"Mysterious Ways," U2 ~
Johnny take a walk with your sister the moon
Let her pale light in to fill up your room
You've been living underground
Eating from a can
You've been running away
From what you don't understand...
Love

She's slippy
You're sliding down
She'll be there when you hit the ground

It's alright, it's alright, it's alright
She moves in mysterious ways
It's alright, it's alright, it's alright
She moves in mysterious ways

Johnny take a dive with your sister in the rain
Let her talk about the things you can't explain
To touch is to heal
To hurt is to steal
If you want to kiss the sky
Better learn how to kneel

(on your knees boy)

She's the wave
She turns the tide
She sees the man inside the child

It's alright, it's alright, it's alright
She moves in mysterious ways
It's alright, it's alright, it's alright
She moves in mysterious ways
It's alright, it's alright, it's alright
Lift my days, light up my nights

One day you will look...back
And you'll see...where
You were held...how
By this love...while
You could stand...there
You could move on this moment
Follow this feeling

It's alright, it's alright, it's alright
She moves in mysterious ways
It's alright, it's alright, it's alright
She moves in mysterious ways
It's alright, it's alright, it's alright

We move through miracle days
Spirit moves in mysterious ways
She moves with it
She moves with it
Lift my days, light up my nights

"December," Collective Soul ~
Why drink the water
from my hand?
Contagious as you think I am
Just tilt my sun towards
your domain.
Your cup runneth over again.

Don't scream about
Don't think aloud
Turn your head now baby
Just spit me out
Don't worry about
Don't speak of doubt
Turn your head now baby
Just spit me out

Why follow me to higher ground?
Lost as you swear I am.
Don't throw away your basic needs,
Ambiance and vanity.

December promise you gave unto me
December whispers of treachery
December clouds are now covering me
December songs no longer I sing

"No More Tears," Ozzy Osbourne ~
The light in the window is a crack in the sky
A stairway to darkness in the blink of an eye
A levee of tears to learn she'll never be coming back
The man in the dark will bring another attack

Your momma told you that you're not supposed to talk to strangers
Look in the mirror tell me do you think your life's in danger here, ya

No more tears

Another day passes as the night closes in
The red light goes on to say it's time to begin

I see the man around the corner waiting, does he see me?
I close my eyes and wait to hear the sound of someone screaming here

No more tears

So now that it's over can't we just say goodbye?
I'd like to move on and make the most of the night
Maybe a kiss before I leave you this way
Your lips are so cold I don't know what else to say

I never wanted it to end this way my love my darling
Believe me when I say to you in love I think I'm falling here

No more tears

Dec. 14, 2004

evile [12:56]: I just looked...it did seem like he was doing better
there foro a minute, going to the party with his friend, and all
that, and then WHAM!....that's just. Well, sad.
SkyeDS [12:57]: he probably has no clue just how publicly pitiful
he's being
SkyeDS [12:57]: like the emperor who was the only one not to realize
that he was wearing no clothes.
evile [12:57]: well, you could always try and assume he's talking
about someone else, not you.
SkyeDS [12:58]: right.
evile [12:59]: the 4 agreements--dont' take things personally, and
don't assume....
evile [12:59]: If he doesn't have the testicles to get closure with
you instead of taking random potshots, he's not worth any of your
energy.
SkyeDS [12:59]: I"m not taking it personally
SkyeDS [12:59]: it isn't my fault
SkyeDS [12:59]: I"m going to continue with my positive writings to
myself every day
evile [13:00]: *nod*
SkyeDS [13:00]: and if he continues to take them as attacks upon
himself, well, he's going to be even more miserable shortly
SkyeDS [13:00]: if he thinks that nightmares and headaches are going
to stop me from being happy he's got another think comin
evile [13:00]: yup
evile [13:04]: I am listening to internet radio--hits of 20 years
ago. 1984. Boy, do I feel *OLD*! I started my first paper journal in
1984, so I've been keeping a diary for 20 years! AAA.
SkyeDS [13:05]: "I believe if I refuse to grow old, I can stay young
till I die" :P
evile [13:06]: I'm doing better than many of my conteporaries. Sweetie &
I ran into a couple of people I knew from the bookstop days
and...wow. I'm lookin GOOD.
SkyeDS [13:07]: I've never seen you not look good.
evile [13:07]: aww. You're so sweet :)
SkyeDS [13:07]: but I know it's all a matter of subjective
perspective.
SkyeDS [13:07]: you know I don't say things for the sake of being
sweet. (although I ought to)
evile [13:08]: being fat, I can do stuff about. being old, not so
much. But the sunscreen daily has helped. The woman of the couple is
2 yrs younger than me and had crows feet like you wouldn't believe.
SkyeDS [13:08]: I would like very much to retain a good figure as
well as you have.
evile [13:08]: that's genetics, I think. big gals with hourglass
figures on both sides.
SkyeDS [13:10]: I need to put more work into it.
evile [13:10]: metoo.
evile [13:11]: I'm kind of disappointed that Monday Tennis got co-
opted into Monday Crafts. I love seeing my friends, but I'd like to
get some exercise, too.
SkyeDS [13:11]: Kelly is going to give me a minitramp for Xmas :)
SkyeDS [13:12]: maybe a 20 - 30 minute walk could be incorporated
into the beginning of craft night
evile [13:12]: there's a thought. Meg and Terri are both mobility
impaired, though, so they wouldn't be able to walk.
SkyeDS [13:14]: suppose craft night had two start times. one for
those who want to walk, and one for everyone else afterward.
evile [13:14]: hm. I'll run it past folks. We are kind of decided
that whoever hosts is the one who gets to make the rules.
SkyeDS [13:15]: all ya can do is make the suggestion, if they like it
good, if they don't, no b ig :)
evile [13:15]: yup
SkyeDS [13:15]: it doesn't even have to involve anyone else
evile [13:15]: Yeah. I need to get better about being my own workout
buddy
SkyeDS [13:15]: I would figure out who I'd like to walk with, find
out if they'll be there, and ask, hey, wanna show up early and go
for a walk?
evile [13:16]: that's a good idea :)
SkyeDS [13:28]: my reading this morning was great. I'm probably
going to come back to it many times.
SkyeDS [13:28]: I wonder if I'm not going to end up with too many
Memory entries
evile [13:28]: I'm glad.
evile [13:29]: I think I have a bunch of memories....but I've got
them somewhat organized, so I can still find stuff
SkyeDS [13:29]: if my closet bugs peeps they can just stay out of
it :)
evile [13:30]: *nod*
evile [13:36]: well, bless his pointy little head, Thax turned me
down.
SkyeDS [13:36]: I remembered all my songs :)
SkyeDS [13:36]: turned you down?
evile [13:36]: oh, cool.
evile [13:37]: He had posted that he was looking for some xmas $, and
I asked him what his hourly rate was to teach me how to make maille.
evile [13:37]: turns out he does not charge to teach.
SkyeDS [13:37]: I had a whole list of projects I was going to pay for
his help with
SkyeDS [13:37]: so he'll teach you but he won't accept $
SkyeDS [13:37]: ?
SkyeDS [13:38]: he was wearing very pretty maille Sun
evile [13:38]: *shrug* And knowing he needs $, I would not want to
take time from him (that he could be using to make things for paying
customers) without reimbursing him in some way.
evile [13:39]: I guess if we are ever at the same craft nite, I will
take him up on it, but I won't feel great about it.
SkyeDS [13:39]: you could pay him to make you a piece and ask him to
let you watch
SkyeDS [13:39]: if you learn vicariously that is
evile [13:39]: I've watched him and Robbie and Goofy make maille, and
I don't know how to do it yet...so I don't think that will work.
SkyeDS [13:40]: if he won't take $ maybe he'll accept other
necessities.
evile [13:40]: I could just give him the materials and picture and
say 'here, make this'...but I'd rather create one more 'win' by
adding some knowledge to my own brain, AND paying him, AND getting
the necklace I want.
SkyeDS [13:40]: see if he'll barter.
SkyeDS [13:40]: if he won't barter, give him a "Christmas present".
evile [13:40]: But if he's going to be a stubborn ass, I'm not going
to throw money at him...gods know what kind of gossip THAT would
cause.
SkyeDS [13:41]: (no, I don't break rules, I just...bend them a
little....ok, a lot)
evile [13:42]: I don't want him to feel like a charity case, or to
feel like I'm trying to buy something unsavory from him.
SkyeDS [13:42]: ya'll have been friends long enough to give them
something for Xmas.
evile [13:43]: *shrug* who knows. I assumed Jose knew me, or at least
knew ABOUT me, well enough not to freak when I sent him grocery $.
SkyeDS [13:43]: it is said, nothing is received but something be
given.
SkyeDS [13:43]: Thax said himself that Jose was pointyheaded about
that
SkyeDS [13:43]: if he wants to give you the gift of instruction, why
can't you give him an Xmas gift because you want to
evile [13:44]: point.
evile [13:47]: I am sending them a card.
SkyeDS [13:49]: I want to go out. I haven't Been Out in a long while
SkyeDS [13:49]: like, the whole 9 yards out.
SkyeDS [13:50]: hair, makeup, clothes, the whole thing
evile [13:50]: *nod*
SkyeDS [13:52]: I get diarrhea of the fingers with my LJ, LOL
evile [13:53]: *nod* online journaling has done that to me too.
SkyeDS [13:55]: if someone came to me and said, I want you to be
happy/wish for you happiness" seems to me, I'd say thank you.
evile [13:55]: yup.
SkyeDS [13:59]: makes me happy when I get rich text and lj cut to
work right
evile [13:59]: heh.
SkyeDS [13:59]: it's kind of funny
SkyeDS [14:00]: I like it when sineater or sonar0m scrubs my head as hard
as they can
SkyeDS [14:00]: but it hurt the last time I let a stylist do it, felt
like she was butchering my head
SkyeDS [14:00]: and I doubt she's stronger than the boys
evile [14:00]: hm. wierd.
SkyeDS [14:00]: ya
SkyeDS [14:00]: but having someone wash your hair has to be one of
the Finer Things in life, no?
evile [14:01]: Some people are into that.
evile [14:01]: My hair is as short as it is because I don't like
messing with it, and I don't like other people messing with it either.
SkyeDS [14:02]: is to me, but then so is having my hair brushed and
played with
evile [14:02]: *nod*
SkyeDS [14:02]: how bout someone giving you a bath?
evile [14:02]: *shrug* bath time is me-time.
evile [14:02]: light my candles, bring me a book, glass of wine and a
towel, and then leave me alone.
SkyeDS [14:03]: nods. thankfully the boys don't take it personally
when I don't want to share bath, but curl up on the bath pillow and
read or sleep by myself
evile [14:03]: *nod*
SkyeDS [14:03]: now, should I fall asleep with a book that sineater lent
me, without putting it safely away first....lol
evile [14:04]: heh.
evile [14:34]: I have 10 days to go, and I suddenly got an insane
urge to pack for Vegas
SkyeDS [14:34]: I love traveling and moving. I hate packing and
unpacking.
evile [14:35]: I don't mind packing/unpacking for short trips, I
don't like packing/unpacking for moving.
SkyeDS [15:10]: chocolate. chocolate is a blessing.
evile [15:12]: heh. tell that to my unruly peppermint bark recipe
SkyeDS [15:14]: I probably shouldn't go near it, I would just make it
worse :P
evile [15:14]: It looks fine until one attempts to break it into bite
size peices
SkyeDS [15:14]: balpeen hammers are our friends :D
evile [15:15]: maybe.
SkyeDS [15:20]: I could get used to saying nice things to people
every day. kinda cool.
evile [15:20]: *nod*
SkyeDS [15:21]: Today I told sineater and sonar0m both that I love them
and thanked them for being in my life. And I told Hugh that it makes
me happy to see him every day
evile [15:21]: I did that at work for a while, found one nice thing
to say to someone every day. It seemed helpful. I haven't been
dragged away by the Inquisition in a while.
SkyeDS [15:22]: easier for me, I really do like Hugh, and he's just
one person
evile [15:22]: I had to go with things like "That's a really great
necklace," since I couldn't think of any personal qualities I admired.
SkyeDS [15:22]: thing is, I really do have so many people I love/love
me, I could not sit down and write every single person a
love/appreciation note in one sitting if I tried.
evile [15:23]: *nod*
SkyeDS [15:23]: lol nodnod. "lovely colors" (too bad they're all in
the same place at the same time)
evile [15:23]: heh.
SkyeDS [15:27]: hm.
SkyeDS [15:27]: my Address Book is in my OUtlook at home
SkyeDS [15:27]: I cannot send ecards from home because my damn dialup
is so slow and I have so many to send to
SkyeDS [15:28]: so, what I need to do is find someway to get all
those addresses up here, and do ecards from here :)
evile [15:28]: *nod* yahoo mail isn't so bad..but then if you send
stuff from there that's one more place you have to check regularly.
SkyeDS [15:30]: I've never used yahoo mail (although I have many
yahoo ids). I do find having a hotmail acct in addition to isp useful
evile [15:32]: the address book is useful. No way to cut and paste
addresses from my freaks.net to yahoo, but other than that it's fine.
SkyeDS [15:39]: I asked Thax if he would in addition to new garb be
willing to do the mending I am too lazy to do because I hate it.
SkyeDS [15:39]: it's like changing the oil. I could do it, would
rather pay someone else.
evile [15:39]: *nod* yup. I totally get that.
SkyeDS [15:39]: I have several old beloved pieces that he said he'd
mend for me :)
evile [15:40]: At one of Sharjinka's craft nights a while back, I just
took everything that needed mending, and did it all in one fell
swoop. Having company was helpful.
SkyeDS [15:42]: first thing I'm going to do is give him a pile of
mending, that shouldn't be too expensive.
SkyeDS [15:42]: then I'm going to take stock of all the raw materials
I've got
evile [15:43]: *nod*
SkyeDS [15:43]: I also have specialized pieces I want to have made
for the boys
evile [15:43]: cool.
SkyeDS [15:43]: I know he can make anything he sees on this one
website
SkyeDS [15:43]: so I'm going to go to him with some other websites
(the ME ones) and see if he can do that too
SkyeDS [15:43]: if not I"ll buy patterns
SkyeDS [15:43]: why not for example, could he not make me a perfectly
nice salwar kameez
SkyeDS [15:43]: instead of buying one on ebay
evile [15:44]: cool.
SkyeDS [15:44]: at some point he'll have to measure me that's
depressing :|
evile [15:44]: *shrug* the only way to get a good fit...
evile [16:00]: well, time for me to hit the bricks. I have a Tina
appointment after work today :)
SkyeDS [16:00]: wind to your wings :)
evile [16:00]: *hugs*
SkyeDS [16:00]: hugs