Dec. 15th, 2004

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    Dec. 15, 2004

     

    Taurus:

    Have you heard of the book, Toxic Sludge Is Good for You!: Lies, Damn
    Lies and the Public Relations Industry? How about George Orwell's
    science fiction novel, 1984, in which the government trumpets the
    slogan, "War is peace, freedom is slavery, ignorance is strength"? If
    I could, I'd give you these books as holiday gifts, Taurus. I'd also
    present you with an altar made of fine wood. With these foundation
    materials, I'd ask you to begin building a Truth Shrine in your home.
    This source of power might help you stay alert for and immune to the
    elevated levels of BS you'll be called on to fend off in 2005. Maybe
    it would also inspire you to be in service to us all as you earn the
    title of "Radical Truth-Teller."


    Gemini:
    As I meditated about what would be the perfect holiday gift for you,
    I kept coming back to the fantasy of a thousand doughnuts. Nothing
    pleased me more than the mental image of your living room floor
    covered with boxes of Bavarian cream, chocolate frosted, jelly-
    filled, glazed, and apple crumb doughnuts. Here's the astrological
    explanation for my intuition: I think fate plans to blow your mind
    with sweet extravagance in 2005. Receiving a thousand doughnuts would
    be a metaphorical rehearsal.

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    Dec. 15, 2004

     

     

    1) Mom & stepdad coming the 27th, me out of town from 24th to late on
    the 26th, lots to do, not enough time to do it.
    a) filthy house
    b) filthy unkempt yard
    c) groceries for them for the week (didn't realize until aunt L 
    mentioned it that they planned on spending whole time at my house)
    d) key for them to come and go while I'm at work

    2) roninjedi's bizarre suicide talk on LJ, my comment in onyxlynxxs LJ
    that I considered it emotional blackmail, and his half a page post
    about how my opinion doesn't matter to him. Then him telling onyxlynxx 
    I 'hate' him and seeming to be distressed that I didn't reply again
    to his LJ entry.

    3) Brother A & Rubber_pig. They plan to name the child something so complex
    that Brother A can't even spell it, and then call it Sayida. (or however
    you'd spell that) Lynn & Bob got to see "mom's" room at Brother A, Rubber_pig &
    Trey's. It is currently filled with black trash bags full of clothes
    & whatnot. Half the living room is blocked off by a bed where Rubber_pig
    stays when she's feeling sick. And they have a serious insect problem.
    I had "Labyrinth" in the VCR the other night as I was puttering in
    the house. At the end where she's tucking Toby in after having won
    him back from Jareth, I cried. That was my Brother A, once...and I didn't
    win him back from the Goblins. :(

    4) aunt L wanting to bribe them to name the kid after her mom/our grandmother

    5) disorganized closet, can't find winter clothes.

    6) Need to buy some new work pants, and can't find any to buy.

    Um...I guess that's about it. Seemed like more when I started writing.

2720me & A

Dec. 15th, 2004 04:36 pm
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    Dec. 15, 2004

     

    evile: howdy :)
    SkyeDS: Hey :)
    evile: I had phone duty, but I slept in, so I'm leavig at 3:30 today.
    SkyeDS: early is always good
    evile: yeah.
    evile: The Trooper ran out of water and overheated last night, so I
    don't know if I am goign to get to go to polydinner tonight :(
    SkyeDS: Cady says that men are difficult and exotic creatures
    SkyeDS: I think, so are vehicles
    evile: Which is why I leased for 4 yrs and then turned it in--no
    problems that you get with older cars
    SkyeDS: I tried to lease a hybrid, that was stupid of me as i came to
    find out
    evile: oh?
    SkyeDS: you can't even buy used hybrids, much less lease them
    evile: because they're new.
    SkyeDS: the waiting list to buy them is so time sensitive that if
    you've been on a list 6 months, they call you, and you take longer
    than 2 hours to get there, they bump you
    evile: wow.
    SkyeDS: but I have since figured out that a Honda Insight is a better
    deal than a Toyota Prius
    evile: cool.
    evile: L&B got to see "mom's" room at Brother A, Rubber_pig & Trey's.
    evile: It is currently filled with black trash bags full of clothes &
    whatnot.
    SkyeDS: she actually gets a whole room to herself?
    evile: a room full of stuff.
    evile: I suppose they might invite her to sleep with Trey.
    evile: Half the living room is blocked off by a bed where Rubber_pig
    stays when she's feeling sick. And they have a serious insect problem.
    evile: to the point whree Brother A cooks outside.
    SkyeDS: :|
    evile: Not good. Very unhealthful environment, for anyone, let alone
    a baby.
    SkyeDS: I hope K knows what she's doing.
    evile: Rubber_pig also ruined L (the middle one's) birthday by being
    sick and not letting anyone do anything that had been planned for the
    child.
    SkyeDS: :(
    SkyeDS: that's just wrong.
    evile: It's kind of like, OK, YOU can't go to your mom's for the
    kids' party, but why can't Brother A or Trey take the kid to grandmas for
    her OWN party?
    evile: And then whoever stays behind can take care of Rubber_pig...so
    Rubber_pig wouldn't even be out a caregiver by letting her child have her
    damn birthday.
    evile: But, no, that would mean that someone besides Rubber_pig would be
    getting attention, and that just can't happen in the Pigaverse
    SkyeDS: sineater and sonar0m would hover over me when I'm sick all the
    time if I let them
    evile: But BUT, not to the exclusion of taking care of Jess, Mirage,
    or Arthur.
    evile: She wasn't feeling well, that couldn't be helped, and I do not
    begrudge her the need to stay in bed to feel better, but telling her
    mother, her husband, and my brother that L's birthday would not be
    celebrated becasue SHE, Rubber_pig, could not go to the party...that just
    seems very cruel to me.
    SkyeDS: I hate that kind of stuff where kids are concerned :(
    evile: me too.
    evile: L&B basically just dropped off the present and left.
    SkyeDS: ya know, they could have brought the kids and the party to
    Austin and we could have met them there with the horses.
    SkyeDS: probably didn't even occur to them.
    evile: They couldn't go anywhere, because Rubber_pig was sick.
    SkyeDS: that kind of planning would have had to have happened during
    the planning (before sickness)
    evile: Rubber_pig's mom lives in Blanco & apparently there is travel &
    outdoor property & whatnot involved
    evile: But, honestly, even if the party had been planned around the
    apartment complex playground, it would not have happened, because
    Rubber_pig was sick.
    SkyeDS: Rubber_pig wants Brother A to work for CPS
    SkyeDS: I don't think it gets more ironic/droll than that.
    evile: WEll, that way she'd never get called in, I guess.
    evile: when/where did you hear that?
    SkyeDS: TG
    evile: Last I heard she wanted him to be a policeman.
    SkyeDS: that's out. CPS is in.
    evile: oh, ok. What.ever.
    evile: I don't guess they know that CPS requires more than a GED ...
    SkyeDS: well if they have any follow thru at all reckon they'll find
    that out
    evile: *nod*
    evile: They've had a habit of getting irritated when people tell them
    about Reality. "how dare you tell me that gravity applies to me,
    too!" and treating the person as if it were THEIR fault that gravity
    is a law nobody can break...
    evile: So basically, the people who see them most often are reduced
    to nodding and smiling at any crazy scheme they dream up, or risk
    being cut off
    evile: Brother A has always kind of been like that, in that he really has
    never grasped that gravity does apply to him, but not the cutting off
    & vengefulness that Rubber_pig has brought to the scene.
    evile: She really brings out and encourages a lot of his less-lovely
    personality traits....it's sad.
    SkyeDS: helplessness.
    evile: Considering that Aunt L will probably get suckered into lots of
    financial support, no matter who ends up with the kid, she may as
    well buy the name...
    evile: Our family has at least 2 generations of naming your first
    girl with the middle name of your sister, which Brother A hasn't mentioned
    doing.
    evile: And none of the names they proposed for girl or boy were any
    of Brother A's family's names. It's rather offensive, really.
    evile: You'll take our brother/son/nephew/cousin and you'll allow him
    to become one of your harem, you'll accpt his semen and genetic
    material, but none of his family's names are good enough for the
    result thereof?
    SkyeDS: nods
    evile: And, if it's like Yummy's father, a 'sperm donor' type
    situation, then she shouldn't be abusing his affectionate nature, she
    should just be honest and treat it as a business arrangement, get
    what she wants from him,and turn him loose.
    SkyeDS: she'd never have him if she had.
    evile: No, because Brother A has to believe he's in love to want to make a
    baby....
    evile: Oh well...I can't be stressing about shit I have no control
    over. I am hoping that Kali or Morrigan will step in and eat Rubber_pig's
    fetus...
    evile: Maybe Rubber_pig, too, while they're at it.
    SkyeDS: don't hold your breath.
    evile: nope. I'm just going to turn it over to the Divine and try to
    live my own life and not worry about it.
    evile: between roninjedi's suicide threats (I'm upset by NIkiyoy & Onyxlynxx's
    stress over it, more than concern for him), trying to get out of town
    and simultaneously prepare for houseguests, and Brother A/Rubber_pig shit...I
    just need to do what I can about the things I can, and drop the rest.
    SkyeDS: I don't know M.
    SkyeDS: I don't want to think badly of anybody, much less a stranger
    SkyeDS: but I don't like what it's doing to K either
    evile: I don't think badly of him, I think he's a good person, but
    he's in a lot of pain, and it is NOT acceptable to take that out on
    his loved ones. He needs professional help, and that's what I told
    him. (well, ok, meaner than that--"get professional help or off
    yourself, but quit hurting my friends")
    SkyeDS: I don't think some people grasp the true meaning of kind and
    compassionate in all situations
    evile: That was tactful of you
    SkyeDS: ?
    SkyeDS: you lost me
    evile: I assume I'm one of the 'some people'.
    SkyeDS: no
    SkyeDS: people who do not realize that what you said WAS the kind,
    compassionate thing in that instance
    evile: Well, thanks for that.
    SkyeDS: you know the parable about the Emperor Moth no?
    evile: I don't think so.
    SkyeDS: man finds an emperor moth in a cocoon.
    SkyeDS: it pokes its head out.
    SkyeDS: for three days it makes no progress
    SkyeDS: the man, trying to be kind, co mpassionate and helpful, cuts
    the moth out
    SkyeDS: it comes out with a bloated body and shriveled wings and then
    dies
    evile: sad!!
    SkyeDS: the struggle with t he cocoon being necessary to push the
    water from the body to the wings.
    SkyeDS: you are not kind and compassionate when you enable those you
    love to continue in unhealthy patterns
    SkyeDS: you hurt them more that way
    SkyeDS: frying pan/fire
    evile: *nod*
    SkyeDS: I think I do a lot of kind compassionate things. Others see
    me as aloof and distant. They just don't get it/see it/understand.
    evile: yeah. Ki said M was very hurt and offended by what I
    said, and he now thinks I 'hate' him.
    SkyeDS: anyway, the truth, unadulterated, bald, and from the hip, IS
    kind and compassionate in some circumstances
    SkyeDS: and some people just don't get it.
    evile: She kind of rolled her eyes and said "whatever", so hopefully
    that's a good sign
    evile: Well...truth is a versatile tool, it's just up to us to learn
    to use it the best way in each situation, and sometimes I find myself
    using it as a sledgehammer when I should have been trying to use it
    as a can opener....
    SkyeDS: would he through his fog have heard a canopener.
    evile: good point.
    SkyeDS: and you know what? how long have some people known you?
    SkyeDS: if you are known for the sledgehammer being your Weapon of
    Choice (excellent video ~ Chris Walken dancing)
    SkyeDS: then why should people be surprised?
    evile: I haven't known either K or M for that long, either
    one.
    SkyeDS: I don't think it takes that long to figure that out.
    evile: Well, I should try harder to be tactful. Not necessarily in
    that situation, but in general.
    SkyeDS: so should many of us.
    SkyeDS: btw, I almost forgot
    SkyeDS: you were right
    evile: about?
    SkyeDS: about my being overly harsh on sineater
    evile: when?
    SkyeDS: once again, I had right to be upset, and I handled it badly
    SkyeDS: so I just wanted you to know, you were right.
    evile: ??? Well, OK then...
    SkyeDS: I think the last time was over the bugs.
    evile: I don't recall saying you were overly harsh...maybe thinking,
    but not saying. Your relationship dynamic is none of my business. If
    you and sineater think the relationship is fine the way it is, none of
    anyone elses business.
    SkyeDS: ya
    SkyeDS: you did say I was being very hard on him because we all make
    mistakes
    SkyeDS: and that was entirely correct
    SkyeDS: besides, I could have just gone into town, gotten something,
    and discussed the state of the kitchen with him when he got home. If
    he got less sleep before work, so be it.
    evile: *nod* Well, hopefully it wont' happen again, but if it does,
    you've got a better plan for next time.
    SkyeDS: yep
    SkyeDS: but I need to give credit where it is due.
    evile: Sometimes it helps just to change focus for a bit...
    evile: It's possibly weak of me, but I decided that my objective is
    to have a clean house, not for Sweetie to clean house. So, what's easier,
    nagging, pestering, begging, or just picking up the damn cleaning
    implements myself.
    SkyeDS: ya
    SkyeDS: lots of options I have.
    evile: it's not fair, and eventually I may get sick of it and leave,
    but..it's easier.
    SkyeDS: clean kitchen myself from now on and forbid it to them if
    they insist on messing up more than I can clean by myself
    SkyeDS: I have mentioned that to them
    SkyeDS: I can ask them to spend their resources to remedy the
    problem, example, go buy dinner.
    evile: When we all lived in the big house, we had rules that whoever
    cooked didn't have to clean, and everyone took turns with both, and
    there was lots of trading back and forth among the kids because some
    of us didn't like to cook or clean
    SkyeDS: right. that's what I grew up with. equal division of labor.
    evile: I tried that with Sweetie for awhile, I drew up a little schedule
    and he said "OK" and then it never happened.
    SkyeDS: however, I damn well can expect that on days where sonar0m is
    home, that he can contribute by doing chores.
    evile: *nod*
    evile: the main problem with me and Sweetie is that we both work and
    neither of us has enough free time that we want to waste it on
    housework.
    SkyeDS: well, I'm not going to keep doing the same thing over and
    over and expecting different results
    SkyeDS: so I'll just keep petting them on the head and saying good
    doggie while I look around for different sticks, and until I find one
    that works.
    evile: *nod*
    evile: I found one that worked, but it made him so miserable that I
    couldn't do it. I don't want to have to hurt him to get him to do
    housework, that's not worth it to me.
    SkyeDS: sometimes when I think about it, it isn't different than
    training the horses.
    SkyeDS: I give the horses no resistance win win choices
    SkyeDS: you stand still for the farrier or you do two laps, doesn't
    matter to me, either is good
    evile: *nod*
    SkyeDS: so, I can't cook in a kitchen that looks like this
    SkyeDS: so, the kitchen either gets repaired, or you go get dinner, I
    don't much care
    evile: yup
    SkyeDS: bugs are not acceptable, and you promised not in the new
    house.
    SkyeDS: so you can get rid of them yourself or pay for an exterminator
    SkyeDS: I don't care what you do, just do one
    SkyeDS: they like to think they have free will and choices.
    evile: and then realize that if the conditions under which the
    insects flourished continue, they will come back...
    evile: and you get to do it all again.
    SkyeDS: yep
    evile: Sweetie had to learn this with stuff on the floor. Clothes on
    floor, cats will pee on, shoes on floor, cats will pee on, and
    finally it got thru that you just dONT leave stuff on the floor if
    you dont' want it peed on.
    SkyeDS: so they do eventually learn, that's nice to know
    evile: and it does no good to chase the cats thru the house yelling
    and abusing them, YOU have to prevent the situation that makes them
    misbehave.
    evile: "abusing" god I'm getting as bad as aunt L.
    evile: Cat's just don't respond to corporal punishment, it just makes
    them angry and more likely to find something of yours to soil.
    evile: Looks like the poly trip to the Trail of LIghts will be the
    22nd, btw. There wasn't much interest--only 5 votes, and 1 was mine.
    SkyeDS: what time?
    evile: I was thinking to try and catch one of the first shuttles, 7
    ish.
    evile: Maybe everyone can meet up at Sholtz Garden and we can walk
    over to the shuttle stop at 14th & San Jacinto
    SkyeDS: sineater should probably park here at my office and we catch a
    shuttle
    evile: That's what I suggested, anyway, nobody's said anything. I
    guess I'll let it hang out for a day or so and then post a final
    Plan Friday or so.
    SkyeDS: the shuttles are probably listed on capmet's page ya/
    evile: *nod*
    evile: I posted the link in the yahoo group post.
    SkyeDS: thankee :)
    evile: Okay, looks like Sholz Garden around 6, 6:15, then once we get
    a gang together, take the shuttle down to the park. $2 is kinda
    steep, but I guess it beats the hassle of driving down there and
    parking for $, unless by chance you fight your way thru traffic and
    actually find a free spot somewhere.
    SkyeDS: it will be hard for sineater
    SkyeDS: getting from Dell to downtown in rush hour = not easy
    evile: yeah.
    evile: Well, I've got nothing against hanging out and drinking beer
    for as long as it takes for him to get there :)
    SkyeDS: where is Scholz?
    evile: where the witches ball is.
    evile: was
    evile: Sholtz's Garten, at 1607 San Jacinto Blvd
    SkyeDS: saengerrunde hall
    SkyeDS: ah that helps
    SkyeDS: parking there?
    evile: yeah, that's their party-rental room, but the restaurant & bar
    are there too.
    evile: There is some parking.
    SkyeDS: ack
    SkyeDS: I don't know any of those tv characters
    evile: whose?
    SkyeDS: the sex quiz, female tv characters
    evile: oh, yeah, I think I said none of hte above.
    evile: Rio's brother says I remind him of one of the Sex in the City
    characters, but I've never seen it, so I have no clue.
    SkyeDS: me completely clueless, never saw any of those shows
    evile: me neither.
    evile: well, time for me to head out. yay! :)
    SkyeDS: wind to your wings :)
    evile: I hope teh trooper is drive-able for polydinner :)
    evile: *hugs*
    SkyeDS: hugs :)

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    Dec. 15, 2004

     

     

    KnightDragon: g'morning
    evile: hi!
    KnightDragon: bordom has set in. I'm going through stacks of
    microsoft cds, organizing them. lol
    evile: wow...
    KnightDragon: I know. scary. but oh well. guess it has to be done
    sometime.
    evile: yeah. Ihave a lot of organizing to do at home, too. I never
    want to do it, I'd rather spend my free time doing something fun!
    KnightDragon: lol. uh huh ! amen ! etc etc ! :)
    evile: I will just have to wait until I get into a 'mood' to do it.
    KnightDragon: ya. that's me too. don't push. must wait for me to
    get in the mood. if I tried doing it when I'm not... its
    disasterous. laycie doesn't quite understand the "in the mood
    thing". she's like, just do it. I'm like... sorry. I'm not wired
    that way. lol
    evile: My best way to get something done is to put pressure on myself
    to do something else. Have to sew for faire? Then I suddenly want to
    clean baseboards...
    KnightDragon: lol. cools. I'll remember that
    KnightDragon: speaking of... what's the org your in... that does fair
    things ?
    evile: ??? High Fantasy Society?
    KnightDragon: yeah. that's the one.
    evile: it's more of a LARP, they don't go to faire, for the most
    part.
    KnightDragon: and your dom or dom'ish, yes ?
    evile: *nod*
    evile: ?
    KnightDragon: cools. need some help thinking of ideas
    evile: for?
    KnightDragon: I'm having a hard time dealing with G's new bf. He's
    very insecure and won't say two words to me, which makes me very
    supcious of him (valid or not valid). Anywho, one week I was really
    feeling not right with him, so I took advantage of her being colared
    and said she could see him when the four of us were together, but no
    kissing, no holding hands, etc.
    evile: hm.
    KnightDragon: So now I don't have her under the colar, but I'm still
    not comfortable with him. and G said that he was really getting off
    to the fact that she was restricted. and that this might be a way to
    connect with him.
    evile: why don't you go out with him without her, get a couple beers,
    be guys together, and see if you can't get to know him better and
    trust him, instead of the game playing?
    KnightDragon: So I'm like... okay... but I have no clue what kind
    of "restrictions" I could place on her while they were out. Oh..
    btw... he's really into the sca and medevil times thing, which is why
    I had asked. I was wondering if there was something that fit in with
    that time period that would be "restrictive" ?
    KnightDragon: I wish I could. but when we're in the same room we
    barely say two words to each other.
    KnightDragon: so I'm trying to think of ANYTHING to help matters
    evile: *shrug* chastity belts are pretty well established as
    an 'urban legend' from that time. But you could certainly find a
    device in modern times to use as such.
    KnightDragon: true. but they not be to the sex stage yet. I'll just
    have to keep thinking. I'm trying to "connect" with him, and I just
    thought that since he was into that kind of thing that this might be
    a good starting point for us. we have so little in common. makes me
    wonder what G see's in him. lol
    evile: Well, I think the problem, at root, is lack of communication
    between yourself and him, and you're going to have to fix that. Or
    demand that HE fix that....
    evile: Heck, you could set it up like a job interview, if that's what
    it takes. He is the applicant who wants a job as your wife's
    boyfriend, so it is up to him to prove himself worthy to your peace
    of mind.
    KnightDragon: ya. I've tried talking to him in person. tried
    sending him emails. I guess its just going to be up to him to get
    past it
    KnightDragon: lol. your soooo evil. I like it. but that would be
    way too much. heck, I couldn't even do that. heheh !
    KnightDragon: so now you know who I wish was *not* on my lj friends
    list. lol
    evile: Oh, ok then :P
    KnightDragon: so what's up with you. you doing good?
    evile: yup
    KnightDragon: awesome! that's good to hear
    KnightDragon: man it got cold last night. in the 20's for us. had
    to put a blanket on blossom (the horse)
    evile: yeah, it was very cold. I didn't want to get out of my nice
    warm bed!
    KnightDragon: I bet. me either
    KnightDragon: G and I are probably going to take laycie and tasha
    down to see the trail of lights tonight. should be fun
    evile: I might be there too, depending on the car situation
    KnightDragon: cools !

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