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I've been trying to get my head around Maitri, which is, in a nutshell, wishing for myself and others: "happiness and the root of happiness," "freedom from suffering and the root of suffering" "Joy" and "Equanimity"

Equanimity has been a tough one. I've been hit hard and often in the last few months with thoughts and feelings of "If Thax doesn't love me, I'll die" and "If Thax leaves me, I'll die,"...and that grasping, clinging, panic, and holding on so desperately and miserably, ironically, LIMITS the love that Thax and I can share. It limits us, period.

I don't know what Pema Chodron would think of this, but I like it.

Thanks to [livejournal.com profile] turbojj for the linky.
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Of course you don’t know who you are any more.! How could you? Everything that sustained your illusion and public image seems to have fallen apart. You have to admit you were tired of carrying the burden and the responsibility and playing the role of" being somebody" by maintaining and identity that no longer suits you. Sometimes the chaos you fear and dread before it overtakes you, can turn out to be refreshing and liberating. All will be revealed.


As much as you long for an intimate and deep connection, you can’t continue the political game any more. A major planetary motion now demands that you no longer dress for success, but hack out a new path on an uncharted road. If you still have a contribution to make in this world, you have to make a break with tradition to do it. Resistance to a change of this magnitude is futile. Even if it scares you bananas, financially or otherwise, you need more freedom.


35. Abundance

Zen Tarot Card


In the East people have condemned the body, condemned matter, called
matter "illusory," maya - it does not really exist, it only appears to
exist; it is made of the same stuff as dreams are made of. They denied
the world, and that is the reason for the East remaining poor, sick, in

Half of humanity has been accepting the inner world but denying the
outer world. The other half of humanity has been accepting the material
world and denying the inner world. Both are half, and no man who is
half can be contented. You have to be whole: rich in the body, rich in
science; rich in meditation, rich in consciousness. Only a whole person
is a holy person, according to me.

I want Zorba and Buddha to meet together. Zorba alone is hollow.
His dance has not an eternal significance, it is momentary pleasure.
Soon he will be tired of it. Unless you have inexhaustible sources,
available to you from the cosmos itself...unless you become
existential, you cannot become whole. This is my contribution to
humanity: the whole person.

Osho Communism and Zen Fire, Zen Wind Chapter 2


This Dionysian character is the very picture of a whole man, a
"Zorba the Buddha" who can drink wine, dance on the beach and sing in
the rain, and at the same time enjoy the depths of understanding and
wisdom that belong to the sage. In one hand he holds a lotus, showing
that he respects and contains within himself the grace of the feminine.
His exposed chest (an open heart) and relaxed belly show that he is at
home with his masculinity as well, utterly self-contained. The four
elements of earth, fire, water and sky all conjunct at the King of
Rainbows who sits atop the book of the wisdom of life.

If you are a woman, the King of Rainbows brings the support of your
own male energies into your life, a union with the soul mate within.
For a man, this card represents a time of breaking through the
conventional male stereotypes and allowing the fullness of the whole
human being to shine forth.

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This started coming into my mind after I left Poly dinner last night. I think it's a good thing to have, armament against future worm onslaughts:

I am honest
I am concerned with fairness, even when an unfair situation is skewed in my favor
I am willing to consider points of view that are not my own
I am willing to take criticism and admit when I'm wrong
I try to do the right thing, even when I really want to be thoughtless, selfish, or cruel
I know that hurting people and acting ugly is a momentary 'feel better' that will just end up making me feel worse in the long run.
I am kind hearted
I have empathy
I give thoughtful gifts
I am generous with my time, energy, and material possessions
I give good hugs
I have a knack for putting friends in touch with other friends, groups, etc. that are mutually interesting and beneficial.
I can behave appropriately and seem at ease in a variety of situations, with a variety of people (Yes, I'm getting better at going new places or doing new things or meeting new people and not being a spaz!)
I know how to help people feel welcome and at ease
I am genuinely interested in other people
I enjoy helping others
I am very efficient
I am good at planning
I have a good work ethic
I appreciate art and beauty
I can create art and beauty
I am capable of patience
I am capable of forgiveness
I am willing to learn and grow
I have friends from many backgrounds and walks of life.
I love many people and I am loved by many people.

(AND I have perfect hair.)
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Daily Fix


Are you in a good mood?

"I'm not."
"Me neither."
"Shut up! Don't talk to me!"

"Gee, I feel wonderful."

Woww only one of my selves is in a good mood today.

The rest of them are responding to the total lunar eclipse

which makes you hungry hungry hungry but nothing fills the hole

And you may be a victim of

the dreaded


What you still have to resolve:
Challenges concerning questionable professional practices or relationships that jeopardize position.
What you have learned:
People come into your life for a purpose and when it’s time for them to go, you have to be grateful for what they brought you and not hang on.
What you hope to find in 2011:
Inner calm, intimacy, stability and optimism, new meaning to your whole life as well as a greater sense of spiritual purpose.


What you still have to resolve:
Mysterious goings on inside your brain, a moral crisis, philosophical or religious differences and challenges you cannot yet fully understand.
What you have learned:
Fame is fleeting and public tastes are fickle, regimes are crumbling and political change is inevitable and will affect you directly.
What you hope to find in 2011:
New people and new associations, a much more liberated life style to pursue your dreams, greater independence to come and go as you please, personal calm.
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got it from [livejournal.com profile] oracle_tx, who got it from Nic Marks in his TED talk, "The Happy Planet Index"

Things to do to increase happiness and wellness:

Connect - Socialize. Discuss. Hug.

Be Active - Move. Walk. Dance.

Take Notice - Observe. Ponder. Experience.

Keep Learning - Curious. Read. Experiment.

Give - Time. Money. Share.

AND...really pay attention to yourself in the moment....when you find something that makes you happy, figure out a way to do that more. Maybe find a way to make that something you do for a living. Maybe. I'm still not entirely sure that adding money doesn't take away happiness....still workin' on that thought.
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text of article under cut )
Now the question becomes: What kind of message do you choose to deliver?
Is it truth or is it lies? Is it love or is it fear? Our choice is to
deliver a message of truth and love. What is yours?Read more... )
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For some reason, driving by myself sometimes puts me in a really...I guess 'emotionally vulnerable' state is a good way to put it, maybe? I'll think of things, or I'll hear a song on the radio that makes me get weepy, or whatever...stuff I'd never do in front of anyone, or anywhere except in my car, by myself.

So...today I was cruisin' along, headed out to Chez Charles* for Mr. Kai's birthday (*that'd be "Chuck E Cheez" to you, sir.) and I came up with this odd thought. Kind of a 3 part system for thinking in a different way about people I habitually dislike, despise, fear, or otherwise do not dig.

First thought exercise: find something about them to genuinely, really, honestly ADMIRE. Think about it for a bit, and be totally honest with yourself.

Second: think of some possession or skill that they have that you envy. Go ahead and admit it.

Third: think of the thing or things that they have said or done that you find abhorrent, disgusting, and unforgivable.

Try to hold all 3 in your mind. Find the similarities between them. Find the qualities in yourself that you share, in all 3 categories (admire, envy, dislike). Keep doing this, adding as many qualities in each category as you can.

This ended up making me feel sick to my stomach and excited all at the same time. It made me feel like saying something to the person. It feels like an important and good thing. I don't know what, if anything, I'll do about this. I couldn't do it for long, and I could not do it for every person I dislike. But I definitely could do it for one or two.

I think one of my major 'issues' in life is always seeing things in terms of absolutes; black and white, no shades of grey and no colors. This situation is how it is and it can never change. I did or said whatever wrong thing and I can't change it, so there's no way to be sorry or fix it, so fuck it. This person did (or continues to do) this evil thing and I can't forgive them.

So....depth and colors. I may still not like these people, but it's interesting and good to have these three new things to try and think about when I think of them.
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 *Saying thanks to 2009, Welcoming in 2010!* Read more... )
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Today's thought from Hazelden is:

Hatred is never anything but fear - if you feared no one, you would hate no one.
--Hugh Downs

On those occasions when we find the bigger person within, we are more generous in spirit toward others. But sometimes we think too much about what is wrong with others and how they ought to change. That is a form of hate. If we are searching for what we have power to change in our
families, in our friendships, in the world, we can learn to be big enough to set aside our fears.

Do we bear ill will toward someone today? When we are honest with ourselves, do we feel a sense of fear in relation to this person? What are we really afraid of? Perhaps the same person fears us. When we can do something about our fear, the hatred melts with no further effort. Then we are in touch with the bigger person within.

I have the inner strength to face my fears today. I will not send them outward as hatred.

You are reading from the book:

Touchstones by Anonymous

Copyright 1986, 1991 by Hazelden Foundation. All rights reserved.
Printed in the United States of America. No portion of this publication
may be reproduced in any manner without the written permission of

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[robinandcompany] Shout it from the Mountain Tops
Tuesday, September 1, 2009 8:53 AM
From: "rengypsy"

dear friends,

we want to make september 19th gathering our grandest and most well attended.Read more... )

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Saturday, July 18

We tend to give more importance to chaos than blessings. We think about what we don't have, not what we do have. Or who doesn't love us, not who does. Or who is fighting with us, not who has our back.

Today, realize what you have.

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from: http://www.wheresthemoon.com/dailyfix.htm

9-10 july



Joy on a high level.

The sense of

being inspired,

rewarded, touched by

something beautiful,

magical, divine.


The union of

like-minded souls.

Hope for humanity.

Contentment, no matter

what else is going on

around you.

Connection to one's

higher purpose.

These are some of

the emotions that

wash over us when

the Moon, Jupiter, and Neptune conjoin.

How can we feel

happiness when there's

so much strife and

uncertainty in the world?

Is it foolish and grandiose

to conjure up affirmations

and be filled with generosity?

Is it really possible to

rise above it all,

and like a giraffe

see above the trees

to a happier tomorrow?

Is it foolish to be

unrealistic once in a while?

Is it foolish to dream?

Doesn't matter whether

it's dumb or not, you're

gonna do it anyway.

Without foolish inspiration

there can be no art or science.

yes please!!!
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Sunday, June 28

How do you know when someone is a friend?

They make you feel good about yourself the way you are. And when you do need an attitude adjustment, they do it with love.

What's the point of all this? Not to test your friends. But to test what kind of friend you are.

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Today's thought from Hazelden is:

What I said never changed anybody; what they understood did.
--Paul. P.

How often have we given our all to change somebody else? How frantically have we tried to force a loved one to see the light? How hopelessly have we watched a destructive pattern - perhaps a pattern we know well from personal experience - bring terrible pain to someone who is dear to us?

All of us have.

We would do anything to save the people we love. In our desperation, we imagine that if we say just the right words in just the right way, our loved ones will understand.

If change happens, we think our efforts have succeeded.

If change doesn't happen, we think our efforts have failed. But neither is true. Even our best efforts don't have the power to change someone else. Nor do we have that responsibility. People are only persuaded by what they understand. And they, as we, can understand a deeper truth only when it is their time to grow toward deeper understanding. Not before.

Today, I will focus on changing myself and entrust those I love to the Higher Power who loves them even more than I do.

You are reading from the book:

Days of Healing, Days of Joy by Earnie Larsen and Carol Larsen Hegarty

Days of Healing, Days of Joy by Earnie Larsen and Carol Larsen Hegarty. Copyright 1987, 1992 by Hazelden Foundation. All rights reserved. Printed in the United States of America. No portion of this publication may be reproduced in any manner without the written permission of the Hazelden.

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72 Name of the Week

Hey Hey Hey

41. Self Esteem

Instead of yelling, I speak quietly.
Instead of cursing, I compliment.
Instead of taking, I give.
Instead of worrying, I awaken certainty and take charge.
Instead of fearing, I conjure up courage.
Instead of seeking revenge, I offer forgiveness.
Instead of blaming, I become accountable.
Instead of playing the victim, I hold myself responsible.
Instead of merely coping with a problem, I seek to cure it.
Instead of complaining, I start appreciating.
Instead of looking for the negative in a situation, I find the positive.
Instead of judging others, I look for the good in them.
Instead of gossiping and bad-mouthing others, I change the subject, or I simply walk away.
Instead of listing reasons why life is so unfair, I start counting my blessings.
Instead of calculating how something will benefit me, I figure out a way to ensure that the other party benefits.
Instead of reacting to external situations, I resist and become proactive.


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