evile

Sep. 13, 2004


evile: *hugs*
SkyeDS: hugs :)
evile: So, roughly 24 hours after calling sineater, [brother A] dumped the dog
in our backyard.
evile: No leash, no collar...
SkyeDS: sighs
evile: [brother A] left a msg on our machine around 5:30PM, nobody was home,
and dumped Paulie a couple hours later, nobody had been home to check
messages, and nobody was currently home.
SkyeDS: [The Rubber Pig] called right as I walked in the door at 8 pm Friday
night
SkyeDS: my parents had already been to the house to see me, and I
didn't get home in time
SkyeDS: because a prospective client wanted to talk for an hour and a
half
SkyeDS: and [The Rubber Pig] wanted me to drive back to Austin, right then
SkyeDS: and then [brother A] wanted us to drive to Austin Saturday, and was
told, we have out of town guests, not happening.
evile: ugh!
SkyeDS: I am bound and determined, that I am going to surgically cut
all drama from my life.
SkyeDS: hopefully sineater should have no problems picking Paulie up and
delivering him to Connie :)
evile: *nod* I'm on phone duty, will be slow until 12:30 or so...
evile: no drama is good.
evile: our in house system is incredibly buggy. It terrifies me.
SkyeDS: system = phone system?
evile: No, our in house interface between our job and the shitty
mainframe.
Just heard from an employer who hadn't gotten copies of decisions in
the mail. Looking it up on the in house, the address is correct,
printing out the decisions actually mailed, the address is wrong.
SkyeDS: oh man :(
evile: How are we expected to have any accountability when somewhere
between what WE type in and what gets printed out, some bizarre shit
happens that we have NO knowledge of or control over??
SkyeDS: (hugs)
evile: hate the job today, I really to.
SkyeDS: is half over?
evile: But I had a cool weekend, so I'm just going to blow it off.
evile: a bit more than half, maybe, even. I leave at 3 today :)
SkyeDS: that was my plan of action this morning too
SkyeDS: had a new experience this weekend, already looking forward to
expanding on it next weekend
evile: ? do tell
SkyeDS: I talked half a dozen people in Drandmir into being human
pells for us to run a mounted combat course
SkyeDS: so then all these journalism student photographers show up
and want pictures
evile: cool
SkyeDS: but by that time, no one there was in garb anymore but me
SkyeDS: so what they wanted, was me, on Jesse, running the course I
set up
evile: oh well
SkyeDS: I've never run a course on Jesse, and had not planned to any
time in foreseeable future
evile: good publicity for you anyway
SkyeDS: I figured, what the hell, so I did it
evile: awesome :)
evile: sineater knows that the dog is at Lynn & Bob's, not our house,
right?
SkyeDS: right
evile: OK
SkyeDS: or let me rephrase
SkyeDS: that's what I told him
SkyeDS: more than once
evile: OK
evile: I am taking the rest of the dog food over after work, so I'll
be at Lynns, and no telling when Sweetie will be home, so I just didn't
want sineater showing up at our vacant house after work & getting
peeved/confused.
SkyeDS: he says he's leaving at 5:30 to go over there
evile: Okeydoke.
evile: I'll be glad when that's all done. The crappy part is over--
getting [brother A] & [The Rubber Pig] to do their part. The rest should be fine.
SkyeDS:

Sep. 9, 2004

evile: hey :) How's everything?
SkyeDS: I got stuff accomplished this morning so I'm happy
evile: good :)
SkyeDS: not a hitch, and the girls were wanting me to play when we
got home. Took off across the pasture at a frolicking gallop, I
waved good bye, walked away, they came back and were tearing around
in front of me, because I wouldn't go out there with them
evile: aww.
SkyeDS: I do like to watch them play
evile: *nod*
SkyeDS: I won my first two ebay auctions last night
SkyeDS: some sniper ran it up $55.
evile: suck!
SkyeDS: still cheaper than the original set I wanted
SkyeDS: which I will still buy, maybe for xmas
evile: and still a freakin great deal...
SkyeDS: I showed sineater the white halter & collar set I bought for
Jesse. Told him, happy birthday, early
evile: aww.
SkyeDS: he never wants to know in advance what I got him, but I
figure, it's being delivered to the house, he's going to see them
evile: yeah.
SkyeDS: can you post pics to lj?
SkyeDS: I think you can, right?
evile: yes.
SkyeDS: do you use an lj client?
evile: I don't think so...
SkyeDS: still looking around for how to put pics in a post
SkyeDS: ah, Faq 6
evile: Sharjinka was having a devil of a time with photos a couple
months ago.
SkyeDS: you have to load them to a webserver first
SkyeDS: which is no problem
evile: *nod*
SkyeDS: I spent all day yesterday uploading pics to yahoo and
organizing shared folders, very productive
evile: cool :)
evile: I was mostly unproductive yesterday. Green Chile fest at
CHuy's with [aunt L and uncle B], and then a bit of research for material
sources for the necklace I want to make (like I don't have 47 boxes
of beads & findings and whatnot already...just not what I need for
THIS necklace)
SkyeDS: Kelly LOVES Chuy's
evile: It's reliable.
SkyeDS: we used to go there quite a bit after Barad Duin, in these
big groups that seem to coagulate around me when I ask Kelly and the
kids if they want to hit Chuy's before we go home
evile: *nod*
SkyeDS: parking usually good, understanding about the bird and the
horses, always good
evile: yeah.
evile: the most interesting thing on this year's green chile menu is
the green chile cheesecake. It was good.
SkyeDS: we were going to participate in their Xmas parade until I
realized they wanted $50 entrance fee
evile: oh. ew.
evile: I'm feeling cranky today. I would not go to poly dinner
tonight but I told Nolan I'd be his ride.
SkyeDS: nods. you might not feel as cranky later, and going might
actually make it better, it happens
evile: probably. all of the annoyances today have had to do with work.
SkyeDS: if I could just get one lesson a week scheduled reliably I
could work 36 hours/4 days here
evile: One claimant was trying so hard to find a job, "literarily"
sending 30-50 resumes a week!
evile: I can't imagine why someone hasn't snapped him up!
SkyeDS: rofl
evile: then there's preggo 350+lb coworker who has all these health
problems related to weight & pregnancy, and complains CONSTANTLY
about how miserable she is, yet ate at least a thousand calories
worth of fat, salt, and sugar for breakfast (starbux drink & mcd's
sandwich)
SkyeDS: lol I splurged on a McD's burger and fries after my morning
excursions and on the way into work. And I felt good that I got
lemonade and not Coke.
evile: you have no fetus to be damaged by caffeine, sugar, and
salt. eat whatever you want, IMNSHo
SkyeDS: I felt better about lemonade because of the caffeine/sugar
issue
evile: *nod*
SkyeDS: Diet Coke is nasty, doesn't have sugar, but is loaded w/
caffeine
evile: I have never seen that woman eat a vegetable or piece of
fruit. EVER. And she and I have worked together for YEARS now.
evile: Her doctor has flat out told her no caffeine, and there she
was sucking down a fattalatte with a ton of sugar, whipped cream, and
what-have you, and Sbux has the most caffeine of ANY coffee house
coffee.
evile: and, really, if she's going ot abuse her body so that she's
sick and I end up doing more work to pick up the slack, I do NOT want
to hear how sick and miserable she is. She is doing it to herself, I
have NO sympathy.
SkyeDS: I have enough bad habits to break, I am glad that I didn't
acquire coffee, beer, mayo, sour cream, ranch, etc
SkyeDS: although I still maintain that fat alone isn't the issue
evile: *nod*
SkyeDS: apparently moderation isn't in her vocabulary at all anywhere
evile: nope. That kid's going to be born with the cardiovascular
system of a 40 year old.
SkyeDS: :(
evile: it really is sad.

SkyeDS: the nurse this morning commented on one of the clients having
no business owning pets
evile: *nod*
SkyeDS: 31 pics, ack
evile: ?
SkyeDS: maybe I should have just settled for linking the whole ebay
page lol
SkyeDS: but I don't want people necessarily seeing what I paid
evile: *nod*
SkyeDS: or running up the bids on the two pendings
evile: good point.
evile: OH no! Red X of death on your LJ entry!
SkyeDS: working on it
evile: *nod*
evile: I've had it where it looks fine to me, but nobody else can see
it. very big WTF moment.
SkyeDS: I decided just to go with a url
SkyeDS: people can find the correct album and peruse it on their own
a lot easier than putting 31 individual addresses in complicated code
evile: *nod*
evile: Oh, good news: we got a reprieve on the 'witnessing the birth'
nonsense--[The Rubber Pig] has been put on 'bed rest' (which of course explains
why she was 'at the grocery store' when [aunt L] called) and is thinking
of having a C section with this one.
SkyeDS: [brother A] left a message saying she was bleeding and that's why
they hadn't brought Paulie
evile: Oh, good, at least he's keeping YOU posted. I haven't heard
from him since he left a message Monday.
SkyeDS: I think that was part of the message he left us late Monday
evile: bi. zarre. He called around 5 Monday and said he was thinking
of coming up, except it was raining, so he might not.
SkyeDS: I would have to ask sineater exactly when the msg was left, and
the wording, and he'd probably have to check the call registry to
verify time
evile: Does he think we don't talk to each other, so tells each
person a different lie?
SkyeDS: that sounds like a [The Rubber Pig] thing (although I don't know [brother A]
well enough, maybe that's an [brother A] thing too, who knows?)
SkyeDS: I remember sineater mentioning the bleeding thing because we
thought she was setting up for a "miscarriage"
SkyeDS: and I thought it was probably just a period.
evile: [brother A] tells people what they want to hear, spins stories so as
to highlight a point he wants to get across....but he's never lied
outright like this before [The Rubber Pig].
evile: Well, I have mixed feelings about a miscarriage.
evile: (assuming there is actually a pregnancy..)
evile: her last episode of bleeding/ER-going was about ....hmm...28
days ago.
evile: Can you actually have sex and give birth 3 times and be so
dirt fucking ignorant that you don't know what a period is??!??!
SkyeDS: I don't think it's ignorance
SkyeDS: I think it's willful stupidity
evile: What is WRONG with [brother A]?!??! Grrrr.
evile: Oh, also, [The Rubber Pig]'s medicaid was cancelled--seems that all her
last names set off their 'fraud' alerts & now I guess she's appealing
it.
SkyeDS: ROFL
evile: considering she only has one legal marriage on the books, I
can see why medicaid m ight think she is running a scam of some sort.
evile: what I wouldn't give to have access to THEIR databases..
SkyeDS: last time we called their office they were 3 years behind,
literally, answering questions over the phone
SkyeDS: and medicare was 2 years behind
evile: wow.
evile: I'd believe it--I temped there one summer & we had mandatory 9
hour days doing data entry all day.
SkyeDS: wonder what EAS is
evile: ? in what context?
SkyeDS: some sort of pagan group?
evile: Oh, I've seen references to that. But no idea.
evile: If Tony or Niki are at dinner tonight, I'll ask them. They are
both in CMA & might know.
evile: witchvox is so far unhelpful.
SkyeDS: yep
evile: oh! found it=Earth Spirit Alliance\
http://65.109.176.127/home.shtml
SkyeDS: I wonder if it's Earth Spirit Alliance
SkyeDS: jinx :P
evile: :P great minds think alike. That or we are sharing the last
remaining braincell.
SkyeDS: I looked up Harvest King
evile: *nod*
evile: Now I remember, ESA was the very wierd & disorganized bunch
who solicited me out of the blue for a spring festival about a year
ago or so.
evile: The solicitation was addressed to 'spiritual seeker' At the
time I was worried that CMA had sold my info to someone.
evile: Then I looked at the organizers and realized that Loke E
Coyote had probably sold HIS mailing list to them, since he appears
to be a member /bigwig of ESA
SkyeDS: noticed the usual "I need help finding sites for CRW" is
starting back up
SkyeDS: the last site was just fine
evile: *nod*
SkyeDS: and there are lots of good SPs but noooo
evile: I am beginning to see the wisdom of having one person/group do
CRW every year, so that the wheel need not be re-invented endlessly.
SkyeDS: they say the first CRWs were best
SkyeDS: interestingly enough those were run by Drandmir (specifically
Nezzerin and Rue)
SkyeDS: Rue isn't officially Drandmir but he spends as much time
there as his official home of Silver Spire
evile: *nod*
SkyeDS: lol well J ought to enjoy Harvest King, there's a sacred sex
workshop going on
SkyeDS: maybe he'll finally get laid and quit whining about it
SkyeDS: I doubt he'll ever figure out that driving your only source
of sex away with bad behavior wasn't a bright thing for a nympho to do
evile: *grinz* It does sound interesting, but Niki's party is that
weekend.
evile: Maybe I'll go to their BDSM weekend in April, if the group
lasts that long.
evile: they used my 2 fave words: 'fire play'....very tempting.
SkyeDS: wonder what their pet policy is
evile: I can't find one.
SkyeDS: me neither, w hy I'm wondering :P
evile: other than that, seems like a C&P from CMA's
SkyeDS: they seem to have a self proclaimed Strega, I might write him
and ask out of curiosity
SkyeDS: but it isn't like I have time to pursue pagan stuff right now
anyway
evile: *nod*
SkyeDS: as it is we have to consider nixing one event for the
biannual CBar trail ride
SkyeDS: events are cheaper than the trail ride
evile: yeah....
SkyeDS: on the other hand we're going to 8 events this fall, surely
we could sacrifice 1
SkyeDS: and the trail ride is more expensive in part because they
keep us fed. and well fed might I add.
evile: true.
SkyeDS: but if there's a pagan group that will allow pets to
festivals, I'd find that useful knowledge
evile: yeah, just for future reference :)
SkyeDS: I emailed them to ask.
SkyeDS: alternatively I could submit myself as a merchant (selling
rides and readings)
evile: *nod* this is true.
SkyeDS: I'd rather not vend.
SkyeDS: it's a money vs having fun thing
SkyeDS: making money is good, but it isn't as much fun as riding
myself
evile: I know this feeling :)
SkyeDS: you would think we could do both
evile: not me.
SkyeDS: but usually there isn't time
SkyeDS: usually one trip around the site draws enough business to
keep us the rest of the day
evile: yeah.
evile: I think you've got part of the right answer going: HAVE STAFF.
SkyeDS: three animals, three pair of hands is usually good
SkyeDS: and the boys are very good natured about my dictatorial self
evile: *nod*
evile: I dont' work well enough with others to have staff.
SkyeDS: still waiting on Calena from Ingleside to decide whether
we're just doing demos or vending
SkyeDS: truthfully I'm not sure whether we'll go or not, it will be a
money thing (isn't it always)
evile: yeah
SkyeDS: if doing demos means I get to go, and not pay entrance, and
have the critters there, AND ride all day rather than share, I'm down
with that
SkyeDS: might actually beat vending
evile: yeah
SkyeDS: the cost of the booth is chicken feed, specially split two
ways
evile: I loved the beach in the off-season. I don't know if I would
have liked hanging out all day at Ingleside.
SkyeDS: but the insurance she wants will probably be $$$
SkyeDS: I don't understand what people don't get about what Texas law
says.
SkyeDS: particularly her and the lawyer she works for, oh well
evile: that's gotta be a hassle...
SkyeDS: when I can afford it, and when I start doing enough
equestrian business, I will get insurance
SkyeDS: but in the meanwhile, what's the point
evile: yup.
SkyeDS: you used to do a lot of stuff at Natural Magick, their
gatherings seemed cool
evile: *nod* Sweetie being out of work shifted a lot of financial
responsibilities on to me. No $ for booth fees, supplies, etc. last
year or 2
evile: Finally getting out of the hole.
SkyeDS: I've been giving thought to not claiming the Ranch as a
business
SkyeDS: that way I don't have to prove a profit 2 out of every 7 years
evile: *shrug*
SkyeDS: even though losses would mean less taxes out of working for
Hugh
evile: I haven't been in it 7 yrs yet, will burn that bridge when I
come to it.
SkyeDS: already got a bite out of taxes because I'm an indie driving
126 miles every day at 37.5 cents per mile
SkyeDS: most businesses have to show a profit 3 out of 7 - ranches
are 2 out of 7
SkyeDS: and if I don't report it as business I don't have to report
the money I get paid (which is always in cash or by check) and
something tells me, my clients aren't keeping track to be sending me
1099s
evile: yep.
SkyeDS: none of them want receipts so I just quit bothering
evile: I found that as well.
evile: I just got off the hook for taking Nolan to dinner. Now it's
just going to depend on what I feel like after I get home & do my
little after-work routine.
evile: I love Launchcast. I've discovered so many new bands that I
love. Well, not NEW, but stuff I somehow managed to miss
evile: If you've never listened to Dead Can Dance, I recommend.
Especially their albums in the mid-80's.
evile: I don't know why I didn't hear them back then. Or maybe I did
and never realized who I was listening to. I dunno. I was more into
punk & industrial than goth back then.
evile: I know the label 'goth' offends you, but I think you'd like
Dead Can Dance.
SkyeDS: the title itself doesn't offend me
SkyeDS: people who don't know what the word really means offend me
evile: *nod*
evile: or at least realize that it not only refers to a pop culture
phenomena of the 80s AND a time period considerably before that :P
evile: 'sokay--Punk originally meant someone's prison bitch.
SkyeDS: nods
evile: and fag originally meant a piece of firewood, then it got
adopted to mean cigarette, and from there to homosexual male.
SkyeDS: etymology is fun :)
evile: hee. yup.
SkyeDS: they allow pets AND would let me vend pony rides
SkyeDS: awesome
evile: excellent :)
evile: Too bad it's the same weekend as Niki's party.
evile: I really wish Time would do what it's supposed to do.
evile: Then again, I might be going to first weekend of TRF and
camping, so i might not want to camp 2 weekends in a row, anyway,
esp. since ESA seems to be 'tent only'
SkyeDS: We welcome vendors. For this next festival, vendor
fees are waived. Not sure what they will be in the
spring. Probably $5-10 plus regular admission. Spots
on vendor row are first come first served, but we got
plenty of room. If you bring a pony, you'd be
responsible for cleaning up after it and you might
want to do liability waivers. You can chuck the pony
pies in a pile by our composter, we just don't want
land mines in the field.

evile: excellent.
SkyeDS: Well behaved pets are OK. They should be either real
well trained or on a leash. Clean up after your pets.
Stay in control of your pets. If an animal starts to
cause a problem, we may have a holding pen set up, or
you may be asked to remove it.

SkyeDS: both of those responses from your friend Loki
evile: um....not really a friend, but Ok.
SkyeDS: you know him at any rate (I don't or I don't think I do)
evile: they seem like reasonable policies that, if enforced, will
ensure that everyone has a nice time and only the irresponsible pet
owners will be punished if an incident occurrs.
SkyeDS: that's what CMA started out doing
evile: hopefully it will work out better for ESA folks.
SkyeDS: what worries me in a minor way is that if we go to harvest
king someone will think I'm follwoing him
evile: to me, aint much diff between camping next to a screaming
toddler or a screaming parrot...I wouldn't want either, but ther are
reasonable ways to deal and unreasonable ones
evile: I guess you could talk it over with sineater & sonar0m & see what
they feel like doing that weekend--you've got an SCA thing same time,
so there are options :)
SkyeDS: right, and again, is more expensive
SkyeDS: HFS people need to go to other shit and see how much more
expensive it is before they start whining
evile: I agree.
SkyeDS: might drum up bidness though
evile: yup
evile: gotta spend money to make money, yadda yadda
evile: that + the Vegas Creed "Never bet more than you can afford to
lose" seem to be effective business strategies. Hard lessons from
hindsight, that's for goddamn sure...
evile: booths at Wimberley trade days are about 2 grand, from what I
saw. I don't know if there's a booth fee on top of that, but...wow.
SkyeDS: most the time make better money when I'm not trying to, odd
evile: *nod*
SkyeDS: with 8 possible SCA events surely it won't hurt to miss 2
evile: Yeah.
evile: I usually try to decide by what's the most 'special' among the
several options. If it's an annual event or a 1-off, it's priority,
whereas if it's monthly its #2, weekly is #3, etc. Priority
occasionally gets moved around if there's a person involved who I
really want to see, etc.
SkyeDS: logical
evile: Well, I try to be. Sometimes I still get overwhelmed & don't
know what to do with myself.
evile: But I'm getting better about not letting overwhelmed-ness lead
to doing NOTHING when presented with too many choices
SkyeDS: I would have gone to Drandmir this weekend but not with my
parents here
SkyeDS: they won't want to go with
evile: *nod*
evile: I had intended to go, but got a late start to the bead show &
then ended up being there for a LONG time!
evile: I may be in San Antonio this upcoming Sun. Rio wants to get
together but we have no plan as of yet.
evile: she had a job interview today, I should probably give her a
call this evening.
SkyeDS: nods
SkyeDS: tis your time
evile: yup.
evile: *hugs* take care of you! :)
SkyeDS: you too! :D

 

[aunt L] got me from work yesterday & we went to Steinmart to look
around. She almost got a 'little baby hoochie mama' outfit for Yummy.
Thought better of it at the last minute,d arn.

Apparently L is back on the 'good list'. [the rubber pig] called to say she
is having [brother A]s baby at home with a midwife, wants it videotaped &
wants to be surrounded by A's and her family at the birth.
Um...no. I wouldn't even do that for someone I liked (sister H, J-Law,
Dee, Rio) let alone somebody whose FACE I can't stand to see.

In actual (sad) family news, [uncle bubba's wife] lost the baby. L. says they are
not making any big announcements & probably won't want a card. Bubba
is taking it harder than [wife]. :(

Me to Miscarriage Gods: "NOOO! You took the WRONG ONE!!!"

*sigh* Life is unfair sometimes. One must continue to hope & assume
that God knows what s/he's doing & these things are happening for a
higher purpose than we know.

2407Re: [brother A]/[rubber pig] Mishegoss

• Aug. 2, 2004

  Date: Mon, 02 Aug 2004 09:12:26 -0500
  From: [stepdad]
  To: evilE
  Subject: Re: [brother A] in hospital
  
  
  If you haven't heard yet: [brother A] attempted suicide early this morning.
  The last info we have is tat he is in ICU in unstable condition. I
  fell horrible I could and should have given him more support. If this
  is what being honest results in.... [Mom] is beside herself with
  anger and sorrow. We are leaving tomorrow morning to come down. I
  pray to God [brother A] is alright.
  ========================
  
  I hate to even think it, but [rubber pig] said her mom has tried to commit
  suicide '14 times'....maybe this is what people do when they have to
  hang out with [rubber pig] too much. she drives 'em to it.
  
  *sigh*

2408Re: [brother A]/[rubber pig] Mishegoss

 

 

me to J-Law:

One thing that keeps coming into my mind for some
reason is [rubber pig] telling me (back when she was speaking
to me before I committed whatever unspeakable offense)
that she wasn't leaving the girls with her mother for
the summer while she recovered from her big surgery
because her mom has tried to commit suicide "14 times"

I am not sure why I keep thinking of that. Maybe
trying to set some blame on someone besides [brother A].
Maybe trying to suspect [rubber pig] of OD'ing [brother A] on her
Potassium chloride prescription...I dont know. That's
evil of me to think. But they do use Potassium
chloride for state executions. Injected, not in pill
form. but an OD will give one a fatal heart attack and
the body keeps processing the potassium so that if a
blood test isn't done right away, it doesn't show up.

Anyway, I suspect that just as with X and  M's
arrest & her stepdad & his new wife getting stuck with the kids and
Elaine's attempt when I didn't rush off to the
hospital right away...people are going to get mad at
me for not doing whatever they think I need to do and
distract themselves from the pain/fear/disappointment
caused by the actual person who did something.

If everyone's going to be pissed at me anyway, I'd
rather put forth the least amount of effort. It's
possible that I might be able to be the Austin
Contact--stay at [aunt L]'s, feed her cats, call people,
email people, feed people, and do my duty that way. I
dunno. I never quite understand what is expected of me
in these helpless, horrible situations, so I never do
whatever it is and people always get mad at me.

god, I sound selfish, making this about me and not
[brother A]...but he's in the hospital, nothing I can do for
him, ya know? And I'd rather cry at home in private
than in the hospital in front of strangers.

2409 icq w/sineater

 

• Aug. 2, 2004

  Sineater: hey
  evile: howdy.
  Sineater: talked to dad.  [mom] has been talking to the icu nurse.
  effectively cutting the rubber pig out of the loop.
  evile: excellent.
  Sineater: [aunt L] and [uncle B] are en route
  evile: *nods*
  Sineater: dad is geting things wrapped up up there and they are
  driving down
  evile: I din't realize they were driving.
  Sineater: they are. hoping to hitch down to sa with them
  evile: good plan.
  Sineater: not sure... i feel that the most i could do is keep [aunt L]
  away from [rubber pig]'s throat, and honestly i don't want to do that
  evile: I don't think [aunt L] is going to misbehave. She hasn't yet.
  Sineater: if the little bitch wants drama i think i am prepared to
  give it to her.
  evile: ugh.
  Sineater: wonder now if my first impulse was right, just make her go
  away. coulda woulda shoulda
  Sineater: [mom] is very mad at [aunt L]. dad says [mom] thinks [aunt L] was
  too honest re the rubber pig
  evile: WHEN!?!?!?
  Sineater: but can't see how she could not have been. frankly
  evile: [rubber pig] feeds the kids and nods & smiles when [rubber pig] blathers.
  WTF!?!?
  evile: oops, [aunt L] feeds the k ids
  Sineater: don't know myself. i did not see it
  evile: I think Mom is manufacturing shit.
  Sineater: [mom] said something happened towards the end of the visit.
  i don't know what though
  evile: ?
  Sineater: maybe she and [aunt L] got into it over the rubber pig?
  speculation
  evile: I have no idea. Things seemed pleasant, other than whatever
  [brother A] & [rubber pig] were mada at me about.
  Sineater: was there more to sunday than just the comment and [brother A]
  getting mad about it?
  Sineater: i know [aunt L] was mad about them being late, i doubt she
  would have done more than mention it though
  evile: Not that I know of. They showed up and ignored me, so I left.
  Then he called THursday (after his big blowup talk with dad) and
  wanted to talk about "what happened Sunday"
  evile: SHE DID NOT MENTION IT AT ALL!
  evile: When [brother A] asked what was wrong with me Sunday, I said "well,
  you were 4 hours late and then you ignored me. I thought it was rude
  and I left"
  Sineater: and i don't think it was just an oversight that the rubber
  pig didn't say goodbye to me, i could see she was miffed at [brother A] for
  talking to me for so long, and i think she reamed him on the way home
  for it
  evile: And then he said "We're not coming up Friday at all!" and hung
  up
  Sineater: nod, remember that
  Sineater: not everybody in the world can just smile and nod when they
  see shit like this going on, and i think it's unfair to expect
  everybody to do so
  Sineater: however i think it is [brother A] who expects that.
  evile: I follow their lead. If tehy walk in and do not say hello or
  even make eye contact, I'm not going to force conversatin.
  Sineater: i agree completely, same here
  evile: I'll be interested to find out if he od'ed on potassium
  chloride (her scrip)
  Sineater: icu said his condition is unstable, he apparently took
  every pill he could find in the house
  Sineater: probably including her happy stash of painkillers. i do not
  believe she is in as much pain as she says she is, but i do indeed
  believe she likes her pain pills
  Sineater: just like rush limbaugh! setting a moral example for the
  rubber pigs of the nation to follow
  evile: Ugh.
  evile: I'm sorry once you have a baby your life isn't your own
  anymore, which means it's not yours to end.
  evile: And I know if I actually see [brother A] that's what I'll tell him,
  and then oh joy I get to be the big bag of shit againn
  Sineater: well in her little mind, her life is hers, and her babies
  accessorize it.
  Sineater: there are better ways that you can put it that say the same
  thing. like "please think about the children before you do something
  like this again" or have one of the girls just say, "daddy, please
  don't leave me"
  evile: I know that. And [brother A] is an accessory, too. but this baby is
  HIS and he needs to pull hsi head out of his ass and grow up and be a
  fucking parent now.
  Sineater: but you won't have to say it. the psychiatrist that
  evaluates him before release will say all this and more :)
  Sineater: right now i just think she needs to go. now. quickly.
  Sineater: so i wonder if it's a good idea at all for me to go down
  there
  evile: not that easy anymore. There is the issue of the baby due in
  March, which she & [brother A] say is HIS.
  Sineater: sigh. well... i was not clear-headed enough to make a good
  evaluation of whether she is pregnant or not. she may very well not
  be. she told kathy she has had 14 miscarriages
  Sineater: a number which is a little alarming, unless you factor in
  drama. "oh i skipped a period, i must be pregnant!"
  evile: she likes that #. Apparently her mother has had 14 suicide
  attempts
  Sineater: gasp! swoon!
  Sineater: oh?
  evile: no shit right.
  evile: yes, which is why she didn't want to leave the kids with her
  mom during/after her 'big surgery' earlier this summer. and how L&B
  came to be stuck with them.
  Sineater: "oh i had a preiod again! i must have miscarried!"
  evile: ick.
  Sineater: where is her father in all this? i wonder
  evile: Jovial yet clueless is the impression I get.
  Sineater: sigh.
  evile: You saw the way she talked to him, I would play like that too.
  Sineater: nod... nod
  evile: If he actually dared to have an opinion, she'd probably rip
  him apart & kick him out of his grandchildrens' lives.
  evile: I know the 'children as blackmail' game all too well. I won't
  play it anymore.
  Sineater: and i'm sure she threatens that on a regular basis
  Sineater: nod, and think you are right not to
  evile: sure. it's all about getting her own way.
  evile: and the kids are not people, they are extensions of herself,
  so why s hould she care
  Sineater: was hoping to at least have enough time to be able to help
  da
  oh shit. i had planned to talk to dad to try and help [brother A] and dad
  communicate. i mean eventually it would have fallen to shit, right?
  likely, but the rubber pig couldn't wait i guess
  Sineater: did you and [mom] get into a fight before she left?
  evile: yeah. Notice that the people Al & [rubber pig] cut out are the ones
  who would not blow sunshine up their butts
  evile: Mom & had our tiff right after I got off the phone with [brother A]
  on Thursday afternoon/evening
  Sineater: oh?
  evile: And apparently [brother A] and Dad had THEIR tiff right before [brother A]
  called Austin. Pecking order. no?
  evile: I can't believe people are going to say shit about [aunt L]. Fuck
  that. I am and was genuinely unsympathetic/uninterested, but [aunt L] has
  been nothing but kind and accomodating for her, her diseased bastard
  offspring, and full-o-shit [brother A]...this WHOOLE TIME
  Sineater: they apparently had a fight over the phone shortly before
  he made the attempt, as well
  evile: who isthey?
  evile: [brother A] and who?
  Sineater: i am backing away from that for the moment. there is
  something going on between [aunt L] and [mom], and i haven't seen it, so
  for the moment i will try and talk reason to everybody
  Sineater: oh sorry. [brother A] and dad.
  evile: the attempt was at some ungodly hour this a.m., I thought?
  evile: Call me at 4 a.m. and see what the fuck you get, boyo.
  Sineater: nod, this was last night, fairly late
  evile: Oh, ok.
  Sineater: not 4 am though
  evile: ugh.
  Sineater: 4 am??? did she wait???
  Sineater: if there was any delay, if she waited or "jsut didn't
  notice" and [brother A] suffers permanent damage as a result, i will kill
  her and i will not be pleasant about it.
  evile: I don't know. All I know is [aunt L] called this a.m. about 7:45
  to say that [rubber pig] had called to say [brother A] was in the hospital. [aunt L] &
  [uncle B] then left for SA afte rthat.
  evile: Then I got email from Dad maybe 9 ish to say that it was a
  suicide attempt and they are leaving tomorrow a.m. for TX.
  evile: And that's all I know, all I've heard.
  Sineater: am i overreacting to want her completely out of the picture
  at this point?
  evile: I was thinking either [rubber pig] poisoned him, OR she has seen this
  enough because of her mom that she instructed [brother A] on exactly what to
  do & how much to take to make it look serious but not kill himself. I
  know that's wrong & evil for me to think.
  Sineater: and i just don't have the funds to bribe her to run away to
  milano... guess it's the garrote, then. well for starters
  evile: Yeah, but what about those poor little diseased, scruffy,
  messed-up little bastard girls?
  Sineater: i don't know. i don't think she is one for action that
  direct so i doubt she would have poisoned him. instruction i don't
  know.
  Sineater: umm... medical experiments?
  Sineater: sorry about that last. the girls are charming and could at
  least maybe grow up to be happy... maybe her family could step up to
  the plate? who knows...
  evile: yup.
  evile: The sawyers should/could at least take the oldest. It's pretty
  obvious she is actually Trey's.
  Sineater: there is always adoption, although the state child services
  are hopelessly retarded and often harmful
  evile: yup.
  Sineater: oh yeah, i coluld -really- see lamar doing that...
  evile: you never know.
  Sineater: shrug
  evile: I dont' know how much you do/don't know about Lamar & that
  crowd...I really dont' think he's as much of a bastard as you're
  thinking he is.
  Sineater: i certainly hope not, really
  evile: I hope dad doesn't buy into the 'blame [aunt L]' bullshit
  evile: This is all [brother A] and maybe a tad of [rubber pig]. [aunt L] has been a
  rock through every stupid mess [brother A] has ever made for himself.
  Sineater: i don't know. he says [aunt L] can be vicious when she wants to
  be. i don't think even [mom] really thinks that [aunt L] not liking the
  rubber pig could drive [brother A] to suicide
  evile: who knows? Mom's memory isn't so great.
  Sineater: i think that [brother A] and [rubber pig] expecting everyone to just
  smile and say "oh how lovely" when they run off and get married by
  the power of the magical internet is ridiculous. if i had been there
  i would have probably been visibly pissed as well, would have felt
  used and manipulated
  evile: well, not only that, but the multiple getting rid of paulie
  attempts, the 'our apartment is closing' story, the castles in teh
  clouds, [rubber pig]'s going to work while [brother A] makes cartoons, oh no, sh'es
  going to go to School while he makes cartoons, oh, no they're both
  going to work now, bla bla.
  Sineater: and i can put up with it better than i used to, but sorry,
  there comes a point where i would have to pull one of them aside and
  tell them how i felt
  evile: And every new story was/is just as 'true' as the one they just
  told, 1 day ago 10 minutes ago, whatever.
  Sineater: [rubber pig] is not going to work a damn day if she can possibly
  avoid it
  evile: well, exactly.
  Sineater: "oh my back"
  evile: I just got really tired of hearing all these stories. We're
  going to save Sunken Gardens, I'm having life-threatening surgery,
  [brother A] is going back to school, I'm going back to school, we're going
  to buy a house, bla bla
  Sineater: then get permanent goddamn disability. my mom did. oh but
  gee, they make you get examinations for that, and oh all those
  doctors are biased, and the administration is just out to get us and
  blah blah blah
  evile: Chicken Little marries The Boy Who Cried Wolf. Your brain just
  gets tired of trying to make sense of all these conflicting lies &
  stories
  Sineater: i would not give a shit and would be happy to say "have
  fun" except a) there are kids involved, b) they do a lot of it at the
  expense of the family and c) IT'S THREATENING [brother A]'S LIFE
  evile: Oh, did [rubber pig] tell you, in addition to her mother's 14 suicide
  attempts, apparently her father is not going to live through the end
  of sumer. he's 'very ill' ([rubber pig]'s story)
  Sineater: see she needs a third man, to make the money. one to take
  care of the kids full time, one to take care of her full time, one to
  schlep and toil
  evile: she's just not cute or interesting enough to have that kind of
  harem, sorry. I can't imagine her having much of a golden cooch after
  pushing out 3 cuntdrops
  Sineater: not end of summer, but he's only got a few more years at
  most
  Sineater: uh... yeh.
  evile: Well, according to [rubber pig], hes going to die any day now. What BS
  Sineater: ahh. which is why she treats him so repectfully and lovingly
  evile: yeah.
  Sineater: signing off for a bit. feel free to call if you need.
  ***HUG***
  evile: *hugs* keep me posted :)

410icq w/A

 

evile: Long time no chat. Catch me up! CRW? First meeting with [rubber pig]?
How is you?
SkyeDS: um, how is [brother A]?
evile: I don't know.
SkyeDS: sineater on phone, brb
SkyeDS: [dad] and [mom] will take sineater to SA with them on their way
thru.
SkyeDS: I will go with if invited, but I'm not going to count on that.
evile: They are flying in to Austin? wierd. But OK....
SkyeDS: driving
evile: ooh, yuck.
SkyeDS: so apparently something went down this weekend.
evile: I guess so.
SkyeDS: the polarization seems to be between [mom] and [aunt L], and of
course the attempt happened right after an argument with [dad].
evile: I don't know about 'right after'...it was Thursday, I think.
SkyeDS: I think they had another one.
SkyeDS: but I don't know for sure.
evile: but ...I can't do jack shit for [brother A] & don't want to do jack
shit for [rubber pig]. So I'd rather hear bout CRW and/or your first
imprssion of [rubber pig].
SkyeDS: the first impression thing probably didn't go well.
SkyeDS: the instructions were bad, we were half an hour late, I
thought that would be blamed on me, so I stressed out
SkyeDS: and between stressing out and biochemical insanity (pms), my
neck went out of whack, so on went the collar and the tears I
couldn't get control of.
evile: [aunt L] gave me bad direx to that Trudy's the first time too. I
kept telling her "across from spider house" in hopes she'd mention
that to y'all.
SkyeDS: although I think everybody thought the tears were over the
collar so I just let them think that.
evile: *nods* yeah. said you looked like you were in pain.
SkyeDS: and for some reason I thought it was going to be some
combination of you, [mom], [sister H], & [aunt L]
SkyeDS: I wasn't expecting [rubber pig] & Co.
evile: nope. I had to work half days all day.
SkyeDS: she was fairly quiet at the table
SkyeDS: no one upmanship storeis
evile: And [rubber pig] & [brother A] called & had DRAMA Thursday evening with me,
so it was not known for sure if they'd come or not.
SkyeDS: on the other hand, I thought it rather strange from the
outset that [k/mom] would ask me for a horse story, and after I gave
one, then [sister H] would ask for one
SkyeDS: so that the whole meal turned into one horse story after
another.
evile: [rubber pig]'s oldest is into horses bigtime.
SkyeDS: yes.
SkyeDS: but then it occurred to me, that maybe it was so [rubber pig] would
have no fodder for oneupmanship.
SkyeDS: since she can't one up what she can't do.
evile: I think they were trying to find some commonalities for you &
[rubber pig]'s bunch...but you may be right about the one-up thing.
SkyeDS: maybe it was (consciously or unconsciously) we'll let Skye
talk and that will keep [rubber pig] quiet (lol ... I think maybe).
evile: I think I heard that [rubber pig] just grabbed the person nearest her
and that was her 'audience' for the morning.
SkyeDS: sineater said her behavior at [aunt L]'s was obervedly different than
at the table.
evile: Last 2 times I've seen her, she hasn't said anything to me or
even made eye contact.
SkyeDS: I found it interesting that she wore a midriff baring choli,
dupatta and skirt to breakfast.
SkyeDS: her father is religious/clergy isn't he?
evile: because she's pregnant & did not want anything touching her
stomach. Yes, her father is a rabbi in teh same messianic jewish
temple she attends
SkyeDS: I'm afraid the blame for all this is going to land solely on
you, [aunt L] and [dad] for "too much honesty".
evile: [aunt L]? WTF??? [aunt L] has been nothing but kind to those sicko
fucking ingrates.
evile: and her diseased bastard offspring
SkyeDS: apparently [mom] doesn't see it that way.
evile: WEll, fuck mom.
SkyeDS: I'm sure K isn't thinking clearly at the moment, I don't know
that many people would be if it were their son in the ICU and all.
SkyeDS: and I am considered something of a monster for keeping a
clear, logical mind in crisis. = I'm cold.
evile: Well, it's always easier to be mad at other people than at the
person who has actually misbehaved and hurt you.
SkyeDS: of course very few people ever see the complete breakdown
after all's safe and sound, because I take my migraine and my sobbing
elsewhere.
evile: I got that shit from the V's when mike & X got locked up
and I wasn't immediately THERE to scoop up the kids. I got that shit
when Elaine tried to kill herself and I didn't rush to the ER. It was
not my shitty behavior that created the situation, but much easier
to be angry with me.
evile: I'm with you. I hate crying in front of people.
SkyeDS: easier to be mad at "the other woman" even though she wasn't
the one who violated a commitment.
SkyeDS: I get criticized for not acting like a chicken with its head
cut off during a crisis, that makes me cold and uncaring.
SkyeDS: and then when I allow myself to collapse AFTER everything's
ok, it confuses people, because, everything's ok, so what's my
problem.
evile: Well, I call bullshit on that, and I"m not going to be
anybody's fucking punching bag. This is [brother A]'s bad behavior/poor
choices
SkyeDS: this is going to bring professionals into the situation,
Idon't know if they realized or even thought about.
evile: ick.
SkyeDS: they're not going to just turn him loose when he's physically
better
SkyeDS: you know that right?
SkyeDS: not if they know it was a suicide attempt.
evile: yup
SkyeDS: he'll be required to go through like 7, 10, 14 days or
whatever of forced observation and counseling.
evile: [rubber pig]'s mom has apparently attempted suicide 14 times,
according to L. Maybe it's her.
SkyeDS: well, if the last argument with G was on Thursday, and the
last thing to happen before this attempt was the drive home, then she
had more immediate influence.
evile: *nods*
SkyeDS: I was not thinking when I called, for some reason it didn't
occur to me that you would still be with K, L & H, so o f course you
didn't need to talk to me, like duh.
evile: heh.
SkyeDS: just reflex, on the way home from work sineater said she treated
you badly, so first thought was, call her and see if she needs to
vent, and I didn't think past that.
evile: I do appreciate your call. I wasn't really up to have any
phone conversatins with anyone. D got a 'vibe' and called me Thursday
evening. I haven't had the heart to call her back, either.
evile: I really don't know what to do or think...so I prefer to be
alone and not talk much to anyone.
SkyeDS: CRW was great, from my perspective at least, until of course
I did a hideously heinous thing (accidentally, but that doesn't
ameliorate squat).
evile: yuck.
SkyeDS: I think the story that comes back with [aunt L] is going to be
different than the story that comes back with [K/mom].
evile: Oh, I'm sure.
evile: Mom & I had a talk Thursday after [brother A]'s call that broke my
fucking heart...
SkyeDS: ???
evile: I don't think she likes me as a person. She loves me because
i'm her kid and she has to...but she doesn't approve of anything I do
or say. Upto/including Krav Maga.
SkyeDS: I know she doesn't understand the No Kidding thing. And I am
not happy with Xtal about that, because I'm sure Xtal aggravated
that.
SkyeDS: may I ask a question I know better than to ask?
evile: go ahead.
SkyeDS: does [K/mom] know that with the endometriosis you would have
had a hard time trying to have a child anyway?
evile: I am sure she does.
SkyeDS: and that NK is as much a support group for those who can't as
those who won't?
SkyeDS: I was pregnant once, I nearly miscarried 8 times in 8 weeks.
You don't want to go through that.
evile: I barely even hang out with NK anymore.
evile: She thinks it's wrong for me to know how to break someone's
bones.
evile: And be willing to do it if someone attacks me
SkyeDS: ok, so you respectfully agree to disagree. or is it not that
simple with her.
evile: She thinks my comments re: children are 'hateful'
and 'offensive'. She thinks I'm sad and angry and 'not myself'
evile: I think that's basically where I ended it. "I"m sorry you
think those things. I am who I am, and I'm sorry if you don't approve"
evile: Anyway...glad you had fun (mostly) at CRW. Sharjinka was pretty
ticked about this year's combat events.
SkyeDS: yep
SkyeDS: for good reason.
SkyeDS: of which my heinous hideousness was the least, surprisingly
enough
evile: I don't think I'd ever go on the field in HFS.
SkyeDS: I wish the rest of the CR would just decide to let Bhurtok
play by itself in its own little sandbox
SkyeDS: since they apparently don't know how to play nice with anyone
else in the communal sandbox
evile: yup.
SkyeDS: the raid on Jinx's LJ was completely uncalled for.
(although those things seem to be more trouble than not)
evile: *nods*
evile: nod and smile = my new philosophy of life.
SkyeDS: Kelly had an interesting take, which is that she would have
done what I did or worse so I should get over it.
evile: Or learn from it and do better next time, maybe?
SkyeDS: I will say this much
SkyeDS: maybe they'll think before they start in on Arthur or the
girls again
evile: maybe.
SkyeDS: oh look, it IS possible to push her too far, and it isn't a
good idea.
evile: apparently lots of folks thought it was part of the RP
SkyeDS: all for the better probably
evile: yup
SkyeDS: I think the whining about not having lights to ditch by was
BS because there WERE lights to ditch by
SkyeDS: enough lights to RIDE by
evile: ugh.
SkyeDS: and shade?
SkyeDS: there was plenty of that too
evile: yup
SkyeDS: not on the battlefield no
SkyeDS: but most battlefields aren't shaded
SkyeDS: BD's isn't
SkyeDS: SM's isn't
SkyeDS: Drandmir has a shaded battlefield and a not shaded
SkyeDS: so wtf fights in shade.
evile: they'd find something else to fuss about if it wasn't that.
SkyeDS: and I am really not happy about the "too much safety'" BS
evile: yeah.
SkyeDS: someone had Heat Stroke
SkyeDS: the EMS had to be called
evile: I heard about that.
SkyeDS: and Gabe's attitude was "just because one person had heat
stroke...."
evile: Nice.
SkyeDS: if it had been Gabe or PtA that had the EMS called out they
would have hollared bloody murder
evile: exactly.
SkyeDS: and insisted that no games transpire the rest of teh entire
weekend
evile: heh. probably.
SkyeDS: I don't even know what to think anymore about Gabe & PtA.
evile: jerks!
SkyeDS: it was the biggest and the best CRW ever.
evile: I'm glad.
SkyeDS: biggest = fact, and best = opinion of course, but opinion of
most
evile: *nods*
SkyeDS: onion creek is clearer than a lot of chlorinated pools.
evile: nice. All the water is great this summer. Bull Creek, Krause
Springs. just gorgeous.
SkyeDS: I think Imina camp there when it cools off, just by ourselves
evile: that would be nice.
SkyeDS: last time dad & [brother A] talked was last night apparently
evile: *nods*
evile: Sweetie might be camping this weekend. I think I will bow out,
family drama notwithstanding.
evile: it's too damned hot outside.
SkyeDS: nods
SkyeDS: parents coming this weekend, bringing tractor with them.
evile: and the VW has no A/C. he got a window unit to plug in at camp
sites with hook-ups but that's no good while driving.
SkyeDS: asked for loan for $900 tractor or a used one, getting new
one $2200, gift.
evile: OMG, that is cool.
evile: My phone just flashed that I have 2 msg. No rings, and no
signal, but somehow I got messages. feck.
SkyeDS: :(
evile: At work I don't usually get much signal, if any at all.
evile: whatever it is, I'm sure I don't want to deal with it at work
anyway.
SkyeDS: maybe not.
evile: There just isn't a fuckin' thing I can do. So I don't want to
even know.
SkyeDS: if there's permanent damage to [brother A] sineater will kill her
evile: i know.
evile: I am so confused about the anger at [aunt L]. WTF.
SkyeDS: apparently ya'll have been too harsh in your honesty.
evile: *I* have. [DAD] has. [aunt L] has been nothing but gracious and
cordial. For fucks sake, she just bought that ravening hoarde
breakfast 3 days ago!
evile: She and [uncle B] have been there to pick up the pieces every single
goddamned time any of us kids have fucked up our lives and needed a
place to land.
evile: How fucking ungrateful of [brother A]/[rubber pig]/Mom
evile: And who was it who got the news and immediately drove to San
Antonio? [aunt L]....
SkyeDS: well, the game playing is about to come to a halt I suspect
SkyeDS: once a professional is called in
evile: Hope so.
evile: I have always thought that [brother A] would eventually kill
himself...wierd.
SkyeDS: it is traditionally held that scorpios meet violent ends
evile: interesting, i guess.
SkyeDS: wonder how long the unusual details of the "marriage" can be
hidden from whatever professional gets called in
evile: I don't necessarily think that a 3some is pathological, but a
lot of health professionals disagree.
SkyeDS: yes. sineater met many of them.
evile: it was/is certainly pathological to lie about it.
SkyeDS: yes.
SkyeDS: and it's different when there are children and another
pregnancy involved
SkyeDS: she didn't look 5 months to me, usually showing by then.
evile: especially when you're so forthcoming about the parentage &
previous wierdo relationships
evile: 5 weeks. due in March.
SkyeDS: oh
evile: A bit after [uncle D] and [wife U.] are due, actually.
SkyeDS: sineater said months. got his wires crossed, probably
evile: Interesting coincidence, I thought.
evile: so 5 weeks=1 missed period. woo.

2414 Re: icq w/A

 

• Aug. 2, 2004

   

  evile: You know ...when I first met her, I really did want to give
  her a chance. Okay, so she talks too much and gives TMI...but maybe
  she was nervous. Now...nope.
  SkyeDS: at this point don't know w hat to say, do, or for that
  matter, think
  evile: She's beautiful and smart and interesting...she really could
  be a decent person if she tried at all. But, no.
  evile: me neither. which is why I'd rather go home after work than go
  sit in the waiting room in San Antonio and watch everyone freak out
  or zombie around. fuck that. it's not any good for anybody.
  evile: Checked voice mail. One was Sweetie from a week ago, and one was
  sineater. Not bad. Why it took a week for sweetie's message to
  register...bizarre.
  SkyeDS: sonar0m has same problem often
  evile: technology is supposed to make our lives easier...
  evile: J-Law is so wise. Her email: That's ridiculous. That is
  completely ridiculous. You're right - [aunt L] has always been there and
  done her best by all of you. I know I couldn't depend on my aunt
  (much as I love her) for the kind of love and support she has given
  to your entire family, the kids especially. She is one of the
  kindest, most ethical and decent people I have ever met. I sure hope
  your mom (much as I love her, too) gets over whatever her issue is.
  
  If there's anyone she should be mad at, it's [brother A] for making a shitty
  marriage, returning to same after being booted, refusing in his
  typical stubborn fashion to discuss it with anyone, and then trying
  to kill himself.
  SkyeDS: have to wonder if it isn't bid for attention
  evile: exactly.
  evile: Just a big cry for help. he's in over his head and doesn't
  know how to get out.
  evile: [dad] needs to not beat himself up over this. if [uncle B], a trained
  psychologist, did not see any symptoms to alarm him, how could any of
  the rest of the family?
  SkyeDS: I would dearly love to pick [uncle B]'s head over this
  SkyeDS: I need to pick [uncle B]'s head over ADD/ADHD since so many of my
  clients have/have had it
  evile: trendy diagnosis du jour, imho.
  SkyeDS: from what I understand the real thing is genetic, like
  migraines
  SkyeDS: so it can be controlled but not cured.
  SkyeDS: I know what I do helps, but I don't know why.
  evile: *nods*
  SkyeDS: if I understood what I was doing, I could do it better than
  I'm doing it now
  evile: Omega at the Crossings has a healing/chakra workshop later
  this month that I'm interested in.
  evile: I'm pretty sure it's not necessarily the thing itself, but the
  mental focus/discipline one develops that helps.
  SkyeDS: I'm pretty sure what happens is a rewiring of the electrical
  wires in the head
  SkyeDS: like teaching stroke victims to talk again, walk again,
  wahtever
  evile: *nods*
  SkyeDS: and there are no doubt uncountable ways of doing that
  SkyeDS: Marshal, my 8 am Mon, is 12, and he's no bigger than Meghan,
  who is 7 or 8.
  SkyeDS: but this morning he got over all his stumbling blocks, and
  was able to ride singlehanded while swinging at sineater with a sword.
  evile: heh. cool.
  SkyeDS: told him if he trots by himself next week, we will officially
  promote him to "Intermediate"
  SkyeDS: he trotted today with ground crew
  evile: how awesome is that! very cool.
  SkyeDS: mom is having problems finding a good school to put him in,
  so I'm trying to make up for that too
  SkyeDS: I would not want to be in [uncle B]'s shoes right about now.
  evile: *nods*
  evile: [uncle B] is a rock.
  evile: He ought to send someone a bill after all this :P
  SkyeDS: no shit.
  evile: Mom told me I needed to 'see someone' about my 'problems'
  SkyeDS: my mother tried to have me committed nearly my entire
  childhood.
  evile: ugh.
  SkyeDS: smile nod (and ignore) will come in handy.
  evile: yup.
  evile: I just can't see that I'm so awful....
  evile: Maybe that is a sign of denial and insanity on my part. Or
  maybe it's mom.
  SkyeDS: there is an exercise called Black Mirror White Mirror
  SkyeDS: it has to do with turning negatives into positives
  evile: sounds interesting.
  SkyeDS: that is a VAST oversimplification and I'd have to go look up
  where the entire process was published
  SkyeDS: but I'm sure in t he meanwhile you could devise your own
  methods.
  evile: I'm 34 goddamned years old. I have the right to my opinions. I
  have the right to live as I choose. If someone else doesn't like it,
  they can fuck off.
  SkyeDS: zactly
  evile: As sad as it may be to feel that I'm not living up to her
  expectations, I look around and see what I've accomplished, what I
  have...and it's not so bad. I am a decent, honorable, honest human
  being. I treat people fairly and give lots of second chances. But I'm
  also not anybody's fucking doormat.
  SkyeDS: I finally got it through to my mom that she has made me feel
  inferior since I was 5 years old and that's shaped my life for 30
  years now, and not for the better
  SkyeDS: and of course, she never meant to.
  evile: nope.
  evile: "They fuck you up your mom and dad..."
  SkyeDS: last time Gramma went off on me, I told her, firmly but
  without losing it on her, look
  SkyeDS: all these things you worry about, they don't happen
  SkyeDS: I didn't just do what you were afraid I was going to
  SkyeDS: I didn't even come close
  evile: *nods*
  SkyeDS: in the meanwhile I did a damn good job of executing this move
  with surgical precision
  SkyeDS: now if you can't say something nice, please leave me alone,
  because you're hurting me. a lot.
  evile: worry is guilt turned inside out.
  SkyeDS: "fuck you" and "frankly my dear I don't give a damn" are very
  liberating. even if they have to be watered down/rephrased for
  whatever audience.
  evile: *nods*
  evile: I guess I didn't tell you my interesting revelation: I
  realized that one of my many issues with [rubber pig] & [brother A] is the
  emotional blackmail with kids that I went through with X and dont'
  want to do again. So that's why I am not trying too hard with the
  kids. I didn't realize it consciously until Mom & I talked on Thurs.
  SkyeDS: entirely understandable though
  SkyeDS: even though I knew better, I offered to take half a day off
  to take the kids riding (which was of course refused0
  evile: That was nice of you, anyway.
  SkyeDS: I know why you don't want to get too attached and don't see
  how anyone could possibly attach blame to that
  SkyeDS: <complete doormat when it comes to children, I know it.
  evile: [rubber pig]'s just so nuts...there is no way I could interact with
  the children without having to deal with that. And I don't want to
  see her or talk to her ever again, frankly.
  SkyeDS: no point in having a plan of attack now
  evile: nope.
  SkyeDS: the shit will hit the fan when [mom] & [dad] get there, and
  all battle plans would be off anyway
  SkyeDS: they seldom outlast the first skirmish in general
  evile: I'm following the Prime Directive now. Not Captain Kirk's
  version, either.
  evile: I didn't realize how badly x had damaged me. that makes me
  mad/sad. I feel like a gnawed bone. I got nothing left for anyone
  because of all the damage done...
  SkyeDS: hate to tell you this but I suspect you already have a soft
  spot in your heart for the kids anyway
  evile: ...probably.
  evile: [brother A] & [rubber pig]'s irresponsible air-castle building would not
  peeve me so much if they did not have kids to support.
  SkyeDS: I have no problems with a triad marriage (obviously)
  SkyeDS: sineater doesn't like her using [his  last] name, and I
  understand that
  evile: yeah.
  SkyeDS: sonar0m doesn't use [sineater's last] name, nor do I use sonar0m' name
  SkyeDS: it's the kids that fuck all this up
  SkyeDS: I'm not happy with my little brother either
  evile: yup.
  SkyeDS: I do happen to agree with Dr. Laura for the most part about
  the right way to bring up kids
  SkyeDS: and he won't go back to Georgia because "he isn't happy
  there, has no friends there, has no support system there"
  SkyeDS: ok, fine, but he has THREE KIDS there.
  evile: ugh.
  SkyeDS: so what this tells me is that he'd rather be in New Orleans
  because he likes it better there, than be a parent.
  SkyeDS: now why the hell couldn't he figure that out before he had
  THREE
  evile: too bad. once you have kids, they are your #1 priority, or
  should be.
  SkyeDS: well, I intimated this to my mother exactly once
  SkyeDS: I"ll not say it again
  evile: Prince Goldensprog who can do no wrong.
  SkyeDS: I hope I get to meet them one day, but I don't count on it
  evile: I suspect that if Nanny were alive, [brother A]'s Prince Goldensprog
  status would be permanently revoked right about now.
  evile: That or she'd be raising those 3 girls.
  SkyeDS: both, I suspect.
  evile: well, it's an either/or. If he wasn't the goldensprog,he'd be
  crap and she'd want nothing to do with the little bastids.
  SkyeDS: dammit
  SkyeDS: why do people bring children into this kind of shit
  evile: because to some people 'babies just happen'...
  SkyeDS: I take some small comfort in that when you and I fuck up, we
  only fuck up ourselves, not children
  SkyeDS: and the day a fuckup of mine hurts my "children", I'm hanging
  it up and calling it quits
  evile: yup.
  SkyeDS: Kim has three children
  SkyeDS: one she only has partial custody of
  SkyeDS: two she has no contact with at all
  SkyeDS: and now she's getting married so she can squeeze out more
  SkyeDS: I wish it were possible to shoot her, [rubber pig] and my little
  brother in the face with bazooka.
  evile: depo provera dart gun.
  SkyeDS: rofl, good idea!
  evile: well, not for the brother. but it might be interesting, anyway.
  SkyeDS: thank god he got himself fixed
  evile: smart boy. shutting the barn door after the .... have escaped,
  but at least there will be no more.
  evile: I love my friends. Rio just told me to find out which hospital
  so she can go put her boot in [rubber pig]'s ass.
  SkyeDS: woohoo :D
  evile: Meanwhile I've been rehearsing my homicide trial.
  evile: It's probably not any more right for me to blame [rubber pig] than it
  is for anyone to blame [aunt L]. Just easier.
  SkyeDS: I didn't do it. That's my story and I'm sticking to it.
  evile: yup.
  SkyeDS: has [brother A] ever done this before or threatened to seriously?
  evile: Not that I know of.
  SkyeDS: when he talked to sineater Friday he laid all the blame for his
  miseries at [dad]'s feet.
  SkyeDS: some of which sineater feels belongs there and some of which
  doesn't.
  evile: I am pretty sure [rubber pig] helped with that.
  SkyeDS: problems with [dad] are undoubtedly pre existing
  SkyeDS: they have never been bad enough to precipitate this,
  apparently
  SkyeDS: that leaves an obvious conclusion to draw
  evile: Not even when they lived in the same house & almost got into
  physical fights.
  evile: They'd fight, and bluster and do the chest-puffing threat-
  display Scorpio bullshit...and then everything would simmer down and
  they'd talk and be OK.
  evile: We do have a family history of suicide--mom's father killed
  himself when she was 17.
  SkyeDS: :(
  evile: And god knows I've thought about it enough times...and so has
  mom. But we never did it.
  SkyeDS: the only new thing about the situation is [rubber pig].
  evile: And [rubber pig] does not like [dad] because [dad] wanted to be
  realistic about things and know the truth about what was going on,
  and once asked [brother A] to ask her not to talk in the background while
  they were on the phone.
  evile: And [rubber pig] does not like me, I dont' really know why...she did
  tell me that I remind her of her sister that she doesn't get along
  with. But I can't think of a damn thing that would have made them
  give me the silent treatment on Sunday and then again on Friday.
  SkyeDS: drawing battlelines
  SkyeDS: and doing a damn good job if she's got [mom] at [aunt L]'s throat
  evile: And if she's creating a division between Mom & [dad]. Hasn't
  been mentioned yet by anyone, but I can't imagine them holding the
  same opinions on this situation.
  SkyeDS: and everyone thought I was bad.
  evile: :P
  SkyeDS: it worked out fine in the end for all of us for sineater to spend
  time with his family, and for me not to.
  SkyeDS: this is just too much sturm and drang.
  evile: *nods*
  SkyeDS: if [brother A] didn't really want to die, I wonder if he knows he's
  risking brain damage and/or organ damage. permanently.
  evile: who knows what [brother A] was thinking...that's the one reason I'd
  never do it unless I was dead serious & assured of the results.
  evile: Only thing worse than being alive & miserable with full
  mental/physical faculties is being alive and a vegetable. At least
  now I work and pay my own way in life.
  SkyeDS: I think, if I had to choose, (and I would rather be dead than
  either), I would rather body work and mind not
  SkyeDS: I can't imagine having an active mind and no mode of
  expression
  evile: *nods*
  evile: We saw a movie Thursday that you might like: it's called De-
  Lovely, about Cole Porter . Lots of piano & singing. Not my usual
  thing, but I enjoyed it.
  SkyeDS: :) saw Troy and Van Helsing over the weekend.
  evile: what did you think?
  SkyeDS: was surprised by Troy
  SkyeDS: and VH was fun
  evile: Yeah. VH was a hoot. Like a roller coaster ride with rubber
  bats and stuff. People got upset about it being a 'bad movie' but it
  was just a fun ride, ya know?
  evile: what about Troy surprised you?
  SkyeDS: I didn't expect it to be that good
  SkyeDS: I don't put much stock in Brad Pitt
  SkyeDS: but other than one detail it was very good
  evile: He did a pretty good job, I thought.
  SkyeDS: (Agamemnon did NOT die at Troy, he died in Mycenae when he
  came back, which started the Oresteia)
  SkyeDS: and I have to admit, he was nice to look at
  SkyeDS: as much as I hate to admit that
  evile: I had forgotten the oresteia..you are good !
  SkyeDS: nothing I"m good at is of any practical use
  evile: not true.
  SkyeDS: I warned my mother that that one aspect was not true to
  source, but told her otherwise I thought she would like it and please
  do not acquire the DVD as it would make a good gift.
  SkyeDS: they're coming this weekend and if it's still there I want to
  take her
  evile: *nods*
  evile: nice outing, family time without any social pressure ;)
  evile: I just got some great news--D is pregnant again :) After a
  long time of not thinking she could. I'm happy for them :)
  SkyeDS: why the hell do people do what they do
  SkyeDS: I will never understand
  SkyeDS: hope Phil will be happy to have a little sister/brother :D
  evile: me neither. the world is shitty enough without people who are
  supposed to love you kicking you in the teeth.
  evile: D is waiting until it's a bit further along to tell Josephine.
  She lost one a couple years ago and it was such a hurtful thing for
  everyone.
  SkyeDS: where did I get Philomena
  SkyeDS: dammit I'm going senile in my old age
  evile: heh. that's a good name, too. Maybe that's the baby's name :)
  evile: D calls her 'Phine, maybe that's how you got it?
  SkyeDS: probably so.
  evile: real close :)
  evile: It took me a while to get the names of all [rubber pig]'s figured
  out. I m not good with names.
  SkyeDS: I don't remember their names at all except they call the baby
  Yummy
  evile: Blis, Lyra, and Yummy
  SkyeDS: the girls are pretty
  evile: And they are well-behaved. Nice kids.
  SkyeDS: still wish could shoot bad parents w bazookas
  evile: Blis is starting to get a little drama-queeny as she
  approaches puberty. But she seems to be OK.
  SkyeDS: what kind of example has she got leading her
  evile: [rubber pig] is really quite lovely. Too bad she's such a monster
  inside.
  evile: Apparently [rubber pig]'s mom is drama-freaky too. I only met her the
  once and she did not impress me with her rudeness to [aunt L].
  SkyeDS: lol [mom] said at breakfast she liked drama.
  SkyeDS: I don't think this is what she meant.
  evile: Mom said "I like drama"?
  SkyeDS: I think she meant Drama, as in the subject she teaches
  evile: aha.
  SkyeDS: dont' think there will be much left of [rubber pig] when [dad] is
  done.
  SkyeDS: and I was a little taken aback that she is using the [family last] 
  name
  evile: *sigh*
  evile: Wrong approach. But might be fun to watch, anyway.
  evile: Well, it's about time for me to pack up & move 'em out.
  SkyeDS: hugs
  SkyeDS: you'll have to tell me the magical internet story sometime
  evile: *laff* yeah. it was pretty fucking ridiculous. Thanks for
  being my rock today, honey. I appreciate you.
  SkyeDS: nah
  evile: Yeah, I do. Thanks for caring :)

 

 

 

 

So, [Brother A] & the Rubber Pig were supposed to be at Aunt L & Uncle B's at 11. [Brother A]
called at 10 til 11 to say they were running late. They finally
showed up at 3:20. Aunt L was pissed. Festive & Dave came & visited
until almost 3 but then had to leave for Houston. Bummer!

the Rubber Pig staggered in in some kind of zombie/drugged out looking way and
did not say hello or say one word to me.

She induced vomiting to herself at some point (I had gone to lay
down, I was not intersted in bratty kids, or being pointedly ignored
by the Rubber Pig) apparently they'd made an announcement shortly before the
fingers-down-throat noises that woke me up that the Rubber Pig is indeed 5
weeks along ( she will beat Uncle Bubba by about a month
in producing a new offspring)

Big drama calling her doctor in SA. He prescribed two bottles of
soemthing. One, I saw the label and it was potassium chloride.

I *know* it was not normal vomiting, I have lived in a dorm & been
around enough college girls to know the sound of "finger-down-throat"
yarf as opposed to "actually sick" yarf.

A disgusting display.

[Sister H] had wanted to go to roller derby tonight (luckily I did not buy
tix in advance) but then [Brother A] gave her a sad little story about how
they were not staying the night, so she decided to stay & visit
rather than go to roller derby.

I said teh words 'knocked up" and [Brother A] corrected me that "the Rubber Pig is
pregnant with MY child that WE have been trying to conceive"

Thats greeeaaaaaaaaat. Especially now that TREY has been fired, too,
so NONE of them have a job. Fabulous. They also have a kitten now, in
addition to Paulie. AND all the girls have ringworm.

Dis gust ing.

 

2334 well, shit. [Brother A] & the Rubber Pig are back together.

 

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Date: Thu, 01 Jul 2004 11:43:08 -0500
From: "stepdad"
To: "Erika H"
Subject: THE LATEST

E,
You may already know this. [Brother A] is back with the Rubber Pig. Apparently he
came back not too long after she called everybody and over dramatized
everything. K/mom called to see if she had heard from him and he was
there. Your mom was very angry. It was important to spread the drama
but not important to let K/mom know he was all rigtht. So the Rubber Pig
didn't take the girls and Paulie and go off to Blanco.
I am glad he is OK, I can't honestly say I am glad he is back with
her. This won't be the lat of this kind of thing, I fear.
Talk to you lateer
[Dad]
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Date: Thu, 1 Jul 2004 09:44:45 -0700 (PDT)
From: "evilE"
Subject: Re: THE LATEST
To: "stepdad"


fuck. it's like Chicken Little married the Boy Who
Cried Wolf.

ugh.
===
J-Law to me:

Fuck.


Me to J-Law:
I'm in such a sour mood due to [Brother A] & the Rubber Pig's Joyful
Reunion. Gag. Another SIL that needs killin'. Stakes &
silver bullets, man. And as much garlic & wolfsbane as
I can find at Central Market.
==========
Me to Aunt L:
Sorry to hear about [Brother A] & the Rubber Pig. I guess she just
needs killin'. :(



Aunt L:

Date: Thu, 1 Jul 2004 12:15:33 EDT
Subject: Re: Heard from K/mom about [Brother A]



At least we know why we didn't win the lottery (think smiley face).
I'll pick you up at 11:30 on Friday the 23rd so we can go get your
mom and [Sister H]. Saturday at 2:00 p.m. at Elaine's. Let me know if
Uncle B & I need to transport you and Sweetie. LOVE YA! PS So glad you
were able to get half days - we can sleep in and then run the roads
with you.

me to Aunt L:
Sounds like a plan! I'm really excited about Mom &
[Sister H]'s visit. We are going to have a great time.

Maybe we can do another park thing for "everyone," but
simpler, so we can all escape when the Rubber Pig and/or UB
become too tiresome.

I hope Sweetie makes up his mind about what he wants to do
for the weekend soon. It's aggravating not having my
ducks in a row, ya know? If he decides to come to
Elaine's, we have 1 vehicle that works so we won't
need a ride. But if he decides to do something else, I
will. I hate not having A Plan. Especially when other
people are waiting to hear from me in order to get
their plans made.

So very glad that Chicken Little and The Boy Who Cried
Wolf are back together again. I hope they move in with
the Old Woman In The Shoe and live happily ever after.
Meanwhile, I'm putting on my Cleopatra hat and
floating down De Nial.

 

2317icq w/A

 

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SkyeDS: back
evile: hey :)
evile: How did it go?
SkyeDS: the filing at the SOS was completely uneventful (as usual),
and the research, as I was afraid would be the case, was fruitless
evile: oh well...
SkyeDS: I didn't have enough to search on in the first place, but I
was afraid of that from the outset
evile: yeah...
evile: I was reminded that I have Sangria at home. Why bother with
nasty ol' champagne :P I'm already good to go for my little
celebration of Life Is Good
SkyeDS: I like lambrusco, it's cheap, and it's good if I can get it
from Italy (not riunite)
evile: *nods*
evile: well, it's about time for me to git.
evile: take care going home, people are talking about lightning &
thunder all over the place. You know how weather makes people drive
all crazy in Austin...

 

I got home from work yesterday & there was a tearful-sounding message
from The Rubber Pig on the machine. I did not want to deal with whatever it
was unprepared, so I called Aunt L to see if she knew what was up.

Apparently, Brother A told The Rubber Pig he didn't want to go to the police
academy and The Rubber Pig gave him a choice to do that or leave, so he left.

He drove the van to Lee's parents' house & Trey was going to go to
get it later.

I don't know what Brother A is doing, he hasn't called anyone yet.

The Rubber Pig has Paulie for now. She is taking the dog & the girls & going
to live with her mother in Blanco for a while.

Trey is going home to his parents.

Brother A....? Who knows. Aunt L has visions of sending him back to
Greencastle, or to Montana with Mom. He hasn't had a job in over a
year. Very messed up situation.

BUT...there was/is no bun in the oven *fingers crossed* and so Mom &
[dad] at least won't be dealing with boomerang child with grandkid in
tow. Thank heavens for small favors.

I am sure Brother A is angry & hurt by all of this...but thankfully his
stubbornness will serve him well in this case by (please god) keeping
him from changing his mind and going back to The Rubber Pig.

 

evile: hi :)
SkyeDS: mornin! how did it go Sunday?
evile: Ok. No major drama.
SkyeDS: who showed?
evile: Aunt L, Uncle B, The Rubber Pig's kids, The Rubber Pig, Brother A, Erin, Marca, Marca's son
Sean, Jadey & her dog, and Victoria.
SkyeDS: "interesting" ~ Capt. Jack Sparrow.
evile: *shrug* the groups stayed pretty separate, except for Jadey,
who was lovely & sociable with everybody.
SkyeDS: sineater had a long talk with his dad Sunday night. We didn't
get back from Houston till 8 am Sunday morning because a tired
shredded on the horse trailer at 1 am headed out of Houston
SkyeDS: cost us $146 to get it fixed (we still have no spare for the
trailer) and whatever it's going to cost to get the welding done so
it doesn't happen again.
evile: ouch!
SkyeDS: spent yesterday finding a welder for the trailer.
SkyeDS: rather than working.
evile: *nods*
SkyeDS: apparently [dad] is very mad but still isn't going to come
down here because he can't do anything if he did
evile: yup
SkyeDS: so no drama from The Rubber Pig.
SkyeDS: I find it interesting that I have to take Darvoset every
night when I get home to cut the pain from my work commute -- while
she's in so much pain that she can't keep her own kids but she can
make a holiday drive from SA.
evile: She told Jadey & Victoria her life story with respect to her
marital history & childrens' conceptions, but it wasn't that awful.
evile: Oh, that's the good news: she missed them so much that she
took them home. Eventually. After staying at Aunt L & Uncle B's until 11
PM on a work night.
SkyeDS: took them home for the whole summer I hope
evile: don't know, don't care. Hopefully Aunt L's learned her lesson
about "How to Say NO"
SkyeDS: very hopefully
evile: Oh, and The Rubber Pig borrowed my mix-n-match 2 pc. swimsuit & a t
shirt and I am sure I won't see it again. :(
evile: (granted, I'm a heffer, so there's no way I could wear the
swimsuit, but still...its MINE.)
SkyeDS: :(
evile: Oh well. It could have been worse. Everyone seemed to have a
pleasant enough time, or at least not be so ungracious as to say they
had a bad time in front of me :)
evile: And the unpleasant things were totally beyond the scope of my
preparations & control: pool was crowded, it was very hot, and there
were flies.
evile: I'm pretty sure I've thrown my last party.
SkyeDS: for the summer? or ever.
evile: ever.
SkyeDS: that strikes me like saying I"m never going to ride again.
why?
evile: it's just not enough fun for me anymore.
evile: The last 2-3 parties I've thrown, I've enjoyed the prep, but
when the actual party guests showed up everything was just a blur and
then it was over and there was a mess to clean up.
SkyeDS: nods
SkyeDS: we got to Houston and nobody else showed up
SkyeDS: everybody had individual fires to put out
evile: that sucks!
SkyeDS: so we went to visit with [Sineater's mom] and took two of Mark & Mimi's
adopteds out to the park
SkyeDS: so none of us rode but the kids
SkyeDS: and then we tried to go home and the rest is history
SkyeDS: so now practice isn't in Elgin this weekend it's in Houston
SkyeDS: and guess what. I don't want to go.
evile: Well, at least you got some pleasant family time in Houston.
evile: Couldn't sineater take Jessie by himself to Elgin?
SkyeDS: not going to be in Elgin
SkyeDS: they moved it
evile: Oh, yuck.
evile: *re-reads* duh. sorry 'bout that.
SkyeDS: I might ask Lorraine if she's going
SkyeDS: but even then
SkyeDS: they're going to Diane's, and she keeps more than 40 horses
on 9 acres
SkyeDS: and she says she has room to put us and the horses up? like,
where?
evile: ? no idea what her setup is like...
evile: That's too many horses for the acreage, BTW.
SkyeDS: ok, 9 acres is 2 acres shy of what I have
SkyeDS: and I have a puny little 1450 sq foot house
SkyeDS: no barn, no arena
SkyeDS: which you may be sure she has to have (barn & arena) because
she is United States Equestrian Team in Dressage
SkyeDS: (ooh aah)
evile: *shrug*
SkyeDS: the Lippizaner mare was very pretty
evile: cool :)
SkyeDS: she also carries a bitch union card
SkyeDS: and does not hesitate to use it
evile: that's fairly typical of 'horse people' in my experience.
SkyeDS: Randy asked how practice went, and I told him, well, once we
got past the "boots & helmet" problem the boys had fun and Mirage
finally did the quintain
SkyeDS: and he said what boots & helmet problem so I told him
SkyeDS: see, I was answering my friend randy's questions
SkyeDS: he heard my answers as "Earl Marshal" so now he's going to go
wreak havoc in the equestrian camp
SkyeDS: I asked him, just please, don't use my name
evile: ??
SkyeDS: don't go in there with a flame thrower and the first thing
out of your mouth be "Skye said"
evile: what, they weren't going to let people play because they dont'
have the right equipment or something?
SkyeDS: the boys didn't have boots w/ heels
SkyeDS: nor helmets
evile: And you had a problem with this....?
SkyeDS: there are lots of people including Alexis, the former KEO,
who don't wear booted heels and NOBODY competes with helmets (except
Bridget & Gideon)
SkyeDS: but Bridget and Gideon first said, well it's against the rules
evile: aha. so it waas just a matter of the rules being applied
unfairly rather than uniformly.
SkyeDS: and I said with all due respect the rules recommend them but
don't require them, and the boys were both qualified by Lorraine
wearing exactly what they have on now
SkyeDS: so then it was insurance
evile: *nods*
SkyeDS: and I said, well, ditto
SkyeDS: and then it was "well it's up to the property owner" who
didn't give a damn
SkyeDS: and I said look
SkyeDS: if it's an issue, home is not that far away, we'll just go
home, no big
SkyeDS: so when I told Randy this, it put him in Earl Marshal ass
kicking mode
SkyeDS: and I told him, it isn't Lorraine, the KEO, it's all the
little underlings
SkyeDS: so don't jump her shit, jump the people directly responsible
SkyeDS: and I warned Lorraine and Linda while I was in Houston that
Randy would be on a rampage.
evile: Maybe the concern is because sonar0m & sineater are still kinda new
& need all the protective gear they can get...? or so people think?
SkyeDS: I don't know what Bridget thinks
SkyeDS: but she's made the mistake of getting into it with Linda
before
SkyeDS: and Linda is Lorraine's right hand
SkyeDS: and she makes fun of people who ride Western, to their faces
evile: ugh.
SkyeDS: and this is why I chose HFS over Bryn Gwlad more than a
decade ago when I had friends in both.
SkyeDS: all the dressage people in SCA seem to act this way.
SkyeDS: and I told Randy, look, they do know stuff I don't know, that
I want to know
SkyeDS: so you ignore the bathwater but you don't throw out the baby.
evile: yup
SkyeDS: but I told him, you will see and hear shit that you know is
wrong, even at your basic level of knowledge, from these high and
mighty people
SkyeDS: but there is no point in engaging in a debate with them over
what they do wrong
SkyeDS: because they have serious God complexes, and it's like
teaching a pig to dance.
SkyeDS: and then they'll be stingy with what they do know that is
right, that I would like to know, and you should want to know
evile: yup.
SkyeDS: thing is, he's Earl Marshal. That means all of these people
including Lorraine answer to him
SkyeDS: and I can't get him out of that mindset
SkyeDS: his term ends at AAA the 2nd weekend of July, and hopefully
he will be too distracted to follow through on what he wants to do.
evile: wow.
SkyeDS: I told him, look, Bridget answers to Lorraine, Lorraine is my
friend, if it were an issue to me, I'd just call Lorraine.
SkyeDS: but he put that together with the underling marshals giving
me grief at Steppes, and said, they need to be made to stop
evile: yup
SkyeDS: and I said, but, they are made to stop, all I have to do is
take it up with Lorraine.
SkyeDS: they didn't get anywhere at Steppes, because Lorraine shut
them down.
SkyeDS: I mean, in theory, I completely agree with him
evile: good.
SkyeDS: but I don't like the practice of rocking the boat when there
are other ways and means of accomplishing goals
evile: exactly
SkyeDS: and the last thing I need, with all the people who don't seem
to think much of me, is to have Randy go in there flamethrower
blazing and saying "Skye said"
evile: ugh.
SkyeDS: I suppose I ought to be flattered that my friend the Earl
Marshal would do that.
evile: yeah...
SkyeDS: but it reminds me too much of the repercussions that always
happened when Dad went to school as a Head Administrator to jump
another HA's case over some teacher infraction
SkyeDS: I don't know, I'm probably in little kid mode again, I know I
need to stop that.
evile: Well, you've pointed out a problem, now just step back and let
the people in charge deal with it.
SkyeDS: it is interesting to note, however, that Alexis is apparently
running this next practice, at Diane's place. And neither Alexis nor
Diane wear helmets. And Alexis wears medieval boots that are
completely flatsoled with no heel.
evile: wierd.
SkyeDS: my thought is, Assistant Managers always seem to have more
god complex than their manager bosses.
SkyeDS: hence why assistant is spelled, a-s-s....
evile: heh.
SkyeDS: I believe I notice a difference in attitude and behavior when
these underMarshals are around Lorraine and Alexis.
evile: interesting.
SkyeDS: so what I think they're doing is throwing around their own
weight in their own ponds, but they seem to be too scared or to know
better than to throw that weight around anywhere else.
evile: heh.
SkyeDS: and it suits me just fine to hide behind Lorraine's skirts or
Randy's. <shrug>
evile: yup.
SkyeDS: I am a paralegal. I have no power other than that of my
attorney.
SkyeDS: but my doglike loyalty to my attorney is well rewarded.
SkyeDS: when I give a memo to my attorney relating the facts of some
abuse, I rest assured in knowing it ain't gonna happen again if
someone else values their job.
evile: yup
SkyeDS: no doubt they do deserve it, and I know "lisa" rules (what
they call rules individuals try to enforce that aren't official
rules, I don't know who Lisa is, no one will tell me)
SkyeDS: "Lisa" rules drive Lorraine nuts just like they do Randy.
SkyeDS: So if he approaches Lorraine about it and doesn't like get
combative with her about it, maybe it will all be a good thing
eventually.
evile: as well they should, they undermine the authority of the real
people incharge.
SkyeDS: part of my double gemini heritage is that I"m supposed to
have people skills
SkyeDS: but I don't seem to do well when complex (seem complex to me
anyway) political maneuverings and all these little cabals and
cliques abound
evile: people skills do not always translate successfully
into 'socially retarded geek group' skills.
SkyeDS: I think I am too simple. I'm nice to each and every one
until someone gives me more than ample reason not to be. I have this
conflicting desire to be liked, but I don't want to have to learn or
put effort into whatever one does to be "in"
evile: I can't figure anything out about people, so I'm as baffled as
you by the whole mess.
SkyeDS: I understood this about myself in grade school
SkyeDS: I didn't want to be "in," but if I were going to be disliked,
I just wanted to be left alone
SkyeDS: as opposed to openly persecuted
evile: yup
SkyeDS: I didn't want to hang out at the mall, cruise state line, go
to parties and get drunk
SkyeDS: that was not interesting to me
SkyeDS: I would love to learn dressage and make efforts to do so in
my spare time
SkyeDS: but I can't afford formal lessons right now
evile: *nods*
SkyeDS: and I"m not giving up what I know I know either
evile: right.
SkyeDS: I had two music teachers growing up, that I loved maybe more
than my mother
SkyeDS: and the one I had from like 10 to 18, never told me I
couldn't do
SkyeDS: when I started playing in church, instead of, "don't/can't do
that" she said, if you're gonna do it do it right and took me to the
bookstore and showed me how to recognize a book written at my level
evile: very cool
SkyeDS: ditto when I started doing pops & jazz for general audiences
in various venues
SkyeDS: Peter is a very good yoga instructor
SkyeDS: I just don't pay any attention to his "vegetarian" spiel.
SkyeDS: so between the yoga thing and the music thing, seems to me, I
can take up an informal study of dressage without giving up the
knowledge base I already have.
SkyeDS: and if the purists want to look down at me, that's ok too. I
just wish they'd be quiet about it, but wishin ain't gettin
evile: yup
evile: I think Yoga has been helpful in Krav Maga. I know it has been
for the stretches, but I think that whole coordinating breath to
movement yoga thing is applicable in self-defense, too.
SkyeDS: interconnectedness is of great interest to me
evile: I didn't think about it the first 2 classes, but in #3 the
movement was becoming easier so it's easier to focus on body position
& breath in addition to kicking/hitting the target.
SkyeDS: general note (hehe): do not piss off Kelly or evilE, they
will literally kick your ass for you.
evile: I also noticed in the stretching part of the class, the
instructors dont' say anything about posture, which is key in Yoga.
So, that's a case of taking what I know and what isn't being taught &
making hte best of everything i know + what I"m being taught.
evile: I don't ever intend to start a fight in my lifetime, but if
somebody wants to try and knock me around, I will break them.
evile: One way to look at the stuff with the assistant-jerks
and 'tattling' to Randy, is that there may be other newbies or people
who don't have the personal connection to anyone in charge, so they
haven't said anything or just left without saying anything...so it's
not like you're stirring shit, just pointing out a problem that other
people may not have felt comfortable mentioning.
evile: And hopefully he is good enough at dealing with politics (he
has been elected to a position, yes?) that he'll know how to solve
the problem without causing interpersonal nonsense between the ASSes
and you.
SkyeDS: he strikes me as having infinite tact so I hope
evile: me too
SkyeDS: I didn't intend to be tattling to the Earl Marshal
SkyeDS: I was answering my friend's question
SkyeDS: I'm just afraid of what it will look like
evile: *shrug*
evile: all you have control over is your own words/actions. What
other people choose to hear and react to is up to them...
SkyeDS: it probably should have occurred to me that my friend IS earl
marshal and watch what I said accordingly
evile: oh well. Good thing to keep in mind for the future, nothing
you can do about what is already said & done.
evile: Man....what I wouldn't give to be a fly on the wall when [dad]
& sineater were talking on Sunday :P
SkyeDS: me too
SkyeDS: but you know how sineater is about his privacy
evile: *nods*
evile: I got a letter from Mom, she says that she and [dad] do not
want to be the grandparents raising the grandkids...
evile: Hopefully the fact that The Rubber Pig knows [dad] doesn't like her will
keep the question from even coming up.
evile: My (very mean spirited & hateful ) thought is that once The Rubber Pig
realizes Brother A can't be used for much, and his family won't be used,
either, she will lose interest and dump him.
SkyeDS: it is good there isn't a legal entanglement
evile: The key is not to set up a situation where Brother A feels like he
has to choose between family & 'wife', to just continue to be cordial
without giving them anything or doing anything for them.
SkyeDS: Lamar apparently doesn't care about the one grandchild that's
actually his either, because he doesn't want to take them either.
evile: I just pray that her reproductive system continues to be
uncooperative...
evile: She's a brat, I don't blame him.
SkyeDS: when I asked sineater last night what was said about the
situation, he said Dad's very pissed, Dad's in no situation to do
anything because he's a step, and [dad] being [dad] and Brother A being
Brother A, no point in [dad] coming down, and that was all he told me
evile: And we don't knwo the whole story on that, so I can't really
go there. It's always possible that Lamar *did* offer to take the ONE
that was his, but that wasn't good enough for The Rubber Pig.
SkyeDS: I thought there was some friendliness between Lamar, G & K,
and that perhaps G & K could get info from Lamar, but sineater said that
is not the case.
evile: *shrug*
evile: When Mom & [sister H's dad] divorced, [sister H's dad] "got custody" of the Sawyers,
so Mom hasn't been very close to them since then..
evile: They are cordial, but not bosom friends, if that makes sense.
SkyeDS: Lamar has probably been fed the same bullshit anyway, or some
other bullshit that is still bullshit
evile: yup.
evile: Apparently, The Rubber Pig, Trey and Brother A hadn't told Lamar anything,
it was Sister H's dad G. who filled Lamar in & got him pissed off
about stuff.
SkyeDS: hard to keep things from the parents.
evile: esp. when the parents are still helping pay the bills...
evile: Aunt L said the worst thing about watching the kids was that the
oldest 1) says ugly things to and about the middle ALL The time and
2) pinches/pokes/otherwise upsets the smallest one after Aunt L would
put her down for bed.
evile: Sounds like if someone could get Lamar to take the oldest, Uncle B
& Aunt L would not have had such a tough time with the other 2.
SkyeDS: no one has ever given me children to watch for extended
periods of time
evile: I only took all of X's at once ONE time, when she was in the
hospital. It was a friggin' nightmare.
evile: 1 kid is fine, 3 kids is ....too much.
evile: esp. when the oldest is a manipulative little bitch :P
evile: I took both [goddaughter] & [her brother] once, and [goddaughter] was constantly
niggling at [her brother], so finally he lost it and pitched a fit, and so
he was the one who got in trouble. It sucked!!
SkyeDS: no wonder I'm hungry, it's 2 pm
evile: yeah...it is :P
evile: The Krav Maga studio is, like, 2 doors down from a Chinese
place. I've been craving Chinese insanely since starting classes :P
SkyeDS: I believe it
SkyeDS: Chinese is comfort food to me
evile: me too, i guess.
evile: Oh well, hopefully I can hold out till poly dinner on
Thursday. It's Vietnamese, but maybe that'll be close enough :P
evile: I'm very mystified. The Bryn Gwlad powers that be won't give
me direx to Saturday's practice in Elgin, and here you are saying
it's not even in Elgin at this point...so why are they still giving
me hassles about it??
SkyeDS: didn't know you had asked
SkyeDS: and don't know the answer to the other either
evile: Yeah, sineater mentioned the one in Elgin in passing, figured I'd
be better off getting dates/times/directions from one of the
organizers/hosts ...and they told me I had to join this yahoo group
and email this person and call that person and get on this mailing
list, bla bla, and I didn't feel it was worth all that much hassle
just for what I thought would be a 'pop by and say hi'.
evile: I'm not joining SCA. I have no horse. No point in joining
anything where I do not plan to contribute or participate, waste of
everyone's time.
SkyeDS: you can always come with us any time
SkyeDS: and events are only $3 more for nonmembers
evile: Too much hassle to coordinate rides/meetups/blabla.
SkyeDS: so no point in joining
evile: other than they won't give me directions to the Elgin
(closest) site unless I join. Forget it. I dont' want to see sineater
that damn bad, I guess.
evile: and he doesn't want to see me that damn bad either.
So...whatever.
SkyeDS: I think you would enjoy watching him compete
SkyeDS: so one way or another, eventually, I will make it possible
evile: *shrugs*
SkyeDS: however, tripleA is probably the last horse competition of
the summer, heat and all
evile: that would be the one in/near Houston?
SkyeDS: Canton south of Dallas
evile: aha. Too far for Sweetie's 1 car out of 5 that works.
evile: Plus, since we *are* down to one vehicle, I would not
inconvenience him by taking the car for a whole weekend.
SkyeDS: we will put it on the back burner till fall, no big
evile: yup
SkyeDS: he's good at it, and I'm proud of him
evile: I'm glad he's found something fun to do.
SkyeDS: I suspect the only reason Bridget is nice to me is because
Lorraine told her to be
SkyeDS: Bridget = in charge of Bryn G. Eq
evile: Well...there's no group you're ever going to find where every
single person is a nice human who likes you....
evile: Austin Poly is the closest I've come, and there are still a
few bad apples in that bunch, too.
SkyeDS: nods
evile: So you just have to go out & meet the rest of the group &
decide if the cool people are worth putting up with the stupid ones.
SkyeDS: exactly why I enjoy going anyway
SkyeDS: I hang w Lorraine and Linda and just stay out of everyone
else's way as much as possible
evile: yup
evile: and hopefully the jerks will avoid you and you can avoid them
and everyone can get a good experience out of it.
evile: Most of the unpleasant poly folk are not specifically
inimical to me, they're just unpleasant. So it's not like they make
my life hard or anything...I just try not to sit at their end of the
table.
evile: It would be a different story if there were people in teh
group who specifically wanted to be rid of me, I guess. Luckily I'm
pretty invisible. :)
SkyeDS: the politics of the eq's aren't always easy to figure
evile: being sexually unavailable seems to solve a lot of problems in
Poly. I don't knwo what the horsey equivalent of that would be...
SkyeDS: this one woman who was at steppes was obviously friendly
with Diane, but was riding in a western saddle <shrug>
evile: maybe she just refused to take the comments about western
riders=weenies personally...
SkyeDS: I really do wish someone would do something about Ashia
beating her horse tho
evile: yuck
evile: well, dang, it's about time for me to mosey.
SkyeDS: tis that
SkyeDS: wind to your wings, bella HUGS
evile: *hugs* talk at ya later :) have a safe trip home!

 

Spent Saturday shopping, cooking, cleaning & doing laundry. I now
have $42 to last me to the end of the month. Oh well. What else is
new? I haven't been this poor at the end of the month for a long
time, actually. But it's no biggie. Bills are paid, we have food, all
is well.

Sunday was the picnic at the park. Brother A & The Rubber Pig came up. The Rubber Pig
regaled some of my friends with the lurid details of her childrens'
conceptions & whatnot. (took her '7 tries' to get the littlest one,
she made some comment about the baby's father getting tired of
fucking her so much..EW!!) But she wasn't too awful. Like UB, she
tends to do better in large groups, doesn't talk so much & doesn't
monopolize the whole group, just 1 person at a time who can then be
rescued by the rest of us.

The kids were fine. My friend Tangentsferret brought her son Sean & he
and 'Blis' are about the same age, so they played together well.

Aunt L was frazzled. When everyone was at the pool and it was just me,
her and Uncle B sitting at the picnic table, she said something about the
oldest being a 'little bitch' and poking the baby & suchlike to keep
waking her up, so the last time Aunt L put the baby to bed it was 'one
in the fuckin' morning!'--Aunt L talking like this!! OMG!! She said she
was too old for this, and that it had been a lot different when each
of us came up by ourselves for daycamp when we were growing up.

Good news is that The Rubber Pig missed her babies so much, she and Brother A took
them home last night. *Whew.*