Nov. 16th, 2005

evile: (declutter)

 

    15 Nov. 7:40 am

     

     

    laspartytalk
    created by la-the-sage
    read other people's answers


    description: These are some of the questions I ask people at parties.
    Good conversation starters and a sure fire way of getting rid of
    unimaginative bores.

    Here are eekyfreeky's answers:

    1. Horses, noble steeds of tradition or outmoded indulgences of the
    rich? (all)
    How about C: Phallic substitutes for little girls who are afraid of
    human males.
    2. What's at the top of your Christmas tree? (all)
    No tree. If we had one: a beer can.
    3. Ever sent a message in a bottle? Was it answered? (all)
    I'm sure I did, I was a stupid kid. No answer that I can recall,
    however.
    4. If you died right now, what of yours would you hate for your
    survivors to find? (all)
    Oh...where to begin? My yahoo group that is actually my poisonous
    book. My 'Observer'. All the dust & dirt and animal fur I have never
    bothered to clean out from behind various objects in the house. Some
    high school love letters I've saved for no good reason.
    5. Free plane ticket, where are you going? (all)
    Cozumel.
    6. Want to tango? (all)
    Heavens no.
    7. Favorite movie monster? (all)
    Dracula, of course.
    8. Got any tattoos? (all)
    Yup. (black bat over a blue heart, right hip)
    9. Ever cut your own hair? Did you want to kill yourself afterwards?
    (all)
    Yes. No.
    10. Got a favorite kind of apple? (all)
    Gala.
    11. Are you wearing underwear? Can I see? (all)
    yes. No.
    12. What's the first album you bought? (all)
    Umm...Styx, I think. The one with "Mr. Roboto" on it.
    13. When's the last time you had a peanut butter and jelly sandwich?
    (all)
    A few weeks ago. I bought the most worthless nutritionally void grape
    jelly I could find and boy, was it great.
    14. What's the state capital of Vermont? (all)
    Bongwatertown?
    15. Know any magic tricks? (all)
    I can tie a knot in a cherry stem with my tongue, does that count?

    eekyfreeky's comment on this survey: So when's your next party, and
    do I get to come, or will I bore everyone to death?

evile: (clutter)

    16 Nov. 7:43 am

     

     

    I had seen this girl from afar, cool boots & she had a cute green tail
    but up close not as cute as I thought she was. The boy with her reminds
    me of [Cousin B]. I told him that and he was all like "so I look like redneck
    spawn?"

    It was kinda funny.

    http://www.rensites.com/gallery/album645/DSCF0168?full=1

evile: (clutter)

     

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    16 Nov. 7:58 am

     

     

    Jason (jason_poel) wrote,
    @ 2005-11-15 15:25:00




    There is pain in life. You can't be alive without feeling some kind
    of pain. There are a number of movie quotes that point out how pain
    is often a good sign. Because "it means you're still alive." Most
    people wonder why there is so much pain in the world. They try to
    look for a cause, something to blame the pain on. As if the existance
    of pain in the world is a malfunction, a glitch, an inherent error in
    the design of the world. They think that if the world were perfect,
    there would be no pain. When people ask "why", they are too often
    looking for a scape goat to throw their anger at. What they need to
    be think about more often is, "what purpose does it serve?" Pain
    serves a purpose. Its existance in the world is not a flaw. It was
    designed into life for a reason. And when you see pain, or death, try
    to remember how good it is that there ever was joy, and life. Because
    a life with pain is better than if there was never life at all. Of
    course not all the pain in the world is neccessary. A great deal of
    it is the result of other people being selfish and self-centered.But
    that is a whole nother topic.

    Oh, by the way. This has absolutely nothing to do with anything going
    on in my life right now. It is just an idea that I had while watching
    tv.

evile: (declutter)

    16 Nov. 10:08 am

     

     

    Nov. 16th, 2005 @ 08:41 am Reminders
    Singing in my head: Coldplay - I'll See You Soon

    Tags: personal growth

    My intuition is not always 100% accurate.

    This is a situation outside of my control to avoid, not out of my
    control to change, but I don't want to be a person who would do that.
    I could *easily* make it harder. I don't want to.

    It really is okay to let things happen as they need to happen. I am
    not worried about this negatively impacting me, I just would like to
    avoid pain if possible. Its not possible, so sit back and learn
    something.

    Meditate on WHY I'm so strongly triggered by this situation.

    I do NOT want to surround myself with people who put my perspective
    above their own. This means sometimes my desire to take care of those
    I love will conflict with my desire to be in co-operative
    relationships, instead of codependant ones. They are grown-ups too,
    treat them as such.

    Breathe. Open your mouth and say...

    Open your mouth
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    From: eposia
    Date: November 16th, 2005 - 03:19 pm

    (Permanent Link)

    love you, thinking of you(Reply)(Thread)

    From: anathemacsj69
    Date: November 16th, 2005 - 03:23 pm

    (Permanent Link)

    Thank you darlin. It helps.(Reply)(Parent)
    From: oracle_tx
    Date: November 16th, 2005 - 03:36 pm

    The Elephant says... (Permanent Link)

    Remember, the person that trusts your intuition may not be co-
    dependent. If they just trust your intuition, then it is their choice
    to follow it, not caused by their neurotic-ness.

    On the other hand, if you get a hunch they should give you $100 and
    they do, then they're your co-dependent sugar daddy/momma. Try not to
    piss them off or they might go buy a gun.(Reply)(Thread)

    From: anathemacsj69
    Date: November 16th, 2005 - 03:41 pm

    Re: The Elephant says... (Permanent Link)

    Sugar daddies and mommas are allowed to be co-dependant. Hehe

    I see a difference between trusting my intuition and putting my
    perspective above their own I guess. Kind of a fine line though. I
    don't have any interest in someone making choices based on my gut
    feelings and then coming back later and saying 'But you said so!' Its
    still their responsiblity to make the best choices for themselves.

    I DO hope that anyone who cared for me and/or trusted me would at
    least take my instincts (or insecurities as the case may be) into
    consideration at least.(Reply)(Parent)
    From: Maggiemaepiscesmoves
    Date: November 16th, 2005 - 05:03 pm

    (Permanent Link)

    *hugs, love* Feel free to email or call if you want.(Reply)(Thread)

    From: anathemacsj69
    Date: November 16th, 2005 - 05:33 pm

    (Permanent Link)

    Awww thankee Be careful what you offer. Hehe(Reply)(Parent) (Thread)
    From: Maggiemaepiscesmoves
    Date: November 16th, 2005 - 05:38 pm

    (Permanent Link)

    call, text or email whatever, whenever you want. I can take it!

evile: (clutter)

    16 Nov. 12:59 pm

     

     

    evile: nice photos :)
    skye_dsDS: tante grazie :)
    evile: Nobody came to Mt. Bonnell last night. I'm feeling
    irrationally upset and self-hating over it. argh. Hate that crap.
    skye_dsDS: don't try to invalidate feeling. just feel it, until you
    don't feel it anymore. don't hold on to it, but don't try to push it
    away, because that usually doesn't work.
    evile: I'm not good at that, at all. It's stupid and I have no right
    to feel that way, so I just need to fuckin' QUIT

    evile: I hate things that make no sense. HATE them.
    skye_dsDS: I know that. Believe me.
    skye_dsDS: your logic will be much happier when you quit applying it to
    feelings.
    evile: ANyhoo...not posting on LJ until I get my head out of my ass,
    that's for sure. I am sure people are sick of my pity parties and
    my 'look at me, i'm needy' bullshit.
    skye_dsDS: I doubt that. <hugs>
    skye_dsDS: acknowledge the feeling and that it is feeling, not logic,
    and it will be easier to just quit. ymmv.
    evile: majorly overreacted to Jinx's posting re: her boyfriend.
    skye_dsDS: I thought about responding to that but I doubt I can suggest
    anything that hasn't already been tried.
    evile: *shrug* I get tired of caring about people who don't care
    enough about themselves not to let themselves be mistreated.
    evile: need to quit feeling about THAT too.
    skye_dsDS: ::gently:: I understand wanting to quit feeling, because
    feeling defies logic and is all kinds of inconvenient. but it
    doesn't work that way...
    skye_dsDS: lol @ people who think I'm a stone cold bitch who doesn't
    feel at all.
    evile: I just get tired of being the big bag of cunts because I'm the
    one who dares to 'attack' The Beloved by saying 'gee, you don't
    deserve to be treated so badly, maybe you should do something about
    that'
    evile: caring just gets me fucking kicked in the fucking teeth, I'm
    sick of it, and I don't want to do it anymore. So I need to figure
    out how to stop.
    skye_dsDS: ...good luck...
    evile: yup.
    evile: At my age, I've done all of this crap enough times that I
    ought to be better at it.
    skye_dsDS: I don't remember who said it (it may have been Ayn Rand) but
    people do treat you t he way you teach them to treat you
    skye_dsDS: and that's all you told her
    skye_dsDS: I don't see your advice as b eing any different than the
    first commenter's
    skye_dsDS: just more brutally frank
    evile: I am pretty sure it was another situation where the person
    wasn't looking for advice, just blowing off steam, and I stuck my
    foot in up to the knee.
    evile: need to learn from my mistakes. I never ever do.
    skye_dsDS: if they don't want advice they should say so
    skye_dsDS: everyone knows this
    evile: *shrug* or disable comments. Oh well. like I said, made the
    same mistake enough times, I need to learn from it.
    evile: The good news is I leave at 3 today because I had phone duty.
    And it was relatively untraumatic, except for the fact that my voice
    is kinda shot from allergies/congestion/sore throat.
    skye_dsDS: Onyxxlynx is very good about saying I'm disabling comments
    because I'm just thinking out loud
    evile: yup.
    skye_dsDS: boy did I complicate my friends list last night
    skye_dsDS: I added like a dozen groups
    evile: wow. that's a lot of reading.
    evile: Yahoo is being insufferably slow today.
    skye_dsDS: I have been instructed to figure out how Hugh and I can text
    back and forth from yahoo to his cell phone
    evile: I'm sure it can be done.
    evile: 1 hour to go. Seriously tempted to take a sick day tomorrow.
    I'm just exhausted. Didn't sleep well last night. Allergies don't
    help.
    skye_dsDS: allergies constitute sick
    skye_dsDS: I've run in to a couple of HORRIBLE guys who /thought/ they
    were Dom; but any man who can't control himself nor his emotions and
    business DAMN SURE can't control me, nor does he deserve to be called
    Master. Masterbator is more apropos.
    evile: What brought that on?
    skye_dsDS: something I read in a comment in a community. just struck me
    as true.
    evile: aha
    skye_dsDS: and I thought you would understand too, about Domly Doms and
    all that
    evile: yup. I want to do the SAADE training, but I just don't have
    the time they require. It's a great program...I really want to.
    evile: I guess the BDSM world is just as prone to the geek social
    fallacy type stuff as any other subculture of misfits.
    skye_dsDS: nods
    evile: Unfo in the BDSM world, unlike D&D or wherever, you fuck up
    and you can REALLY hurt people.
    skye_dsDS: yes
    skye_dsDS: you should see the whole thread that comment was to
    evile: I'm sure it would just depress me or make me mad, in the state
    of mind I'm in today.
    skye_dsDS: probably
    skye_dsDS: suffice it to say it more than eloquently proves your last
    point
    evile: sad.
    evile: well, I'm headed out. I might take a sick day tomorrow, so see
    ya....whenever.

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