2241feeling better

 

 

 

Jun. 3, 2004

 

 

had a very nice time at Poly dinner last night. Saw lots of people,
got hugs, talked a good bit with Niki. New person "Brandi Eileen" was
just too much like The Rubber Pig/Skye_ds for me to like, but I'm sure she's
wonderful. She was not nearly as toxic/talky/freakish as either, just
had a few of those type of mannerisms.

Played with Ms. Moo,, Kulilinei's 5 yo daughter--what a great kid! She smiles
all the time, has a great imagination, takes turns, does cartwheels &
sings...just very cute.

anyway...nice evening. I was at CM until almost 11.

2242the 9th anniversary of our 1st date

Jun. 3, 2004

 

Sweetie doesn't listen to me anymore, I don't know why I bother talking
to him. I was telling him about my evening & my interesting talk with
Nikiyoy & eposia, and he didn't hear me at all.

I said I love you a bunch of times this a.m. and I don't think he
said it back at all...even said once "you've said that already this
morning" or some such.

stupid passive aggressive bullshit. I've said it before, we probably
need to break up & go our own ways.

I also need to get a PT job. If I worked somewhere in Capital Plaza,
I could just get off the 37 bus on the way home from [work] and go on &
work.

*sigh*

2248icq w/a

Jun. 3, 2004

 

 

evile: Hi :) I am totally wishing it was FRIDAY already...
SkyeDS: nods
evile: I stayed up too late last night...it was worth it, but I'm
tired today!
SkyeDS: I got a call at 11 pm last night from Maria's daughter
wanting to transact business
evile: good lord.
SkyeDS: Kelly had already made me an offer to buy the stuff I had to
take too
SkyeDS: you know she got hit 3 times for 10K
SkyeDS: oh well
evile: yeah, so you said.
SkyeDS: I told them, one, 11 pm is not business hours
SkyeDS: two, you have to pay Nancy or I'll not speak to you about
paying me
SkyeDS: and three, this will be done at my convenience, not yours
evile: *nods*
SkyeDS: the baby's parents backed down off the ultimatum yesterday
SkyeDS: so all is good there
evile: good
SkyeDS: they finally, who knows why it took this long, decided that
maybe having a relationship with their s on was more important than
the rest of their BS
evile: good for them.
evile: Im sure that took a lot.
SkyeDS: went out for his dad's bday yesterday, that was good
evile: *nods*
evile: Poly dinner was good. It's the last 1st Wed. I'll be at for a
couple months, so I'm glad I got to see so many people.
SkyeDS: :)
evile: Hopefully I can catch some of the Thursday dinners in June &
July so I won't miss out completely.
SkyeDS: what's happening with yoru weds
evile: Krav Maga classes. The Tu-Th started too early to get to, so I
had to settle on messing up my Wednesdays for a month and a half...
SkyeDS: oh t hat's right
evile: Hopefully it'll be worth it...
SkyeDS: nods
evile: Looks like I might be skating with onyxlynxx next Tues :)
SkyeDS: :)
evile: That makes me happy. I am starting to branch out & do stuff
with people outside of meeting for group stuff. :)
SkyeDS: :)
evile: I found sineater a hilarious shirt at Academy. He'll either love
it or hate it :P
SkyeDS: whatzit say
evile: It's a hawaiian shirt with parrots & greenery all over it.
TACKY!!!
evile: He will probably take one look at it and start pointing out
the inaccuracies of the birds' coloring...
SkyeDS: prolly lol
evile: Oh well. I liked it & thought of him when I saw it, so I
bought it.
SkyeDS: aw
evile: I always find presents for people when it's nowhere near any
sort of giving-holiday-thingy. And then when it's time to find bday
or xmas, I come up empty.
SkyeDS: just don't give them out until bday or xmas.
SkyeDS: brb food
evile: The bad thing is, Hawaiian shirt is good for summer--now. No
telling what the weather will be like Nov 4, or Xmas. ...
evile: Maybe I'll just mail it, so I dont' have to watch him struggle
NOT to look horrified at the tackyness of it :P
SkyeDS: it won't occur to him t hat it's tacky
SkyeDS: have you seen his hawaiian shirts
evile: I don't think so...
SkyeDS: oh yes
evile: Greg's got quite the collection, too.
SkyeDS: many of them
evile: well, he might actually like it, then. That's a nice thought.
evile: I'm not as bad as Aunt L, but I do sometimes buy someone
something because *I* like it, not because I think they'll like it..
SkyeDS: and I will probably like this one much better than the orange
one and the urban cammo gray one
SkyeDS: orange cannabis, I should say
evile: Nothing can ever be as bad as L--she bought Uncle Bubba pig
Xmas ornaments for *years* even though Uncle Bubba hated them.
evile: orange and drugs. yay.
SkyeDS: thinkin bout goin back on the wagon for my bday
evile: that would be a good landmark
evile: my 34th bday=highest weight of my entire life. :(
SkyeDS: :(
SkyeDS: I'm basically back where I started when I went on the diet on
my birthday in 98 I think it was
evile: suck :(
SkyeDS: which is needless to say, the highest of my life lol
evile: *hugs*
SkyeDS: <hugs>
evile: People hang entirely too much self-worth on externals. I dare
say you have improved your life, your SELF very much since your bday
in 1998.
SkyeDS: I think so, maybe
evile: I definitely think so.
evile: lets see...1 year ago: I was living in fear of X and [husband]'s
retribution, you were having troubles at HFS due to Kim stirring. You
and I have both risen above those situations & become better people
for it.
SkyeDS: according to Rita I still have problems with Kim, lol
SkyeDS: and she and Kit (who is sonar0m' age) have "set a date"
evile: great...I wish them every happiness together.
evile: Happy people have less time & inclination to inflict misery on
others. :)
SkyeDS: I want to know if little Kim will be a bridesmaid
SkyeDS: <grin>
evile: 2 yrs ago, you and I werent' speaking. We got over ourselves
and have a better relationship (IMO?) in the aftermath...
SkyeDS: true :)
SkyeDS: and as much as I would like people to be happy in general, I
don't think that's going to happen with the newly engaged
evile: Well, best you can do is just hope for the best & move on &
hopefully they will too.
evile: The nice thing about keeping an online journal is you can flip
back and see where you were at any given time in the past. I often
feel like I'm just running around in circles, not getting anything
done, but looking back I think I have done a few things to be proud
of....weight notwithstanding..
SkyeDS: can always lose weight
SkyeDS: although it gets harder the older you get
evile: yup.
evile: I met someone you may have known way-back-when in HFS. Her
name is Brandy Eileen aka: Diva & some 3-4 other names I can't
remember.
SkyeDS: I would probably only remember if I saw her
SkyeDS: none of those names rings bell
SkyeDS: plus, many more people remember me than other way around (the
horse and bird thing)
evile: She reminded me a bit of The Rubber Pig...
evile: She was in HFS pre-horse. Possibly even pre-bird.
evile: She knew Garriott.
SkyeDS: ah
SkyeDS: Garriott got me into HFS in the first place
SkyeDS: she would have known me as teh Unicorn then
SkyeDS: get to leave at 5 today
SkyeDS: what a novelty
evile: nice :)
evile: I am so fricken tired. I wonder if I should just go to bed and
forget anniversary stuff.
SkyeDS: maybe so
evile: Let Sweetie go play VW stuff by himself. Or maybe I could just nap
when I get home & see how I feel when it's time to head that way...
SkyeDS: even better idea
evile: *fingers crossed*
evile: I sometimes go to nap and wake up 8-9 hours later going 'WTF!?'
SkyeDS: nods
SkyeDS: have to admit it's nice to sleep till whenever I feel rested
in the morning
evile: yup.
evile: Well, I have to hit the copier before I do my other stuff, so
I'll sign off now.
SkyeDS: hugs, wings to thy wings bella :)
evile: *hugs* take care!