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[evile]

 

Jun. 5, 2003

 

 

slept about 12 hours from 5:30 yesterday afternoon to 6 this a.m.
woke up when the phone rang around 10--it was my mom.

She is off to Montana to drop off her household furnishings from her
NM house, she'll be teaching blackfeet indians at the christian
brothers mission or somesuch.

Then she & [stepdad] will make their way back to Indiana. Poor little
Mooshi-cat. He gets carsick.

A couple things from the conversation:

1. indian tribes are prejudiced and racist against one another. (sad!
but human--I see this in pagan groups, christian groups, enviro-
groups,etc. waste lots of time fighting among themselves over minor
variations in dogma rather than uniting for those causes they have in
common)

2. I've always been 'judgemental' and 'righteous', always had a big
sense of right & wrong. Mom is not surprised I reacted as I did in
the X sitch, and says that X has known me long enough, she
should not have been either.

3. she just read thru the letter quickly & didn't do anything other
than send it to me. X's never written anything that long before.
Mom wasn't sure what to think of it. Especially disliked the part
about me getting closure with the children (If I had responded to his
ultimatum of 'you have until tonight to say goodbye to my children'
he would have 'softened'...according to X. There is NO way I was
walking into that house under those circumstances. None. )

4. 'nobody messes with my firstborn' was her response to me being a
little upset that she'd taken a side...no reason to, IMO. But...I am
a little gratified, I guess, that she took my side.

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Festive called right after that, he went to Vegas over Mem. day
weekend--had a great time, only lost $18. Only went to one buffet
(Mirage)! Excalibur was a madhouse. Loved the elevators in the Luxor,
saw the lions at MGM Grand and tigers at Mirage. The charro show he
had tickets for had been cancelled, but he saw someone else instead.
I want to say somebody Boone? ? don't remember. Invited us to stay
with him, or David, either one, when we come to town this weekend:)
That was very sweet.

I love my friends & my family.

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I've been really hungry the past few days. No idea why. It's wierd,
because I know what real hunger is, like 'no money & no food for a
week' hungry..but you can't argue with your tummy & say "you're not
really hungry, you're [bored, sad, angry, whatever]"...it still feels
hungry.