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[evile]

Jan. 2, 2004

 

 

I think I'm giving up my online public journals. They're not fun, and
I don't have anything to say, and...blah. just blah.

I am not going to do any kind of attention-getting 'pail & shovel'
type thing, but just quit posting.

I am just really & truly bored and tired of life.

I hate my job.

I mostly dislike my home.

I usually don't really care one way or the other about anything else.

I don't have anything I'm looking forward to this year--and any
possible thing to look forward to is riddled with debt & guilt at the
same time.

Mom wants me to come visit her in MT. I will go. but it will cost $
and I won't have cash so I'll be charging it.

Cousin B wants to go on a cruise. Bleh. I'd rather just go to Cancun or
Cozumel directly and skip the boaty crap. For the first time in a
long while I haven't totally enjoyed every second I've spent with
him.

I need to get my HSG and then my endometrial ablation and get off
depo.

I am turning in my car on April 1, so won't be able to go anywhere on
my own for the rest of the year. Will save $ but not be fun.

possible cool things that might not be too expensive:

Hot springs national park in AR

Big Bend n.p. in west TX (hot springs & wine tasting)

But mostly I am poor and in debt and will never get out unless I just
work and pay and don't do anything else.

exercise? diet? not too motivated on either one. Nothing to live for
nothing to be attractive for, and the weight is not posing a health
problem, so why bother.

yay. I love new years.