1790bad ju ju

[evile]

 Dec. 18, 2003

 

 

Sweetie was pooty to me when I got home last night, he won't send his
Xmas cards for whatever reasons. I bought them, I let him pick out
which ones he liked best, I stamped them, I put return address labels
on them, and now they are sitting next to his laptop, which he uses
for hours and hours every day when he gets home from work. I know
some of it is job-hunting, posting resumes, etc. But I also know that
a lot of it is reading fark.com and chatting online with his freinds.
I'm sorry, but if you have 5 hours between the time you get home and
the time you go off for beer with M or go to bed, you've got time to
sign your name and put addresses on the envelope. And you are a grown
adult human who does not have broken hands, and I am NOT your mommy
or your wife. So do it yourdamself, and if your friends and family
don't get a card and blame me, well...fuck 'em.

He is doing his family like he did Nickie. Never washed her, brushed
her, walked her, or made regular vet appointments for her. But was
just so distressed when she died.

Show some love while they're alive, goddamn it.

I'm so frustrated with him.

And of course his good start on getting the kitchen table cleared of
his junk has stalled out. With lots of envelopes on the floor between
the living room and the dining/kitchen area. Which are exactly where
we walk from kitchen to LR, so they're getting kicked around when we
go in & out of the kitchen, and eventually one of the cats is going
to decide that they're kitty litter.

argh argh argh.

Must stop being bitter and evil towards the sweetie.

If I could find a way to pay the mortgage, I would *so* give him the
boot right now.

I do everything else. I am the one who spends money on new stuff for
the house. I am the one who cleans.

He only mows the front yard.

argh argh argh.

Must stop being bitter and evil towards the Sweetie.

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1791Re: bad ju ju

[evile]

Dec. 18, 2003


Oh, I also had a nightmare that X emailed me on my yahoo email
account, using a new email addy that I hadn't blocked.

I guess it's because I was talking about her with J-Law yesterday. I am
hurt/peeved that X was begging and begging me to at least be involved
with the children, so when I said "Ok, I don't want to talk to you or
see you ever again, but the children are welcome to call or email me
any time, and I'll be glad to help with taking them to support
groups, church,e tc." she never emailed again. Nor have the children
emailed or called.

As I said to J-Law, I am glad X is not smart/evil enough to coach
the children on how to call me & manipulate me into giving them stuff.
But I do miss the kids from time to time.

1792Re: bad ju ju

[evile]

Dec. 18, 2003

I still don't know if Sweetie's going to drive to FL to visit his family
for Xmas either. Dell is closed from the 22nd to the 29th, so he was
thinking he'd drive and visit his mom, Mamaw & Aunt Marthe. Naturally
he has not decided yet, and if he *does* go he is going to leave all
his shit lying around for me to deal with. Since I don't know where
it goes, I just haul it to the bedroom and stack it up. Which I've
done the last 2-3 times we've had guests. The bedroom is now half
full of his shit now. There is a u-shaped area of carpet around the
bed where we can walk and the rest is either dressers or crap.

Goddamn how I hate the crap. And he just doesn't *see* how bad it is.
At all. It's horrible.

Oh, BTW, the Vanagon isn't running anymore & apparently hasn't been
for some time.

I am gonna be so fucked when my lease runs out and I lose my wagon.
But I can't take the expense anymore, and if all I do is go to work
(on the bus) and come home (on the bus) I won't spend as much money.
And maybe that means I'll spend more time in my work room making
stuff. Or more time in the yard, doing gardening. Or more time
cleaning house. So, really, it's a win. Except when I have Dr. appts
to go to or something. Which, after March, hopefully will be very
rare.

Speaking of Dr stuff, I was on hold for about 10 min at blue cross
(after pressing many many buttons) and finally gave up. I want to
make sure I don't need to do anything besides make the appointment
with the austin radiological folks. I don't want to get fucked
because I didn't get it pre-approved, or get a proper referral or
whatever.

This time of year is too much stress.

I hate it.