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Aug. 1, 2005

I already posted this once, but yahoo ate it. I edited it slightly to
post in LJ (left out the parts about [Dad] giving sineater and Kate money,
because I don't think sineater would be happy knowing people were in his
business like that. I know he feels guilty and like a f up anyway,
all the time, because of skye's abuse, so why drive it home that Mom
knows the extent of Dad's bailing him out, etc. and make him feel
more worthless. It's all HER but sineater takes it on himself...suck suck
suck.)

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Email from Mom:

[brother A] is in trouble--I know, what else is new? But
this is something you and Sweetie could help him with
if you could find it in your heart to lay aside some
of your feelings about [brother A], [rubber pig], the kids, Trae
and the whole situation

He needs a car to get to work. Could he borrow or
buy one of the Troopers?

[brother A] doesn't know I'm writing to you about this,
so if you can't or don't want to do anything, that's
100% ok.

Sometimes I get so frustrated because I can't do
anything about something I feel very strongly about.

Or I feel that if we start sending [brother A] money, it
will be this never-ending drain. I have no job, so
it's easy for me to say no, but [dad] feels very
conflicted about it.

But this would be a one shot deal for you and Sweetie,
if you decide it is something you could do. And
maybe it will be a way for you and [brother A] to start talking
again.

He's pretty much cut himself off from family and
friends, as you know.

Anyway, think about it. It was hard for me to
write this letter, but it's even harder seeing how
distant you and [brother A] are and the rift growing every day.
I love you both. Thanks, Mom

My reply:

I don't own any cars. They are Sweetie's. I will forward
this to Sweetie, but it is absolutely positively 100%
NOT my decision to make. I don't do anything with the
cars besides occasionally buy gasoline, Sweetie pays for
everything having to do with them. They are his
cars.

I am sorry as hell that [brother A] is in the situation he
is in...but really, you've said it: if I was in a
relationship with him, it would be a neverending grab
& gimme and nothing but drama and misery all the
way.
I don't have the time or energy to give to that. I'm
sorry if that hurts your feelings, but I can't live
like that. I have tried *very* hard to refrain from
saying anything negative about [brother A]/[rubber pig]/drama in
front of you, and that is as much as I can do.
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I posted in my LJ for sineater, with this comment:

I know this is just going to kick up another shit storm, or make Mom
mad at Sweetie for being so "unreasonable" and not giving [brother A] one of his
cars. ([brother A] *buy* one from Sweetie? WITH WHAT MONEY??? And it's not like
San Antonio has a shitty public transit system like Austin does. Oh
well. I didn't say either of those things to her, so I guess I didn't
do as bad as I could have. I am sure I could have managed something
more diplomatic, or just not replied. Dammit. I love all these
fucking no-win situations my loving family is forever sticking me
into.
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Mom's reply:

Date: Mon, 1 Aug 2005 07:42:55 -0700 (PDT)
From: mom
Subject: Re: do you have a car [brother A] could borrow for awhile?
To:me

No, it doen't hurt my feelings. A mom can always
hope. Thanks for forwarding the emil to Sweetie. Love, Mom