ErikaJournal Feb. 6, 2003

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1185 Re: last nite

 

Feb. 6, 2003

 

 

Note from Kaleon:

Date: Fri, 07 Feb 2003 01:03:09 +0800
Subject: Re:

Like i said in ICQ lastnight, I think you had the interest of the
other Jason at least, lol. I had a dream bout skye lastnight. We were
in the same house and avoiding each other and I was thinking bout
making contact then I walked off into another room where there were
two women and I forgot all about skye. Was wierd dream, very isoteric
in a lot of ways.

Anyway, X tickled me lastnight by being so anti-skye, lol, I like
people being honest around me, no matter what their feelings are. I
used to prefer for people to only be mean or talk about me behind
their backs cause what i didn't know didn't hurt me. I think it's
better the other way now, I can face the problem and either decide to
let it slide or know where my true friends are.

 

1186Re: last nite

 

Feb. 6, 2003

 

 

From J-Law
Subject: Re: denouement

I would avoid X, too. It sounds like she is doing a marvy job of
fucking up her life.

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1187Re: last nite

I wrote back:

I wonder if I should warn Max about getting involved
with X? He just broke up with his GF a few months
ago...but he IS pretty smart, so he probably won't
fall for her line o' crap. Plus I told her he is no
good in bed. :P

She asked me the wierdest question last night as she
was dropping me off home; "What are you _looking_
for?" I'm not looking for anything, I'm just enjoying
the company of interesting, intelligent, attractive
people who like me as I am. Maybe she is the one
'looking' and is projecting her dissatisfaction with
her life onto me.

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1188 Re: last nite

 

Feb. 6, 2003

 

 

J-law wrote:

If Max just broke up with someone (esp. if it was a LTR), a warning
might be in order... he could be more susceptible to 's
B.S./charms.

BTW, that was funny what Tom said about her pretending to be the
person who is compatible with Max.

I can't believe X is screwing around on M, and then gets
all "offended" when that dude feels her up. What a hypocrite.

She is definitely projecting. And she wants someone else to
reinforce what she is doing with her life.... like, this is what I am
feeling, and I hope you're feeling it too so you can validate me.

Whatthefuckever.
 

• 1189: to Kaleon

 

Feb. 6, 2003

 

 

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*lol* interesting dream. I think your subconscious
has a lot of wisdom & you're working things out for
yourself. A will always be part of you; your
first love is a powerful influence on any
relationships that come after. She'll always have a
place in your heart (the house of your dream?) And
that is healthy & good to acknowledge.

I am bad about talking about people behind their
backs. I know it's a bad habit and I try not to do it,
but sometimes I do slip. I think X is honest when
it suits her, and often honest for the mere purpose of
being shocking and/or hurtful. But...I do that too, so
I really cant' criticize too much.

I try not to talk bad about A around you, or
bring her up at all if I can help it, because I know
you have feelings for her and I don't want to put you
in a position of feeling like you have to defend her.
Even if you agree with the person criticizing, it's
sometimes hard to hear that kind of stuff.

A pisses me off at times, but I am trying very
hard to have a meaningful, decent relationship with
her. She has many good qualities and I want to be
around to encourage her to develop those. Greg and
E's Nana once told me that they noticed her
behavior had gotten better and they thought it was
because Tom & I were having dinner with them every
week. I think if she has more positive,normal people
in her life, it will help her.

But, I don't like the way she treats E at all, and
after the H./horses/Setlers' park incident, I told
them both that I won't stay around if she is being
ugly to him, whether he 'deserves' it or not. I think
they respect that boundary and understand that I can't
be around when that stuff is happening. I love him too
much to stand by and let someone yell at him, and I
care about her friendship too much to jeopardize it by
defending him, especially when he doesn't want
defending and that makes them both mad at me.

I think it's very healthy of you to accept X's
ragging on A and not to take it personally or
feel bad about it. People can like you without
necessarily liking your other friends/girlfriends/etc.
Alot of people think they're a package deal "love me,
love my loved ones" but I don't see that at all.

Anyway, I've rambled on a bit now. Time to get back to
work!

XO!

=E

 

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1190Re: last nite

 

 

Feb. 6, 2003

 

 

 If Max just broke up with someone (esp. if it was a LTR), a warning
> might be in order... he could be more susceptible to Xtal's
> B.S./charms.




My reply:

I will be seeing Max on Saturday. His ego is pretty
unbruised from Laura--it wasn't a bad breakup, she was
just too young & too far from home (Michigan) and
decided she didn't like living with him. He talked to
bunches of women at Pace's party and had a pretty good
time. So I think if he has enough ego strength to talk
to attractive young women, he can probably resist
X's dubious charms. I hope. But I'll mention the
matchmaker thing, tool on him a bit for looking for
love on the internet & such :)

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1191gross fatty nonsense

 

Feb. 6, 2003

 

 

http://www.angelfire.com/ny4/fiftyfourpercent/

I'd kick the ass of any fatty who came to my gym and taunted me.

My coworker K  was bitching about how fresh fruit & veggies are 'too
expensive' and that's why she buys packaged garbage for her and her
fatty family.

SAD!

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1192 email from Kaleon

 

Feb. 7, 2003

 

 

Mornin

Had wierd dreams lastnight, woke up crying so hard
that I think my next door neighbor was banging on
the wall. Can't remember much of the dream except
that skye, sineater, sonar0m, and not sure who all else
was in it. Was just very unsettling. Anyway, better
now, and just wanted to drop you a line and say good
mornin.

 

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