Yeah, it's gonna be one o' those days. Lots of random brain
misfirings. This happens when I have too many things to do and can't
do any of them while sitting in my cubie at work. Since my hands
can't do what they need to do, my brain goes into overdrive.
I am having a little <i>post hoc ergo propter hoc</i>-fest with
myself.
Ever notice that alot of people who are into things like role playing
games, alternative sexuality, alternative lifestyle, BDSM, paganism,
etc. are also fucking <u>nuts</u>? (not all of us, just alot of us,
mind you)
So, is it that I notice these things because I'm interested in the
same things as the nuts? If I started playing golf and going to Mass
on Sunday and growing tea-roses, I'd notice a buncha control-freak,
mind-game playing bipolar narcissists there, too?
And do these things attract crazy people more than they attract sane
people? The <u>DSM</u> lists 'magical thinking' as one of the
symptoms of various psychological disorders.
Or do sane people get involved with these things and go crazy?
Or do I just notice the crazies because they are more vocal & visible
within my various interests than the sane people who also share the
interest?
I guess the key is 'degree of interest'. There are plenty of things I
see and recognize as 'this could be dangerous' so I don't go there/do
that/see that/collect that/even start. Like Vampire the Masquerade,
or like bondagedotcom, or whatever. I know I could become involved to
an unhealthy degree. But that detatchment I think prevents me from
forming any close bonds with people, too, and from immersing myself
in a spiritual belief...
Which is kind of a sad trade off, I guess. But I am at least self
aware enough to see the red flags and NOT go there.