Sep. 14th, 2005

3540Love

Sep. 14th, 2005 12:34 am
evile: (reading)

    Sep. 14, 2005

     

     

    LOVE

    Then said Almitra, "Speak to us of Love."

    And he raised his head and looked upon the people, and there fell
    a stillness upon them. And with a great voice he said: When love
    beckons to you, follow him, Though his ways are hard and steep. And
    when his wings enfold you yield to him, Though the sword hidden among
    his pinions may wound you. And when he speaks to you believe in him,
    Though his voice may shatter your dreams as the north wind lays waste
    the garden.

    For even as love crowns you so shall he crucify you. Even as he is
    for your growth so is he for your pruning. Even as he ascends to your
    height and caresses your tenderest branches that quiver in the sun, So
    shall he descend to your roots and shake them in their clinging to the
    earth. Like sheaves of corn he gathers you unto himself. He threshes
    you to make you naked. He sifts you to free you from your husks. He
    grinds you to whiteness. He kneads you until you are pliant; And then
    he assigns you to his sacred fire, that you may become sacred bread
    for God's sacred feast.

    All these things shall love do unto you that you may know the
    secrets of your heart, and in that knowledge become a fragment of
    Life's heart.

    But if in your fear you would seek only love's peace and love's
    pleasure, Then it is better for you that you cover your nakedness and
    pass out of love's threshing-floor, Into the seasonless world where
    you shall laugh, but not all of your laughter, and weep, but not all
    of your tears.

    Love gives naught but itself and takes naught but from itself.
    Love possesses not nor would it be possessed; For love is sufficient
    unto love.

    When you love you should not say, "God is in my heart," but
    rather, "I am in the heart of God." And think not you can direct the
    course of love, for love, if it finds you worthy, directs your course.

    Love has no other desire but to fulfill itself. But if you love
    and must needs have desires, let these be your desires: To melt and be
    like a running brook that sings its melody to the night. To know the
    pain of too much tenderness. To be wounded by your own understanding
    of love; And to bleed willingly and joyfully. To wake at dawn with a
    winged heart and give thanks for another day of loving; To rest at the
    noon hour and meditate love's ecstasy; To return home at eventide with
    gratitude; And then to sleep with a prayer for the beloved in your
    heart and a song of praise upon your lips.

evile: (clutter)

    Sep. 14, 2005

     

     

    SARAH McLACHLAN LYRICS

    "I Love You"

    I have a smile
    stretched from ear to ear
    to see you walking down the road

    we meet at the lights
    I stare for a while
    the world around us disappears

    just you and me
    on my island of hope
    a breath between us could be miles

    let me surround you
    my sea to your shore
    let me be the calm you seek

    oh and every time I'm close to you
    there's too much I can't say
    and you just walk away

    and I forgot
    to tell you
    I love you
    and the night's
    too long
    and cold here
    without you
    I grieve in my condition
    for I cannot find the words to say I need you so

    oh and every time I'm close to you
    there's too much I can't say
    and you just walk away

    and I forgot
    to tell you
    I love you
    and the night's
    too long
    and cold here
    without you

evile: (clutter)

    Sep. 14, 2005

     

     

    BJORK LYRICS

    "Big Time Sensuality"

    i can sense it
    something important
    is about to happen
    it's coming up

    it takes courage to enjoy it
    the hardcore and the gentle
    big time sensuality

    we just met
    and i know i'm a bit too intimate
    but something is coming up
    and we're both included

    it takes courage to enjoy it
    the hardcore and the gentle
    big time sensuality

    i don't know my future after this weekend
    and i don't want to

    it takes courage to enjoy it
    the hardcore and the gentle
    big time sensuality

evile: (clutter)

    Sep. 14, 2005

     

     

    Spending time with my HS girlfriends and with [cousin B] has brought back a
    lot of the fun person I used to be when I was 17-25. I really enjoy
    having fun, being a little bit reckless & mischievous (but ultimately
    harmless). It's nice.

    [cousin B] and Quentin apparently 'rolled' Friday and/or Saturday nights. I am
    not sure how I feel about that. I don't want him getting caught,
    burning out his brain, or otherwise harming himself, BUT....he is
    approaching legal adulthood and part of that is making his own
    decisions about what to do with his body. I think I need to talk to
    [cousin B] about honesty. If he wants to be an adult with me, then we need to
    be truthful, and accept that as adults we are going to do things and
    make decisions that the other person does not approve of. And that will
    not change the love and respect we have for one another, but that lying
    WILL. Not looking forward to that talk. But it needs to happen.

evile: (clutter)
 

 

 

    Sep. 14, 2005

     

     

    evile: happy hump day :)
    SkyeDS: indeed. how are ya?
    evile: Not too bad. Allergies. But other than that, cool.
    SkyeDS: I notice when I eat right my allergies and sinuses aren't so
    bad; I find that interesting.
    SkyeDS: not AS bad, I guess I should so.
    SkyeDS: say.
    evile: If I take my calcium/magnesium/zinc supplements regularly,
    mine get better. I've been forgetting lately, and then we got all
    that mold. A good reminder to dose up before i go to bed.
    SkyeDS: nods. I was re-reading last night and I seriously need to
    start taking a whole vitamin that's going to fix my magnesium/zinc
    deficiencies
    SkyeDS: for both my endometriosis and my migraine situations
    evile: Calcium is supposed to help yu sleep, so I take a separate
    cal/mag/zinc before bedtime.
    SkyeDS: have you also tried melatonin or tryptophan for that?
    evile: And I have discovered that I can't take EPO or Flax before
    bedtime, because they gave me nightmares. So I take them with
    breakfast and lunch, multivitamin with lunch, and I've been trying
    cinnamon (no results) and relora (maybe?)

    evile: Melatonin makes me too groggy the next day, worse than OTC
    sleeping pills

    SkyeDS: I bought some sprouted whole grain bread without sugar but
    with cinnamon and raisins in it
    SkyeDS: sure does help with sugar cravings
    SkyeDS: cinnamon is supposed to heal in a lot of ways, I've never
    heard it related to sleep but I don't know.
    evile: dunno abou tsleep, ti's supposed to help regulate blood sugar.
    I really didn't notice any diff. while I was taking it.
    SkyeDS: Hobby Lobby gave sineater three pieces of cardboard that go
    behind those posters ya know? perfect size and thickness.
    SkyeDS: sorry for the non sequitur, but it was a good thing
    evile: OK.
    SkyeDS: for painting his dragons on
    SkyeDS: for faire
    evile: aha. OK.
    evile: I'm proud of me--last night I made it all the way up the steps
    at Mt. Bonnell and didn't have to stop and rest :)
    evile: The sunset was *glorious* BTW.
    SkyeDS: excellent! as usual, my progress is very much slower than
    yours, I'm only getting up and down the stairs at work without my
    heart rate and breathing being elevated and being tired out.
    evile: all progress is good progress ;)

    evile: I might have stopped and wussed out, but I was with [cousin B] & I
    didn't want him to mock me :P
    SkyeDS: children can be painfully honest when you least want it
    sometimes
    evile: heehee. true enough!
    SkyeDS: "Aunt Skye, Aunt Skye, we saw you and sineater and Arthur in a
    commercial for the fair!.........And you weren't wearing a bra."
    SkyeDS: that pretty effectively put an end to said bad habit.
    evile: *LOL*

    SkyeDS: I only did it the once, we were doing renovations and
    repairs, and on our way to Home Depot, when we came across the YMCA
    fair at Capitol Plaza.
    SkyeDS: I hadn't expected to be doing anything that day but hard
    labor.
    evile: yeah...
    SkyeDS: I doubt they would have recognized me by myself with my hair
    up in a baseball cap pulled low over my face, and black sweats,
    except, of course, I was right there with sineater and Arthur.
    evile: *nod*
    evile: [cousin B]'s all psyched about Tablerock on Saturday. He had such a
    fun time at Scarby the one time he went with me.
    SkyeDS: won't be anything like Scarby in size but you've told him that
    evile: yup
    evile: It will be a fun way to spend the afternoon. If I get back to
    Austin in time, I'll go to the GWNN party. This weekend is the Bash,
    so it'll probably be too crowded, so I don't really care if I go or
    not.
    evile: I would have gotten bash tickets, but Friday night is out
    because I have to get up and go to yoga, and then Saturday daytime is
    faire, & Sunday is [uncle B]'s birthday, so I wouldn't have been able to
    go to the picnic...so I really wouldn't have been able to get to
    anything except the play party
    evile: out of everything, the picnic sounded most interesting, too. :(
    evile: The gypsy faire on the 25th in San Antonio sounds interesting.
    A good excuse to go see Rio & shop at Mermaid Moon, if nothing else.
    SkyeDS: there seems to be a faction within the SCA that groups
    Gypsies as "Romantic/Mythic/Legendary" figures and thinks that they
    are hard to play and play period.
    SkyeDS: I don't understand why that would be.
    SkyeDS: it isn't like they aren't documented historically.
    evile: *shrug* Probably lack of reputable documentation, lots of
    hearsay and superstitious and prejudice mixed in with the reality
    SkyeDS: I don't disagree that people don't do their research thereby
    not playing such a persona properly
    SkyeDS: but that doesn't mean that innately it can't be done
    SkyeDS: it means people didn't do their research. it's out there to
    be found if ya look.
    evile: Probably somekind of costume-nazi issue. sort of like people
    who do 'witch' as a green faced crone in a pointy hat, which is NOT
    in the least bit historical, but if they researched and dressed
    period, they could be an authentic 'witch' in whatever period.
    SkyeDS: some SCAdian was wanting to know what the Streghe wore as
    identifiers to each other so she could be a period Streghe
    SkyeDS: I pointed out to her that would have been a death sentence,
    no one in their right minds, particularly n ot a noble woman, would
    have been running around advertising that.
    SkyeDS: besides, the likelihood that a noblewoman would have been
    Streghe in the first place is not highly likely
    SkyeDS: Streghe are blood clans, and historically the witch families
    were not noble families.
    evile: *nod*
    SkyeDS: In Italy, it isn't a matter of, oh, I think I'll be a Wiccan
    instead of a Catholic.
    SkyeDS: It's a matter of, you're born into a family with witch blood
    in it, and you're either a witch by birth or you aren't.
    evile: that cimaruta thing is fugly anyway
    SkyeDS: and it has markers, just like hair color, eye color, etc.
    SkyeDS: I don't have a cimaruta yet.
    SkyeDS: what she was talking about were the original red, black and
    white braided cords.
    evile: pretty sure grimassi just made it up.
    evile: I imagine anybody non-christian in any o f the SCA periods
    would not have realy gone advertising. Unless they were playing
    someone from Japan, China, Middle EAst, something more among hte 'big
    3' religions
    SkyeDS: the Nazis in the SCA seem to be running around rampant a lot
    lately
    evile: 'lately' heh. that's cute.
    SkyeDS: seems to me sometimes it's worse than others <shrugs>
    evile: probably. Sort of like the cyclical flame wars on
    alt.fairs.renaissance.
    evile: after a run through a couple of cycles, you learn not to take
    any of it personally & just let people wear themselves out on their
    own.
    SkyeDS: I didn't even bother with it. Anyone says anything to me
    about it personally, well I' ve done my research, so I'm good to go.
    evile: *nod*
    evile: I never want to work that hard for something I'm not being
    paid for. ...if you aren't my boss and you didn't buy my garb, you
    can fuck right off.
    SkyeDS: I think the whole reason some nazis don't like pirate /
    viking / romany personas is because it gives us so much freedom -
    both across the whole Period and across the whole Geography.
    evile: yup
    evile: oopsie, mess up. rebooting!
    evile: well...maybe not. It crashed my launchcast but not icq. wierd.
    evile: Are y'all camping out at table rock?
    SkyeDS: not planning on it, no reason to
    SkyeDS: it's just 45 min - hour away.
    evile: *nod*
    evile: a lot of time the camping is more fun than the faire, but I
    have no idea where people camp for Tablerock.
    SkyeDS: on t he grounds.
    evile: really? wierd.
    evile: were I a vendor, that would make me incredibly nervous--
    drunken idiots staggering around in/near my booth.
    SkyeDS: I don't know that they're letting patrons camp. But that's
    where the vendors are camping.
    evile: aha, OK.
    evile: I'm almost done with my quota for today and I'm here until 4.
    bleh.
    evile: wonder if anyone would notice if I snuck off for a long walk
    &/or a trip to th library...
    SkyeDS: two hours, ew
    evile: I know...suck!!!
    evile: I usually pace myself better than that.
    evile: Ok...done. an hour & 10 min to look busy.
    SkyeDS: /me would help but I'm goofing off.
    evile: heh. that's cool. I might go walk around.
    I think I will..I need to go ahead and close everything. If I don't
    sign back in before go-home time, I'll talk at ya tomorrow.

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