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Sep. 9, 2005

 

 

I had lunch w/nikiyoy yesterday at La Palapa. She was talking about
fishfood and fang and how they want to have a closed poly fi
relationshp and they want her to move in w/them. She doesn't want
either right now.

She is pissed because Belin_ann (Galen's wife) keeps flirting w/fishfood.
WTF, man. Belin_ann has even approached her to make sure it's OK, and
nikiyoy told her 'look but don't touch'

Fishfood apparently has told her that the only reason he's still with
his wife is because she's got cancer and it would be shitty of him to
leave her while she's sick.

Fang doesn't want to work, she wants to go back to school, and
apparently fishfood has problems with that because even though he makes
a ton of $, he doesn't want to support her.

Fang is a 'princess' and has 'entitlement issues' and apparently nikiyoy
thinks she's going to lay down the law and change the way fishfood and
fang interact with one another, and she also is demanding to be an
equal in the relationship. She will be interviewing their roommate
along with them, since she's not moving in w/them.

Seems like a lot of drama for not much happiness.

We also talked about how it seems that everyone's giving up poly, and
how if this one doesn't work out, she's giving up on poly, too. I don't
think poly is the problem...but if she'd rather have a conventional
relationship and cheat from time to time, or do the serial-monogamy
thing, that's her business.

I'm still mad at her for lying to me re: her involvement w/Crash (Sweetie
says that only oral happened the night of the hot tub, but that there
were other times when nikiyoy and Crash did the whole 9 yards)...but I'm
not really in any position to be confrontational re: lying and
cheating. It really is her business (and Crash's) and if they don't
want people to know, they don't have to tell anyone. *sigh* I have no
problem with them having sex, but lying sucks.

:(

Anyway...I am not much liking nikiyoy's latest mindset on things. I hope
the thing with fishfood dies soon.

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Date: Thu, 8 Sep 2005 10:02:48 -0700 (PDT)
From: mom
Subject: Re: Armchair Psychology: [Rubber Pig]
To: me

You are so smart. Not that I would have done anything
differently, but you were right about everything. I
wrote a letter to the CPS caseworker today and
included the borderline mother outline in it. I hope
she sees [Rubber Pig] in it. I hope to hell they get some
help! I'm okay now with the girls being taken out of
the home. It kills me to see Yummy's spirit broken,
and Lyrah sink farther and farther into her quiet
depression. It even hurts me to see Blis given this
"power," which she cannot handle in any way. Mostly,
I think about Sadie. Sweet baby girl. I'm glad that
everyone is good to her now, except [Rubber Pig]. If [Rubber Pig]
died tomorrow, I would not be sad.

I'm going to be busy, as the tree thing is a go and
I'm going to ask the PC commissioners if I can use
their space for children's theatre--Nesbit and LaPurr
ride again!!! Bill wants to continue with SAUL and
some original work called GENESIS, for liturgical
drama at his church. The woman who is writing the
music for the last play I wrote wants to produce it in
the spring!!!

I'm glad to be busy. Money would be nice, but I've
never been able to make much money here. If you can,
look for a cheap ticket for [sister H] to come down there
at Thanksgiving. I think [stepdad/G] will pay for it. [sister H]
is sad right now, as she and JImmy are breaking up for
the last time. All her plans are in disarray. Write
her on email. I don't know where she is going next,
so I don't know where real mail can reach her. G.
and I offered to help her in any way we could, so
we're waiting to hear back from her.

I don't think she has a plan yet, but she wants to be
out of Jimmy's apt. by the end of the month. She has
lots of young friends who can help her move her stuff
to storage or to her next place. I'm hoping she'll
store things and take a room or very small apt for
now, as she will be alone, and I don't want her to
spend all her money just to live. Bloomington can be
very expensive. Amy lives in a small apt. and seems
very happy. Maybe one of those will become available.

I'm working on an altar, too, "Sharper than a
Serpent's Tooth." But I don't feel pressed by it, so
I think I've alrady worked though a lot of my hurt.
Now it's just a matter of gluing it together. Life is
sweet, Mom
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Date: Fri, 9 Sep 2005 07:27:55 -0700 (PDT)
From: me
Subject: Re: Armchair Psychology: [Rubber Pig]
To: mom

I'm glad you're staying busy and being creative. It
really helps to have a positive outlet for all the
ugly feelings that get stirred up.

I hope you know that I really HATE being right when it
means people I love get hurt.

I hope the CPS worker finds some useful info to use.

I am sorry as hell for those kids, even Blis. She
can't help it that she's awful; she has had no
positive role models in life, except for you and [aunt L],
briefly. It's really very sad.

You are braver and stronger than me, for being with
them & loving them as much as you could for as long as
their horrible parents would let you. I am sorry for
being weak and walking away, but it's the only thing I
felt I could do.

I sent H. email a week or so ago, she hasn't
written me back. I wish she wasn't so determined to be
independent sometimes; she has people who love her and
would do anything she needed, but she doesn't reach
out as much as she could. I know that feeling; pride
is tough to overcome.

I love you.

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Taurus Horoscope for week of September 8, 2005

From the window of my office I look down on a blackberry bush whose
berries are now ripening. In the last 20 minutes, I've watched a
sparrow figure out the best way to feast. At first the bird tried to
land on the flimsy branches of the bush, but after a few tries it
realized they couldn't hold its weight. Its revised strategy was to
grab a single berry in mid-swoop and alight on the branch of a nearby
apple tree so it could relax with its meal. It did this ten times. I
recommend a similar approach to you, Taurus. According to my
astrological analysis, you won't be able to enjoy your treats in the
place where you find them. You'll have to pluck them, fly away, and
savor them at a distance. Like the sparrow, you should keep returning
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evile: TGIF!
SkyeDS: amen :)
evile: Any fun plans for the weekend?
SkyeDS: visit Salado Saturday, work half day Sunday :|
evile: Well, that's fun-ish, I guess :P
SkyeDS: Salado might be
evile: Salado is a cute town.
SkyeDS: think we'll go to Home Depot and drop some dough too
evile: *nod*
evile: I finally heard from D. we're going to SA on Saturday, picnic
at the McNay and then hanging at Rio's.
SkyeDS: sounds good
evile: There's an anti-war thing on Sunday. I might or might not
attend. Not sure yet.
SkyeDS: I was just reading about Colin Powell
SkyeDS: I feel so bad for him
evile: lie down with dogs, get up with fleas.
SkyeDS: I think he was trying to keep the dogs on leashes
evile: too bad he didn't realize these particular specimens were
rabid and mangey
SkyeDS: exactly
evile: And, oh, surprise, he got treated like a token nigger. What a
shocker.
SkyeDS: just hurts me that Harry Belafonte, who has a tremendous
voice, called him an Uncle Tom
SkyeDS: and then Bush turned around and hung him out to dry, making
him one
evile: like I said, what a fuckin 'surprise.
SkyeDS: I was hoping that Rummy would leave with Asscroft, evening
the playing field a little for Powell
SkyeDS: Bush wouldn't be so bad if he had better people around him
and listened more
SkyeDS: and the Padilla decision today saddens me
evile: Well, after hearing Barb's witty comments, I can definitely
tell where W gets his compassion and humanity from.
SkyeDS: he is more influenced by those around him than his father,
who was smarter
evile: yup
evile: and Bush I at least had the brains to fake like he gave a shit
about the little people.
SkyeDS: I don't know what the man thought he was doing hiring someone
that the IAHA ceremoniously dumped
SkyeDS: if he has any sense left at all, Brown will quietly retire
(be asked to leave) when it's all over
SkyeDS: unceremoniously I meant to say
evile: one would hope.
SkyeDS: and putting FEMA under DHS wasn't too bright either
evile: 'clusterfuck' is the word I keep hearing....
SkyeDS: yeah well
SkyeDS: there are only 38 things the feds do better than the private
sector, and those are in the Constitution
evile: *nod*
evile: Mom says CPS took the kids. She didn't say whether they'd been
taken to [Rubber Pig]'s mom, or into state fostering. I really don't wanna
know.
SkyeDS: [Brother A]'s kid too?
evile: yup
evile: [Brother A]'s latest twist on his story is that he 'gave [Rubber Pig] a
venereal disease that could kill her'...Sweetie's reply "Pregnancy?"
SkyeDS: talk about reaping what you sow (lying down with dogs...)
SkyeDS: [Brother A] gave [Rubber Pig] VD?
evile: that's the story now. I don't believe it--[Rubber Pig] delivered
vaginally and hte baby checked out fine at the ER. If she'd had
anything the baby would have gotten it.
SkyeDS: rolls eyes
evile: I wouldn't be surprised if [Rubber Pig] had picked up VD somewhere,
at some point, but not before she had [Brother A]'s baby. ANd [Brother A] has been
monogamous since htey got together. So...?
SkyeDS: my dear, I don't think your brother has any hold at all left
on anything faintly resembling sanity
evile: nope.
evile: That's why we preface everything with "according to __"
or "The story now is ___"....we are not stating facts, we are stating
what the latest fiction is and from whom the fiction is spouting.
SkyeDS: think your moms can let go now?
evile: [Brother A] has always been weak-minded but I would have to say, I
challeng ANYONE to live in a 2 bedroom house with 3 adults and 4
kids, not getting proper sleep or nutrition, having a woman
screaming, crying, harassing, and otherwise disrupting your existence
and not go fucking nuts.
evile: I've seen similar happen to stronger people...it's pretty
classic cult brainwashing technique
evile: Mom is Done.
evile: She is back in IN, doing her art, writing plays, making an
altar, and moving on with her own life.
SkyeDS: good for her! :D
evile: yeah.
evile: I told her she's better and braver than I am for hanging in
there and spending as much time and giving as much love to those kids
for as long as their asshole parents would allow it...I feel sorry as
hell for those kids.
SkyeDS: I wonder what's going through A's head now that he's got a
child and lost it
evile: "[Rubber Pig] wants, [Rubber Pig] said, [Rubber Pig] told me, me me me, i , i , i,
bla bla bla"
SkyeDS: with t he kids gone maybe we can all be rid of them finally?
SkyeDS: although being rid of [Rubber Pig] also means being rid of [Brother A]....
evile: eh, they'll be back. as soon as they want something from us.
evile: I still wouldn't put it past her to demand a sprog-centric
famly Xmas bullshit-o-rama
evile: assuming she hasn't gotten another sperm donor and doesn't
have another blessed miracle on the way by then, I guess...
SkyeDS: what I haven't said to my family yet is that now that Stuart
has no reason to stay in NOLA now, he ought to go back to Atlanta
evile: *nod*
SkyeDS: I'll be good and keep it to myself until a weak moment that I
know will happen eventually
evile: yeah...that's tough.
SkyeDS: he's got a job in Txka and is still with my parents, while
his live in has gone back to LA
SkyeDS: how much better than Atlanta could Txka be?
evile: *laff* beats me.
evile: crap. my computer is fucking up, I need to reboot. BRB
hopefully
SkyeDS: k

 

 

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evile: 5 or 6 reboots later, and I'm (maybe) OK. feh!!!!

SkyeDS: I'm sending out my resume
SkyeDS: after adding this job, it was 3 pages
evile: *nod* good plan!
SkyeDS: even cutting off a lot of old stuff
evile: *fingers crossed*
SkyeDS: I'm looking at part time jobs in RR, which means I could
still work some for Hugh
SkyeDS: and a full time position in Hutto, w hich is only half as far
from home as Austin
evile: that sounds like a good plan :)
SkyeDS: he never wanted me 40 hours anyway
evile: it would be nice to have a shorter commute & maybe more $
SkyeDS: going to mail, email and fax this to Hutto. maybe that will
impress them with how much I want the position.
evile: cool :)
evile: i still need to get my state app back from [aunt L].
SkyeDS: nods. I need to get the req numbers I want from Dell to sineater
so he can put me directly in touch with whomever I need be
SkyeDS: I would like to be an Exec Admin for Hutto
evile: cool :)
SkyeDS: Dell would be good too
evile: yup!
SkyeDS: actually...sineater could drop me off in Hutto on his way to work
SkyeDS: it woudl put me t here an hour early but he'd be right on
time to get me, he's always having to work over
SkyeDS: that would accomplish about the same thing as us both working
at Dell
evile: *nod*
SkyeDS: got to do some stuff on his box, brb
evile: ok
SkyeDS: eesh
SkyeDS: not one but two pieces of litigation to get out today
evile: ick!
evile: well, I get to leave in 5 minutes, so I'm gonna go toss papers
& stuff.

SkyeDS: :D wind to your wings
evile: *hugs* have a good evening & weekend. Travel safe!