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Jun. 16, 2005
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primalfire (primalfire) wrote,
@ 2005-06-15 18:18:00
Giving It To Guru; Experience And Technique
Recent experiences in life have taught me some major lessons. It is
my hope to share both the lessons and the practical and applicable
knowledge in a way to facilitate the growth of other souls.
Often times we may find ourselves in very difficult situations, where
our negative emotions, feelings of fear, anger and aggression,
overwhelm our abilities to function optimally. These feelings can
become so extremely burdensome as to even get in the way of
EVERYTHING, casting a shadow over each aspect of our daily life,
relationships, and internal growth.
Such a time was just passed through by myself, and only with the aid
of my personal Guru, both the external literal physical guru, and by
establishing a connection to my inner guru, the Sadguru, also known
as the third eye.
While my personal experience may differ from yours, there are no
doubts in my mind of how individuals go through similar experiences.
Feel free to insert your own experiences and identifications where
appropriate.
Prologue, Dark Time of the Soul
The scenario was like this: After a series of energetic events over
the course of a week involving relationships with pretty much EVERY
SINGLE important figure in my life, both family, work and `Love life'
my personal energies were exceptionally low.
My energies were so low that I was caught in a very, very dangerous
downward spiral, one that started with cutting myself, and proceeded
to intense self-hatred and self-loathing which has not been felt by
myself for a decade. While not being suicidal, the thought started to
cross my mind.
This cycle reinforced itself through constant self-talk, mind
reinforcing and pointing out every single aspect of me which is
undesirable, unwanted, and not lovely. Granted, while there are
personal aspects we all have and wish to remove, these aspects are no
reason to dim the light of our soul. Nor are the shadow aspects of
the self the entire aspect of our being, but when caught in the web
of despair, our mind ONLY focuses on the disliked aspects, and often
times may even use positive traits as weapons for tearing down the
self.
Attempting to communicate these feelings to other people didn't
really help. There was a temporary relief, yet the pit hadn't been
climbed from, and each attempt to communicate seemd to only cause me
to sink deeper and deeper into darkness.
Giving It To Guru
The only person with whom my feelings hadn't been conveyed to was my
guru, the literal physical guru. The role of guru is to help a truth
seeker realize aspects of themselves, to be a non-participative
witness, to shed the light of consciousness on what is happening
within the seeker. The guru is one who has walked the path, who has
true knowledge which comes only from personal experience, the being
of truth known from direct involvement.
Feeling no other alternative, recognizing the destructive pattern
which had caught me, all which remained was to open up to him, to
share these feelings. To trust in a moment of darkness, when there
seemed no hope. It was an act of desperation, as pride, control and
wanting to appear strong and capable have been difficulties for
opening my heart up.
During our communication, we shared my feelings and thoughts, mutual
observations, and his personal experiences and techniques to remove
oneself from such mind-traps. Part of the process was typed into the
computer, another article which will be developed in depth.
What follows is some of the basic information which broke my funk.
Breaking the Mental Cycle
The most important aspect of breaking the mental cycle is to WATCH
and objectify the thoughts, but to not IDENTIFY with them. When
feeling depressed, it is ok to feel those energies, as it is a
literal energetic wave-length, but to start saying `I Am feeling
depressed / sick / stupid / ugly' identifies the self with those
energies.
We are not any of our emotional energies, we have emotional energies
and thoughts, but ultimately are not those thoughts or energies. Our
aspect of being is much more expansive than that.
Once we identify our being with those energies, our true Self becomes
inhibited, disempowered, and has restrictions placed upon it for
being able to move from the emotional pit.
To stop the cycle, STOP THE MIND PATTERN. There are many ways to do
this; Perform simple tasks to occupy your mind, immerse yourself into
a task, feel the sensations of the body and breath, go dancing, just
DO SOMETHING other than sit around and thinking about how horrible
you feel.
Make NO attempts to rationalize, identify, fix, remove, work with,
experience, hate or like these emotions and thoughts. Just, quite
literally, FEEL the body and breath. The thoughts can pass, but only
if you really let them, recognizing them as objects. Any rock, any
object, can be immediately dropped, including thoughts.
Any form of self-talk which involves the negative patterns ONLY
REINFORCES THE PATTERN. No matter if you believe the mind-talk is
fixing the issue, and is beneficial, flat out truth .. it doesn't
help, but strengthens the issue, making it more and more tricky to
resolve.
One of the basic laws of the universe is: Energy Follows Attention.
Any attention given to these dark patterns feeds them. Again, ANY
attention given to negative thoughts and patterns gives them
strength. This is very very very important to understand, as
consciousness, and its budding fruit thought, is the literal
foundation of 'physical' reality.
So, DO NOT TOUCH, warning Will Robinson, Warning! Danger! Danger! Any
thought, focus, attention, feeds these dark thoughts, reinforcing the
cycle and drags you deeper and deeper, making it SEEM harder to get
out.
In order to address and resolve issues of the mind, emotional
thoughts and patterns, only one technique works.
Technique of Giving it to Guru
Surrender it to the guru, give it to god, release it to the universe -
- in other words, flush it down the cosmic toilet instead of playing
with the psycho-mental poop. Whatever way you wish to call this, the
essence of this technique is to SURRENDER IT, let it be.
DO NOT TOUCH, for like a hot over burner, each time you play with
these dark energies, your strength is sapped, and parasitic patterns
are reinforced due to putting energetic attention into those thoughts.
It really is that simple.
And it happens INSTANTLY.
There is no resolution in the future, only RIGHT NOW can these issues
be dissolved.
There are many ways to initiate surrender. Meditation, focusing on
breath, concentration on body sensations, yoga, tai chi any form of
relaxation will help you surrender.
What has worked for me, on that day and since, is to be in touch with
my body, self-aware of my breathing patterns, and FEELING the
sensations in my body. In addition, as aspects of myself which are
not particularly desirable arise, my focus also goes to the third
eye, Shiva's seat of integration, where all dualistic energies merge.
Residing in the third eye provides witness awareness, lacking
identification and immersion into the lower centers of emotional and
mental turmoil. By giving it to the guru, SURRENDERING thoughts to
the third eye, a distance is created whereby the dark energies
are `other', and able to be absorbed into the energy body.
Each time these reactionary thoughts and emotions arise, and we
surrender them to the Sadguru, our energies become progressively more
and more free, able to handle the additional subtler patterns which
become revealed as we work through each top layer.
It is kind of difficult for me to verbalize the way this feels, yet
after doing this, and being steady with it for several days, it
works. It really, really works. My energy body is waking up, and
feels so strong at times that my physical body doesn't feel as if it
exists. Keep trying it, doing it until it works for you.
More techniques and observations on this and other things
forthcoming. I feel as if a dark nightmare has been woken up from,
and helping others to move through these kind of patterns and to
improve the lives of others with knowledge, technique and support of
practice has become a strong, almost overwhelming impulse.
Feel free to ask questions, any and all inquiries are welcome.
Thank you for reading this experience, my sincerest hope is it has
helped you grow.
