Feb. 18th, 2005

evile: (clutter)
 

     

2961me to J-Law re: yesterday/last night, UB and Mom

 

    Feb. 18, 2005

     

     

    UB romped on me in ICQ yesterday over the whole Kaleon debacle, and
    possibly accused me of spreading stories about her in HFS...it was so
    bizarre. I was all like 'where the HELL did all this come
    from?"...bottom line is, if you don't want people discussing your
    outrageous, obnoxious, insane behavior, then DON'T behave that way.
    Yes, it's unfortunate that stories grow as they spread, but if YOU
    hadn't done something in the first place, nobody would have anything
    to talk about. I want to share the crazy with someone, but at the
    same time I don't want to burden anyone with the miserable
    hatefulness of it.

    And then right after all that, Aunt L and Mom picked me up from work so
    I had to put on a happy face for them. We went shopping at Ross and
    then back to Aunt L & Uncle B's and Aunt L made us dinner. So it was a
    pleasant evening, pretty much.

    [not sent to J-Law: I did mention the whole UB mess, and Uncle B said that
    UB likes the attention, she enjoys talking bad about the people who
    are talking bad about her. Also that I should not be afraid of her
    retaliating against me if sineater decides to leave. I am not afraid, but
    I am prepared. sineater is going to need to leave and go where he can't
    be found. UB will more than likely come to my house and/or Aunt L &
    Uncle B's looking for him. She has committed vandalism before, carved a
    pentagram on her brother's truck on her way out of a family drama
    with her parents in Texarkana. I am prepared for a similar outburst
    if it comes to that. Mom and Aunt L both said I should shoot her if she
    comes on my property. Would that not be faboo. Anyway...]

    Mom asked me at one point if I liked Yummy, and I said [flat out,
    harsh] "No" and then kind of backpedaled and tried to soften it up--
    "They're nice kids and all, but I don't really feel any connection to
    them"--don't ask the questions you don't want to hear the answers to,
    ya know? Oh, and then as we were walking out the door for Uncle B to
    drive me home (waiting for Aunt L to make a pit stop), we were talking
    about sineater's bad marriage, and I said something like "I just feel so
    bad that the men in our family pick women who treat them so poorly."
    and she asked me if I thought she treated Stepdad bad. I said "not
    abusive, but I do sometimes think you take him for granted."....I am
    too honest. It's bad.

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2962Re: me to J-Law re: yesterday/last night, UB and Mom

 

    Feb. 18, 2005

     

     

    --- Jennifer DeWitt <jendewitt2000@yahoo.com> wrote:

    UB is a fruitcake, and you are exactly right.
    People are always going to talk, but if you don't
    want to be talked about (as much) don't act like a
    spoiled drama queen/freak/whacko/insecure bitch.

    I think it is good that you are honest. It is true
    that sensitive folks may not like it, but it is a
    big virtue to courageously speak the truth.

    ===========================
    Me to J:

    UB told me I'm all bark and no bite. I wonder if that means she looks
    down on me because I am not physically violent, or what? What the
    hell was that even supposed to mean. stupid bitch. I get into some
    bizarre mindset when in her presence, sort of fall into her worldview
    and stop thinking. Afterwards, it always freaks me out that her
    universe is so solidly constructed that you can't see the holes in it
    until you're back in your own world....it's creepy as hell. No wonder
    sineater believes that _he_ is the one who's done HER wrong, and that he
    is the one with problems. sick.

    Anyway...I guess you're right about honesty. To me it looks like the
    dishonest people are the ones who get places in this world, and the
    honest folks get knocked in the dirt. I guess I just have to work on
    when/where/how to be honest, and just be quiet the rest of the time.

    *sigh*

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2963Re: me to J-Law re: yesterday/last night, UB and Mom

 

    Feb. 18, 2005

     

     

    --- J-Law wrote:

    Yeah, what the hell does that mean? You're right -
    whatever it is, it is all about what's going on (or,
    not going on) in her own head. I would just ignore
    it. She is totally unbalanced, unreliable,
    untrustworthy and deceitful. There isn't a single
    thing she says that you should take to heart. It is
    just another example of her insanity.
    ---------
    me:

    yeah...that's definitely a 'consider the source' type of moment. And,
    besides, if she thinks I'm weak/stupid/have no 'bite', it will make
    me all the more effective in getting close to sineater again.

    *sigh*

    I'm very glad it's Friday. Our few days of nice sunny weather just
    went away, just in time for the weekend. Yay rain and grey. bleh. I
    really wanted to go hiking at Bull Creek park this weekend. Oh well.
    I can walk a mall instead, or maybe just stay in bed.

evile: (clutter)

    Feb. 18, 2005

     

     

    Taurus

    You're being called on to meet a higher standard. You're being asked
    to boost your output or take on more responsibility or show you can
    handle greater expectations. While it's understandable if that's
    unnerving, I urge you to keep it all in perspective. Remember what
    journeyman basketball player Jon Koncak said when assigned the task
    of replacing his team's departed all-star, Shaquille O'Neal.
    Reporters asked him if he felt a lot of pressure. "Not at all," he
    replied. "Pressure to me is being in an airplane and the pilot dies
    and they ask me to fly the plane." The challenge you face may be
    daunting, Taurus, but it's nothing like that.

    Gemini
    It's a perfect time to convene a summit conference for all your sub-
    personalities. Most of them are now amenable to setting aside their
    differences and agreeing on a new master plan. Even your inner child
    and your inner stuntperson are inclined to see eye-to-eye. That bodes
    well for the possibility of staging a festival of harmony that brings
    out the cooperative spirit in your inner gadfly, your inner rebel,
    your inner spy, and several other inner selves that normally pursue
    their private agendas.

evile: (clutter)

    Feb. 18, 2005

     

     

    evile: tgif :) I'm so ready for the 3 day weekend, icky weather & all.
    SkyeDS: nods.
    SkyeDS: all the eqs decided we didn't want to be stuck at FH in our
    tents in the rain so we're all staying home. means more time with
    parentals.
    evile: I'm sure the parents will be happy about that, even if you
    aren't :P
    SkyeDS: not unhappy about it, time with parents is a perfectly
    acceptable substitute for time with chosen family
    SkyeDS: and it makes them happy, which scores me brownie points
    evile: *nod*
    SkyeDS: oingo boingo did this song for Beverly Hills Cop I just love
    evile: ? which? I don't think so...
    SkyeDS: gratitude I think is the name
    SkyeDS: was on the second side of the cassette
    evile: yeah, that's a boingo sonng, I just don't remember it from the
    movie.
    SkyeDS: I didn't remember it in the movie, but I do have the
    soundtrack and I play it into the ground
    SkyeDS: the cd player/tape player is always the first thing to go out
    on any vehicle I buy, it sucks
    evile: wow. Lots of Boingo in teh movies I didn't know about .
    http://www.raptorial.com/Boingo/Sndtrks2/
    learn somethin' new every day.
    SkyeDS: if I'm not mistaken I think Elfman may have done the ST to
    Sleepy Hollow.
    evile: wouldn't surprise me. Elfman and Burton work together a lot.
    SkyeDS: Elfman did Scissorhands too no?
    evile: *nod*
    SkyeDS: to me, that is the essence of Gothic.
    SkyeDS: I don't remember their id, but one of the members of the
    polyfi2 list on yahoo has this as their signature: Ancient Goth =
    sacked Roman Empire / Modern Goth = vegetarian pretending to be a
    vampire
    evile: *laff*
    SkyeDS: get tired of telling people I'm not a Goth, Goth is not
    synonymous with Rennie, nor Pagan. I've always worn black, I've
    always enjoyed visits to graveyards. (long before being a practicing
    witch or a rennie)
    evile: *nod*
    SkyeDS: people are so fond of their labels. I don't like labels,
    they pigeonhole me.
    SkyeDS: besides, they don't fit
    SkyeDS: most pagans are liberal, I'm not
    SkyeDS: most conservatives are christian, I'm not
    SkyeDS: I fit neither the republican nor the democrat labels at all.
    evile: labels say more about the person applying the label.
    SkyeDS: people just assume things come with the label
    evile: *nod*
    SkyeDS: they make assumptions about individual poly's, pagans or
    rennie's because of what the majority of the subcultures tend to
    believe, and I don't fit any of that.
    SkyeDS: I am weirder than all of my weirdo friends.
    evile: heh.
    SkyeDS: I believe I may actually be considered a fringe lunatic wacko
    nut by the mainstream.
    evile: I'm wierder than some,not as wierd as others, and gradually
    learning how to deal with unwanted assumptions. It's tough going at
    times.
    SkyeDS: I had a friend who was a conservative military pagan,
    Alexandrian Wicca High Priest
    SkyeDS: he kept asking me if it wasn't true that Stregheria was a
    Left Hand Path
    SkyeDS: I got tired of that after having the exact same discussion
    about half a dozen times
    evile: *nod*
    SkyeDS: he acquired this assumption so he says because the book of
    ways passed down by the alexandrian tradition says so.
    evile: silly.
    SkyeDS: oh. well. if your book of ways says so, obviously it
    outranks my own book.
    SkyeDS: excuse me, theirs is a book of shadows, ours is a book of
    ways (nitpick)
    evile: *nod*
    SkyeDS: think your mom will expect you to work plans more around her
    now that the weather has turned?
    evile: *shrug*
    evile: I have no idea. She took my plans for Saturday and Sunday
    as "i'm busy, I can't see you at all"... so who knows.
    SkyeDS: Mom and Dad were too tired to go anywhere last night so we
    ordered room service. And it was good too, overpriced, of course
    evile: *nod* room service usually is, but it's kind of fun to do a
    lttle in-room picnic :)
    SkyeDS: Mom's spring break is the week before Gulf War, so GW will be
    preceded by a visit, no doubt.
    SkyeDS: good that it isn't the same week
    evile: yeah.
    evile: I took off March 25th and 28th. Haven't decided what I'm doing
    with them yet, but I took them off.
    SkyeDS: off = good :)
    evile: yup. I figure if nothing else I can have a mental health
    weekend.
    SkyeDS: nods
    evile: I do want to go to west TX, but New Orleans is also calling my
    name...March is a good time for either one, I think.
    SkyeDS: mmm NOLA
    evile: I got a copy of the tulane alum mag with lists of restaurants.
    *sigh*
    evile: If I ever want to find someone, I will use whatever service
    Tulane uses to track their alums. I've never filled out a
    subscription card or change of address, and they've followed me
    pretty much since I dropped out.
    evile: Did some good shopping w/Aunt L & Mom after work yesterday. I
    found a scarf to use on my turban experiment & a little hair clippy
    thing that will look good with it :)
    SkyeDS: retail therapy :D
    evile: since my plans for tomorrow went to crap due to weather, I may
    end up shopping some more. I might want long-ish silver fingernails.
    SkyeDS: longish nails <drool>
    SkyeDS: I really enjoyed the black nails I wore as catwoman that one
    halloween
    evile: *nod*
    evile: I'll be looking for some that are short enough that I can
    drive & stuff...but yeah.
    evile: I am having a computer problem, may go offline in a sec...brb,
    if that happens.

    evile: guess not.
    evile: Sometimes I get an error box tha says "microsoft internet
    explorer has encountered a problem and needs to close. We are sorry
    for the inconvenience." ....when I click OK, it will close all the
    web stuff not just my browser window. This time I clicked OK and it
    was fine. Wierd.
    evile: (personally, I don't think they're at all sorry.)
    SkyeDS: LOL I think not
    evile: If they actually cared, they've had plenty of time to develop
    a more high quality product.
    SkyeDS: time to go home soon at any rate
    evile: yup. 3 minutes :)
    evile: well, it's go-time. I'm going to go home and take a nap!
    SkyeDS: wind to your wings :)
    evile: *hugs* Have fun with your folks :)

     

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