EJ me to J-Law re: yesterday/last night, UB and Mom

 

 

2961me to J-Law re: yesterday/last night, UB and Mom

 

Feb. 18, 2005

 

 

UB romped on me in ICQ yesterday over the whole Kaleon debacle, and
possibly accused me of spreading stories about her in HFS...it was so
bizarre. I was all like 'where the HELL did all this come
from?"...bottom line is, if you don't want people discussing your
outrageous, obnoxious, insane behavior, then DON'T behave that way.
Yes, it's unfortunate that stories grow as they spread, but if YOU
hadn't done something in the first place, nobody would have anything
to talk about. I want to share the crazy with someone, but at the
same time I don't want to burden anyone with the miserable
hatefulness of it.

And then right after all that, Aunt L and Mom picked me up from work so
I had to put on a happy face for them. We went shopping at Ross and
then back to Aunt L & Uncle B's and Aunt L made us dinner. So it was a
pleasant evening, pretty much.

[not sent to J-Law: I did mention the whole UB mess, and Uncle B said that
UB likes the attention, she enjoys talking bad about the people who
are talking bad about her. Also that I should not be afraid of her
retaliating against me if sineater decides to leave. I am not afraid, but
I am prepared. sineater is going to need to leave and go where he can't
be found. UB will more than likely come to my house and/or Aunt L &
Uncle B's looking for him. She has committed vandalism before, carved a
pentagram on her brother's truck on her way out of a family drama
with her parents in Texarkana. I am prepared for a similar outburst
if it comes to that. Mom and Aunt L both said I should shoot her if she
comes on my property. Would that not be faboo. Anyway...]

Mom asked me at one point if I liked Yummy, and I said [flat out,
harsh] "No" and then kind of backpedaled and tried to soften it up--
"They're nice kids and all, but I don't really feel any connection to
them"--don't ask the questions you don't want to hear the answers to,
ya know? Oh, and then as we were walking out the door for Uncle B to
drive me home (waiting for Aunt L to make a pit stop), we were talking
about sineater's bad marriage, and I said something like "I just feel so
bad that the men in our family pick women who treat them so poorly."
and she asked me if I thought she treated Stepdad bad. I said "not
abusive, but I do sometimes think you take him for granted."....I am
too honest. It's bad.

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2962Re: me to J-Law re: yesterday/last night, UB and Mom

 

Feb. 18, 2005

 

 

--- Jennifer DeWitt <jendewitt2000@yahoo.com> wrote:

UB is a fruitcake, and you are exactly right.
People are always going to talk, but if you don't
want to be talked about (as much) don't act like a
spoiled drama queen/freak/whacko/insecure bitch.

I think it is good that you are honest. It is true
that sensitive folks may not like it, but it is a
big virtue to courageously speak the truth.

===========================
Me to J:

UB told me I'm all bark and no bite. I wonder if that means she looks
down on me because I am not physically violent, or what? What the
hell was that even supposed to mean. stupid bitch. I get into some
bizarre mindset when in her presence, sort of fall into her worldview
and stop thinking. Afterwards, it always freaks me out that her
universe is so solidly constructed that you can't see the holes in it
until you're back in your own world....it's creepy as hell. No wonder
sineater believes that _he_ is the one who's done HER wrong, and that he
is the one with problems. sick.

Anyway...I guess you're right about honesty. To me it looks like the
dishonest people are the ones who get places in this world, and the
honest folks get knocked in the dirt. I guess I just have to work on
when/where/how to be honest, and just be quiet the rest of the time.

*sigh*

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2963Re: me to J-Law re: yesterday/last night, UB and Mom

 

Feb. 18, 2005

 

 

--- J-Law wrote:

Yeah, what the hell does that mean? You're right -
whatever it is, it is all about what's going on (or,
not going on) in her own head. I would just ignore
it. She is totally unbalanced, unreliable,
untrustworthy and deceitful. There isn't a single
thing she says that you should take to heart. It is
just another example of her insanity.
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me:

yeah...that's definitely a 'consider the source' type of moment. And,
besides, if she thinks I'm weak/stupid/have no 'bite', it will make
me all the more effective in getting close to sineater again.

*sigh*

I'm very glad it's Friday. Our few days of nice sunny weather just
went away, just in time for the weekend. Yay rain and grey. bleh. I
really wanted to go hiking at Bull Creek park this weekend. Oh well.
I can walk a mall instead, or maybe just stay in bed.

2964Free Will Astrology, week of 2/17

Feb. 18, 2005

 

 

Taurus

You're being called on to meet a higher standard. You're being asked
to boost your output or take on more responsibility or show you can
handle greater expectations. While it's understandable if that's
unnerving, I urge you to keep it all in perspective. Remember what
journeyman basketball player Jon Koncak said when assigned the task
of replacing his team's departed all-star, Shaquille O'Neal.
Reporters asked him if he felt a lot of pressure. "Not at all," he
replied. "Pressure to me is being in an airplane and the pilot dies
and they ask me to fly the plane." The challenge you face may be
daunting, Taurus, but it's nothing like that.

Gemini
It's a perfect time to convene a summit conference for all your sub-
personalities. Most of them are now amenable to setting aside their
differences and agreeing on a new master plan. Even your inner child
and your inner stuntperson are inclined to see eye-to-eye. That bodes
well for the possibility of staging a festival of harmony that brings
out the cooperative spirit in your inner gadfly, your inner rebel,
your inner spy, and several other inner selves that normally pursue
their private agendas.

2968icq w/A

Feb. 18, 2005

 

 

evile: tgif :) I'm so ready for the 3 day weekend, icky weather & all.
SkyeDS: nods.
SkyeDS: all the eqs decided we didn't want to be stuck at FH in our
tents in the rain so we're all staying home. means more time with
parentals.
evile: I'm sure the parents will be happy about that, even if you
aren't :P
SkyeDS: not unhappy about it, time with parents is a perfectly
acceptable substitute for time with chosen family
SkyeDS: and it makes them happy, which scores me brownie points
evile: *nod*
SkyeDS: oingo boingo did this song for Beverly Hills Cop I just love
evile: ? which? I don't think so...
SkyeDS: gratitude I think is the name
SkyeDS: was on the second side of the cassette
evile: yeah, that's a boingo sonng, I just don't remember it from the
movie.
SkyeDS: I didn't remember it in the movie, but I do have the
soundtrack and I play it into the ground
SkyeDS: the cd player/tape player is always the first thing to go out
on any vehicle I buy, it sucks
evile: wow. Lots of Boingo in teh movies I didn't know about .
http://www.raptorial.com/Boingo/Sndtrks2/
learn somethin' new every day.
SkyeDS: if I'm not mistaken I think Elfman may have done the ST to
Sleepy Hollow.
evile: wouldn't surprise me. Elfman and Burton work together a lot.
SkyeDS: Elfman did Scissorhands too no?
evile: *nod*
SkyeDS: to me, that is the essence of Gothic.
SkyeDS: I don't remember their id, but one of the members of the
polyfi2 list on yahoo has this as their signature: Ancient Goth =
sacked Roman Empire / Modern Goth = vegetarian pretending to be a
vampire
evile: *laff*
SkyeDS: get tired of telling people I'm not a Goth, Goth is not
synonymous with Rennie, nor Pagan. I've always worn black, I've
always enjoyed visits to graveyards. (long before being a practicing
witch or a rennie)
evile: *nod*
SkyeDS: people are so fond of their labels. I don't like labels,
they pigeonhole me.
SkyeDS: besides, they don't fit
SkyeDS: most pagans are liberal, I'm not
SkyeDS: most conservatives are christian, I'm not
SkyeDS: I fit neither the republican nor the democrat labels at all.
evile: labels say more about the person applying the label.
SkyeDS: people just assume things come with the label
evile: *nod*
SkyeDS: they make assumptions about individual poly's, pagans or
rennie's because of what the majority of the subcultures tend to
believe, and I don't fit any of that.
SkyeDS: I am weirder than all of my weirdo friends.
evile: heh.
SkyeDS: I believe I may actually be considered a fringe lunatic wacko
nut by the mainstream.
evile: I'm wierder than some,not as wierd as others, and gradually
learning how to deal with unwanted assumptions. It's tough going at
times.
SkyeDS: I had a friend who was a conservative military pagan,
Alexandrian Wicca High Priest
SkyeDS: he kept asking me if it wasn't true that Stregheria was a
Left Hand Path
SkyeDS: I got tired of that after having the exact same discussion
about half a dozen times
evile: *nod*
SkyeDS: he acquired this assumption so he says because the book of
ways passed down by the alexandrian tradition says so.
evile: silly.
SkyeDS: oh. well. if your book of ways says so, obviously it
outranks my own book.
SkyeDS: excuse me, theirs is a book of shadows, ours is a book of
ways (nitpick)
evile: *nod*
SkyeDS: think your mom will expect you to work plans more around her
now that the weather has turned?
evile: *shrug*
evile: I have no idea. She took my plans for Saturday and Sunday
as "i'm busy, I can't see you at all"... so who knows.
SkyeDS: Mom and Dad were too tired to go anywhere last night so we
ordered room service. And it was good too, overpriced, of course
evile: *nod* room service usually is, but it's kind of fun to do a
lttle in-room picnic :)
SkyeDS: Mom's spring break is the week before Gulf War, so GW will be
preceded by a visit, no doubt.
SkyeDS: good that it isn't the same week
evile: yeah.
evile: I took off March 25th and 28th. Haven't decided what I'm doing
with them yet, but I took them off.
SkyeDS: off = good :)
evile: yup. I figure if nothing else I can have a mental health
weekend.
SkyeDS: nods
evile: I do want to go to west TX, but New Orleans is also calling my
name...March is a good time for either one, I think.
SkyeDS: mmm NOLA
evile: I got a copy of the tulane alum mag with lists of restaurants.
*sigh*
evile: If I ever want to find someone, I will use whatever service
Tulane uses to track their alums. I've never filled out a
subscription card or change of address, and they've followed me
pretty much since I dropped out.
evile: Did some good shopping w/Aunt L & Mom after work yesterday. I
found a scarf to use on my turban experiment & a little hair clippy
thing that will look good with it :)
SkyeDS: retail therapy :D
evile: since my plans for tomorrow went to crap due to weather, I may
end up shopping some more. I might want long-ish silver fingernails.
SkyeDS: longish nails <drool>
SkyeDS: I really enjoyed the black nails I wore as catwoman that one
halloween
evile: *nod*
evile: I'll be looking for some that are short enough that I can
drive & stuff...but yeah.
evile: I am having a computer problem, may go offline in a sec...brb,
if that happens.

evile: guess not.
evile: Sometimes I get an error box tha says "microsoft internet
explorer has encountered a problem and needs to close. We are sorry
for the inconvenience." ....when I click OK, it will close all the
web stuff not just my browser window. This time I clicked OK and it
was fine. Wierd.
evile: (personally, I don't think they're at all sorry.)
SkyeDS: LOL I think not
evile: If they actually cared, they've had plenty of time to develop
a more high quality product.
SkyeDS: time to go home soon at any rate
evile: yup. 3 minutes :)
evile: well, it's go-time. I'm going to go home and take a nap!
SkyeDS: wind to your wings :)
evile: *hugs* Have fun with your folks :)