1950Phone Call from X, 12:20 PM 2/11/04

Feb. 12, 2004

 

 

Date: Thu, 12 Feb 2004 10:31:34 -0800 (PST)
From: "evilE
Subject: Re: Thursday
To: "J-Law


argh. I'm sorry to go off track here, but X just
called me. My caller ID on the cell phone was blocked
or somethng, all it said was 'private number'. Since
e had just called me a few minutes before, I
thought she might be calling me again re: a play I
invited her to next week.

She asked if it was a good time to talk, and I said
no, I'm at work, I can't really say anything. She said
something about how she "could really use someone to
care about me right now" and did the artful
'voice-breaking trying not to cry' thing at the end.

"There's that word," I said, meaning 'use'

I said I am interested in the children but I am not
interested in her. She said she understood and then
right after that said that she still didn't understand
why I got so mad at her last April, just because she
asked me not to tell her husband that she wanted to take an
extra day on the Great Escape weekend. I said I was
sorry, but I just wasn't interested.

*sigh* my heart is just pounding right now. I am so
mad and freaked. What the fuck. There is _no_ way in
hell I could possibly articulate (and at WORK,
especially) how very very much I feel betrayed, used,
and manipulated by her. That the escape weekend thing
might have eventually been forgivable, IF she'd
understood WHY it pissed me off so much, and IF she'd
tried harder to be a real friend after that,and IF she
hadn't been busted for drugs immediately thereafter.
Not just drugs, but selling them and doing them in her
home in front of her babies.
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It wasn't the great escape weekend,it was the cumulative effect of
all the lies & bullshit and manipulation and grabby gimme stuff. If
she wants to be blind to the fact that she'd been treatng me like
shit for years before I finally put my foot down, that is her
business. It took me a while to stop being blind to the years of
being used myownself.

1953dream, scopes

Feb. 12, 2004

 

 

I dreamt I went to a movie or a play with Big James & Mike Ko. James'
date was Spider/Suzanne from Depauw. We ended up siting next to each
other & James said something about if he'd known I was interested in
the show, he would have asked me instead of Spider, and I said "oh,
no, that's cool, you have a much better chance of getting lucky with
Spider"...the performance was rocky-ish, a girl in underwear (or
stripping as she said lines) walking through the theatre, yelling
lines at the screen.

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scopes:

Taurus

Horoscope (by Astrocenter.com)
The period just ahead of you, dear Taurus, promises a lot of luck and
a great deal of success. The initiatives you will take in your career
or in your personal life will all come off without a hitch! You
should think about trying some kind of new activity on a professional
level, taking advantage of all the good luck in the air. Don't be
afraid to burn the candle at both ends right now and to live life to
the fullest! - Tomorrow - Professional Phone Consultation - Email an
astrologer your question!
Gemini

Horoscope (by Astrocenter.com)
After a recent financial problem, you have decided to take the bull
by the horns and do what you need to do. You are in the habit of
being in control of the situation, and no small financial worries are
going to get you down. After all, money certainly isn't everything.
On top of your ability to react to a problem, your originality and
self-sacrificing attitude will help you a great deal in dealing with
this situation.

evilE
Sun Sign: Taurus
Rising Sign: Sagittarius

Today's aspects will highlight the perseverance and practical
experience that you use to solve problems, evilE, rather than
theoretical knowledge. If a politician crossed your path today he
would ask you to become his advisor, and help him with all the
important decisions he has to make. Sometimes good common sense is
worth a lot more than all the theoretical stuff, especially where
moving forward in life is concerned...

Your Rising Sign
Today you may feel like getting some neglected chores done around the
house. Don't be surprised, however, if no one else in your household
is around to help! You also might have to run some errands in your
near neighborhood, and could have a few brief encounters with friends
and neighbors. Don't expect too much time with them, however. The
Venus-Saturn square tends to keep us isolated from others. Don't
panic - it'll pass by tomorrow!

Daily Numeroscope - February 12, 2004
Life Path Number: 6 The essence of the expressive and creative 3-Day
is around you, evilE. With this you can expect that sharing your
thoughts and feelings will be especially important to you. Further,
your need to be heard will likely be as strong. See about getting
together with a trusted loved one and sharing what's happening for
you. This is certain to make you feel much better, as well as
strengthen the bonds you share. Consider writing some in your journal
if this is something you enjoy, Six.

19572-12-04

Feb. 12, 2004

 

 

6:15 SJW 300 mg
7:30: coffee, half&half, splenda 40 calories
7:30 brownie cookie with marshmallow 200 calories
9:15: sjw 300mg
10:00 coffee with creamer & splenda 20 cal
11:30 michelina's microwave lunch (chicken parmesan, ok) 390
multivitamin
2:30 calcium 600 mg
4:00 alka seltzer allergy sinus
7:00 WW microwave pizza 400
cotes du rhone 6 oz 150
1/2 candy bar 120

10:00: sjw 300 mg

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So...what's not to get?

"Oh, I just don't understand why you're so mad at me!"

Okay...
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I call your attention to the words "really use"...that is what you had been doing to me for YEARS and I finally had enough. And as if #1 & 2 wasn't a horrible enough thing to do to someone, #s 3-15 are pretty much deal-breakers.

Okay?

Okay.

[edit: Okay, I know that one of you reading this knows who I'm writing about. And I know that you have seen fit to stir up shit by pointing the person in the direction of my online writings in the past. So please be sure and send the person in question the link to this one. Thanks, 'pal']