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X commented on my Yahoo 360 Blog last night.
Those are some very strong, and on the mark sentiments. I've learned that friends may be lost, due to one's own horrid behavior, and sometimes the only way to make up for mistreating a friend is to never, ever treat another like that. I'm very sorry for mistreating you. I wish you peace, and thank you for all you did for me. Be well.
Sincerely,
Crystal
Wednesday August 22, 2007 - 09:47pm (PDT)
Unfortunately, I *still* don't know how to say "I hate lying, I hate cheating, I hate child abuse, I hate drug abuse, but I love the person who did those things."
I am just going to have to try detachment and forgiveness...not forgiveness in the sense that I think what she did was OK, or justified in any way...but in the sense that I have to release my feelings about the past for my own sanity and well being.
She used me, she abused her children, she used drugs, she lied, she cheated, she asked me to lie for her. She says she is now trying to be a better person. OK.
I allowed myself to be used. I did not state my needs and feelings clearly. I did not enforce my boundaries properly. I was not there for her kids when they were going through all of that. I am now trying to be a better person. OK.
Those are some very strong, and on the mark sentiments. I've learned that friends may be lost, due to one's own horrid behavior, and sometimes the only way to make up for mistreating a friend is to never, ever treat another like that. I'm very sorry for mistreating you. I wish you peace, and thank you for all you did for me. Be well.
Sincerely,
Crystal
Wednesday August 22, 2007 - 09:47pm (PDT)
Unfortunately, I *still* don't know how to say "I hate lying, I hate cheating, I hate child abuse, I hate drug abuse, but I love the person who did those things."
I am just going to have to try detachment and forgiveness...not forgiveness in the sense that I think what she did was OK, or justified in any way...but in the sense that I have to release my feelings about the past for my own sanity and well being.
She used me, she abused her children, she used drugs, she lied, she cheated, she asked me to lie for her. She says she is now trying to be a better person. OK.
I allowed myself to be used. I did not state my needs and feelings clearly. I did not enforce my boundaries properly. I was not there for her kids when they were going through all of that. I am now trying to be a better person. OK.
