Nov. 14th, 2005

3776 dream

Nov. 14th, 2005 05:14 pm
evile: (clutter)

    14 Nov. 6:30 am

     

     

    going to Vegas to see a show with [Sister H].

    Found out I'd been enrolled in school (some bizarre mix of hs and
    college) and missed one class for several weeks because it was
    scheduled overlapping my lunch hour, and a 12-13 pg paper on 'the
    senses in a work of art' or some crap was due. J-Law had done hers on
    Cello music. I was trying to get help from the admin office, and turns
    out I wasn't properly registered. Some guy was helping meout, but first
    I needed to be registered, so he took x rays and all this other stuff,
    then was airbrushing me (I was naked) to take an ID photo. D and Rio
    were there, and they were all horrified that he was making me look all
    fake-tanned. Then he put an outfit on me that was one piece but looked
    like denim jeans with a sweater and turtlneck under, it fastened in the
    back, opened all the way from top to bottom, like burial clothes.

    Then I woke up.

    No clue what that was all about.

3777lunch

Nov. 14th, 2005 05:16 pm
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    14 Nov. 10:14 am

     

    red quinoa with veggies, black beans, cheese, salsa, and veggies. It's
    pretty good. Which is good because I made a whole pot of quinoa & made
    4 of these types of lunches.

    It's an adaptation from a diet I found in some womens world type mag. I
    am more or less watching what I eat and trying to keep up with Krav. I
    weighed at 201 on Saturday before faire. Not bad. Still have 40 or so
    to go. Not to think about that, though. It's discouraging.

evile: (declutter)

    14 Nov. 10:12 am

     

     

    Friday I did nothing, went to bed early-ish. [Cousin B] was hanging with his
    friend Cody and didn't want to go to see Eshta, I didn't want to go
    by myself. Or stay up that late, really.

    Saturday, I woke up at 7:30, got a shower, woke Sweetie up, got dressed,
    and sat around (I had done the food shopping and prep, staged our
    camping gear to be loaded up, etc. ) while he loaded the car, then
    peglegasus came over and they did kilty stuff,and we finally left around
    10:30.

    We had a great time at faire. I had made up my mind before we headed
    out that I was not going to obsess about getting there on time. The
    guys knew we had a beer tasting at 2:30, and that I was trying to
    meet up with friends at the tavern nearby at 2, and that was about
    all the nagging I did. I did not fret.

    We went and parked at the campground, found Jaime and Cam and hung
    out with them while they got ready. We actually got in to faire at
    1:50, met up with Stephanie, Dave, and Dave out in front of the Leek
    & Daffodil. Peglegasus, Sweetie and I went to the beer tasting and enjoyed
    ourselves greatly. Then we wandered to the Sea Devil where we spent
    the rest of the afternoon & met up with everyone else we knew was out
    at faire on Saturday - Michael & Harmoni, with Ross and Jen (Ross is
    the lazy subby boy I met at GWNN and have also run into at PNO, he
    dated Pace for a bit), Scott in purple and red garb with purple fairy
    wings, Max's FB Angel and her friend Ted from Vegas. We sat around in
    the Sea Devil for pretty much the entire day. I never did feel like
    forcing the issue to go find Rengeek and say hi. Stephanie, Scott,
    and I made one trip to a vendor Scott said was going out of
    business, "Body Hangings", then back to the jousting arena to watch
    the fireworks at dusk, met up with everyone again at the privies in
    front of the Sea Devil, and then out to the campground for food, more
    drinking, and just hanging out. It was a fine day. Tartanic was
    outside jamming after faire, so we stopped and danced like fools. It
    was great fun. Strangers joined us. God, I love faire.

    We drummed in our own spot for a bit (We: Jaime, Ted, some scot that
    came by, and Scott) went to the fire circle for a while. Sweetie walked
    me back around 11:30 because I was tired and wanted to go to bed. We
    did it and Sweetie passed out, I went to sleep a bit later. Miracle of
    miracles, it did NOT rain on us afterwards. (That seems to happen
    when we have sex while camping)

    Sunday morning, we got up, socialized, had coffee and scotch eggs and
    then everyone packed up and went home, with the exception of Scott,
    who wanted to go back in and get a cloak from Body Hangings. We got
    home 'round 3 and I unpacked, put stuff away and loaded photos onto
    the computer.

    http://www.freaks.net/eek/gallery/view_album.php?
    set_albumName=TRF111205

    Then around 6, I returned a DVD to Hollywood video, checked the PO
    box, and then stopped by [Aunt L] & [Uncle B]'s. [Cousin B] was watching 60 minutes
    with his friend Tage, he didn't introduce me to his friend, they were
    showing something awful about injecting dying kids on TV, so I went
    back to talk w/[Aunt L]. Tage left shortly thereafter. That was...weird.
    [Cousin B] was sleepy and not much fun, vegging in front of Comedy Central -
    Van Wilder & 10 things I hate about you. I didn't watch either of
    them all the way thru.

    We are apparently still on for E. rock & shrooms this weekend. We
    shall see. I will be prepared but not have my heart set on it.

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    14 Nov. 10:56 am

     

     

    Apparently L&B and [Cousin B] did brunch w/[brother A] & [rubber_pig] on SAturday. They were
    an hour and a half late & just brought the baby. [Aunt L] fed the baby and
    ignored the conversation. [brother A] didn't ask [Cousin B] how he was or anything,
    just told him his hair was just like [brother A]'s at that age, and then [brother A]
    said something like 'you're a sophomore now, right?"

    ugh. I'm glad I missed it.

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    14 Nov. 1:54 pm

     

    evile: hey! You're here! How was your weekend?
    skye_dsDS: awesome, how was yours?
    evile: really good :)
    evile: Was this the weekend that you went and saw the friesian up
    close?
    skye_dsDS: yes
    evile: cool.
    skye_dsDS: I spent five hours yesterday in the middle of an entire herd.
    skye_dsDS: pictures of which will be up as soon as sonar0m gets them to
    me
    evile: cool :)
    evile: wasn't very impressed with my faire photos, but went ahead and
    put them up anyway.
    skye_dsDS: everybody have a good time?
    evile: I felt like I looked REALLY cute...and I totally did not.
    *sigh*
    skye_dsDS: seems like the faire is running later this year than in years
    past? (I know Scarbie's started running later)
    evile: Yup, everyone had a nice time.
    skye_dsDS: whether or not you looked really cute is a matter of opinion
    and largely in the eye of the beholder anyway
    skye_dsDS: so if in your eye you looked really cute, then you did.
    evile: I think it started a weekend earlier and runs a weekend later,
    maybe? usually runs into mid-november.
    evile: I just need to accept the fact that my charm is maybe 30%
    physical and the rest personaliyt, so I'm NEVER going to look as good
    in photos as I think I should.
    skye_dsDS: I'm in some of the photos they took this weekend
    skye_dsDS: you can't even tell I've lost 20+ pounds
    skye_dsDS: I hate pictures.
    evile: that's depressing.
    evile: the only thing photos are good for is to look back and
    go "gosh, I was younger and thinner, why the fuck was I bitching
    about the way I looked back then?"
    skye_dsDS: nodnodnods
    evile: Oh well. We had a nice day at faire. I was un-stressy, on the
    logic that I had a whole 'nother day at faire on Sunday so I didn't
    need to march people around to see and do everything in 1 day. And
    then Sunday didn't happen....but oh well. It was still a nice trip.
    skye_dsDS: the parade had a better turnout this year than last year, my
    lesson never showed up, but I rode around the park anyway
    skye_dsDS: someone was riding Roman in the parade (standing up)
    skye_dsDS: so then in the park, with three birthday parties full of
    screaming children, rather than in the safety of my training area at
    home
    skye_dsDS: sonar0m hops up on Jesse's back
    evile: wow.
    skye_dsDS: the short racing rein we ride her with of course isn't long
    enough for that so I pulled out twenty feet of silklike rope and he
    used that
    evile: jeez. glad he didnt' die.
    skye_dsDS: he still doesn't manage forward movement very well but he can
    jump down off her a nd land flat on his feet
    skye_dsDS: then out comes the bow, and a live arrow
    skye_dsDS: I'm like, why are we carrying live arrows (rather than
    boffer) in the truck?
    skye_dsDS: we ate lunch in Mt Vernon with Mom and Gramma who cut my hair
    and gave me lots o stuff
    skye_dsDS: and then spent the rest of the day with magical magnificent
    critters
    evile: *nod*
    skye_dsDS: the black truck is threatening to explode on me on the way to
    work, so I'm not driving it anywhere else until sineater comes down here
    and looks at it
    evile: sounds like a plan.
    skye_dsDS: the Faire folk have been impressed with the mounted archery
    (at a gallop) so far, I t hink they'll be even more impressed with
    mounted archery Roman style
    skye_dsDS: although why it's called Roman I have no idea.
    evile: *shrug* no tellin'
    evile: I actually managed to meet up with everyone at faire that was
    going thsi weekend...except rengeek, and he works there so I don't
    know if that counts or not.
    evile: I didn't get as many photos as I wanted. I wanted one of just
    Jaime, Sweetie, and Max in their kilts, and I wanted one of all the girls.
    skye_dsDS: I love pictures, as long as I'm not in them.
    evile: Met Max's latest FB, she's actually really nice, cute, and
    sweet. She was wearing a purple sort of harem girl/bellydance outfit.
    evile: I didn't get any of her, either. She's in the background of
    the Michael & Harmoni 'gangsta' pose
    evile: Cam, Stephanie and Scott took a bunch, I hope they email them
    to me.
    skye_dsDS: purple :)
    evile: Yeah, she was cute. She reminded me of you.
    skye_dsDS: last time I told the boys "I am not cute!" I got "adorable,"
    so I decided to stop before I was further behind.
    evile: Rio hates 'cute' too. Sorry, I was trying to say something
    nice about you. I won't do it anymore.
    skye_dsDS: lol I don't hate cute
    skye_dsDS: I only protest it with them because they say it so often
    skye_dsDS: and thank you
    evile: Yeah, I'm sure it's tedious to have handsome men telling you
    how much they like you all the damn time. You poor poor woman. Why do
    you put up with it? :P
    skye_dsDS: actually, generally speaking, it depends on what personal
    connotations of "cute" are
    skye_dsDS: and I don't mean to sound like "it depends on what the
    meaning of the word "is" is"
    skye_dsDS: sometimes "cute" completely deprives one of all adult/sexual
    qualities...like little sister, puppy dog, baby duck = "cute"
    skye_dsDS: although I know that's not what they mean.
    skye_dsDS: or you either
    skye_dsDS: particularly talking about other women (in purple harem
    outfits :)
    skye_dsDS: it's tradition. they tell me I've done something cute, or
    that I"m cute after having done something cute, and I must respond
    like Sam t he Eagle, "I am not cute!"
    skye_dsDS: "Kermit, does this show have any culturally redeeming value?"
    skye_dsDS: (I love Sam, he's so funny, sorry)
    evile: *nod*
    skye_dsDS: anyway, cute girl for Max, in purple harem garb = good
    thing :D
    evile: I think so.
    evile: She and her cutie blonde friend camped with us. They were fun.
    evile: I think we had a better drum circle at our camp than at the
    main revel fire. (at least in terms of keeping a beat & how much fun
    I, personally, had at each)
    skye_dsDS: love drumming, more than dancing actually, I can't believe it
    took me as long as it did to figure that out.
    evile: heh. I just like to listen.
    skye_dsDS: you might like all the Hossam Ramzy stuff I bought
    evile: comes up on my launchcast from time to time, good stuff :)
    skye_dsDS: I was listening to Orloci's fan station
    skye_dsDS: only heard one Dead Can Dance, but liked it
    evile: I danced to Tartanic out front after faire closed. That was a
    blast. We started with 4 people and people kept joining the circle
    until there were probably 10-12.
    skye_dsDS: heard a lot of other groups I hadn't heard before
    skye_dsDS: all goth or ambient
    skye_dsDS: I knew I liked ambient generally but now I have specific names
    skye_dsDS: dancing = good for you - you are more physically graceful
    than me.
    evile: I was glad I didn't fall down or drop anything.
    evile: I'm tempted to try and make it out to the final weekend of
    faire...but it's Fredericksburg Trade Days this weekend...
    evile: Introducing my various friends to my various other friends
    mostly worked. Michael & co were not feeling too well, but other than
    that, it was all good.
    evile: So what did you decide about the horse, BTW?
    skye_dsDS: it is a go.
    evile: neat.
    skye_dsDS: sineater is ok, with reservations
    skye_dsDS: but then, he always has reservations, and nothing wrong with
    that
    evile: *nod*
    skye_dsDS: thanks to his english teacher this semester (long story)
    skye_dsDS: sonar0m has decided to get out of this semester as best he can
    and get something full time in his field next semester.
    evile: at least if things really don't work out the people you got
    him from arent that far away
    skye_dsDS: initially I would have not reacted to that positively, but
    thinking about it, sineater never finished college
    evile: yup
    skye_dsDS: Travis (already a programmer) is in favor of it
    skye_dsDS: and Christopher Alex(a friend from college) never finished
    school either (although he has every cert known to man including
    Cisco)
    skye_dsDS: and makes six digits
    skye_dsDS: so I'm thinking a shopping trip with sineater and Travis along
    for advice, to get a nice suit or two as a Christmas present
    skye_dsDS: and Travis and sineater to help me write his resume
    evile: *nod*
    skye_dsDS: since their techie world is different than ours, in terms of
    dress and paper etiquette, or so they tell me
    skye_dsDS: and I continue to look for something that will pay me more
    than here
    evile: cool.
    skye_dsDS: the County Judge in Milam County called for an interview but
    wanted me to know (as I had been asking before I even applied and no
    one could/would tell me)
    skye_dsDS: that the wage would be 8.65 an hour
    skye_dsDS: and I said, I just can't do that
    skye_dsDS: no way, no where no how
    evile: *nod*
    skye_dsDS: of the $12/hr I make now, only $2 goes to gas
    skye_dsDS: even with the gas prices the way they are
    evile: *nod*
    skye_dsDS: plus truthfully it doesn't really make sense that they would
    expect someone with experience back to 1989 would be at a place in
    life where she could accept 8.65
    skye_dsDS: "but it has insurance and retirement"
    skye_dsDS: I have insurance through Dell
    skye_dsDS: and retirement does me no good with the bills that are due now
    skye_dsDS: but, it is good that I am generating interest
    evile: yup
    skye_dsDS: I should check the Dell DB again and give sineater my resumes
    (one admin, one paralegal) and see what comes of that
    skye_dsDS: it would be ideal if all three of us were working at Dell
    evile: yeah :)
    skye_dsDS: what exactly is in a Scotch egg?
    evile: I posted my recipe in my LJ
    skye_dsDS: I haven't read LJ in about four days now and man have I got a
    lot to catch up on
    evile: *nod*
    skye_dsDS: I am so glad you had a good weekend :) Lovely weather for it
    too (the rain didn't break until we were on our way home, had to
    drive 35 mph for hours)
    evile: It sprinkled a tiny bit Saturday afternoon, but not too bad at
    all.
    skye_dsDS: little sprinkles can be quite pleasant
    evile: we went into the beer tasting right after that, so we escaped
    the post-rain humidity.
    skye_dsDS: those sound nummy (no mayonnaise - I can't stand deviled eggs)
    evile: they turned out well. Great breakfast for camping.
    skye_dsDS: I bet! I remember CMA being cold at the oddest times of
    year, and having hot tomato soup with basil, garlic and/or ginger in
    combinations, with frenchbread toasted with cheese
    skye_dsDS: good outside cold morning breakfast
    evile: yup
    evile: oopsie, I think I just upset a polyperson.
    evile: *giggles*
    skye_dsDS: ?
    evile: big ol' post of laundry list requirements for the hot bi babe
    to complete their family--"must live with us, must accept my spouse's
    body as it is, must help us rais our children, must contribute to the
    finances, must be wiling to move when we do" and I basically
    said "so...what's in it for the theoretical HBB?"
    skye_dsDS: where is this? ROFL
    evile: I just don't know why anyone would think they were such a
    great catch that someone would just sign htemselves for a life of
    selfless servitude
    evile: it's a frends locked post, I don't know if you can read it. It
    was just...sad. Some people are just such takers, they don't even
    realize they're painting an exceptionally miserable, bleak picture
    for their potenttial new partner.
    skye_dsDS: actually, sounds like what Chris and James Loy have said
    before
    skye_dsDS: but not just them of course, it's a pretty big pattern from
    what I've heard
    evile: yup. It's practically an epidemic. HBB hunters looking for
    cunt-slaves to raise their kids and clean their house and basically
    have NO needs or lives of their own.
    evile: Good fuckin' luck with that, and don't be surprised if you
    find someone like that and come home to find the kiddies cooking in
    the crock pot.
    skye_dsDS: if I were an HBB, I would be the one with the slaves, thank
    you very much
    evile: that's pretty much what I'm thinkin'
    evile: I have admitted I don't get the 'submissive' mindset, but is
    there really a person out there who would be perfectly content to be
    used for sex, house-cleaning and babysitting and otherwise sit around
    idle with no life or interests or thoughts of their own?
    evile: and if there was such a person, would they be interesting
    and/or pretty enough for you to want them in that capacity? Seems
    like you could have one or the other but not both.
    skye_dsDS: zactly
    skye_dsDS: the answer to the first is yes, abundantly
    skye_dsDS: how attractive they are? ummm, well
    evile: <===hetero/mono barren hag, what the hell would I know about
    poly HBBs. :P
    skye_dsDS: you could easily be a poly HBB if Sweetie allowed
    evile: heh. probably.
    Anyhoo, It's time for me to blow this pop stand. Hasta :)

evile: (clutter)

    14 Nov. 3:28 pm

     

     

    I think I'm about to get unfriended. I don't really care, honestly.
    She's a neurotic selfish drama freak. And, yes, I'm mercenary, in that
    I don't really want to give her any of my time and energy or caring
    because I don't see that she's capable of or interested in reciprocity
    in her relationships.
    =================================

    Sparkling ([info]chrisloy) wrote,
    @ 2005-11-13 20:42:00
    Previous Entry Add to memories! Next Entry
    Current mood: pessimistic


    There is a trio in the apartment community where I live. They are new
    (from my point of view) to being a trio but they will make it work. I
    just know.

    Sometimes I wonder if anyone other than my hubby could ever really
    love me that deeply let alone understand that I can feel that deeply
    toward others without taking away from what I feel toward an
    individual. I really like the idea of polyamory, of the freedom to
    love and be loved by as many people as your heart can hold. Of course
    time dispersement is a big issue with this, but more than that
    personality conflicts, mutual attraction (and more), and just the
    plain logisitics of life play into it so much.

    Over the years I have had MANY roommates from the insane (literally)
    to the perfect roommate who manage to somehow never piss me off with
    regards to living arrangements through the entire experience. Of about
    25 roommates I have had, I get along well enough to continue living
    with 4 of them if the situation were to arise again.

    That really says something about my tolerance levels on all types of
    issues.

    So assuming I can find someone I could actually live with, hubby would
    have to be able to live with them too and he is fairly self-conscious
    about his body yet wants to be able to be naked in his own home (and I
    don't blame him, I do too!). The field narrows even further.

    Okay, now we have to add in someone who is good with kids and who we
    can trust to help raise our child.

    The person has to love both of us and we have to love them. In love
    would be nice but just love would do.

    Oh and finally they have to live in or around or be willing to
    relocate to Austin with the possibility of heading out to Baytown if
    things get too rough here.

    All of this whilst trying to meet someone by staying in our house
    since we are too tired dealing with the Boy and our lives to even be
    able to present ourselves decenlty in public.

    So if this mythical person exists, what the heck are the chances that
    they are polyamorous enough to WANT to live with us and make a go of
    it?!?!?

    I have a feeling my ideal poly household (trio/quad/whatever) is just
    a dream and I need to try to move on with reality.

    (Post a new comment)

    [info]ytima
    2005-11-14 03:46 am UTC (link)
    I have a feeling my ideal poly household (trio/quad/whatever) is just
    a dream and I need to try to move on with reality.

    i SO understand that feeling. seriously.

    (Reply to this)

    [info]bramblekite
    2005-11-14 03:38 pm UTC (link) Delete
    the neat thing I've noticed about poly is that there's no 'one true
    way' to do it.

    What about your list above is absolutely mandatory, and what is 'in a
    perfect world, this would be" type stuff?

    would the person(s) have to live with you 24/7? or could they just
    live nearby? could you be happy in a long distance relationship?
    Thinking not only about what you want, but WHY, might help you develop
    a more work-able poly relationship model to try.

    And then again I could just be talking out of my ass, because as a
    hetero/mono childfree person, what could I possibly know about poly/bi
    with children relationships, right? :P



    (Reply to this)(Thread)

    [info]chrisloy
    2005-11-14 09:22 pm UTC (link)
    One of the reasons I liek poly so much is the ideal of lightening part
    of the "adult" work in the family. Kind of self-centered, but hey :-)

    (Reply to this)(Parent) (Thread)
    forgive me
    [info]bramblekite
    2005-11-14 09:41 pm UTC (link) Delete
    but...were I a potential suitor, I'd probably be thinking something
    like "Ok, so I live with these people and have sex with them and
    accept their bodies as they are, and raise their kid with them, and
    presumably contribute towards the household finances, and follow them
    wherever they go...what's in it for me?"

    I'm sorry, I'm just too mercenary, I suppose.

    (Reply to this)(Parent) (Thread)
    Re: forgive me
    [info]chrisloy
    2005-11-14 09:53 pm UTC (link)
    It'd be family. It would be your kid too. It would be a love thing I
    guess.

    Ya know with everything else, it is easy to forget that love draws
    people together more than any of the "I'd like it if the person were
    attribute X".

    It would be so easy for me to love so many, but with all the
    complications, well, I guess I am just tired of being hur tand wary.
    Probably another reason we will never have a poly household.

    Again, all of this is my ideal. If I do end up letting myself fall in
    love with someone, a lot of that probably won't matter. Well, they
    will have to get along with the hubby and kiddo. That is the one
    unbendable.

    (Reply to this)(Parent) (Thread)
    Re: forgive me
    [info]bramblekite
    2005-11-14 11:26 pm UTC (link) Delete
    Comment Posted Successfully
    See, I don't think I really get poly or am cut out to be poly...I see
    what you want, but I don't really see what you're offering. I guess
    you need someone who's more submissive and into kids than I can wrap
    my mind around.

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