Mar. 15th, 2004

evile: (clutter)

 

    Mar. 15, 2004

     

     

    Taurus

    Horoscope (by Astrocenter.com)
    Today, dear Taurus, you may be feeling a bit out of sorts. You are
    not sick, just exhausted from the efforts you have been putting in at
    work lately. This is a sure sign of stress, and an indicator that you
    are due a true day off - from chores, personal projects, the works!
    Forget the workload you had planned for the day. If you rest and
    relax everything not finished today will be accomplished in no time
    tomorrow. So take the day off - you need it!


    ---
    so amusing. More mandatory OT for the next 2 weeks at work. yay.

    ------
    Gemini

    Horoscope (by Astrocenter.com)
    Today is a domestic sort of day. You have been neglecting your home a
    little recently and now would be a good time to make up for it. Clear
    out all the clutter and get organized. If you're ambitious, you might
    even want to try a little cooking. After all, why have you been
    saving magazine recipes all the time? You will enjoy the result of
    getting things in order and allow yourself the pleasures of a
    positive day.

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    So ironic, spent the weekend cleaning my neglected home. Sweetie got the
    table cleared off. such a help
    .
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    evilE
    Sun Sign: Taurus
    Rising Sign: Sagittarius

    Try to ignore all the social invitations that come your way today.
    You need some time off, evilE. Spend the day in bed with a good book,
    or playing quietly with your children. Trust your sense that your
    body needs to rest and your mind needs to recharge. This one day of
    rest will be all you need to face the coming days with renewed vigor
    and enthusiasm.

    Your Rising Sign
    Success in your world of relationships is imminent. Your social charm
    and sense of humor are apt to win over just about anyone you meet.
    Feel free to milk these qualities for all they are worth. Don't be
    surprised if someone whose background is very different from yours
    walks into your life. Today's trine between Venus and Jupiter is
    suggesting that the weather is right for love and romance.

    Daily Numeroscope - March 15, 2004
    Life Path Number: 6
    Welcome to a day that is rich in your own natural essence, evilE. As
    a Six, your primary focus, no matter what you're doing, is likely to
    be family. This is one of the greatest contributions you bring. While
    the definition of family has been modified and has shifted in some
    regards, the same basic elements are essential for success. You will
    have an instinct about this like no one else. Whatever you do, trust
    your gut feelings when it comes to your family and home. You're apt
    to be right on the mark.
    ---

    my instincts say 'ditch it'. My instincts say buy Sweetie out and be done
    with him.

     

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evile: (clutter)
2021icq w/A



    Mar. 15, 2004

     

     

    evile: can't believe it's Monday again! How was your weekend?
    SkyeDS: noneventful
    evile: I got some housecleaning done. Sweetie cleaned off the dining room
    table. The house is more presentable, but by no means company-
    quality. Maybe Ok for family...
    SkyeDS: is probably better than it was anyway?
    SkyeDS: I walked property
    SkyeDS: realized half my property is across a creek - fencing problems
    SkyeDS: and may be zoned commercial which I'll have to get changed
    evile: Not by much. But a little.
    I didn't do anything at all in the way of exercise unless you count
    scrubbing the tub
    SkyeDS: scrubbing = exercise.
    evile: Ok, I'll take it :)
    evile: Zoning can change how you're taxed & stuff, right? Hopefully
    you can get your taxes cheaper.
    SkyeDS: doctor says 8 to 12 weeks with collar
    evile: bummer!!
    SkyeDS: commercial is seldom cheaper
    SkyeDS: why I need to get it changed
    evile: yup. Lynn & Bob got a wildlife exemption on their land, which
    was apparently a huge savings.
    SkyeDS: I need to get it zone changed
    SkyeDS: then get it all fenced
    SkyeDS: and drag whomever was haying it before, in front of the
    County to get it ag exempt
    evile: that would be good.
    SkyeDS: and now I will have to have two fences instead of one
    SkyeDS: I am NOT fencing across a creek
    evile: nope.
    evile: I finally got to price Vegas for XMas :) For the longest time,
    it was only letting people book through August.
    SkyeDS: :)
    evile: My IRS refund will cover it, so as soon as the IRS sends me
    that puppy, I'm booking it :)
    SkyeDS: when I'm due refunds I always efile and do direct deposit
    SkyeDS: some years I've filed on Feb 2 and had the money by Feb 9
    evile: (nagging myself about upcoming medical costs & lease return
    fees...but I'm still going to vegas)
    evile: As I told my accountant: "I don't want the IRS to have my bank
    account numbers unless they get a court order first"
    evile: paranoid=me
    SkyeDS: actually most banks will hand them over without a court order
    SkyeDS: and let the IRS do all sorts of nastiness w/o a C.O. for that
    matter
    SkyeDS: liens, freeze your assets, etc
    evile: I know. I just like to pretend like I dont' live in a
    totalitarian fascist state.
    SkyeDS: found out today the IRS can access your medical records
    without your consent
    evile: nice.
    SkyeDS: sun's out :)
    SkyeDS: I always want it to rain at home and not at work
    evile: I probably won't see the sun today. More mandatory OT from the
    big boss.
    SkyeDS: good for the paycheck I guess
    evile: yup.
    evile: Bad for anything I want to do after work. I'll probably be too
    wiped out to attend this week's poly dinner :(
    SkyeDS: :(
    SkyeDS: I'm getting a lot of little nibbles on the ranch business
    evile: But I do need some positive human contact so maybe I will drag
    myself out anyway
    evile: awesome :) It would be such a win-win for you.
    SkyeDS: answered an email about how far away we are from Goliad
    today, and got a yahoo IM.
    evile: cool!
    SkyeDS: I need to examine where else to advertise, like in Taylor
    paper, Cameron paper, etc.
    SkyeDS: although I doubt Austin woudl do me anygood, too far away
    evile: You never know. Marketing is a strange beast.
    SkyeDS: Hugh's daughter Courtney, and neighbors Connie and Wayne
    went to Excalibur this weekend
    SkyeDS: said they had good times but it was muddy so d idn't stay long
    SkyeDS: I still don't think I'm missing much
    evile: I went to a "Southern Living at Home" thing yesterday. Not as
    agonizing as pampered chef, but not really my cup o tea. Very clever
    & effective way to sell, though.

    Erin, Marca & Andy went to Excalibur Sunday. I didn't get done with
    the SL thing early enough to be able to meet them out there.
    SkyeDS: there's a wine and chef thing coming at the four seasons
    soon, a benefit I think
    evile: cool :)
    evile: I need to go somewhere this weekend. Next weekend too. My car
    is going byebye sometime around the end of March/beginning of April.
    I finally convinced B of A to send someone to get it
    SkyeDS: :)
    evile: I'm paying enough end of lease fees & such, they should have
    been more accomodating than they were, but I was a bitch and I got my
    way after more hassle than I should have had...but the important part
    is I got my way!
    SkyeDS: I'm going to keep the little black truck going as long as
    it's still got blue book value and then I'm going to look at leasing
    or buying a used Prius hybrid
    evile: yup. That would be handy.
    SkyeDS: I have come to the conclusion that I really do need a trailer
    with living quarters
    SkyeDS: as opposed to a van w/ lq
    SkyeDS: or a cabover
    evile: yup.
    SkyeDS: I don't want to haul LQ around with me all the time
    SkyeDS: but I do need them
    SkyeDS: so I don't have to deal with "where am I going to stay"
    SkyeDS: "is it too cold for Arthur to camp"
    evile: exactly.
    SkyeDS: that would be ideal
    SkyeDS: a little hybrid and a big one ton dually
    SkyeDS: and a four horse trailer w/ oq
    SkyeDS: err lq
    evile: yup
    SkyeDS: and then we'll go lots of camping at PB :)
    evile: I still haven't been out there.
    SkyeDS: I guess I might better make what trips I can while I can too
    SkyeDS: overnight layups are going to keep me home on weekends on
    short notice
    evile: yeah.
    evile: I had thought about that.
    evile: I'm not that sad about spending no waking time at home for the
    next couple weeks. Sweetie was a PITA all weekend. God forbid that he had
    to clean house...urgh. His trick is to act assy and then I get mad
    and send him away so he doesn't have to work. I didn't send him away.
    SkyeDS: Bill Cosby calls that Strategic Ignorance
    SkyeDS: a Dad trait
    evile: I mean, god damn. Nobody LIKES to clean house. But we are
    adults and nobody is this house is mommy/cuntslave. So...let's just
    get the shit done and go on to what we like doing.
    SkyeDS: sineater and sonar0m do a better job when they work together than
    either of them working alone
    evile: I actually prefer to do housework in an empty house. But oh
    well.
    SkyeDS: we didin't work on inside house we worked on outside trash
    this weekend
    evile: Sunday turned out nicer than expected. I wish I'd spent more
    of it outside.
    SkyeDS: it wasn't pretty but it was nice
    evile: The weather guy said rain all day Sun. It was humid & partly
    cloudy. No rain.
    SkyeDS: I got little drops infrequently while I was out walking, it
    was nice
    SkyeDS: didn't even have to wipe glasses
    evile: that's the only thing I don't like about walking in the rain--
    spotty glasses.
    evile: I'm still playing the 20-21st by ear, depending on what Jeanne
    & Mark want to do (Sweetie's Sister & BIL)
    SkyeDS: /me nods
    evile: *sigh* I love playng hostess ususally. It should be fun.
    SkyeDS: and no one does it better than y ou either, specially parties
    evile: heh. thanks :)
    SkyeDS: struth
    evile: :)
    evile: I like Sweetie's sister & BIL. Hopefully he won't act like an ass
    while they're visiting. He is usually better & more helpful when
    there's other people in the house.
    SkyeDS: they do that on purpose
    SkyeDS: to make us look bad
    evile: Or just make themselves look better, maybe.
    SkyeDS: at our expense
    evile: *shrug* Jeanne grew up with Sweetie. She knows exactly how
    industrious he is when it comes to housework.
    SkyeDS: LOL point
    SkyeDS: [J- sineater's mom] called just after 10 pm last night
    SkyeDS: she always calls at 10 or 11
    SkyeDS: and always on a worknight
    evile: And bottom line, I'd rather have him being helpful and sweet
    in front o fpeople so I don't have to be ugly in front of people to
    get him to help me.
    evile: [J-] is not very considerate.
    SkyeDS: sineater was sick all weekend too, and already asleep
    evile: Poor puppy!
    SkyeDS: he told her without me requesting it that she needed to stop
    calling so late on worknights
    evile: good for him.
    SkyeDS: I feel like a heel though every time I get annoyed with her
    SkyeDS: because she is in a lot of pain, and I probably can't begin
    to imagine
    evile: yeah. But...that doesn't give her the right to trespass other
    people's boundaries.
    SkyeDS: I don't think she remembers what she's doing
    evile: Just think of it as training a very sweet but stupid puppy.
    Gently remind every time she jumps on the couch, etc. No big anger,
    just establish the boundary and gently remind every time she crosses
    it.
    SkyeDS: good point
    evile: And, as with puppy, you can't say 'it's OK today" and have it
    be NOT OK tomorrow. It's not OK, it's never OK, and it will never BE
    OK. Gently, respectfully, lovingly. But always consistently.
    SkyeDS: it may be hard for him to be consistent with her, specially
    when he's sick
    evile: yeah. And as you know, that's when children/puppies test the
    boundaries the most.
    SkyeDS: well, he's not going to let her use me to get around
    boundaries anymore, so that's good
    evile: yup.
    evile: It is very easy to blame you for when sineater seems to fall down
    on the job re: keeping in touch, spending time, etc. But he's a
    grownup man, and if things are important to him, he will make time
    for them. Easier to be upset with you than with sineater....
    SkyeDS: I think she thinks t hat I control reality
    SkyeDS: so whatever answer he gives her must come from me
    SkyeDS: so to change it, she appeals to me
    evile: That's really so unfair to you...and just unfortunate all the
    way around.
    SkyeDS: well I am in charge of logistics a lot of the time
    SkyeDS: but I'm not a dictator, malignant benevolent or otherwise
    evile: yup
    SkyeDS: actually what my job is, more often than not, is to wave the
    magic wand to try to make whatever everyone else around me wants
    happen
    SkyeDS: against stiff odds sometimes
    SkyeDS: but then if the wand doesn't work, it's my fault
    evile: ugh.
    SkyeDS: and I know t hat I'm extremely susceptible to being made to
    feel like an awful person so I need thicker skin
    SkyeDS: which I'm working on
    evile: good fo r you.
    SkyeDS: well ya know, that button, like most buttons can be pushed
    too hard too fast which then eventually makes me angry
    evile: exactly.
    SkyeDS: when someone sees behavior that is out of context, and they
    don't know it's out of context, they can interpret it badly
    evile: sure.
    SkyeDS: and if it keeps happening, then erroneous conclusions become
    further entrenched
    SkyeDS: even though it wouldn't hold up in a court of law, which
    would demand that it be in context, and not circumstantial
    SkyeDS: most people don't operate that way
    evile: one of The 4 Agreements is "never assume"...people should
    practice that one more.
    SkyeDS: what I"m getting at is, I am aware that taken out of context
    by someone who doesn't know the whole story, I can see where [J - sineater's mom/skye's MIL]
    came to some of her conclusions
    SkyeDS: (and of course....not just [J])
    evile: yup.
    evile: But one would hope that if there was a misunderstanding,
    someone would speak up & try to clear it.. either [J] clarifying
    her assumptions, or you &/or sineater saying "hey, this is how it is"
    SkyeDS: in this instance, we've both told her dozens of times now
    that when we're living on $3000 a month and have $3800 worth of
    monthly expenses, that there can't be a trip to Houston unless
    someone else pays for it, I don't know
    SkyeDS: she probably thinks that he's just saying that because I told
    him to.
    SkyeDS: but ya know, math is not a matter of opinion, math is fact.
    evile: exactly.
    SkyeDS: I guess she could think I was lying about the math, or that
    it could go on credit or whatever.
    SkyeDS: /me shrugs
    SkyeDS: we're already living on my credit cards.
    evile: No point in racking up debts you don't need to have, on top of
    what you need just to live.
    SkyeDS: exactly the primary reason why I didn't go to midreign
    SkyeDS: or any where else this weekend for that matter
    evile: It happens. :(
    SkyeDS: I've got too much to do, both with time and money
    SkyeDS: I don't even want to go into what kind of fencing problems I
    find that I now have.
    SkyeDS: and the taxing situations, yes plural.
    evile: yup.
    SkyeDS: so, if she wants him, she can mail the money, paypal it, I
    don't care, but she can pay for it, and she can have him when he can
    be spared, and not before
    evile: yup
    SkyeDS: all three of us worked our asses off all weekend, even though
    both sineater and I felt like shit (I was attached to the heating pad all
    weekend, despite the prescription muscle relaxant)
    evile: yuck.
    SkyeDS: I had to turn down the last request Gramma made to see me by
    myself for a week, many months ago.
    evile: that's too bad :(
    SkyeDS: I told Mom I would be happy to have her and Gramma and Dad
    too (he just had cataract surgery) this week for spring break.
    evile: wow...
    SkyeDS: and of course, would be perfectly happy to have [J] come
    visit (but she wants him in Houston because she wants help cleaning
    closets)
    evile: aha.
    SkyeDS: she makes him cry.
    SkyeDS: I hold him and pet him and support him but I can't make her
    stop making him cry.
    evile: Unfo, that's between sineater & his mom...
    SkyeDS: I know.
    evile: You've made him cry. I've made him cry. he cries...that's sad,
    but maybe healing, too?
    SkyeDS: but contrary to some popular opinions, I still love him and
    it hurts me to see him cry.
    evile: sure.
    SkyeDS: I hope things improve after surgery
    SkyeDS: if she has it, big if at this point or so I surmise
    evile: But it happens. If you're the cause, you can say you're sorry
    & try to do better...but when someone else does it...you just have to
    be there if he needs ya....
    SkyeDS: Kelly is in same position with her mother and father in law
    (who raised her and she loves like a father)
    evile: [J] is not a healthy person & never has been. I hope she
    gets to feeling better, but I don't think it'll ever happen for long.
    SkyeDS: she wants sineater to watch Passion with her
    SkyeDS: I suggested somewhat out of amusement that he agree if she
    agreed to watch Last Temptation with him
    SkyeDS: (which isn't even blasphemous btw)
    evile: ugh.
    SkyeDS: and he said that had already occurred to him.
    evile: heh.
    SkyeDS: LTOC was a good movie, even from a believer's standpoint
    evile: never saw it. Just read the book & listened to the sountrack
    SkyeDS: /me saw the movie right after I had just been baptized matter
    of fact
    evile: wow
    SkyeDS: the soundtrack rocks, I bought it for sineater. Peter Gabriel.
    evile: I was working in bookstop, my friend/coworker Pam played it a
    lot in the store.
    SkyeDS: I like it for ritual use.
    SkyeDS: as well as just because listening.
    SkyeDS: I wonder if she isn't afraid of dying, regardless of what the
    doctors have told her about the unlikelihood from this kind of
    surgery, on top of possibly losing her singing voice.
    SkyeDS: sineater had a work friend die this weekend
    evile: sad.
    SkyeDS: while I was wrangling with tax issues, I managed to forget
    Gramma's 81st birthday, not a smooth move, exlax.
    evile: ooh...not good!
    evile: J-Law's was Sunday. I called her & we talked for about 2 hours.
    I sent her a few things from her amazon.com wishlist (they won't get
    there until midweek--oops!)
    SkyeDS: those wishlists are about handy
    evile: indeed
    SkyeDS: well whaddya know
    SkyeDS: Ms. pitbull for a son and office manager sent the whole thing
    evile: awesome :)
    SkyeDS: I expected they would send the bare minimum, so t his is a
    pleasant surprise
    evile: very :)

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    evile: grapevine market has friday evening tastings as well as
    Saturdays. That's new :)
    SkyeDS: good times
    SkyeDS: I think I may go to an SBA SCORE meeting some Saturday
    evile: That would be cool.
    SkyeDS: now that I'm involved with Hugh's SBA process no reason not
    to use it to my own advantage too
    SkyeDS: he lectures for SCORE too.
    evile: exactly. The more networking you can do, the better.
    SkyeDS: a small business loan would help carry the next three months
    until the property tax situation is straightened up, which is one of
    my bigger problems
    evile: There's a monthly(?) breakfast that gets posted in the
    Chronicle, but of course it's during the work week & I can never go.
    evile: This is true.
    evile: Just got an invite to Terriblelynne's bead night. I hate mandatory
    OT....*grumble*
    SkyeDS: bet Terri needs a social secretary too.
    evile: yeah. I got to see her for a bit on Sunday. That was nice.
    I've had a productive day, despite the word 'mandatory' which usually
    turns me into a very stubborn unproductive lump.
    SkyeDS: :)
    evile: My astrological sign might as well be the donkey rather than
    the bull...I will work my ass off, assuming it's MY idea (or I think
    it is)...but if someone else tries to force me, forget it.
    SkyeDS: lol
    evile: I *did* tell my boss last week that I'd be working OT, to try
    and make up for the 3 days in April I'm going to miss for surgery &
    prep.
    SkyeDS: does mandatory count tioward that?
    evile: I've got plenty of sick & vacation leave to cover it, but
    we're behind and I felt bad about leaving her hanging like that.
    evile: wonder if Dr. D. is as tired of knocking me out and digging in
    my crotch as I am of having it done? I wish we could have done it all
    in one trip.
    evile: I t hink he made it a hassle just so I'd give up. He don't
    know me too well.
    SkyeDS: lol
    SkyeDS: kind of like telling me no horseback riding or sex for two
    weeks
    evile: I get tired of having to fight and fuss fo r things I should
    just be able to ask politely and receive. But I will fuss and fight
    when I have to.
    SkyeDS: I generally am so unpleasant when I am forced to fuss and
    fight that most people don't make the same mistake twice.
    evile: Yup. I hate to be that way...but if it's the only way to take
    care of things, so be it.
    SkyeDS: /me nods
    SkyeDS: your final round time
    evile: Not today, I'm here til 6. But I do need to spend a bunch of
    time at the photocopy machine.
    evile: So I should sign off and go fight with the machinery.
    SkyeDS: nods
    evile: hasta manyana
    SkyeDS: hasta
    evile: *hugs*
    SkyeDS: :)

evile: (taurusgirl)

    Mar. 15, 2004

     

     

    http://www.livejournal.com/users/jimmywitz/

    Sunday, March 14th, 2004
    5:37 pm Retreat
    This weekend, i went on a spiritual retreat with my beloved alkie
    friends from the Austin Recovery Allumni Association which my friend
    Mike P. and i started some four and a half years ago.
    It was a wonderful reatreat, with the whole emphasis this weekend
    being on the "spiritual awakening" that is the start of the recovery
    process.

    We read a beautiful story written in the 2nd or 3rd century by one of
    the Gnostics, an early Christian sect, that is generally regrarded as
    a "Satanic, anti-Jesus" cult today, because of it's rejection of the
    idea that Jesus was NOT a man. The Gnostics believed that he WAS a
    man, who showed us the way, and that any one of us can take the same
    path if we want to. And that we didn't need any pastors, popes or
    church "elders" to talk to God for us, but that we could make that
    conscious contact our selves, any time we chose to. Of course, it was
    considered a heresy, and the Gnostics were persecuted out of
    existance.

    Anyway, this was a story , a fairy story , about a boy who leaves his
    father quest on a mission to find the "pearl of greatest price" and
    forgets his purpose and falls into a sleep in a foreign land, until a
    message from His Father wakes him up, and he completes the quest and
    returns home.

    So we then had to write our own "fairy story" about our own life. We
    had to start with:
    "Once upon a time there was a ......... who was completely whole"
    Then in the middle we had to write
    "And on the way...... things happened"
    And we had to end with:
    "And so, to this day..."
    This is the story i wrote......

    Once upon a time, there was a little boy who came into the world
    whole. He was the third of two children. No one kinew what had
    happened to the second child. The first was perfect, but the third
    one, who was not expected, was a bitter disappointment.
    He tried so hard to be that second child, the one his parents had
    really wanted, but it seemed that the harder he tried, the more
    disappointed his parents became. He was sure he was really not his
    perants child.
    along the way, some strange things happened.
    He wondered why his parents were so sad and disapointed, and one day,
    he looked into the muddy, swirling waters of the sotrm filled river
    and saw his reflection for the first time. and then, he saw what his
    parents saw... his ugliness... and he knew then why his parents were
    so sad.
    He left his home and wandered the world. He began to wear masks to
    hide his ugliness, but somehow, people could always manage to see his
    ugliness underneath. And they would laugh at him, and shun him.
    He became more and more lonely, hiding himself awa y in dark caves
    where no one could see him, and he ventured out only at night as he
    was scared of the light, because it showed his ugliness.
    Then one day, in his despair and lonliness, he just lay donw, and
    waited to die.
    And as he waited a prince and a princess came riding by his dark
    cave. And they called out:
    "We are looking for our lost little brother"
    "He is not here" shouted back the boy "Go away"
    Three times they called out to him, and three times the boy told them
    to go away.
    But on the third time, they dismounted from their horses and went
    into the cave, and saw the boy, lying in the dark at the back of the
    cave.
    "Yes, this is our lost little brother" they said," and his Father,
    The King is lonely without him, and has asked us to bring him home if
    we find him."
    And they stooped down and picked up the boy, who was now near death,
    and brought him back to the King's palace and nursed him back to
    health.
    But the boy still felt ugly and still tried to wear his masks.
    So one day, the prince and princess who had found him took him to a
    quiet, still, clear stream near the palace and showed the boy his
    real reflection.
    And the boy saw the reflection of himself as he truly was for the
    first time... and he saw that he was beautfiul.
    And so, to this day...
    The boy doesn't have to wear his masks any more to hide his face. He
    goes into many dark caves with his brother and sister, looking for
    any more of his lost brothers and sisters who might also be hiding
    there.
    And he never, ever, looks at his reflection in stormy muddy waters."


    I think this is everyone's story.. It certainly is mine.
    =================

    Once upon a time there was a little girl who was completely whole.
    She was cursed from birth with a mysterious power. Everything and
    everyone she loved or cared about would be destroyed. Her parents'
    marriage crumbled to dust before her 5th birthday. Her scout troop
    disbanded. Every time she started at a new school and started to get
    comfortable and make friends, things would dissolve and she'd find
    herself at a new school trying to fit in again. She grew to be a
    woman. And on the way...... things happened--the PDAP group, the TEP
    house, RHPS casts coalesced and exploded again. As she grew to
    maturity, she finally recognized this power for what it was and tried
    very hard to love and care about things that needed to be destroyed:
    Bureaucracy, the Republican Party, child abuse..but it never worked.
    Her mysterious power always seemed to know what she cared about for
    true and what she was only pretending to love for the sake of
    destroying it.

    And so, to this day, she tries very hard not to love or care about
    anyone or anything and she never joins groups because she doesn't
    want them to end badly.

    She wonders what would happen if she loved or cared about herself and
    maybe thinks that would be the key to a tidy, dignified ending.

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