1569 Quotes from The Picture of Dorian Gray

 

 

 

Aug. 18, 2003

 

 

"It is better not to be different from one's fellows. The ugly and
the stupid have the best of it in this world. They can sit at their
ease and gape at the play. If they know nothing of victory, they are
at least spared the knowledge of defeat. They live as we all should
live, undisturbed, indifferent, and without disquiet. They neither
bring ruin on others, nor ever receive it from alien hands....we
shall all sufer for what the gods have given us, suffer terribly."-
Basil Hallward


"Nothing can cure the soul but the senses, just as nothing can cure
the senses but the soul." - Lord Henry


"You have only a few years in which to live really, perfectly, and
fully. When your youth goes, your beauty will go with it, and then
you will suddenly discover that there are no triumphs left for you,
or have to content yourself with those mean triumphs that the
memories of your past will make more bitter than defeats. Every month
as it wanes brings you nearer to something dreadful. Time is jealous
of you, and wars against your lilies and your roses. You will become
sallow, and hollow-cheeked, and dull-eyed. You will suffer
horribly....Ah! realise your youth while you have it. Don't squander
the gold of your days, listening to the tedious, trying to improve
the hopeless failure, or giving away your life to the ignorant, the
common, and the vulgar....Live! Live the wonderful life that is in
you! Let nothing be lost upon you. Be always searching for new
sensations. Be afraid of nothing...."- Lord Henry

1570 weekend summary

Aug. 18, 2003

 

 

ganked from an email to J-Law:
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My weekend was pretty much a void. I slept and read.
We did get some great BBQ in Lockhart Saturday night.
Sweetie had the gall to act like he wanted me to pay.
We ended up going dutch.

I know he's unemployed, bla bla, but you know what? If
he has the $ to buy shit for his computers & shit for
his cars, he can damn well spend the less-than-$10 it
cost to go out to dinner with me. I hate that shit. I
hate it that he always seems to have $ for things that
are important to HIM but not for anything for US or
ME. GRR.

e is pestering everyone about a "girls night out"
this weekend. I told her Friday would be better for
me, but of course nothing will come of it.

Talked to [brother A] Saturday afternoon/evening. He has
now quit his job at the creepy wierd pinyata &
moonwalk place that was paying him $40 cash daily & is
looking into leads at Costco & Hobby Lobby.

Just by way of perspective, when I went out to feed
the birds this a.m. I saw a giant black column of
smoke across the creek--don't know if someone was
burning leaves, or their car was on fire, or a very
concentrated attic/house fire. There were emergency
vehicles coming from every direction when I left for
work a few minutes later. So...compared to that, life
ain't so bad.

 

1571 Codependency list, from tavalon's LJ

Aug. 18, 2003

 

 

Some of these seem legit. Some just seem like...you are a human who
must interact with other humans, and these are the consequences of
being a person with a life...

-My good feelings about who I am stem from being liked by you

-My good feelings about who I am stem from receiving approval from
you

-Your struggle affects my serenity. My mental attention focuses on
solving your problems/relieving your pain

-My mental attention is focused on you

-My mental attention is focused on protecting you

-My mental attention is focused on manipulating you to do it my way

-My self-esteem is bolstered by solving your problems

-My self-esteem is bolstered by relieving your pain

-My own hobbies/interests are put to one side. My time is spent
sharing your hobbies/interests

-Your clothing and personal appearance are dictated by my desires and
I feel you are a reflection of me

-Your behavior is dictated by my desires and I feel you are a
reflection of me

-I am not aware of how I feel. I am aware of how you feel.

-I am not aware of what I want - I ask what you want.

-I am not aware - I assume

-The dreams I have for my future are linked to you

-My fear of rejection determines what I say or do

-My fear of your anger determines what I say or do

-I use giving as a way of feeling safe in our relationship

-My social circle diminishes as I involve myself with you

-I put my values aside in order to connect with you

-I value your opinion and way of doing things more than my own

-The quality of my life is in relation to the quality of yours