EJ 2/25/03

 1225 BS drama

 

Feb. 25, 2003

 

 

E came over alone yesterday at 3:30, when it had been going to be
either me & A getting together OR Me,E & A getting
together.

E said "I told A to take a hike, I have some things to talk
to you about"

(Translation: A sicced E on me and was too much of a coward
to confront me directly about stuff)

So, we went over the whole "chemistry" between me & Kaleon, which I
laughed in his face about. His take on that was that I'm an adult,
Kaleon is an adult, it's none of his business, BUT Kaleon was trying to
hurt A with it, which makes it his business.

Then there was some other stuff, like the quote about me saying I'm
prettier & smarter than A...which could have only come from
J passing it along to A &/or E. [btw, J disagreed,
and I backtracked on it, because it isn't true, so...moot point,
anyway]

So Kaleon pretty much pegged the wrong thing to do damage control
on...I could give a rat's ass whether he thinks we have chemistry, or
whether he's telling people that we have done this or that and would
go further if it wasn't for Tom, or whether or not he wants to fuck
me...because, frankly, if you've been fucking an abusive 300 lb
smelly, greasy loudmouth skank for 5 years, I'm gonna look damn good
to ya, being that I'm actually nice, actually let other people talk,
am not 300 lbs, AND I wash.

E told me that he'd made peace with A & Sonar0m--he comes to
their house on Fridays & now it's gonna be Saturdays intead, and they
fuck. E said the noises make him upset, but that he had told
himself they were sounds of joy & that she was happy and that was the
most important thing.

Apparently he's making some forays into the dating world, too...so
that's cool,I guess.

Apparently E & I made peace, but then it started sleeting & there
was drama about A getting to our house from Phyllis' house,
Phyllis being upset about them driving in the bad weather, Phyllis
telling E that A is an 'emotional wreck' (yeah,and?) and just
being all drama-junkie. So A gets to our house, won't meet my
eye, won't talk to me, tells me that she's upset about me, yes, but
also about the weather and (I'm not sure if I said or she said" we'll
talk another time"--fat fucking chance)

Anyway...I am done with A. Totally done. No more trying to be
nice to her, no more attempting to cultivate a friendship, I don't
like her and I don't want to like her (well, I do, but for the sake
of argument let's just say I don't) she is never going to get over
the bachelorette party and whatever else she's holding against me,
she's never going to believe me over J or E or whatever the
voices in her head say....I will always be the bad guy no matter what
I do or don't do whoever I befriend or don't befriend...so I'm done.
J-Law called last night & I told her I'm done & she was very relieved &
glad for me. I suppose it's been a horrible burden to have to listen
to me bitch about her for all this time...

So, email to J-law:
Tue, 25 Feb 2003 10:03:24 -0800 (PST)

Anyway...apparently emails are a 'flyin between J,
E, and/or A. I sent an email to J saying that
he had no business repeating or forwarding ANYTHING
I'd told him, and I sent email to E saying that I'm
done & not interested in any more forwards. If he and
A have concerns about me, then they BOTH need to
sit down and talk it out with me. And since A is a
total fucking coward, she won't do it, and I won't
talk about her with E ever again.

*sigh* No good deed goes unpunished. Dad was totally
right when he called J "weasel dick"(even though
he still doesn't know about the whole 'polyamory' BS
thing)

=E
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her reply:

Tue, 25 Feb 2003 10:12:04 -0800 (PST)


You did the right thing with kaleon and the emails.

Greg is right, too.

He would probably crap green twinkies if he knew about the polyamory.


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Sent this to Kaleon
--- E wrote:
Date: Tue, 25 Feb 2003 09:34:27 -0800 (PST)

E and I talked yesterday. I don't really care
about the stuff he initially seemed maddest about & the
thing you tried to do 'damage control' on-- ie: the
implication that there was 'something' between you
and I, whether he got that from you or from A or
just made it up...it's silly and it doesn't matter.

The fact that he quoted some things back to me that
I had told you, however, DOES bother me. I realize that
I did not say "Now, this in in confidence, and I
really don't want you to share this with A or
E" before I said them....but some common sense
and discretion might have been in order before you
repeated my words out of context, used them as
weapons, were tricked into revealing them, or
whatever. I do not care how it came about that you
repeated and/or forwarded my conversation/email, the
fact is that you DID and it makes me angry and sad.

Incidentally, I did NOT tell E anything that
you've said about A, in general, in specific,
verbatim, or in summary. Even though you did not come right
out and say "Please don't repeat this to E or A"
I figured I would have some discretion and treat your
words as confidential & just between us. I am sad
that you did not respect my confidences similarly.

I feel pretty...betrayed. I felt bad for you and did
what I could to help you feel better, get out of
your shell, meet new people, etc, and it sure as hell
came back to bite me in the ass.

I am still willing to spend time with you, because I
like you, we have interests in common, and I feel
sort of 'big sisterly' towards you...but obviously E
and A will not be topics of conversation in the
future.

=E


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I forwarded Es & J's nonsensical emails to my freaks.net email
addy....I will just file & ignore. I've told them both I'm done with
this.