evile

 I think my friend Joe Mason aka Joe SubG told me about this game in college (DePauw-1991 to 1995).  I think there was a whole thing on the college VAX where everyone was coming up with the worst/best Teen Angst poetry they could. The rules are: it has to have something sharp, something black, blood, and end with "I am so alone" . Very silly. And, like listening to Morrissey, so over the top mopey and morose, they somehow cheer ya up!

I found a page of some of mine:
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I dreamt a black metal rose
razor-petals drawing blood
as I wept, "Loves me
Loves me not," 
the last petal cut out my heart
I am so alone.

Lying passive in my coffin
feeling the blood rot in my veins
I waited for a stake
I am so alone.

What I really want to do
is just fall into a black abyss,
with sharp-fanged snakes at
the bottom, waiting to taste my blood
I am so alone.

The words bit into my flesh
like knives, drawing tears like blood
This night, I am so alone.

Writhing in Nightmare,
cat-o-nine-tails tering my flesh
I bleed, and you laugh.
I am so alone.

Blood in moonlight seems black
watching it clot on this knife
my family of pale corpses
I killed them.
I am so alone.

Indianapolis is dark
and cold, like my bleeding 
heart after what you said
your sharp words
I am so alone.

Why did I sayI loved you
when the words cut my tongue
as I said them? Your dark kisses tasted
like blood  that first night.
I am so alone.

A bloody knife with a black handle.
I am so alone.

Weeping black tears,
I drag myself away from
the bloody spot on the bed
where you impaled me.
I am so alone.

Your eyes have depths I'll never see
Your heart has places I'll never touch
Dark emptiness in both
eyes and heart. Blood rushes through your veins
Jagged glass is all around.
I am so alone.

The ice cream truck is black today
And eerily silent as it goes slowly
down the street. Same route it always
takes, only this time holding a bloodless
corpse. The driver's teeth are sharp. 
The ice cream truck stops at my house.
I am so alone