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• evilE

  May 4, 2004

 

evile: Whee! I (hopefully) got registered for a class :)
SkyeDS: which one?
evile: Krav Maga. :) I've been wanting to take it for forever
SkyeDS: what is it
evile: Self Defense/martial art thingy
evile: My 'backup' if the Krav Maga class is full or cancelled is a
Western riding class.
SkyeDS: they provide horse I take it
evile: yup
evile: (not buying a horse just to take a class, in any case)
SkyeDS: lol how much are they charging
evile: $128 for a 5 week session, 1 hour per class/week
SkyeDS: that's not bad at all
evile: I need to bring you the class schedule book. UT sent me 2.
Both to my home addy. I think there's probably another lurking at the
PO box
SkyeDS: most lessons are $35 for half hour and $50 for full
evile: The Krav Maga is $134, so I needed to find something close in
price if the substitution took place & UT neglected to refund the
difference.
evile: I will be happy with whichever class I get.
evile: Unfo, the Krav Maga (if I get it) happens the same night as
party planning 101, so I did not want to mess things up by signing up
for a class I wouldn't be able to get to if my first choice comes
through.
SkyeDS: :-/
evile: s*it happens, I guess. If it's offered again in Fall, I may do
it then.
SkyeDS: methinks you could teach parties 101
evile: As a former teacher, you know that there is a *world* of
difference between knowing something and being able to teach it.
Teaching is a whole different skill, which I don't think I possess.
SkyeDS: teaching a class is actually a good way to learn more about
what you already know
evile: Trial by Fire, more like. My soapmaking class was a total
disaster, so I can't imagine I'd do that to myself again anytime soon.
evile: I feel bad about it, but OTOH, there's no shame in not being
able to do everything perfectly...I'm human, I don't know everything.
That's life.
SkyeDS: nod
evile: With that in mind, knowing its not a skill I possess, I am not
going to put myself into a situation where the best possible outcome
is failure, ya know?
SkyeDS: true
evile: That's the secret to appearing to be invincible & perfect--
know what you can do & CANT do & never fuck up in front of people :P
SkyeDS: except I'm always fucking up in front of people lol
evile: hehe. It doesn't kill ya...I just hate to do it, personally. I
don't have the ego strength to fuck up & deal with it gracefully.
evile: I don't forgive myself for fucking up publically...which is
stupid and useless.
SkyeDS: me either
evile: I'm actually terrified to take this class--I'm sure I'll be
the most uncoordinated fatty in there. But...it needs to be done.
evile: I've suspected for about 3 yrs now that one of the big reasons
I stay fat is to keep people from hitting on me &/or outbulk the
people I fear. So...step 1 towards having a better self-image is
knowing I can kick anyone's ass, anytime, no matter how big they are
or how big/small I am.
SkyeDS: <medicate myself with food, simple.
evile: I am sure I have multiple issues tied in to the fat thing, but
hopefully once I knock out some of the bigger bugaboos, the smaller
ones will fall into place.
evile: No telling. It's been frustrating to intellectually identify
problems and not be able to blast out the undermining emotions.
SkyeDS: there is a book called It's not what you're eating it's
what's eating you
evile: I've probably read it.
evile: I saw Dr. D on Friday, got my weight & BP. My weight is the
same as a month ago, but I've gone from 120/70 to 100/60. Took my
measurements Sunday & I've lost half an inch from my upper arms.
Tennis has apparently been paying off in the cardio dept....
SkyeDS: :)
evile: All the lab work before surgery shows my cholesterol is good,
liver, kidneys, etc. all good. So, even at 50-60 lbs overweight, I'm
perfectly healthy. Which is good, but I still want to lose weight.
SkyeDS: nods
evile: I'm probably the target demographic for 'fat
acceptance'...there is no reason on earth I should be unhappy with my
body--it's 100% healthy. BUT...
evile: Oh well. More tennis. Less cookie dough. We'll get there...
SkyeDS: :)
evile: If I wasn't going on vacation next week, I would *so* be
playing hooky today..darn this work ethic!!
SkyeDS: lol
evile: I went out to feed the birds this a.m. and just felt so nice
being out in the yard, *sigh*
SkyeDS: beautiful day
SkyeDS: had a great time last night at fighter practice
evile: cool :)
SkyeDS: rode easily half a dozen kids around and half that many
adults.
evile: how fun!
SkyeDS: Raj was in "look at me I'm an Arabian mode"
evile: heh.
SkyeDS: gettingn some bites on my work at home paralegal stuff
SkyeDS: if I can make more than $12 hour at it, I hate to do it
SkyeDS: but gas is getting bad
evile: yeah...
evile: Sweetie says he's sending off for his grease tank next month so he
can convert the vanagon to biodiesel/greasel
SkyeDS: cool
evile: I'll believe it when I see it, but it would be cool...
evile: We are going on a year for getting rid of the blue trooper (2
months is what he said)
SkyeDS: have heard that before lol
evile: yup
evile: There are causes & effects in all things, even relationships.
I understand this, maybe eventually Sweetie will as well....
evile: I might not have much room to talk--my work room has been
consistently filthy & unusable for an entire year now. ...but that's
just me fucking myself, not me making a promise to someone else and
fucking them.
SkyeDS: nofd
SkyeDS: err nods
evile: sineater asked me about [brother A]'s wedding plans...I don't have
anything except the date. July 10. I would have thought some kind of
invite should have gone out by now...but I haven't seen or heard
anything.
SkyeDS: I thought it as postponed
evile: Like I said, I haven't seen or heard anything from anyone.
Some night when I have 4 hours to spare, I'll call down to San
Antonio & listen to [brother A] & The Rubber Pig talk at me & hopefully sift some
useful info out of it.
evile: I hate being on the phone...the only people I really like
talking to on the phone are the people I will not see or hear from
any other way (Mom, [sister H], G/stepdad, J-Law, Dee)...and even with them I
don't call that often.
SkyeDS: nods
evile: Oh well, maybe I'll call [brother A] this weekend, when I've got some
time.
evile: I went ahead and chose the riding class that wouldn't
interfere with the date I thought was the wedding date...so I'm
covered, either way :P
SkyeDS: :)
SkyeDS: need to check my calendar 2
SkyeDS: not positive but I think there's something goin that weekend
SkyeDS: but no reason sineater has to go with me
SkyeDS: or me with him
evile: yup.
evile: Keep me posted, if anybody needs a ride to the wedding or
whatever.
SkyeDS: if it goes forward and the date clashes could you take sineater?
SkyeDS: if I like dropped him off at your place before I left?
evile: absolutely. No problem. We have the guest room, so depending
on time/logistics, he could crash here, too.
SkyeDS: I think that's the weekend of Coronation
evile: aha
SkyeDS: yep it is.
SkyeDS: I suppose I'm evil for wanting to go to coronation instead of
to a wedding where I don't know the bride.
evile: nope. If I could get away with it, I wouldn't go either.
evile: But whatever...I will be there if [brother A] wants me to be.
SkyeDS: [brother A] is your family
SkyeDS: I consider [brother A] family too, but I am an outlaw inlaw
evile: Well, you & [brother A] aren't close & never were. sineater & [brother A] were
at one point...
SkyeDS: he has always been kind to me
SkyeDS: sineater isn't easy to be close to.
evile: I think you are to [brother A] as I am to...Stephanie, Maybe. We see
each other at family stuff, but it wasn't important to her for me to
be at her wedding, or to know when she had her kid(s?), etc.
evile: (Stephanie, sineater's cousin, not Stephanie my deaf girlfriend)
evile: There's no active dislike there, we enjoy each other's company
when we see each other, but we don't have a personal connection
beyond that of step/marriage
SkyeDS: nope
SkyeDS: and I don't think [brother A] will get his feelings hurt if I'm not
there.
evile: heh I was just about to say that :)
SkyeDS: besides, if I were there more likely than not I'd just put my
foot in it anyway
evile: No tellin. I don't imagine anybody else will get a word in
edgewise, maybe the officiant. It'll be The Rubber Pig center stage and we get
to be the wordless audience.
evile: She says her whole family is talky like she is. So ...we'll
see, I guess.
evile: Mom will likely wade right in and have a great time. Aunt L,
Uncle B, and I will probably hide in a corner, twitching.
evile: G/stepdad, too :P
SkyeDS: lol
evile: Mom was always great with the [V family]--they are like "My Big
Fat Transylvanian Wedding" 24/7.
SkyeDS: rofl
evile: Mom fits in socially anywhere she goes...she's very adept. I
can be...but it's not a consistent ability.
SkyeDS: I try very hard, I don't always succeed
evile: That may be another innate-to-some talent that is tricky to
learn...
evile: I'm at Quota + 20 with 2 hours until quitting time. Hopefully
that will snap the boss people out of their diaper act (ie: Get them
OFF MY ASS!!!)
SkyeDS: I would think so!
evile: thinking...not a good thing to do around here. Just gets ya in
trouble.
SkyeDS: lol
evile: The stick is not big enough to do anything besides annoy me
and the carrot is long gone.
SkyeDS: rofl! eloquently put
evile: *sigh* Oh well. It beats being one of our customers, I guess.
SkyeDS: indeed
evile: Now that the economy is getting better, I won't feel so guilty
about bitching about work.
SkyeDS: hope sineater goes back to dell or somewhere soon
evile: That would be good.
evile: Oh ick. p0rn as someone's LJ icon. ...nice.
SkyeDS: ew
SkyeDS: as paid for gas yesterday looked up and big nearly porn
banner
evile: yuck.
SkyeDS: thought ya know, that's a lawsuit in the making if you have
female employees
evile: there are LJ communities devoted to such photos, but I darn
sure don't look at them while at work! And, really, I want to
_choose_ to see it, not have it shoved in my face, no m atter where I
am.
evile: despite the laws, most employees (esp at low paying gigs)
don't know their rights in the workplace.
SkyeDS: nods
evile: I get frustrated when people write in an appeal after being
denied, and it's obvious they have a case, but they're not savvy
enough to present it properly.
SkyeDS: no one to refer them to for help...?
evile: Not that I know of. Nobody is supposed to discuss merits
except the hearing officers. I'd get in big trouble if I gave someone
advice on what to say or how to say it.
SkyeDS: :(
evile: yeah...it sucks. But, theoretically, everyone has the same
access to public education & information, so it isn't my fault if
they didn't take advantage of their opportunities & ended up dirt-
ignorant working at 7-11.

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evilE

May 4, 2004

 

 

evile: It's so nice out! I really wanna play hooky...darn this work
ethic. darn it!!
SkyeDS: lol
evile: I have phone duty tomorrow, so I'll get to leave an hour
early. That will be almost as good as playing hooky...
evile: Tomorrow's poly dinner too :) Hopefully phone duty will be
nice so I won't be in a rotten mood after work.
SkyeDS: :)
evile: Would it be OK for me to bring you the UT schedule book after
work today, or would it be better some other time?
SkyeDS: I'll be here till 6 tonight
evile: Ok if I swing by 'round 4:30ish? I won't keep you, I'll just
drop & run ...
SkyeDS: surely :)
evile: cool :)
evile: AWW! Baybeeee Racoooons! SOCUTE!!! They were on a web page
showing ugly (human) babies. I can't believe anybody thinks these
little guys are ugly!
http://www.nmt.edu/~erenee/newborn_raccoons_animalcapture.JPG
evile: here are the rest of 'em. NASTY ugly human dumplings:
http://www.nmt.edu/~erenee/uglybabies1.html
SkyeDS: will wait till boss is gone before I go lookin
evile: OK
evile: I think I'm finally beginning to agree with others' opinions
on the tone of the CF community. In general, we are a pretty hateful
bunch. I unsubbed from the LJ CF community. Didn't want to read it
anymore. Too ugly.
SkyeDS: <is child free (according to those with human children).
evile: well, you could call yourself 'childless' and thus imply that
there was a palpable *lack* rather than "gloat" about it by using the
world 'free'...Or at least that's the way I think the logic goes...
evile: At any rate, I am to the point where I don't have enough time
& energy for the people & things I _love_, so I am certainly not
going to waste any of it on things I don't like...
SkyeDS: my feelings too. too old fat and married.
evile: No polite person should carry the conversation past "do you
have kids?" anyway. If someone does, I can truthfully say "I can't
get pregnant" :P