2379trust/respect issues in the relationship

Jul. 20, 2004

 

 

I asked Sweetie to clean the guest bathroom. He didn't do it. Tonight is
wings & beer night with Jaime, tomorrow is Ubergoobers, Thursday ?,
and Friday my family will be here. Should I trust him to finish the
job or just do it myself?

This a.m. he lolled around in bed until 6:56 and then decided to get
a shower before taking me to work!! We need to leave the house at 7
or a little after to get me to work on time. I freaked. I almost ran
out and got the bus. I was so upset and angry. I told him he's been
getting me to work later & later, and he didn't believe me. Said I
was calling him stupid and some other stuff I can't remember.

If he can't respect me enough to get me to work on time, and if I
can't trust him to get me to work on time...what the fuck are we
doing together?

I love him, but with no trust and no respect, why are we together?

I photocopied my work calendar from this month, where I write my
in/out times on each day. I am going to take it home & show it to
him.

This is what I've wasted 9 years of my life on. A filthy house that I
can't get clean because he's got too much junk and I don't know where
to put it. Someone who doesn't respect me enough to try to be
consistent about getting me to work. Someone I can't trust to do what
I ask him to do.

I'm so frustrated and sad right now...

EJ 7/20/2004: I cq w/A (she really doesn't get it)

 

2381icq w/A (she really doesn't get it)

 

• Jul. 20, 2004

 

evile: hi :)
SkyeDS: how do :)
evile: having depo provera withdrawals, I think.
SkyeDS: ack - hormonal problems bad :(
evile: threw a temper tantrum at Sweetie this a.m., cried when my boss
called me over to her desk to talk about some questions I had...it
SUCKS!!! I want the Robot-E back!!!!
SkyeDS: would offer chocolate if could :(
evile: somebody brought oreos to work today...iv'e had more than I
care to admit.
evile: But I haven't cried since I ate them, so I guess maybe they
worked.
SkyeDS: chocolate is scientifically proven to lift moods
SkyeDS: it was medically necessary
evile: yup.
evile: Class last night kinda sucked, too. One of hte instructors
apparently has a thing for one of my fellow students, so little
bantyrooster instructor was impressing her by bullying other
students, mostly me. "Do this, do that, dont' do that, you're not
being a good partner"
SkyeDS: I don't know what baffles me more. What men do with regard
to relationships or what women do.
evile: *nods*
evile: they say that you should always judge a potential SO by the
way he treats strangers--waitstaff, cabbies, etc. Because that is
eventually the way he will treat you
SkyeDS: sad but true
evile: *nods*
evile: which is why your story about your 'rich bitch' friend who set
the tip on the table at the beginning of the meal gave me such a bad
reaction :P
SkyeDS: it's effective if you can afford it. I can't. I do tip up
to twice what's expected when I'm happy, afterwards
evile: But translate that kind of shitty treatment to how rich bitch
would be as a boyfriend.
SkyeDS: wouldn't last long, point.
evile: "her'es $500. Give me all the sex and blowjobs I want for the
month and you can have it. If you disappoint me in any way, you have
to give it back"?
SkyeDS: although that would be amusing in reverse
SkyeDS: dangle a fiver in his face and say, all the clitoral and/or g
spot orgasms I want for a month or..."
evile: I'm too much of a Real Human Being to do that to another
person. Silly conscience & ethics ruin lots of fun....
evile: I wouldn't want someone to do that to me...so I wouldn't want
to do it to someone else.
SkyeDS: it wouldn't work in reverse anyway
SkyeDS: difference in attitudes
evile: money AND sex?!? YAY!!
SkyeDS: lol
evile: But that kind of all or nothing attitude--"meet ALL of my
expectations, or I will give you nothing, no second chances and I
will not accept apologies or forgive"...ugh.
SkyeDS: I could go for a quiet room with chocolate, book, heating pad
and/or hot tub right about now too.
evile: *nods*
SkyeDS: hang out the "abandon all hope, ye who enter here" sign on
the door
evile: I'm going to go home & clean house some more. Oh boy.
SkyeDS: I suspect I will be here very late tonight, because our
problem child has blown up in our face to the p oint that Hugh
cancelled his vacation this week
evile: ugh.
SkyeDS: go home, eat and go straight to bed, so I can come in early
tomorrow and leave early for the movie.
SkyeDS: Hmmm, far be it from me to be contrary and all ~ PtA ROFL
MFIAO
evile: heh.
evile: It's always interesting to see how people see themselves.

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2382Re: icq w/A (she really doesn't get it)

 

Jul. 20, 2004

 

 

evile: wierd. i got disconnected. I'm back. :P
SkyeDS: wb
evile: I'm trying to actually get work done today...it helps to have
something to focus on.
SkyeDS: yep
evile: Okay, Houston we have a Plan: [Brother A] & the Rubber Pig are coming up
Sunday, taking Mom (&maybe [Sister H]) to SA for Monday & Tuesday,
bringing them back up Tuesday evening. so the rest of the week
they're 'ours'. :)
SkyeDS: ok
SkyeDS: I'll bring sineater into town any time next week you want
evile: Aunt L knows you work late in the evenings, so will probably try
& make breakfast plans with both of you, and then maybe sineater can go
from there with Mom/[Sister H]/Aunt L & meet you back again after you're
done working. something like that.
SkyeDS: ok
evile: I have class Monday & Wednesday nights. We'll get it figured
out so that they have a good visit & time to relax, too.
evile: I think I've got Sharjinka on board for the Schlitterbahn trip.
That'll be a hoot.
SkyeDS: :)
evile: well, it's about time. longest day ever. I gotta go clean the
kitchen.
SkyeDS: wind to your wings bella :)
evile: *hugs*