evile

Jul. 20, 2004

I asked Sweetie to clean the guest bathroom. He didn't do it. Tonight is
wings & beer night with Jaime, tomorrow is Ubergoobers, Thursday ?,
and Friday my family will be here. Should I trust him to finish the
job or just do it myself?

This a.m. he lolled around in bed until 6:56 and then decided to get
a shower before taking me to work!! We need to leave the house at 7
or a little after to get me to work on time. I freaked. I almost ran
out and got the bus. I was so upset and angry. I told him he's been
getting me to work later & later, and he didn't believe me. Said I
was calling him stupid and some other stuff I can't remember.

If he can't respect me enough to get me to work on time, and if I
can't trust him to get me to work on time...what the fuck are we
doing together?

I love him, but with no trust and no respect, why are we together?

I photocopied my work calendar from this month, where I write my
in/out times on each day. I am going to take it home & show it to
him.

This is what I've wasted 9 years of my life on. A filthy house that I
can't get clean because he's got too much junk and I don't know where
to put it. Someone who doesn't respect me enough to try to be
consistent about getting me to work. Someone I can't trust to do what
I ask him to do.

I'm so frustrated and sad right now...