1968Mailed my IRS return

Feb. 20, 2004

 

 

The post office lady seems to doubt whether it is deliverable.

The address was written too high on the envelope, she pointed out, as
she affixed the certified mail sticker and called my attention to the
fact that the sticker went over part of the word 'internal'

I'm sorry, I said. But doesn't the ZIP code only go to one place?

Yes, but it's written so high on the envelope the machine may not
read it.

I'm sorry. I don't have another envelope.

--some more commentary from po lady--

I'm sorry. The only thing I'm good at is screwing up.

No, no problem, I'm just telling you for next time, don't put the
address so high up on the envelope.

You know...after I've said "I'm sorry" THREE times, I think it's
pretty obvious that there's nothing I can do other than say I'm sorry
& regret inconveniencing you, so there's no need to keep beating me
over the head with my mistake.

1970Dark Goddess

 

 

Feb. 20, 2004

Not as good this year, or maybe it was just me.

Ishtar and mother ocean were the ones who were most compelling.
Ishtar was described as a non-mothering god of childbirth, or
something to that effect, like maybe she was CF (like
Artemis) ...but ? info I find online says she is the Great Mother.
bleh. The actress who played her was great.

Good set. lots of levels, water, fire, etc. cool.

dayquil lasted exactly 12 hours before my body decided to become
immune to its medication. Why can't my body become immune to
allergens? You'd think a drug would be complicated and difficult to
get used to and a stupid piece of pollen would be like 'nyah'

Anyway.

Some thoughts this evening:

1) what if I had a killing plague & only 24 hours to live. What would
I do? Besides to go washington dc, of course.

2) that wierdo carrot guy telling me that I understand everything I
see. Telling X that she sees everything. I note that besides the
myopia, I often really don't LOOK at anything, or that my mind
wanders and I stop seeing what's in front of my face. None so blind
as those who will not see. hindsight 20/20. turning a blind eye.
deliberately not seeing because I don't want to understand. Will I
eventually go blind?




http://sangha.net/messengers/ishtar.htm
Ishtar, chief goddess of the Babylonians and the Assyrians and the
counterpart of Astarte, a Phoenician goddess. The name appeared in
different forms in every part of the ancient Semitic world; thus it
was Athtar in Arabia, Astar in Abyssinia (now Ethiopia), and Ashtart
in Canaan and Israel. The sex of the divinity also varied: Athtar and
Astar were male deities. Ishtar of Erech (in Babylonia) was a goddess
worshiped in connection with the evening star, but Ishtar of Akkad
(also in Babylonia) was a god identified with the morning star. As a
goddess, Ishtar was the Great Mother, the goddess of fertility and
the queen of heaven. On the other hand, her character had destructive
attributes; she was considered, especially by the Assyrians, a
goddess of hunting and war and was depicted with sword, bow, and
quiver of arrows. Among the Babylonians, Ishtar was distinctly the
mother goddess and was portrayed either naked and with prominent
breasts or as a mother with a child at her breast. As goddess of love
she brought destruction to many of her lovers, of whom the most
notable was her consort Tammuz, the Babylonian counterpart of Adonis.

Another source adds: Ishtar (Chald.). The Babylonian Venus,
called "the eldest of heaven and earth", and daughter of Anu, the god
of heaven. She is the goddess of love and beauty. The planet Venus,
as the evening star, is identified with Ishtar, and as the morning
star with Anunit, the goddess of the Akkads. There exists a most
remarkable story of her descent into Hades, on the sixth and Seventh
Assman tiles or tablets deciphered by the late G. Smith. Any
Occultist who reads of her love for Tammuz, his assassination by
Izdubar, the despair of the goddess and her descent in search of her
beloved through the seven gates of Hades, and finally her liberation
from the dark realm, will recognise the beautiful allegory of the
soul in scarch of the Spirit.