1739dream. scopes

14 Nov. 6:25 am

 

 

dream:

I was looking at a catalog, or faire program, or schedule of classes,
and it had a picture of one cast member/instructor in yellow & orange
velvet garb, long white hair & beard, with something like "I have
never gotten a faire favor because I am ex military"..? I think his
name was Sir William..?

So I was going to wrap up one of my computer-button favors and give
it to him with a note saying something hokey like "thank you for
protecting our freedom & serving our country" or someshit, and then I
saw him with a bunch of people in garb, getting faire favors from
everyone & then they were all getting on a bus (to go to faire?) and
he was going to teach a class. His hair was shorter, and his beard
was a little point instead of the long flowing one in the picture,
but he was still in garb.

I went to the library where the class was supposed to meet, and met
up with a young dark haired guy, reminded me of a combination of Judd
Nelson in Breakfast Club & Tom Chiarella. We were chatting and having
a nice talk, when I mentioned a class I'd taken and he said some
friend of his (Kara/Bliss from old bookstop days?) was in that class,
and then he realized that I was the same evilE who had insulted her
in the class & she had never gotten over it and was still hurt and
upset by whatever I'd said to her in the class.I could barely
remember the class, or her, so I was going to go check my journals
from that time in my life & see what it was I'd said or done that was
so horrible. So, this Judd/Tom guy was totally railing against me and
telling me what a horrible bitch I am and just going on and on, and
then the other class members showed up, and we all went to this area
of the library with chairs & couches. I sat down at one end of a
sofa, and the class members started introducing themselves. One of
the class members was a famous author. A bunch of faire people went
off and started talking among themselves with the prof. As the people
were introducing themselves, I was saying "nice to meet you"
or "looking forward to reading your stuff" or whatever and judd/tom
would make some nasty comment each time I said anything. So by the
time it was my turn to introduce myself (I felt awkward anyway,
because half the class wasn't even listening, they were over in the
faire group) I just felt like crap and I said something like "I'm
evilE and everyone hates me." The famous author said "Aww, you can't
be that bad" or something sort of comforting, and then JuddTom told
everyone what horrible things I'd said/done to his friend way back
when and then I remembered, and it was that I'd critiqued her writing
harshly in the long-ago class and so I finally got pissed and
said "Look, it was a writing class, and we were supposed to give each
other constructive criticism. I was not saying anything personal
about her, I didn't have anything against her, I was trying to help
her improve her writing!"

There was also something about going in the attic and the basement of
the library, some secret pasages between the attic and the basement,
bits of stray insulation falling off of things in the attic, and
water leaks in the basement.

The alarm went off and I remember waking up gasping for air. It was a
terrible dream & I woke up feeling really bad.
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Taurus
Horoscope (by Astrocenter.com)
The stars indicate that love and romance are in your favor, dear
Taurus, and you will find that this area of your life is indeed going
well. Shower your partner with love and affection. The more hugs and
kisses, the better. You honey's ego wants to be stroked. You can earn
points by petting their head and scratching them beyond their ears.
Be careful, however, that you don't spoil them to the point that they
become arrogant and self-centered, and end up disregarding all of
your wants and needs.


Gemini
Horoscope (by Astrocenter.com)
The sensitive, sensual side of your nature is being drawn out, dear
Gemini. You may feel as if the romantic side of you is being put up
on display. You are like a dancer on a stage, and you accept this
role with great pleasure! There is a great combination of energies at
work allowing you to become more realistic with love, but at the same
time approach it with a dramatic flair and courageous spirit. Be more
expressive when it comes to your own personal needs and desires.

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evilE
Sun Sign: Taurus
Rising Sign: Sagittarius
You may find yourself running up against a brick wall, evilE -
especially during the earlier part of the day. The good news is that
things should ease a bit as evening draws near. Keep in mind that the
harder you push against that wall, the more your head will pound, the
more black and blue your shoulders will become, and the more energy
you will expend. You will be surprised at how easy things become when
you take a step back. You will see that you can actually go around
the wall without having to charge right through it.

Your Rising Sign
While you are normally an outwardly-directed person, today the Sun
trining the Moon could have you feeling more inclined to look within.
You might find yourself reflecting on your past and wondering what
the future holds for you. Guidance may come from within, but if it
doesn't, this is a good day to go for a psychic reading. You are
especially open and receptive to messages from the higher planes.

Daily Numeroscope - November 14, 2003
Life Path Number: 6

Welcome to a Five day, Six. You can expect more emphasis on social
interaction and lighthearted fun today. If you can, stick to no-
brainer tasks such as housework or filing, because concentration for
any length of time won't come easily. Ideally, you would be able to
spend the day hanging out with friends and family. But if this isn't
possible, see about making some plans for this kind of thing for
after work. Some laughter and sharing will do you a world of good

1740 $ - hitting the wall

 

14 Nov. 9:29 am

 

Here I am, once again getting to the point where I realize that I
will NEVER be able to afford new furniture, masonry repairs, a new
roof, rewiring the house, and/or Chenonceau for my 35th birthday.

I am 10 grand in debt. I'm never going to get out of debt. It's never
gonna happen. I'm never going to be able to pay cash for the things I
want/need in life.

At this point, I usually say 'fuckit' and go charge a bunch of little
crap that adds up to a couple hundred dollars. and feel even worse
about things once the initial 'I got new stuff' thrill goes away.

I am hoping/trying not do do that this time.

:(

I hit the wall in similar fashion with food from time to time, but I
think I'm in better control of that. I could just be lying to myself
however.

And it's not like the house needs to look like shit just because we
have no money. It doesn't take any money to trim hedges, mow the
lawn, pick up brush, sweep, mop, scrub, and put shit away.

So...I may spend a good bit of this weekend doing those things.
Poverty need not equal living in filth, clutter, and mess.

Resenting the Sweetie soooooo much right now. For being NO help on any
front, for always putting his own wants first before the house, etc.
But, know what? I do it too.

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14 Nov. 10:20 am

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1744The Real Mr Rogers

14 Nov. 1:07 pm

 

 

http://www.beliefnet.com/story/135/story_13567_1.html

The Real Mister Rogers
His widow gives the inside scoop on the Man in the Red Sweater.

By Joanne Rogers

Fred Rogers and his wife Joanne met in college and were married for
50 years. She was the person who early on recognized his talent,
witnessed his efforts to overcome shyness, and loved his humor,
kindness, and understanding of children. "Fred was more in touch with
his own childhood than anyone," she writes. The following is
excerpted from a new book, "The World According to Mister Rogers"
(Hyperion).

There were always quotes tucked away in Fred's wallet, next to his
neatly folded bills, or in the pages of his daily planner book.
Perhaps he liked having words of wisdom close to him, as if he wanted—
or needed—to be constantly reminded of what was important in life.
The outside world may have thought his qualities of wisdom and
strength came naturally to him, but those close to him knew that he
was constantly striving. He was as human as the rest of us.
His early work in TV was all behind-the-scenes, as puppeteer and
musician, and that was quite comfortable for him, because Fred was
basically shy. Someone once asked which one of his puppets resembled
him the most. It was, of course, Daniel Striped Tiger—an
uncharacteristically shy tiger.

The person Fred became in his later years came out of growth and
struggle. As he got older, it seemed as if the nurturing of his soul
and mind became more and more important. He read with pleasure the
works of friends and others he admired and respected, and he began
each day with prayers for a legion of family and friends and, in
general, for the peacemakers of the world. Reading the Bible was also
part of this early morning routine—before he went for his daily swim.
He worked hard at being the best he could be. In fact, it seems to me
he worked a lot more than he played. Discipline was his very strong
suit. If I were asked for three words to describe him, I think those
words would be courage, love, and discipline—perhaps in that very
order.


A quote he loved especially—and carried around with him—was from Mary
Lou Kownacki: "There isn't anyone you couldn't love once you've heard
their story." There were so many times I wanted to be angry at
someone, and Fred would say, "But I wonder what was going on in that
person's day."

Mister Rogers' Words of Wisdom:

On Childhood Influences
All our lives, we rework the things from our childhood, like feeling
good about ourselves, managing our angry feelings, being able to say
good-bye to people we love.

On Love
Love isn't a state of perfect caring. It is an active noun like
struggle. To love someone is to strive to accept that person exactly
the way he or she is, right here and now.

On Parenting
I received a letter from a parent who wrote: "Mister Rogers, how do
you do it? I wish I were like you. I want to be patient and quiet and
even-tempered, and always speak respectfully to my children. But that
jut isn't my personality. I often lose my patience and even scream at
my children. I want to change from an impatient person into a patient
person, from an angry person into a gentle one."

Just as it takes time for children to understand what real love is,
it takes time for parents to understand that being always patient,
quiet, even-tempered, and respectful isn't necessarily what "good"
parents are. In fact, parent help children by expressing a wide range
of feelings—including appropriate anger. All children need to see
that the adults in their lives can feel anger and not hurt themselves
or anyone else when they feel that way.

On Heroes
When I was very young, most of my childhood heroes wore caps, flew
through the air, or picked up buildings with one arm. They were
spectacular and got a lot of attention. But as I grew, my heroes
changed, so that now I can honestly say that anyone who does anything
to help a child is a hero to me.