1702scary creepy CF thoughts

Oct. 14, 2003

 

 

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This woman in the bratpage discussion was talking about how after 20
years of happy CF marriage, hub finally says 'i want kids'...and she
is, of course, devastated.

What would it be like if Sweetie decided that? He's not even 30 yet. He
has many fertile years ahead. And I am about to put a formal end to
mine. Not that my odds were good of having a good pregnancy or a
normal infant...but this is the big door slamming here.

Do I chuck him and start over whenever (IF?) he decides that he wants
kids? Or do I try and convince his very monogamous self to find a
younger, fertile poly-woman to form a relationship with and have kid
(s) with? I could handle him dating. But having not only another
woman but children taking up his time (&, yes, resources) might not
be as easy to deal with for me.

This also echoes into what Kili, kulilinei & knighthorse are going thru, with
me in the 'Kili' role.

This is all highly hypothetical here...but not out of the realms of
possibility. I hope he never changes his mind. But what do I do if he
does?