(no subject)
Mar. 23rd, 2026 02:44 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
evile insomnia last night until 2 or so. Slept very well once I actually was able to sleep. No night sweats that I can recall. Got up, took care of dogs. Went to the store. Have been looking at jobs. Applied to only one so far. Feeling very old and unemployable. If I can limp along to end of 2028 and if I'm not in an ICE concentration camp, I can start collecting my retirement. Sigh.
I got to the grocery store for dinners for the week. Power went out just as I was getting into line to check out. But it came back on pretty quickly. My groceries were bagged by THREE people...who did a terrible job and took forever!!! They put all the heavy stuff into the flimsiest bag, really stuffed it in there, and left my largest, heavy duty canvas bat bag pretty much empty except for cheetos and salad. Mixed up frozen stuff with pantry items instead of keeping things organized as I'd had them on the conveyor belt, put heavy stuff on top of light stuff.... just...awful. The phrase 'couldn't pour piss out of a boot if the directions were written on the heel' came to mind. Apparently either the power out or some interpersonal employee drama had put their heads up their asses. I was kind and gracious, however. The people in line behind me had also been waiting patiently and no need to hold them up with bitchyness. I just grumbled to myself on my way out to the parking lot.
Housemate Sam offered to kick in for groceries since I include her in suppers M-F. I suppose after almost a year of living with us, it occurred to her that perhaps she should do that. LOL. I declined. What I should have said, but didn't think of it in time is "you need to save your money for when you get your own place,"...keep that thought in the top of her mind. sigh.
Went to Sherwood Faire Friday. Hadn't been in a couple of years. Took brother A. He apparently had a friend working there, one of his buds from the halloween haunted house biz he worked at a couple years ago. The friend had offered him a free ticket. I don't know if he got free admission or was ever able to find his friend on site (cell reception out there is spotty). He seemed down when we were headed home later, and has stayed to himself all weekend....He has a lot of thoughts and dreams for his future that are fun but maybe not as workable as he thinks. His creative ideas kept him going through his time in prison and I never wanted to shoot down his ideas when they were the only thing keeping him going. His employment since getting out has been spotty. He is a hard worker but gets his feelings involved t if he feels unappreciated or mistreated or disliked by coworkers/management... and h e wants to be in business for himself, doing sculpture and art and making funny movies with puppets... not realistic as a means of self sufficiency. I mean, it's not impossible. It's just going to be difficult and he's not keen to learn from other people's mistakes or experiences, he wants to do things his own way no matter what.
Ah well. I didn't take that child to raise, either, as Elaine would say..
I'll finish looking at job sites here in a minute and then dishes and try to clean the uncleanable kitchen floor. Maybe change the sheets in the bedroom. I dunno. feeling unmotivated and sad. The state of the world is unhelpful. Meteors/fireballs have been dropping on the planet the last few days. One in Ohio, one over Houston just yesterday or day before. Maybe something taking aim/getting range to wipe us out! Comeon, Giant Asteroid!!!! You can do it!!!!
I got to the grocery store for dinners for the week. Power went out just as I was getting into line to check out. But it came back on pretty quickly. My groceries were bagged by THREE people...who did a terrible job and took forever!!! They put all the heavy stuff into the flimsiest bag, really stuffed it in there, and left my largest, heavy duty canvas bat bag pretty much empty except for cheetos and salad. Mixed up frozen stuff with pantry items instead of keeping things organized as I'd had them on the conveyor belt, put heavy stuff on top of light stuff.... just...awful. The phrase 'couldn't pour piss out of a boot if the directions were written on the heel' came to mind. Apparently either the power out or some interpersonal employee drama had put their heads up their asses. I was kind and gracious, however. The people in line behind me had also been waiting patiently and no need to hold them up with bitchyness. I just grumbled to myself on my way out to the parking lot.
Housemate Sam offered to kick in for groceries since I include her in suppers M-F. I suppose after almost a year of living with us, it occurred to her that perhaps she should do that. LOL. I declined. What I should have said, but didn't think of it in time is "you need to save your money for when you get your own place,"...keep that thought in the top of her mind. sigh.
Went to Sherwood Faire Friday. Hadn't been in a couple of years. Took brother A. He apparently had a friend working there, one of his buds from the halloween haunted house biz he worked at a couple years ago. The friend had offered him a free ticket. I don't know if he got free admission or was ever able to find his friend on site (cell reception out there is spotty). He seemed down when we were headed home later, and has stayed to himself all weekend....He has a lot of thoughts and dreams for his future that are fun but maybe not as workable as he thinks. His creative ideas kept him going through his time in prison and I never wanted to shoot down his ideas when they were the only thing keeping him going. His employment since getting out has been spotty. He is a hard worker but gets his feelings involved t if he feels unappreciated or mistreated or disliked by coworkers/management... and h e wants to be in business for himself, doing sculpture and art and making funny movies with puppets... not realistic as a means of self sufficiency. I mean, it's not impossible. It's just going to be difficult and he's not keen to learn from other people's mistakes or experiences, he wants to do things his own way no matter what.
Ah well. I didn't take that child to raise, either, as Elaine would say..
I'll finish looking at job sites here in a minute and then dishes and try to clean the uncleanable kitchen floor. Maybe change the sheets in the bedroom. I dunno. feeling unmotivated and sad. The state of the world is unhelpful. Meteors/fireballs have been dropping on the planet the last few days. One in Ohio, one over Houston just yesterday or day before. Maybe something taking aim/getting range to wipe us out! Comeon, Giant Asteroid!!!! You can do it!!!!
