More body insanity

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 saw part of an interview with Erika Kirk. The interviewer (Katie Miller? Idunno?) asked why she wasn't ever seen in public during her pregnancy(ies?)

My answer: because Erika Kirk had a surrogate and wasn't ever pregnant herself (Not that there's anything wrong with that, seems a lot of celebrities are doing that these days. I think it's creepy to pay someone to have your babies unless there's a medical situation, but whatev.)

Anyway, Erika goes on this thing about how she was eating burgers and fries and milk shakes and desserts and got up to 190 lbs! (gasp! shock! Horror!) so I guess she didn't want to be seen when she was so heavy....

and up until that exact moment, it had never occurred to me that there are women (many women? most women? I dunno.) out there who are actually hungry, starving, ALL THE TIME. So that they can stay thin and perform 'pretty' for everyone. Like, never feeling OK to have enough food, or have ice cream. UNLESS they are pregnant. The only time it's OK for them to eat enough and have sweets and snacks is when they're pregnant.

It had never occurred to me that maybe that's one of the reasons why some women want to be or like to be pregnant.

I guess that's weird to think about. Maybe it's not true. I dunno. As much as I dont' really like looking in the mirror It's never occurred to me to be THAT self hating.

but, yeah, Erika Kirk totally paid some poor woman to carry her fetuses.

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[evile]

and, on further reflection, perhaps this epiphany just reveals a facet of my own disordered relationship with food and eating. Maybe no one who is thin and fit ever eats what and how much they want. I dunno. When I've been in better exercise habits, my body seems to be better at telling me 'hey, i dont' really want candy, I want some protein,' or 'hey, that's plenty, I'm good.' ... hm. hm.