new job became a reality
Aug. 6th, 2024 02:57 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
evileSo I start the new temp assignment 8/12 8am onsite. Then the rest of our training will be onsite starting 9am. I don't hate that. Will still have time in the mornings to walk dogs with Thax.
I have jury duty 8/13. I will have to figure something out. bleh.
I like this ebike. I'm just window-shopping right now. Good ones are expensive but otoh I may not ride it enough to make it worth the money. One would like to think "oh, hey I spent a couple grand on this thing, and it will be healthy for me to use it frequently," .....but I am full of self defeating lazy ass bullshit so it's hard to think that I'll really use it. We rented bikes when we cruised and stopped in Key West, it was super fun. I can see myself doing shit like that on vacation or in Belize. I really need to be the person I am on vacation --lots of walking, biking, adventures. Not this wilted husk of a bitter bleh that I am here.
anyhoo...
new job starting. I went shopping to 'celebrate'...oh, look, problematic self sabotaging reckless stupid behavior! whee. I'd love to exist in a headspace where spending money on frivolous things isn't a horrible toxic cycle. Like eating, there's an amount that one has to do in order to continue to exist in some healthy embodied sort of fashion. You can't just quit the bad habit of eating and keep being alive. There are some things you have to buy - groceries, for example, see 'eating'..... but it's just too fraught and too fucking easy to 'add to cart' things that are temporary feel- good but overall foolish choices. perfume, make up, shoes.....just dumb stuff.
anyhoo....
new job starting.
need to get my death shit signed, witnessed, and notarized.
bleh bleh bleh.
I have jury duty 8/13. I will have to figure something out. bleh.
I like this ebike. I'm just window-shopping right now. Good ones are expensive but otoh I may not ride it enough to make it worth the money. One would like to think "oh, hey I spent a couple grand on this thing, and it will be healthy for me to use it frequently," .....but I am full of self defeating lazy ass bullshit so it's hard to think that I'll really use it. We rented bikes when we cruised and stopped in Key West, it was super fun. I can see myself doing shit like that on vacation or in Belize. I really need to be the person I am on vacation --lots of walking, biking, adventures. Not this wilted husk of a bitter bleh that I am here.
anyhoo...
new job starting. I went shopping to 'celebrate'...oh, look, problematic self sabotaging reckless stupid behavior! whee. I'd love to exist in a headspace where spending money on frivolous things isn't a horrible toxic cycle. Like eating, there's an amount that one has to do in order to continue to exist in some healthy embodied sort of fashion. You can't just quit the bad habit of eating and keep being alive. There are some things you have to buy - groceries, for example, see 'eating'..... but it's just too fraught and too fucking easy to 'add to cart' things that are temporary feel- good but overall foolish choices. perfume, make up, shoes.....just dumb stuff.
anyhoo....
new job starting.
need to get my death shit signed, witnessed, and notarized.
bleh bleh bleh.
