3530trillian w/Crash

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Sep. 12, 2005

 

 

[21:53] Crash: JOY!!!!!!!
[21:54] Crash: brb
[21:56] eekatfreaksdotnet: Girls night tonight. It was OK
[21:57] Crash: cool
[21:58] Crash: I worked out, went to storage and dug around, ate at
Moe's then came home and continued to dig around
[21:58] eekatfreaksdotnet: nikiyoy is doing that very irritating "I can't
do things or go places unless my man is coming along' thing.
[21:58] Crash: ohhhh
[21:58] Crash: hehehehh
[21:58] eekatfreaksdotnet: gag
[21:58] Crash: probably why she hasn't called me
[21:59] Crash: ah well
[21:59] eekatfreaksdotnet: I can't wait until this one runs its
course; I don't ilike the way she is right now
[21:59] Crash: yeah, it's pretty much bound to pass
[21:59] Crash: she's young
[22:01] eekatfreaksdotnet: Yup. I just about fell over laughing when
she said [Fishfood's] wife is a 'princess' with 'entitlement issues'
[22:01] Crash: shit
[22:01] Crash: the whole poly thing is too confusing for me...
[22:01] Crash: too complex
[22:01] Crash: I'm like to keep it more simplified I've decided
[22:02] eekatfreaksdotnet: It is definitely easier, monogamy has all
the rules built right in so you don't have to think or talk about it much
[22:03] Crash: maybe an occasional 2 on 1 with an extra girl from
time to time, and I'm happy...
[22:03] Crash: call me old fashioned... LOL
[22:03] Crash: yeah, it's easier
[22:03] eekatfreaksdotnet: heehee.
[22:05] Crash: So I think I'll stick to that...
[22:05] eekatfreaksdotnet: hey, as long as your partner is cool with
that, what the heck.
[22:06] Crash: yup
[22:06] Crash: so what else is going on?
[22:07] eekatfreaksdotnet: Nothing much. Sweetie's at bowling with Peglegasus.
I'm doing laundry. Bedtime soon...very exciting life
[22:07] Crash: ah
[22:08] Crash: yeah, I hear ya...I pretty much finished my stuff
for tonight
[22:08] Crash: I think
[22:09] eekatfreaksdotnet: Wednesday is the big day
[22:09] Crash: what's happening?
[22:09] eekatfreaksdotnet: isn't that your mediation day, or whatever?
[22:10] Crash: Monday next week
[22:10] Crash: that's why I'm gettin my stuff ready this week
[22:11] Crash: then figure out what I'm going to get out of this
[22:11] Crash: besides a major pain in the ass
[22:11] Crash: trading a constant pain for temporary pain I guess....
[22:13] eekatfreaksdotnet: Ugh. Seems like so much unnecessary DRAMA
[22:13] Crash: you should see the emails she's been sending me lately
[22:13] Crash: talk about drama
[22:14] Crash: it's really irritating
[22:14] Crash: its setting me back in my healing process
[22:15] eekatfreaksdotnet: Does she not realize that all of that is
just going ot make her look REALLY bad when it comes to it?
[22:15] Crash: I guess
[22:15] Crash: not
[22:15] Crash: but I'm stupid enough to write back so
[22:15] Crash: don't know why, there is no point
[22:18] eekatfreaksdotnet: yeah...she is set on seeing things a
certain way an there's nothing you can do or say to make her change
her mind
[22:18] Crash: you're absolutely right
[22:18] eekatfreaksdotnet: I hate being stuck in the bad guy role...I
used to fight it a lot.
[22:19] Crash: I just hate for her to go on thinking the way she is
and blaming me to everyone we know
[22:19] eekatfreaksdotnet: the people who know you are going to know
it's BS
[22:19] Crash: thank you, E. that's what I keep telling myself
[22:20] Crash: it all works itself out in the end
[22:20] eekatfreaksdotnet: it's true. she is just making herself look ba.
[22:20] eekatfreaksdotnet: D
[22:20] Crash: yeah...guess I should quit responding to her
[22:20] Crash: and not let it bother me
[22:20] eekatfreaksdotnet: easier said than done.
[22:20] Crash: I know
[22:22] eekatfreaksdotnet: *hugs*
[22:22] Crash: :-)
[22:23] Crash: I glad I have some good friends like you guys
[22:24] eekatfreaksdotnet: that's because you ARE a good friend. We
wouldn't put up with you if half the crap Kathleen was saying was true!
[22:24] Crash: if the others no longer accept me, then so be it
[22:24] Crash: yeah, she comes up with something different every
once in a while
[22:25] Crash: (about what is wrong with me) personality disorder,
narcissistic, etc.
[22:25] eekatfreaksdotnet: What.EVER.
[22:26] Crash: everyone is a little narcissistic, it's natural...I
don't think I'm over the top
[22:26] Crash: as if I don't care about anyone but myself
[22:26] Crash: I'm not made that way
[22:26] Crash: that is one of the things I've been accused of
[22:27] eekatfreaksdotnet: You're right, everyone does have elements
of narcissism, and it's healthy to be a little bit selfish...
[22:29] Crash: sure
[22:29] Crash: she tries to catagorize my problem into one neat
little box
[22:30] Crash: my problems are very diverse! LOL
[22:30] eekatfreaksdotnet: Sure. It's easier that way, if she has a
syndrome to blame, or whatever. If she can understand (or convince
herself she understands) then she can control.
[22:30] Crash: and so are hers
[22:30] Crash: yes
[22:31] Crash: it's all about control
[22:31] Crash: and competition and winning for her
[22:31] eekatfreaksdotnet: yup. typical Scorpio bullshit.
[22:32] Crash: heh
[22:32] Crash: seems to be
[22:32] eekatfreaksdotnet: when Scorps are crazy, they are CRAAAAAZY
[22:32] Crash: she's certainly off kilter
[22:33] eekatfreaksdotnet: she probably assumes that you also have a
need to 'win' this.
[22:33] Crash: maybe
[22:33] Crash: I don't though
[22:34] Crash: I have a need to get the fuck out!
[22:34] Crash: she does continue to taunt me
[22:34] Crash: I need to just quit responding
[22:35] eekatfreaksdotnet: Yup. That will drive her batshit :)
[22:36] Crash: COOL!
[22:36] Crash: hehehhehh
[22:37] eekatfreaksdotnet: yup. I thought that would make you happy :)
[22:37] Crash: well turnabout is fairplay right?
[22:38] eekatfreaksdotnet: And you don't even actually have to DO
anything. Just dont' give her any more of your energy
[22:46] Crash: yeah cuz she sucks the energy right out of me when I
do that
[22:46] eekatfreaksdotnet: Yup. And you have a lot more things you
could be focusing on--new GF, new job, etc.
[22:47] Crash: yes...I know...it's been taking away from all of
that I've noticed
[22:48] Crash: distracting
[22:49] eekatfreaksdotnet: yup. who needs that?
[22:49] Crash: only her I guess
[22:50] eekatfreaksdotnet: some people don't care whether it's
negative or positive, they just need attention
[22:50] Crash: that is true
[22:50] Crash: look at Danicia
[22:50] eekatfreaksdotnet: heehee. I wasn't going to go there
[22:50] Crash: sorry
[22:50] Crash: :)
[22:51] Crash: can I pick 'em or what?
[22:51] eekatfreaksdotnet: aww! *hugs* I think maybe they pick you and
you let 'em. Maybe now you won't do that again
[22:51] Crash: you're wise grasshoppa
[22:52] Crash: that is what happened with Kath
[22:52] Crash: I fought it too
[22:52] Crash: and I finally gave in
[22:52] eekatfreaksdotnet: that was tough...it was like "our friends
are already friends, so this is so convenient!"
[22:52] Crash: yeah
[22:53] Crash: it's really weird now though
[22:53] eekatfreaksdotnet: yeah...but that will get better.
[22:54] Crash: it may take some time, but I suppose it will
[22:56] eekatfreaksdotnet: Hey, if Rengeek & Pam can still go to the
same faires, anybody can
[22:56] Crash: right?
[22:57] Crash: what ever happened there?
[22:57] Crash: I heard he screwed around on her or something
[22:57] eekatfreaksdotnet: Or maybe just wanted to?
[22:57] Crash: maybe
[22:58] eekatfreaksdotnet: I"m not sure. He was talking to me about
poly and such for a while before they broke up. I feel guilty, I know
that makes no sense, but I do
[22:58] Crash: wierd
[22:58] Crash: not your fault
[22:58] Crash: he looks like the roaming gnome
[22:59] eekatfreaksdotnet: I know in my head that it's not. But I
still feel bad, because I care about them both. Kathleen, I could
always take her or leave her, and the pothead thing was tedious
[22:59] Crash: heh
[22:59] eekatfreaksdotnet: I think Mike just settled down too early in
life.
[22:59] Crash: yeah
[22:59] Crash: he never got to sew his wild oats
[23:00] eekatfreaksdotnet: that kind of stuff will always catch up
with you.
[23:00] Crash: seems like it
[23:00] eekatfreaksdotnet: Well, love, It's my bedtime. See you
tomorrow at Plucker's?
[23:01] Crash: yes!
[23:01] Crash: goodnight sweetie
[23:01] Crash: thanks for the chat
[23:01] eekatfreaksdotnet: *hugs* anytime, doll
[23:01] Crash: *hugs*
[23:01] Crash: g-night