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[evile]

 

Jun. 10, 2003

 

 

slept most of the day Sunday. Slept from after work yesterday to
about midnight, got up & read & did dishes, back to bed around 1 am

Things may not be so good in e-land. No tellin'

189 lbs.

Not exercising enough.

back hurting again.

not dieting at all.

totally humiliating thing at Dr. Davis' office yesterday.

Sweetie not working & not looking/working on finding anything.

Nickie is old & I catch myself wishing she'd die.

Lots to be depressed about.

I dreamt about doing the mosiac birdbath in the back yard.

I dreamt about skiing with [brother A]--down a steep hill, back up again. I
turned a different way and was flying/skiing on all these tall hills,
nanny [our grandmother] was there, she skiied with me a bit. Igot to the top of the
mountain where Mom had a wooden barn type house & photos of all her
kids (me, [sister h], [brother a], [foster brother] & Sineater)and our diplomas from hs or
college, wherever we'd graduated from. I think in RL [foster brother] walked the
stage, but his frame was a GED cert. & photos of him & his friends.

It was a good dream, I think.