2353another suicide dream

[evile]

• Jul. 10, 2004

   

  I had another dream about committing suicide. my mom gave me a bottle
  of pills. About 3 different kinds, maybe 10 of each. I swallowed them
  without water.
  
  Probably because I saw the patients in Political Asylum, the play
  lastnight, doing it.
  
  And then in my dream I lay down to die. Weird to dream yourself going
  from sleep to death.
  
  another dream, or a later dream, mom was teaching at some big
  alternative school. All the students had aquariums and cages with
  animals. There was an animal that she didn't know what it was an it
  turned out to be an albino hedgehog with very soft spikes. Theones
  near its face were normal-feeling, but as you went closer to the tail
  they got softer and softer, more like regular fur. It was a very
  sweet, placid hedgie, didn't want me to put her down and put her back
  in her cage. Also something about some kind of game.
  
  Anyway...wierd dreams. Who knows what they mean.
  
  Suicide would be great, but I wouldn't do that to my family. My life
  isn't miserable enough to do that to people. yet.