2135very bad dreams

[evile]

 

Apr. 23, 2004

 

 

1) some HFS gathering, each kingdom at a different table. I was at a
table with Sharjinka, Sunshine & that cute dark haired gay boy. There
was some kind of drama

2) I was at Erin & Marca's work, had to use the restroom. All these
high tech potties that looked like pedicure chairs, but no partitions
between them. Ended up peeing in a dark blue canvas directors chair &
then pouring the pee from the chair into a potty. Feeling bad because
Erin was going to get in trouble for the chair being icky.

3) I was in a parking lot (dollar movies? sleazy motel? Monkeywrench
books? somewhere.) and goddessdaughter's brother J . got out of a car and ran and
hugged me. He was hungry and dirty but still very sweet and lovey. I
asked where his mom was and turns out she was working in the
establishment where the car was parked in the parking lot, and he was
happy because after she got off work (some late hour 10 pm or
something?) they were going to go eat! I was going to take him away
from X. Then [goddessdaughter] showed up, she'd been hiding in the car,
probably following Xs directions and NOT talking to anyone.
Something about being in a car with X and confronting her and her
telling me all these horrific things trying to make me sympathize
with her that were just making me more and more disgusted and
offended. Somehting about how she was so sad & lonely she called some
hotline where you could set up anonymous booty calls. Calling L&B on
my cell and asking them to meet me at the dollar movies, I wanted
B's professional opinion about the kids and I was going to take
[goddessdaughter] and J and raise them myself.

I was very exhausted and sad when I woke up, but I didn't realize how
much this dream hurt until I was telling Sweetie about it in the car on
the way to work and my eyes filled up with tears when I was
describing how sweet and dirty and hungry J was. :( I suspect
(HOPE!) that X's uncle D.A. has the kids now & is raising them along
with his wife Tina, with their brood of 'trolls' as X always
called them. At least they'd be getting some kind of normal family
life. :(