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Apr. 2, 2003

Date: Wed, 2 Apr 2003 21:26:54 GMT
To: e
Subject: Re:Great Escape Weekend
From: "X

Keep your damn tickets and your high morals. You don't even get
Mike's point. Ot mine for that matter. I had and have no deep dark
secret from my husband, but when I needed you to be a friend you
could not. I don't know why, I no longer care.

I respect you not wanting to get in the middle of our problems, I
never wanted you to be there, I ONLY wanted you to give me some show
of support when I expressed that I was having a tough time. I never
realized how self centered you were until Mike pointed it out to me.
I was surprised how supportive he was. I only needed a day away. Not
to screw around or be bad, I would of thought you would have cared
that I was having something serious enough going on, but instead of
inquiry you passed judgements. I told you the secret not to piss you
off, but you had expressed to me you were uncomfortable with even
KNOWING that I had a secret from Mike, so I was trying to show you
by telling it to you that it wasn't that huge a deal and you could
do with it what you want. Now I no longer care what you want.

Everytime I spend time with you I leave feeling miserable from your
pessimistic attitude and I don't need that sort of thing around my
kids, I can't believe how you endorsed revenge to children as a
healthy outlet. And your under-handed comments about my parenting and
my children's development have not gone unnoticed. And your
preoccupation with the lives of people you care about is sick. I'm
surprised E still even speaks to you after all the times you have
intentionally tried to get him to leave his marriage. You just refuse
to accept his decisions, or mine.

I am so tired of your soap box, and how and what you think should
be done for and around children because you have had some child
psychology in college. Your comments on J's "burdens" that you
observed in Vegas are unbelievable to me. But you don't spend any
time with us. You would have no way of knowing how well she does and
how much of a balance she has been able to achieve between her own
burning desire to succeed and excel and being a child and having fun.

I at this point don't ever want to see you again, and that is the
most painful thing I have ever felt in regards to you. I now know who
my real friends are. I don't know what I will tell the kids about
you, Jessica especially, but you are no longer welcome around her. I
don't like your influence. You are just not very nice.

as far as loving you, I probably always will. Too much history and
a fear of burning bridges tears at me as every instinct I have tells
me that you are toxic and I should never come near you again. But
this time E, it is you that has misinterpretted and let your opinions
blind you to friends in need. You say I should have known you well
enough, the same goes for you knowing me. Apparently you do not. And
when I tried to seek out some support from you ,you only gave me
disdain at what I was going through. Man that really sucks, you are a
cold bitch sometimes. I thought I meant something to you. Does
anyone?

Have fun with someone you like on this retreat. I think you need it
more than me, because at least tonight when I go to bed I know how
much I am loved and cared for by someone that doesn't judge me by a
request made impulsively that i feel should have garnered some
concern from you rather than your total disapproval and a chance for
you to try to act superior to me. You never will be.

-X