848 miserable

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848 miserable

 

• Sep. 1, 2002

   

  I have no life I have no friends I have no $. I wish I could
  voluntarily stop my heart.
  
  Yesterday SUCKED. I hung around all day waiting for people to show up
  to the garbing thing, and nobody did. I got a couple pairs of wrap
  pants done, but I probably won't ever wear them.
  
  I went to bed early, like 8, and slept until it hurt, like 10:30, and
  got up and drank coffee & read anne mccaffrey, because I'm out of
  library books.
  
  Called over to lynn & bobs around noon, got invited to have lunch & go
  shop. Went to lunch. Melissa is still there, vile thing that she is,
  and then we went to Tuesday a.m. I found a bottle I liked, she bought
  it for me, but didn't give it to me. I guess she'll wait until Xmas,
  but probably by that time will have forgotten about it. I'll never get
  it. Ah well, it was $6 and I didn't have the $ and I didn't want it
  anyway. fuckit. Lynn got me a little tin kitty-face box that I can
  use as a purse. It was cute. Then we got Ben a pair of boots at
  Cavenders , then back to L&B where we sat around the house for hours
  and hours. Then Bob & Ben went to play pool, and Lynn, Melissa & I
  went to Ross, where they were closing in 15 min, so I didn't get to
  look at ren-blouses or shoes or anything.
  
  And back to L&B's for more sitting around. I talked trash about UB for
  a bit, but that didn't improve my mood. I need to quit being so
  negative about everything all the time.
  
  But...anyway. I want to die. Just be dead and have this shit over
  with.
  
  I am tired of it.