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[evile]

 

• Jan. 30, 2002

   

  Well, I had $3 to my name. Sold a box of Girl Scout cookies and got
  cash instead of a lousy check made out to the Girl Scouts (which I
  have to give to X)...
  
  Anyway...I thought. Shit, 2 days til payday, I'm tapped out, what
  better time to win the lotto? So I go where the road takes me and
  find a gas station on 51st, get out of my car, and get hit up for $
  by some hard luck case, needs a gas can, needs 3 bucks, will pay me
  back, bla bla. So I gave him the $. And hated myself all the way
  home. But, in ordinary circumstances, $3 is nothing to me, whereas it
  could have warded off a bad case of DTs for him. Or Whatever.
  
  Can it be ethical to curse money I give to people, so that if they
  are swindling people, it bites them in the ass? And how wierd would
  that sound "Now, if you really need this $, take it. But if you are
  tricking me, you are cursed" Maybe I should try that sometime
  instead of being such a sucker.
  
  Why do I fall for some hard luck stories and not others? Why do I
  care that I've been tricked, it was only $3. Who cares?
  
  Nobody likes to feel foolish. Nobody likes to be taken advantage of,
  for a dollar or a thousand dollars.
  
  He tried to make me feel like I was doing him a big favor and he was
  so grateful, but he'd been pulling the swindle for so long that it no
  longer came across as sincere.
  
  So I guess I would have liked a better acting job for my 3 bucks.