222 dreams

[evile]

 

• Jan. 3, 2002

   

  I dreamt that I lived in outer space, in some kind of intellectual
  colony or something. It was like 'perfect college'--everyone took
  classes & hung out in coffee houses, and it was really neat. BUT,
  there was an asteroid that would come in every so many years and
  threaten the safety of our space colony, and someone would be drawn
  from the military (?) membership of our colony to do a kamikaze
  mission to push the asteroid away again.
  
  The person chosen for the kamikaze mission would be allowed to do
  basically anything he (?) wanted the night before the mission,have
  a 'last fling' or whatever.
  
  So, anyway, the person for the mission this time was my old jr. hi.
  boyfriend Kerry Brown, and he & I spent the nite together, and at one
  point I guess we ditched the birth control (or I was instructed to
  let him believe we had??) in the hopes that he'd leave something
  behind when he went away to die. Very wierd. Apparently there were
  strict population controls on the space colony and big penalties for
  anyone giving birth without proper permits or whatever, but I told
  him that the military would pay for the kid, if there was one.
  
  I dunno...it was wierd. at one point, he wanted to watch me with
  another guy...or something. That was...odd. Anyhoo....wonder what my
  subconscious mind is trying to resolve with all that?