217 last nites dreams

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• Dec. 31, 2001

   

  I dreamt about getting together my applications to join CMA and PACT.
  As if it was a good thing, as if it was important to me to get these
  done. Looked at PACT's web page today--they 'vote' on whether or not
  you get to be a member.
  
  And Aradia is their newsletter editor or some shit. She of Austin
  Pagan Pride Day 2001 non-organization. I really don't care to belong
  to a group in which she plays such a large role. Then again, maybe
  it's not as big as it looks? Or, dare I think it? It's a role I could
  play, given sufficient immersion in the community?
  
  Then again, I tend to join things and then have them fall apart just
  as I'm getting excited about being there (Explorer Scouts, PDAP, I
  suppose I could think of others if I got excited about remembering
  that crap).
  
  So...If I did join, I can't picture myself being some big dynamic
  pagan leader/organizer. I am just not into beating my head against
  walls that way. I like doing what I like doing and if other people
  like it, too, then okay. And I'm a good organizer. But it ain't
  gonna happen that I'm going to be any kind of leader in a community
  as fucked up and disorganized and generally disrespectful of
  authority figures as the pagans.
  
  But I guess I should do as my dream dictated & fill out the
  applications & mail them off. Money orders, not checks, for the
  membership fees

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  • eekatfreaksdotnet

    Dec. 31, 2001

     

    I dreamt about getting together my applications to join CMA and PACT.
    As if it was a good thing, as if it was important to me to get these
    done. Looked at PACT's web page today--they 'vote' on whether or not
    you get to be a member.
    
    And Aradia is their newsletter editor or some shit. She of Austin
    Pagan Pride Day 2001 non-organization. I really don't care to belong
    to a group in which she plays such a large role. Then again, maybe
    it's not as big as it looks? Or, dare I think it? It's a role I could
    play, given sufficient immersion in the community?
    
    Then again, I tend to join things and then have them fall apart just
    as I'm getting excited about being there (Explorer Scouts, PDAP, I
    suppose I could think of others if I got excited about remembering
    that crap).
    
    So...If I did join, I can't picture myself being some big dynamic
    pagan leader/organizer. I am just not into beating my head against
    walls that way. I like doing what I like doing and if other people
    like it, too, then okay. And I'm a good organizer. But it ain't
    gonna happen that I'm going to be any kind of leader in a community
    as fucked up and disorganized and generally disrespectful of
    authority figures as the pagans.
    
    But I guess I should do as my dream dictated & fill out the
    applications & mail them off. Money orders, not checks, for the
    membership fees