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yarp. brain-dump
Jul. 3rd, 2024 09:07 amhad an interesting experience yesterday. Well maybe more than one.
Commented on an anonymous forum about being willing to get rid of some nasty government people if the president used his new 'official powers' given by the crappy supreme court to give me the 'go ahead' & no legal repercussions.
Said something in RL to my aunt along those same lines. Just put me in a room with -------------- and a bone saw....I mean, yes I am fat and old and female and squeamish but these motherfuckers have been threatening my life & the lives of people i care about for a long time now there's only so much terror I can take.
Stopped at CVS on the way home for baby aspirin & potato chips. When I arrived, there was a black clad 'tactical gear' type military/police guy with the black and gray US flag insignia but no other markings on his uniform, standing in the doorway. I walked around the store and seemed to keep running into him. As I got the chips, he was in that area, sitting down in front of the photo ordering machines, seemed to be speaking with someone on the phone/earpiece, kind of laughing about whatever, but still looking at me.
I wonder if that was the government checking to see if I was actually a credible threat. ick. I hate to be that weird and paranoid but it was really weird and creepy-feeling. Anyway, I left and went home,did housework and job hunting.
Got 4 calls from different recruiters yesterday. Only one of the positions is even slightly work from home. I was told by one recruiter that companies seem to be moving away from remote work and back to fully in office roles. I"m not interested in that. Especially not the ones that are 7-4 or 8-5 and located in fucking Bee Cave. On the best traffic day, that's at least 35 minutes each way. And employers never seem to want to acknowledge or compensate people for having that part of their day rendered useless. Only 'butt in chair' time counts, when they know damn good and well you wouldn't be stuck in traffic if you didn't need to put your butt in their chair. As far as I'm concerned, that time should count and be compensated in some way.
But I am in touch with one lady who is recruiting for a hybrid position, 2-3 days per week at home and the rest in-office. Possibly as much as $23/hour. I could probably make that work.
Applied for a permanent full time position at Thax's work. Applied for a fully remote state job. I'm trying to feed the pipeline and hoping to be employed again very soon.
Aunt L. and I tried to go to the place where we are moving Mom later this month; they said they moved her to a bigger room than room they said she was going to be in, but her new room was currently occupied....they said the lady in that room is moving 'tomorrow' around 2...she was sleeping so we didn't get to see the room. New room is supposedly bigger (better?) than the room she was initially assigned to, and the bathroom is just outside that room, BUT mom's room was supposed to be available for us to start moving stuff into, or decorating, or whatever, as of June 26 or 27, and what if we had shown up with furniture yesterday? That would have been a huge hassle. And it also occurred to me to wonder if two families were being charged at the same time for that same room? I talked with my sister H, who is mom's power of attorney/medical power of attorney and she is going to bring the concerns on the ethics of that to the lady in charge.... she was hesitant but I was like "look, let's get it squared awy NOW rather than later. If they are sketchy and unethical, we don't want mom living there, and we don't want to find out after we've got mom settled, and then have to move her again,"...my sister H. does not like confrontation (though she is good at it, because she manages to stay calm and speak clearly without profanity...unlike some big sisters I could name)
Anyyhoo.......moving mom mid month it's coming up soon. I have anxiety and sadness about it. I can't wait to get my dementia advance directive signed because I NEVER want to exist like that.
All the temp jobs I'm looking at would be starting at the beginning of August.
I have to get a filling at the dentist next Tuesday, and going to file my transfer on death on Friday at the county so Thax or H can get my house after I die with less hassle, and Pepita has a vet appointment the 25th, and need to get shit notarized and signed by two witnesses (where do I find 2 people who like me enough to do that, anymore. hahaha. I have no RL friends anymore!!!! And Thax looked over everything I printed for him but seems to have no movement towards wanting to get his stuff signed and notarized, or I'd prevail on his friends to be my witnesses, too...sigh.)
anyway. trying to stay busy and stuff. Getting up with Thax every morning during the work week to walk dogs and not going back to bed after he goes to work. trying to do some housework every day, of some kind, usually dishes and/ or laundry. did 10 min on the under desk elliptical on 7/1, and 10 min on the exercise bike in the garage yesterday. Trying to be consistent with that, thanks to the blood pressure thing....no alcohol yet this month. trying to be moderate about caffeine, sugar, and white foods.... this is only day #3 so there's nothing braggable there yet, but let's keep going and see waht happens.
After I bought the baby aspirin I started reading and apparently it's no longer recommended unless a person has already had a stroke or heart attack, because aspirin can cause bleeding (stomach? internal elsewhere? dunno).... so maybe I wont' be taking a daily baby aspirin. Which they no longer call baby aspirin and no longer carry on the kids' drug aisle, btw. it's on the shelves in the grownup section. But they do still make some that dissolve and taste like chalky orange or cherry medicine. I got the 'enteric coated' instead btw. I'm a grownup, I can take a pill.
blah blah. I'm procrastinating on putting away dishes from the dishwasher.
I read an article about a couple in the Netherlands (?) who elected to have euthanasia at the same time. The husband had a chronic back condition that gave him constant pain,and the wife was newly diagnosed with dementia so they decided it was time to go. Had a final dinner with their family and went to the hospice home and got medicine to help them die. Both age 70, childhood sweethearts, married for 50 years. I love that.
Commented on an anonymous forum about being willing to get rid of some nasty government people if the president used his new 'official powers' given by the crappy supreme court to give me the 'go ahead' & no legal repercussions.
Said something in RL to my aunt along those same lines. Just put me in a room with -------------- and a bone saw....I mean, yes I am fat and old and female and squeamish but these motherfuckers have been threatening my life & the lives of people i care about for a long time now there's only so much terror I can take.
Stopped at CVS on the way home for baby aspirin & potato chips. When I arrived, there was a black clad 'tactical gear' type military/police guy with the black and gray US flag insignia but no other markings on his uniform, standing in the doorway. I walked around the store and seemed to keep running into him. As I got the chips, he was in that area, sitting down in front of the photo ordering machines, seemed to be speaking with someone on the phone/earpiece, kind of laughing about whatever, but still looking at me.
I wonder if that was the government checking to see if I was actually a credible threat. ick. I hate to be that weird and paranoid but it was really weird and creepy-feeling. Anyway, I left and went home,did housework and job hunting.
Got 4 calls from different recruiters yesterday. Only one of the positions is even slightly work from home. I was told by one recruiter that companies seem to be moving away from remote work and back to fully in office roles. I"m not interested in that. Especially not the ones that are 7-4 or 8-5 and located in fucking Bee Cave. On the best traffic day, that's at least 35 minutes each way. And employers never seem to want to acknowledge or compensate people for having that part of their day rendered useless. Only 'butt in chair' time counts, when they know damn good and well you wouldn't be stuck in traffic if you didn't need to put your butt in their chair. As far as I'm concerned, that time should count and be compensated in some way.
But I am in touch with one lady who is recruiting for a hybrid position, 2-3 days per week at home and the rest in-office. Possibly as much as $23/hour. I could probably make that work.
Applied for a permanent full time position at Thax's work. Applied for a fully remote state job. I'm trying to feed the pipeline and hoping to be employed again very soon.
Aunt L. and I tried to go to the place where we are moving Mom later this month; they said they moved her to a bigger room than room they said she was going to be in, but her new room was currently occupied....they said the lady in that room is moving 'tomorrow' around 2...she was sleeping so we didn't get to see the room. New room is supposedly bigger (better?) than the room she was initially assigned to, and the bathroom is just outside that room, BUT mom's room was supposed to be available for us to start moving stuff into, or decorating, or whatever, as of June 26 or 27, and what if we had shown up with furniture yesterday? That would have been a huge hassle. And it also occurred to me to wonder if two families were being charged at the same time for that same room? I talked with my sister H, who is mom's power of attorney/medical power of attorney and she is going to bring the concerns on the ethics of that to the lady in charge.... she was hesitant but I was like "look, let's get it squared awy NOW rather than later. If they are sketchy and unethical, we don't want mom living there, and we don't want to find out after we've got mom settled, and then have to move her again,"...my sister H. does not like confrontation (though she is good at it, because she manages to stay calm and speak clearly without profanity...unlike some big sisters I could name)
Anyyhoo.......moving mom mid month it's coming up soon. I have anxiety and sadness about it. I can't wait to get my dementia advance directive signed because I NEVER want to exist like that.
All the temp jobs I'm looking at would be starting at the beginning of August.
I have to get a filling at the dentist next Tuesday, and going to file my transfer on death on Friday at the county so Thax or H can get my house after I die with less hassle, and Pepita has a vet appointment the 25th, and need to get shit notarized and signed by two witnesses (where do I find 2 people who like me enough to do that, anymore. hahaha. I have no RL friends anymore!!!! And Thax looked over everything I printed for him but seems to have no movement towards wanting to get his stuff signed and notarized, or I'd prevail on his friends to be my witnesses, too...sigh.)
anyway. trying to stay busy and stuff. Getting up with Thax every morning during the work week to walk dogs and not going back to bed after he goes to work. trying to do some housework every day, of some kind, usually dishes and/ or laundry. did 10 min on the under desk elliptical on 7/1, and 10 min on the exercise bike in the garage yesterday. Trying to be consistent with that, thanks to the blood pressure thing....no alcohol yet this month. trying to be moderate about caffeine, sugar, and white foods.... this is only day #3 so there's nothing braggable there yet, but let's keep going and see waht happens.
After I bought the baby aspirin I started reading and apparently it's no longer recommended unless a person has already had a stroke or heart attack, because aspirin can cause bleeding (stomach? internal elsewhere? dunno).... so maybe I wont' be taking a daily baby aspirin. Which they no longer call baby aspirin and no longer carry on the kids' drug aisle, btw. it's on the shelves in the grownup section. But they do still make some that dissolve and taste like chalky orange or cherry medicine. I got the 'enteric coated' instead btw. I'm a grownup, I can take a pill.
blah blah. I'm procrastinating on putting away dishes from the dishwasher.
I read an article about a couple in the Netherlands (?) who elected to have euthanasia at the same time. The husband had a chronic back condition that gave him constant pain,and the wife was newly diagnosed with dementia so they decided it was time to go. Had a final dinner with their family and went to the hospice home and got medicine to help them die. Both age 70, childhood sweethearts, married for 50 years. I love that.
