Interesting revelation

I have a tendency to meet and hang on to people who mistreat me, ignore me, blow off commitments to me, and otherwise treat me as if what I think, say, and do is not of importance to them.

(Choosing to waste my time and energy on them is obviously my own issue, stemming largely from male parental indifference, and obviously I'm working on it.)

I just verbalized today something interesting that I think I need to remember:

me: I may not know what a shrimp fork looks like,but I think I am a decent human being and a loyal friend...
just...most people dont' seem to value that
so in my head that turns into 'I'm worthless'
rather than what it should be: 'they're assholes'

My loyalty, friendship and regard are worthwhile things. I am a worthwhile human being. If someone does not value me or my friendship, that is their sad loss.

And I need to spend more time with the people who don't treat me like crap, ignore me, or blow me off.

Go, me.