3607Re: the weekend

Oct. 3, 2005

 

 

Friday:
Dinner at L&B's, baiting uncle bubba. Kinda fun. No interaction
w/[Cousin B], seating arrangement inconducive to father-son bonding.

No nap, no bellydance & fire show downtown. grumpy.


Saturday:
Yoga
Brunch (Juan in a Million)
AIA tour - houses 1-8
Barton Sprgs - five minutes, then getting out, e saying that was fun,
and off to the rock store
Crystal Works. e taking forever to get a necklace cord tied to the
correct length. I got Indian God magnets for my cube and anointed
them with protection, new beginnings, and hope oils
10 min Nap (more like meditation) & inspiration--hey, I'll call the
hostess & see if there's anything they need that I can bring, and
I'll ask if it's OK to bring [Cousin B]. She said OK, so I called [Cousin B]. He
was spending the night at a friend's. No dice.

shower & dress

Stopped at WF, ran into Rod and Shelley, which was kind of nice. Got
a wrap and a soda which I ate and drank on the way.

party. Arrived out of sorts, hands dirty from wrap. Chance hugged me,
without me having time to fend her off, but then I rejected onyxlynxx's
hug, mostly because my hands were dirty and she was wearing white. I
was ugly and mean and hurt her feelings. I wish I could just have
said "OK, I need to put stuff down and wash my hands first, then can
I have hugs?" instead of being a bitch. I really hate myself for
being like that. And I'm ALWAYS like that.

Sunday:
Brunch at Juan in a Million, again. heavy greasy fat, lousy lousy
service, never want to go there again.
1 house on AIA tour, in Dripping Springs. It was a nice house. Very
open floorplan, would be a good party house.
Best Buy - Elena got a router but then didn't buy it when I didn't
find headphones I wanted.
Laundry
dishes
grocery
called [Cousin B], he was at a haunted house with his friends. I called his
cell, he said 'hello?" and I said "Hey" and then it hung up, so I
waited a minute to see if he'd call me back, he didn't, so I called
him and he said he was at the haunted house. I got the impression he
was annoyed that I called. I won't be calling him again. He can call
me if he gets bored or whatever.

I know he needed to make his own friends and get his own social
circle, and heck, he's probably got a GF by now...I should not let
this hurt my feelings. I still have my own life & friends. Not that
any of them do anything with me, but whatever.

3609LYRICS - Down to the Well, The Pixies

 

 

 

Oct. 3, 2005

 

 

Artist: Pixies
Album: Bossanova
Year: 1990
Title: Down To The Well


down to the well

betty always knows
betty always tells
she laughing desperately
she said it felt like a river inside her bones
when she went down to the well

gonna be with her
she is gonna take me there
lead me by my hand
her body a rocking chair for my soul

i can hardly wait, baby
i can hardly wait
'til we go down to the well
down to the well

been thinking to myself
and if a life's not long
what matter does it make
if there'll be favorite songs playing in my head
when we go down to the well

i can hardly wait, betty
i can hardly wait
'till we go down to the well
down to the well

3610LYRICS - Two Kinds of Love, Stevie Nicks

 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G3UTExOEVxc

Oct. 3, 2005

 

 

Ooh and on you run
You search for love and you hate searching
You wait for love and you hate waiting
You say I hate this
Well it's just another test
Cause there are two kinds of love
To do the thing that we do the best
My masterpiece

Who in the world do you think that you are fooling
Well I've already done everything that you are doing
Well the two of us, well we must be
A great temptation to have even started
Well don't you know, as you walk on by
That great temptations never really die

Well I talked to my famous friend last night
My third day up well, his second nighter
He says I don't know how you do what you do how do you
let the world in
Well I say well there's no way out
Then I just play out the game
Well the two of us Widow and a Dove

Who in the world do you think that you are fooling
Well I've already done everything that you are doing
Well the two of us, well we must be
A great temptation to have even started
Well don't you know, as you walk on by
That great temptations never really die

Ooh the two of us
Estranged sometimes for their very survival
Outraged at each other engaged to each other in their hearts
But they live apart

Two kinds of love
One for the way you walk
One for the way you love me
You're a great temptation

Two kinds of love
One for the way you walk
One for the way you love me
Two kinds of love great temptation