Nov. 16th, 2004

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    16 Nov. 10:50 am

     

     

    Date: Tue, 16 Nov 2004 09:38:49 -0800 (PST)
    From: J-Law


    Hey, girl!

    Sorry I couldn't write more yesterday; up to my ass in alligators. :
    ( My Howard/Cynthia scheduling conflict is still unresolved (did I
    write to you about that yesterday, or no?), but I've looked at
    Howard's motion papers and I just can't see how he could need me
    tomorrow. If he does need a paralegal, anyone would do.

    Ohwell. I told Cynthia where we are, and I think any negotiation in
    the schedule is up to her now.

    I am so glad that you found the Silver Oak. That's a very good
    bottle of wine. A nice special occassion wine. :) I can't imagine
    why the salespeople were so weird about it all, though. You're right
    to just ignore it, and be happy with your purchase. Shane and I are
    going to the release party (in January) for Silver Oak's Napa Valley
    cab (the current release is from the Alexander Valley). It's going
    to be fun. :)

    I picked up our (me and Shane's, that is) Thanksgiving wine last
    night - one of Nickel & Nickel's cabs. Here's a weird thing. At
    nearly every wine shop that has it, it is $75. For some reason, K&L
    Wine Merchants has it for $59.99. I could understand a couple bucks
    here and there, but that is a $15.00 difference! They have the best
    prices I have seen, even factoring the two shops where I get
    discounts. While I was at it, I picked up a Nickel & Nickel
    merlot. :)

    I still have to get the Turkey Day wine for the family stuff - it
    won't be Nickel & Nickel, but it will be drinkable.

    I am still stunned re: your mom's decision to come stay with/help out
    [brother A] and rubber_pig. On the one hand, her willingness to pack up and come
    down to help is admirable. But clearly, she is sacrificing way too
    much (e.g., G) for something that, sadly, is a lost cause. [brother A]
    and rubber_pig are black holes - they will suck up all of her emotional
    and mental reserves, not to mention time and money. I know your mom
    has feelings for [brother A]; but if G doesn't
    think it necessary to come down and bail him out (yet again), your
    mom's actions are definitely excessive.

    I don't think your reaction/feelings are from jealousy or
    selfishness. I think you are coming from a place of having become an
    adult and struggled through your own stuff and taking care of your
    own problems. [brother A] is nearly thirty, and has not done that, nor
    demonstrated any willingness (or even ability?) to do that. As a
    result, he has been the beneficiary of family assistance for years.
    That is an extremely frustrating situation to witness, whether the
    assistance comes from [aunt L] & [uncle B] - their generosity being taken
    advantage of, or your mom & G, who can't really afford it,
    especially if your mom isn't working and G has to pick up the tab.

    I don't think any of it is fair, especially your mom abdicating her
    responsibilities vis a vis G.

    As for the past stuff - as much as it hurt at the time, and probably
    still feels a little 'bruised,' you've probably let most of that go
    already. This stuff with [brother A] probably brought some of it back, but
    I know you can let the rest of it go. It's not right or fair, but I
    think parents tend to "be there" less for the kids they know can
    handle things - in a sense, it is a compliment to your strength. But
    it would also be nice to have them around when the bad stuff happens.

    I have every confidence in you, my dear. None of this is easy, but
    you will handle everything with your usual courage and
    determination.

    LOVE YOU!

    J-Law
    ===================
    me to J-Law:

    I called in sick today, in order to finish up laundry & sleep in.
    I've accomplished the sleeping part, now to the laundry.

    Sounds like work has been busy-crazy. My boss has been nitpicking me
    to death lately, so I thought it might be nice to have a day away
    from that, and for her to have a day where things stack up a little
    because I'm not there. A nice little attitude adjustment for all
    concerned.

    You are 100% right about the whole [brother A]/rubber_pig situation. [aunt L] feels
    like once Mom is up close and personal with rubber_pig, Mom won't last
    long. She will lose patience with her selfishness and all of [brother A]'s
    excuses for not getting a job, and bail out. My friend Kulilinei was
    telling me they don't even need a blood test anymore, they can just
    take a swab of the inside of everyone's cheek. So hopefully we can
    get that paternity test for the new baby, just in case.

    (Oh, BTW, G is [brother A]'s step-dad, but adopted him legally when [brother A]
    was about 9, so for all practical purposes, yes G is [brother A]'s dad
    and while G loves him alot, G has learned from dealing with
    sineater that you have to let your kids make their own way in life, as
    sad and scary as it gets to watch them make their own mistakes at
    times.)

    And...yeah, if [sister H] or I had been fuckups, she would have been there
    for us, too. I know that, intellectually. But emotionally it still
    ends up feeling like Mom loves [brother A] more. I know that's not the case.
    But it's hard to argue with feelings.

    I slept in today, and the phone rang about 8:30 or 9. It was the
    school nurse at {X's son J]''s school, saying J wasn't feeling
    well and needed to be picked up. That was a little heart-wrenching.
    But...even if I had gone to get him, X would have had the cops
    after me for kidnapping or some shit. Even though it's HER shoddy
    record-keeping that has left me on the school's emergency call list.
    I can't think about [X's} kids...it just breaks my heart. And,
    I've formed a link in my head between rubber_pig & X, and put up a wall
    against rubber_pig's kids, because I can see the writing on the
    wall...rubber_pig's going to kick [brother A] out of her life and the kids will
    no longer be allowed to see us.

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