2426 ICQ w/ skye

 

 

 

evile: hi :)
SkyeDS: HUGS how is u?
evile: OK. Nothing new, as far as I know.
SkyeDS: apparently G&K are headed for the ranch now
evile: That was quick.
evile: Your ranch? or Montana?
SkyeDS: mine
evile: ok
evile: did they say how things went with [brother A]?
SkyeDS: don't want to talk about it on phone t hey said
evile: *nods*
evile: are they staying the night with you & sineater? or coming back to
Austin after that?
SkyeDS: I have no clue.
SkyeDS: nobody tells me these things
evile: Ok
SkyeDS: wanna come over? :D
evile: I am just wondering if we are going to have some kind
of 'family meeting' about this , or what?
SkyeDS: if you come over that makes it a de facto family mtg no?
evile: [uncle B] & [aunt L]?
SkyeDS: sure
evile: Tonight is Air Coolers, so Tom's going to do that. So the
purple trooper is at my disposal, but it's not acting right. *shrug*
SkyeDS: I can take ya'll home with me
SkyeDS: if B&L come, they have operative vehicle no?
evile: of course :P
evile: I'm just playing it by ear. If I hear from Mom, [dad], or sineater
about some kind of plan, I'll be there. Otherwise, I"m just going to
work, go home, sleep.
evile: I'm just wiped out. didn't realize how bad I was doing until I
fuckin' cried at poly dinner last night. It was excruciating.
evile: I felt like a complete doofus. Went home early.
SkyeDS: :(
evile: Everyone was nice, but obviously I was not really up for
socializing, so I left as soon as I was cool & had made a bit of
small talk here & there first.
evile: I called L&B, no answer
SkyeDS: just don't know anymore
SkyeDS: wtf are people t hinkin
SkyeDS: are they even thinkin
evile: yup.
SkyeDS: so this whole thing ends up being a ruse so she can breed
SkyeDS: because she knows [brother A] would not breed her if he didn't t
hink he ws going to get a family of his own out of it
evile: I guess...
SkyeDS: now what?
SkyeDS: does he realize what she's done?
evile: no idea. She won't let anyone in the room without her. So
nobody's had a chance to really talk with him.
SkyeDS: but he's stated one reason is that he felt his purpose was
accomplished
SkyeDS: how would he have come to that conclusion if she hadn't
already told him, don't need you anymore
evile: ...so why won't she let him go now? Or is she waiting until
all the ICU fun & attention is over, and THEN goign to kick him out?
SkyeDS: exactly
SkyeDS: why have him counseled by her dad
SkyeDS: game plan change?
evile: Maybe to make sure the fetus is going to make it before making
Alexs departure final?
SkyeDS: all that would imply, however, that she IS pregnant or thinks
s he is
evile: She said she is 5 weeks along, 2 Sundays ago at L&Bs
evile: Actually, she didn't announce it first, Blis did. [rubber pig] went
off to gag herself in the bathroom and Blis said "Mommy has a baby
in her tummy!"
evile: Apparently they have seen it via ultrasound. So [brother A] & [rubber pig]
say.
SkyeDS: on whose dimes. they don't do that for free.
evile: [rubber pig] is still [rubber pig] Sawyer on her prescription bottle. Trey
was military and is reserves, so he has insurance through the Navy.
evile: [rubber pig] told some story about how one o fthe 'terms of the
divorce' was that she be kept on Trey's nsurance.
SkyeDS: they aren't divorced.
SkyeDS: but she may still be on the insurance
evile: [rubber pig] is scary as shit because she believes every lie that
comes out of her ownm outh.
SkyeDS: which may be one reason there ISN"T a divorce
evile: Even if she contradicts herself 5 minutes later, and believes
that lie completely, also.
SkyeDS: that's what pathological is no?
evile: yup
evile: Interesting: apparently she went home Tuesday night & didn't
come back until almost noon Wednesday (having effectively scared off
[brother A]'s family, I suppose)
SkyeDS: if he goes home with her I despair of ya'll ever seeing him
alive again
SkyeDS: and i"m not given to melodrama usually you know
evile: I agree.
evile: I just dont have any idea what to do about it. [brother A] is a grown
man. This woman is his chosen mate.
evile: He will view any attempts to separate him from her as attacks
against her and defend her accordingly. Which will bind them even
closer.
evile: But if we just leave them to it, he will eventually try again.
SkyeDS: if the attempt was in part due to "I'm breeding, don't need
you now" then why go home with her
evile: *shrug*
evile: I have no idea what any of them are/were thinking. The
situation was fucked up beyond belief from day 1 and has just gotten
wierder and creepier and sadder every goddamned day since.
SkyeDS: :(
SkyeDS: :(
evile: trying to figure out crazy people just makes me crazy, too. I
want to be there for [brother A], but I dont' have the foggiest Idea HOW to
do that.
SkyeDS: me neither
evile: If you talk sense to him, that's attacking [rubber pig]. [rubber pig] wins.
If you say "you're grown, live your life" and back off, [rubber pig] wins.
SkyeDS: zactly
evile: Even if you say "You are grown, I love you, call if you need
to talk" and back off, that's going to get twisted into abandonment &
[rubber pig] wins. he will never call.
evile: I called [aunt L] & [uncle B], they're not home.
SkyeDS: perfectly happy to host family mtg, if ya'll decide
evile: I'm just a footsoldier in this particular battle, so I'm not
making any decisions. If I don't hear from L&B, or Mom & [dad] by end
of work day, I'm going home & doing my usual thing.
SkyeDS: you need the rest
evile: I think so, anyway.
evile: I'd also like more than 5 minutes to spend with my Sweetie.
Seems like we haven't had any 'us' time in days now.
SkyeDS: :(
evile: Well, VW tonight, so I would not get to see him much tonight,
either way. But yeah...I miss him when we don't hardly see each
other. I don't see how poly people do it.
SkyeDS: according to Kaleon I didn't do it very well
evile: Well, Kaleon has his own issues. Mostly that he is mono, I
think.
SkyeDS: he can't make up his mind
evile: He'd probably be happiest in a situation where he was the
point of the V=his partners mono and he poly with as many as would
have him.
evile: I think his issue is being an only child (yes?) and not ever
learning how to share his toys.
SkyeDS: older brother manymany years older
evile: aha. same as being an only when the kids are spaced out past a
certain point.
SkyeDS: yep
evile: So he's got some only traits and more than a few 'family baby'
traits. Plus Aries. which is liek the 'family baby' of the entire
fuckin zodiac
evile: Has he quit pestering you, BTW?
SkyeDS: he is polite when he speaks to me
SkyeDS: it is an improvement
evile: good.
evile: some people just need an unpleasant kick in the butt to grow
up and become human, I guess....
evile: Just got a nice email from H. She is having a pleasant
visit with her dad, cousins, and other family & friends. I'm glad.
SkyeDS: very good :)
evile: She is so good at being appropriate. And in taking action
when/where she can and then not stressing about what she can't help.
evile: I really admire her abilities. I think sh'es going to be a
great social worker. (I would not touch that job with a 10 foot
electrical cattle prod, but more power to her. she will do well.)
evile: boy, you are going to get all kinds of family togetherness
aren't you...your parents are coming this upcoming weekend, yes?
SkyeDS: they were
SkyeDS: now it's next week
evile: oh, Ok. So you'll get some recovery time between sets of 'rents
SkyeDS: thankfully
evile: I love my family, I love my friends, I love having people in
my home..but I also love it when everyone goes away and lets me have
time to myself.
evile: I have *got* to get to Costco this weekend--need the giant
size box of Alka Seltzer Cold.
SkyeDS: is costco better than sam's?
evile: I h ave no idea price wise, but Sams=Wal Mart and I don't shop
there.
evile: From what I gather, Costco actually treats its employees with
dignity & stuff. And *I* think the prices are decent.
evile: Maybe that's what I'll do after work today. Go home, then go
to Costco if there's no crazy family crap happening.
SkyeDS: button just popped off dress, great
evile: oh, yuck.
evile: I keep a sewing kit in my desk drawer, one of my nicer
coworkers (long gone) gave it to me. Occasionally handy to have :)
evile: Do you have one?
evile: If not, my next break is at 2:30, I can walk it over if you
like.
SkyeDS: in truck, maybe, not sure, will have to go look
SkyeDS: nah, if my kiit isn't where it's supposed to be I'll
suffer :)
SkyeDS: you don't need to walk over here in 100 degree heat
evile: It is definitely icky out. But if you needed it, Id be glad to
do it.
SkyeDS: I"ll live but thanks HUGS :D
evile: You're welcome. Let me know if you change your mind. (I've
stapled clothing shut before when I had no
needle/thread/buttons/whatever)
SkyeDS: didn't think of that!
evile: It's kinda pitiful & ghetto, but it does OK in a pinch, esp,
if you can do it so it doesn't show too bad...
SkyeDS: will just stay holed up in here, I do most the day anyway LOL
evile: *nods*
SkyeDS: brb
SkyeDS: bk
evile: wb!
SkyeDS: wore the damn dress so I would look nice when I got home
SkyeDS: dammit
SkyeDS: what I get for wearing a dress to work
evile: oh well. You may get a minute to yourself to change clothes
when you get home.
evile: Have you ever had an ulcer?
SkyeDS: know I've come close several times
SkyeDS: I get them in my mouth frequently
SkyeDS: when I'm stressed I get very bad heartburn and reflux so I
think I'm workin on one
evile: OK. I was thinking the stomach/stress one. There is definitely
something going on, but no idea what it might be.
evile: My book on turning 30 (very depressing, not a recommended
read) said that once you hit 30 you have to watch your diet or you
will get reflux disease. But I think this is stress, not diet.
SkyeDS: I don't always have reflux and it has nothing to do with diet
when I do.
evile: Usually when I don't eat right, the problem isn't in the
tummy, its where things go after the tummy.
evile: ...I wonder what gives incarcerated criminals the idea they
can file for unemployment...WTF.
SkyeDS: haven't heard from sineater, wonder if the parentals are there yet
SkyeDS: omfg ROFL!!!!
evile: I haven't heard anything either. From L&B or sineater, or Mom &
[dad].
SkyeDS: Steve who is Prophet who is Malikai is throwing his gf (?) a
birthday party saturday in Austin. An 80s party.
evile: fun.
SkyeDS: no wonder I"m hungry
SkyeDS: I haven't eaten lunch
evile: haven't had lunch yet? dang!!
evile: go eat. You dont' want to be all blood-sugar freaky on top of
having bizarre relatives invading your homestead :P
SkyeDS: chocolate (sigh)
evile: better?
SkyeDS: much
evile: [dad] just called my cell. He is in Rockdale w/sineater, Mom is in
San Antonio. He is heading back to SA this evening, planning on
stopping by our house on the way.
SkyeDS: weird
evile: I told him about your offer, but due to time constraints he
wanted to do it that way instead of the other.
SkyeDS: don't know why on earth he drove all the way up here for the
day
SkyeDS: wow
evile: He wanted to see sineater. And he likes y'alls property.
evile: I think he probably also wanted to avoid confrontations at the
ICU
SkyeDS: wonder what's going on there
evile: Between Tuesday & today, The Rubber Pig had plenty of time to
work on [brother A] and get him to think that the argument with [dad] was a
bigger problem than [brother A] told [uncle B] on Tuesday.
SkyeDS: so [dad] hasn't seen him at all?
evile: Dunno. [dad] didn't want to talk about it on the phone. Was
just wanting to call & get logistics worked out for today/this
evening. Wanted to see me & sineater.
SkyeDS: I will no doubt hear all about it when I get home
evile: *nods*
evile: Poor you!
SkyeDS: poor me? hardly.
SkyeDS: I'm just a helpless bystander.
evile: well, I know for me it's hard to see people I care about
having a hard time, and nothing I can do to help.
evile: sineater seemed pretty distressed last time we talked.
SkyeDS: already resigned to that
evile: well, accepting what is does not necesarily keep it from
hurting, anyway.
SkyeDS: I don't begin to imagine that I hurt nearly as much as ya'll
do
evile: Compassion for others does not diminish the validity or
reality of your own pain.
evile: Just because you have only losst a finger and I've lost a
whole arm...does not mean you have no right to feel hurt, ya know?
SkyeDS: what I want mostly is to shoot [rubber pig] with a bazooka
SkyeDS: and since that isn't viable nor helpful
evile: *sigh* me toooooooo.
evile: Sharjinka said she could probably get me a big vat of acid. Big
enough to dissolve a body....
SkyeDS: be glad you aren't [k/mom] right now
evile: very much so.
evile: I am not sure what Mom's doing...if she decides to open a can
of whoop ass on [rubber pig], that girl will be nothing but a puddle of goo
when she's done.
SkyeDS: no doubt
evile: Wishful thinking, I'm sure Mom is keeping peace instead. Oh
well.
SkyeDS: maybe why [dad] left
SkyeDS: can't imagine he'd leave with whoopass going on
evile: *nods*
evile: Maybe [dad] didn't want to open one on his own. I know that's
why Uncle Bubba isn't coming back.
SkyeDS: time for you to go home no?
evile: yeah. try to get the house somewhat presentable before [dad]
gets there.
evile: have either not been home or not inclined to houswork for at
least a week and a half now. ugh.
evile: *hugs* Thanks for everything. Talk to ya later. Call me if you
need to vent :)
SkyeDS: HUGS
SkyeDS: sees ya tomorrows