ErikaJournal entries 2/13/2003

 1200 scopes, dream

 

Feb. 13, 2003

 

 

Taurus
Horoscope (by Astrocenter.com)
Some traumas, phobias or hangups from the past, which have been
limiting you in some way, may suddenly come to the surface today,
dear Taurus. You might get the most insight by analyzing your dreams.
The release may be so profound that you may have to spend some time
alone today, perhaps away from the house, in order to fully grasp it
all. At the end of the day you should feel elated, because you'll now
see your way towards getting past some of your obstacles.

Gemini
Horoscope (by Astrocenter.com)
Romantic novels and movies might have caused you to be feeling
especially passionate and sensual today, dear Gemini, and longing to
schedule a romantic evening alone with a love partner. Other social
obligations, however, could get in your way. These other commitments
might have been made a long time ago and may be business-related, so
it might be far later than you'd hoped before you're able to see your
friend. However, better late than never!


Sun Sign: Taurus
Rising Sign: Sagittarius

A lot of unfinished tasks may need to be done around the home today,
Erika. You might decide to ignore some of work that desperately needs
to be handled in favor of a project that you think you'll enjoy more.
Don't try to stick family members with the boring stuff! If you all
pull together and get the worst out of the way, then you can all have
fun with the more interesting tasks. Go to it!

Your Rising Sign

Your intuition is probably very acute at most times, but today it
could well seem to have abandoned you. You might not be able to pick
up anything from anybody - even loved ones. Your ESP hasn't abandoned
you, but the Mars-Saturn opposition can cause it to be inactive for a
day or two. For now, rely on the old-fashioned method of
communication - words! In a day or so you'll be back to normal.

Daily Numeroscope - February 13, 2003
Life Path Number: 6 [ Edit Your Numerological Information ]

This is sure to be a busy and productive day for you, Erika. Whether
you are on the job site or at home, the essence of the 4-Day will
encourage you to get things done. Your ability to focus and to
organize will be much stronger, Six, and you won't have any trouble
planning. Seize this opportunity to get things done. Make yourself a
list and take things one at a time. Be sure to take time to relax
when all is said and done.

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Dreamt that Tom & I were buying a house w/Bryce & Apple. I was
bitching about trying to get rid of the old house & how much work
needed to be done on it (roof, carpet, etc.) Bryce shrugged and said
I should refinance & work a home-improvement loan in, 3% of the value
of the house, or something like that. I know it was 3% anyway. 3%
interest? I dunno....anyway, it was a wierd dream. Also something
about looking at a house that was on the beach, it was kind of a dome
& kind of like a nautilus shell, with a lot of windows & a spiral of
chairs from the bar/kitchen area at the center, all the way around
the living area. All different kinds of chairs: wooden, upholstered,
wing-back, 70's plastic & metal, a couple of loveseats, etc.

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1201a profoundly creepy exchange

 

Feb. 13, 2003

 

 

I posted this to the austin poly yahoo group & ended up in a bizarre
personal exchange with someone calling himself 'Erik'. I am getting a
creep-vibe from him, big time:

From: E
Date: Wed Feb 12, 2003 3:08 pm
Subject: Cirque Du Soleil's Alegria

Hey, just a heads-up, this was a topic of conversation at dinner a
while back.

Tickets go on sale for Alegria 2/15. If you join 'cirque club' you
can get them now!

http://www.cirqueclub.com

Do we want to try & coordinate a group to go together?
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Got this in my yahoo mail, shortly thereafter:

From: AUS333@aol.com
Date: Wed, 12 Feb 2003 16:36:28 EST
Subject: Hi
To: e

I saw Cirque du Soleil Mysteres in vegas, thought it was totally awe-
inspiring,,will Algeria be coming to Austin?

Erik


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My reply:

Date: Wed, 12 Feb 2003 15:27:49 -0800 (PST) &
From: E
Subject: Re: Hi
To: AUS333@aol.com

Yes--April 25-May 11. The show is going to be at the
old Mueller airport...which is wierd. But I'm totally
going. I'd go see them if they were going to be in a
parking lot. I just don't know when or with whom yet.

I am very lucky--I've seen Mystere in Vegas more than
once. The show just gets better every time.

=E
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From: AUS333@aol.com
Date: Wed, 12 Feb 2003 20:15:57 EST &
Subject: attachmentsattachmentsRe: Hi
To: e

Erika, perhaps we should get together and go see it together, I'm
45M, 6'1", 205 Austin, read your profile,,,and I love sushi,starting
making some myself,,,had some to eat at the sushi bar at Benihani's
on saturday; the tuna was incredible. I also enjoy camping , have you
camped at BigBend, Pedernales Falls or Inks Lake? Do you have any
pics?

Erik
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Date: Thu, 13 Feb 2003 07:20:20 -0800 (PST) &
From: E
Subject: Re: Hi
To: AUS333@aol.com

I don't really 'date' as such; it makes me truly
uncomfortable. I was suggesting a group outing to see
the show.

Have we met before? Have you been to any of the Poly
dinners? Not trying to be rude, just seeing if I can
put a name with a face.

I have a yahoo photo album of this & that, no explicit
photos, if that's what you were asking--just 'stuff'.

I have been to Pedernales & Inks Lake, but never to
Big Bend. Hopefully I'll get out there this fall--most
of my weekends in spring are already spoken for and I
don't like camping in the dead of summer. I'm kind of
a wuss when it comes to heat & sun. :)

Anyway, hope to meet ya soon. I'll be at the poly
dinner next week and the week after that, more than
likely.

=E

 

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1202yesterday/vday

 

Feb. 13, 2003

 

 

after the gym, I went looking for Kaleon a little something for vday--
he is such a sweet romantic fool that being alone for vday is going
to be hard for him. I thought 'port and dark chocolate w/rasberries'.
No luck finding a small,inexpensive bottle of port. So I got him a
small bottle of dark moscato wine called "elysium" and a Lindor dark
chocolate truffle bar. Also got some godiva ice cream with chocolate
hearts in it for me & tom.

I will wrap the wine & chocolate up nondescriptly & put it on Jason's
door tomorrow a.m. :)

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1203Ohh fuuuuck

 

Feb. 13, 2003

 

 

Date: Thu, 13 Feb 2003 08:52:32 -0800 (PST) 

From: E
Subject: hey!
To: J

My cell phone was being freaky last night--it said I'd
missed a call from you, but when I checked voicemail,
it was a message from my mom. WTF!!?

Anyway...did you call me? I hope it wasn't anything
urgent. I went to the gym & ran a couple of errands
last night & then went to bed early.

I might go to PNO after the art opening tonight. Not
sure yet; we might just go to the opening, get dinner
and go on home. I still have to do laundry & get
packed for my trip this weekend.

Have a cool weekend & try to enjoy your Valentine's
day. I guess being the romantic that you are, you'd
feel bad about it even if I told you that Hallmark
made up Valentine's day in the 1950's and it's not a
'real' holiday at all... *grin* But I _did_ hear a
rumor that Cupid may come a-knockin' sometime soon...

XO!

=E

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From: J
To: E
Date: Fri, 14 Feb 2003 01:23:35 +0800 Bottom of Form 1
Subject: Re: hey!

i prolly won't be doing anything tonight, skye is coming over. She
called last night depressed and missing me. I think she was hurt that
I have moved on but I told her I still love her and want her as a
friend, just not anything more at this time. She wanted to come over
tonight so I said ok, I think she thinks that being near her will
change something... I hope for her health and happiness that when she
comes over and sees that I have moved on she can too. I understand
that she thinks it was a mistake breaking up with me now, but that
doesn't matter, it would have a month ago, but now I am happy as I am
and healthy and do not want to go back into that relationship. I hope
she can find happiness as well, it hurts to see her hurting. She
thinks I have forgotten about her and I haven't, I've just moved on
with my life. We'll see how tonight goes, I hope she doesn't get hurt.

What's this about cupid? Do you know something I don't about someone
we know or something? I didn't think I had met anyone, lol.

Kaleon
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E wrote to Jen:

I think all my hard work & getting J out of his
shell is about to go byebye down the crapper.

FUCK.

=E

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Date: Thu, 13 Feb 2003 10:05:29 -0800 (PST) Top of Form 1 &
From: Jen
Subject: Re: Ohhh....fff****
To: E

*hug*

Well. Here's the thing.... it looks/sounds he has come a long way.
This could be a test of how far he has really come. Hopefully, he
will pass. Just keep your fingers crossed.

If he flunks... all I can say is that you have done all you can do as
a third party. The rest is up to him.... as strong and supportive as
you are, you cannot replace what he is lacking within himself.

As you know, A is v.v.v.v. manipulative. She probably hopes to reel
him back in by tapping into his weaknesses. The only person who can
prevent that from happening is J. If he has really moved on, he
will be able to recognize her manipulation and resist it.

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Date: Thu, 13 Feb 2003 10:20:01 -0800 (PST) Top of Form 1 &
From: E
Subject: Re: hey!
To: Kaleon

You are a good person & a good friend. I hope A
values those qualities in you and doesn't ask for more
than you are willing to give.

She likes to push peoples' boundaries, so this is
going to be a real test for you. I hope neither one of
you gets hurt & I hope you stick to your guns--as
tempting as "make-up sex" or "grudge fucking" may be,
you're better than that! & you deserve better than
that!

I think she needs more friends, people she can trust
with her feelings; I hope y'all can reach a point of
peace & caring friendship.

I noticed on Tuesday that you were talking about her a
lot. I think her visit will be helpful for you, too.
It's totally different to be able to talk things
through and get to a point of understanding than it is
to just be suddenly shut out of someone's life.
Hopefully her visit will give you some closure & some
healing.

XO & fingers crossed for you both.

-E

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1204Re: Ohh fuuuuck

 

Feb. 13, 2003

 

 

From: J
To: E
Date: Fri, 14 Feb 2003 03:16:14 +0800 Bottom of Form 1
Subject: Re: hey!

I don't know, I'm a little hesitant but I know if nothing else she
needs to see me how i am now so she knows i've moved on. Nice dodge
about the cupid comment, look at you joking with me about things like
that ::giggles and gives you a rasberry::. I didn't call, btw, don't
know what is up with your phone, it must just miss me, lol.

J
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Date: Thu, 13 Feb 2003 12:35:36 -0800 (PST)
From: E
Subject: Re: hey!
To: J

*whistling nonchalantly* Cupid? What? I didn't say
nothin'. ;) Wait & see. Those who give good fucks are
always rewarded...

Good luck tonight. I hope y'all have a good talk &
reach an understanding. It's very brave of her to
speak with you face-to-face, and very brave of you to
allow her into your home & still be willing to be part
of her life.

But, like you say, time has passed, you've moved on,
and it's time for her to see things how they are
rather than how she'd like them to be.

XO!

=E

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