1199 more dreams, skate nite, etc

Feb. 12, 2003

 

 

dreamt that the world had ended and someone was making W. read out
loud & laughing at him mispronouncing the words.

Skate nite was ...ok. Kaleon showed up, was kinda bummed & not very
communicative. Ah well. Played Ms. Pac man with Jeff, the guy I met
last month. We chatted about work and life, he had been on a business
trip in FL, and I said something about sales, and he complimented me
on remembering so much about him from the last time we talked. He
asked where I lived, so I told him, and mentioned house shopping &
how much it sucked when we were house-hunting. He said something
like "I thought you said you were single" and I was like "Well, I am.
Technically. I'm not married."....and then he ragged on me for
being 'too friendly' for someone who was 'attached'. I apologized if
I'd created any false expectations and he said something about how
can you get expectations about a person you meet at the skating rink?

Well, what am I supposed to do when a nice-looking person walks up to
me and starts talking to me? Say "Fuck off, I've already got a man!"
and stalk away?

I continue to remain puzzled by human interactions. I can't seem to
get it right. I either give everyone the 'get the fuck away from me'
vibe or the 'let's fuck' vibe, apparently. I'd like to figure out how
to be just approachable and just nice to talk with, and not give
people ideas about sex or whatever the hell.

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