Sep. 27th, 2002

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906Life,the universe, bla bla

 
  • Sep. 27, 2002
     
    first:
    http://imagehost.auctionwatch.com/bin/imageserver.x/00000000/wethree/3
    89BB_goldblack.jpg

    save on computer at home, I am sure I can make one of these!

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    Next:
    Mongolian BBQ with Polys last nite. Gave the banner to bryce &
    angela. was seated down with the suck people--fat loudmouth know-it-
    all bitch and her fat beardy husband who thought it was funny to talk
    in that fake-asian "Oh so solly" voice at an asian restaurant, and
    their fairly well-behaved sprog. Ironic moment of the evening: daddy
    hands baby a piece of flatbread and advises her to take small bites &
    remember to chew, as he and his wife snarfed their food without doing
    much of either.

    At my right were Andre and Kili. Andre is OK. Kili is self-involved &
    boring. nattered about stuff nobody else at the table really
    understood except Andre, bla bla.

    I went over to say 'bye' to bryce & apple at the other end of the
    table & give 'em the banner, and of course Kili had to come over and
    start monopolizing. So I say bye, and this bitch who had only said
    enough to me to introduce herself, said "Bye,sweetheart," or some
    other sort of endearment in this tone that implied a closeness that
    was NOT there. Stupid bitch.

    Ah well,I guess there are some jerks among the polys. So much for my
    theory that there were only smart cool people.

    J arrived just as I was leaving (this is curly haired poly dude,
    not SIL's dildo) and I hugged him hi & bye. He is a good hugger.

    Then off to see the bellydancing. It was wayyy cool. Great fun. Lots
    of energy. Z Helene was in fine form & the other dancers were
    wonderful, too. Last night's performance was 'Iron Chef'- type
    dancing: each dancer would get a theme shouted from the audience &
    have to incorporate the theme into her dancing. We
    had 'Dawn', 'Midnight', 'Balance', an extremely erotic 'Fire', and
    the very silly, but very well done, 'Vampire Martini' where two words
    shouted from two audience members simultaneously caused hilarity
    among the drummers & Z. Andriana danced 'Vampire Martini' quite ably,
    and managed to incorporate both grace & slapstick humor into her
    performance. I think that is a mark of greatness: to be so good at
    what you do, so confident in your abilities that you can make fun of
    yourself and be willing to look foolish in front of people, who will
    be laughing with you the whole time. There is a lesson there for
    Perfectionist Me to take to heart, I think.

    It was a really good night. I sat in the front row for the 2nd half,
    and at the finale, Z tapped on me with her zils. That was kind of
    cool. I also got to play with the fringe of beads on her hips at one
    point earlier in the show, when she was dancing as "Mata Harley" (the
    audience suggestions did get silly there towards the end).

    She was shaking her butt near me,so I acted like I was going to
    spank. She said "It's OK to hit me" so I patted her butt a couple
    times, getting the bugle beads all sliding thru my fingers. It was
    way cool.

    I just love bellydance costumes. . .

907 Labyrinth quiz for diaryland

 
  • Sep. 27, 2002
     
    You are most like Sarah. You are loyal to your friends. Your
    imagination and fantasies are what makes you different. Your will to
    win sometimes can be so strong, that you come across as cruel.
    <a href="http://quizilla.com/users/Jarethsdemon/quizzes/What%
    20Labyrinth%20Charater%20are%20you%20most%20like%3F/"><img
    src="http://quizilla.com/user_images/1032563094_sarah66.jpg"
    border="0" alt=""><br> <font size="-1">What Labyrinth Charater are
    you most like?</font></a><BR> <font size="-3">brought to you by <a
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    ===========================

    I am thinking I really need to take a self defense class. I think
    part of why I am resistant to losing weight is because of stuff that
    happened to me when I was thinner. Also smaller & younger, but on
    some level I really think that part of me thinks that fat/big is
    better for defending oneself, or for just presenting a daunting
    enough appearance that most male attention will be diverted to
    easier/thinner/whatever marks.

    The things I remember most are of course when I was 9 and overslept
    so I could skip church one Sunday, and while I was out running around
    the neighborhood while my family was at church, a jogger exposed
    himself to me and held my arm and made me touch his penis until he
    ejaculated.

    Another thing I remember is Donnie, one of the neighborhood kids, who
    held me down on my couch & squeezed my breasts really hard, when I
    was 14 or so. Which was dumb, because at that time I was all into
    kissing boys and probably would have let him feel me up without any
    kind of force.

    And,to a lesser degree,there are all the dumb things I did at Tulane.
    Not necessarily against my will, but under the influence & certainly
    being coerced to go further than I was perhaps willing to go. Of
    course, I was fat then (thinner than I am now, but still not in the
    least bit conventionally attractive)

    So maybe the Tulane stuff goes against my theory. BUT, I think there
    might be something to my theory, on some level, somewhere. Maybe I
    will try a self defense class and see how it goes.

    Perhaps the realization that on some level I draw a connection
    between being thin and being vulnerable will also be helpful in my
    attempts at developing a better relationship with my body, my health,
    food, and sexuality. Hm.
     

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